kabanata 30 el filibusterismo

어느덧 결혼 30주년을 맞이한 우리 부부는 그해 서로 등 돌리게 되었다. 그날 임시로 출장이 잡혔던 남편은 집으로 돌아올 수 없었다. 난 이미 식어버린 음식을 바라보다가 마음마저 식어버리는 메시지를 받게 되었다. 그렇다, 결혼기념일에 난 남편의 호텔 체크인 내용이 담긴 메시지를 보게 되었다. [출장 나왔으면 당연히 호텔에서 묵어야 하는 거 아니야?] 남편은 무엇인가 숨김이 있었고 난 호텔 내부를 영상으로 보여달라고 했었다. 하지만 제 발이 저린 남편은 이내 답장하지 않았었다. 아이러니하게도 아들 역시 내 편이 아니었다. “엄마, 제발 좀 그만해요. 밤낮없이 일하러 다니는 아빠가 불쌍하지도 않아요?” 모든 사람의 눈에서 난 행복하고 평범한 가정주부였다. 자상한 남편을 둔 아내로서 어엿하게 자란 아들을 둔 엄마로서 난 응당 행복하여야만 했다. 하지만 그 메시지를 보게 된 순간 난 모든 것에 흥미를 잃어버리게 되었다. 남편도 아들도 내가 바보처럼 아무것도 모르는 줄 착각하고 있으니 말이다. ‘이혼하고 싶어.’ 힘들게 살아온 지난 30년의 막을 이쯤에서 내리고 싶었다. [나 원 참, 노망났어? 그딴 소리 좀 하지도 마.] 남편은 나를 붙잡기 위해서 어두운 밤을 뚫고 부랴부랴 집으로 달려왔었다. 그러던 도중에 그만 차 사고를 당하게 되고 말았다. 남편은 그로 인해 나한테 아내 자격이 없다는 둥 엄마 자격이 없다는 둥 갖은 쓴소리를 퍼부었다. 눈이 돌아간 버린 아들을 바라보면서 병상에 누워 병약한 척 하는 남편을 바라보면서 난 마음속으로 쓰고 차가운 웃음을 지었다. ‘아픈 척, 가여운 척, 억울한 척... 그깟 연기 그렇게 하고 싶어? 그럼, 어디 한번 끝까지 해봐!’

Mia Fernando, A 26 Year old Spanish Woman with Exquisite Beauty, Anywhere she Went, All eyes would turn, She was endowed with Exquisite Black Colored Eyes, Auburn Lush hair, Small and Pointed Nose, Cute Pouty Lips CARL GONZALEZ, a 30 Year Old Ruthless Business Man, He Owned an IT Company which was Responsible for Most Of The Modern Technology we have today Immediately He walks into The Company, Everywhere Goes Quiet and Chilly, Employees Shook and The Mention of Him Name, Peed their Pants at the Sound of His Voice "Why Spend Time Falling in Love when I can make Billions Of Dollars During that time?" These Were His Favorite Words He Hated The Sight of Women but only had a soft heart for..... HIMSELF, His Mom Died Immediately He was Born, His Father joined His Mom When he turned 8 and Ever since then, He had been fending for himself At Age 9, He would go about Each street giving Rich People Shines on their Shoes, He Built what he has today Carl Always thought Women were nothing but Weak, Gold digging Fellas until He Met Her Her Innocence Drew her to him, The way she would scrunch up her face when she was Disgusted, The Way her eyes brow would raise when she was Confused, The way her eyes twinkled when She smiles, He Knew He wasn't In Love with her but He Felt The Monsters within him fall at her foot He Claimed her as His the moment he heard her Voice and When He Saw her for the First Time, He Claimed her as His Bride One Day He Decided To Do Something Ruthless To Get Her, He did something Which got her Wanting to Run Away from Him, What did he do You Might ask He........

神崎颯斗と付き合い始めて二年目。私が30歳、彼は24歳になっていた。 正直、私は何度も彼に聞いていた。「ねえ、颯斗は将来、結婚って考えてるの？」と。でも彼はいつも同じ答えを繰り返した。 「俺はまだ若いから、結婚なんて考えないよ。今は仕事を頑張る時期だしさ」そう笑って、私の問いかけをさらりとかわしてきた。 だけど......そんな彼が他の女性と親しげに寄り添い、笑顔で抱き合う写真を、私は彼のSNSで見つけてしまった。胸が締め付けられた。 さらに悪いことに、彼が酔っ払ったとき、友人たちと話していたという会話の録音が送られてきた。 「おい、本当にあの年増女と結婚する気かよ！」友人にからかわれて、彼は酒瓶を片手にこう答えた。 「俺が結婚？冗談じゃねえよ。若くて可愛い子の方が絶対いいに決まってる。あいつは金持ってて、俺に尽くしてくれるから一緒にいるだけ。あんなシワだらけのババア、顔見るだけで吐き気がする」 笑い声が耳にこびりつく。 私がどれだけ彼に尽くしてきたかなんて、彼には一ミリも伝わっていなかったんだ。全てが虚しい偽りの言葉だったのかと思うと、悲しみと怒りが心を埋め尽くした。 もう、こんな関係はやめよう。私はこの恋に決着をつけ、心を断ち切った。 そして私はただ一つのことに集中することにした。そう、お金を稼ぐことだ。自分の力で手に入れたお金があれば、心の隙間なんて埋められる。

Ini bukan hanya cerita tentang Arini dan Brandon, tapi juga kedua anak-anak mereka; Elfarehza dan Alyssa. Sakinah, mawaddah dan warahmah. Ketiga hal inilah yang diinginkan oleh setiap pasangan suami istri yang telah menikah. Begitu juga dengan Arini dan Brandon. Masa lalu yang kelam membuat Brandon diliputi kekhawatiran. Dia takut kedua anak-anaknya melakukan kesalahan serupa, sehingga membuat pria itu menjadi seorang ayah yang overprotective. Seiring berjalannya waktu, El dan Al tumbuh menjadi remaja. Mereka mulai memberontak karena merasa dikekang. Puncaknya ketika El mengetahui rahasia yang disimpan oleh Brandon. Ketika itulah hubungannya dengan sang Ayah mulai memburuk. Tak hanya Brandon, Arini ternyata juga menyimpan rahasia besar. Begitu juga dengan Elfarehza dan Alyssa. Apa rahasia yang mereka simpan? Akankah sakinah, mawaddah dan warahmah masih bisa diwujudkan dalam rumah tangga mereka, setelah semua rahasia terbongkar? Mampukah Brandon mempertahankan cintanya kepada Arini, setelah tahu rahasia sang istri?

After the plane crash, my body was never recovered. My soul drifted back to the home I hadn't stepped foot in for five years. They didn't know I was dead. They were still waiting for me to come home for Christmas. When my mom got the call from the airline, she froze for a long time, completely at a loss, before breaking down in tears. I followed them as they went to the memorial crash site. That was when I noticed something strange—I could see their levels of regret hovering above their heads. My brother's regret level read: 40%. My father's showed: 60%. Even my sister-in-law had 30% over her head. But my mother's regret level? It flashed a cold, unchanging 0%.

飛行機が墜落し、遺体すら残らなかった。 5年ぶりに帰った家に足を踏み入れたのは、魂となった私だった。 家族は私がすでに亡くなっていることを知らず、正月に帰省するのを待ち続けている。 航空会社からの電話を受け取った母は、しばらく呆然として何も手につかず、やがて崩れ落ちて大声で泣き出した。 家族とともに再び事故現場を訪れたが、そこで思いがけず、みんなの頭上に浮かぶ「後悔値」を目にしてしまった。 弟の頭上には「後悔値：40%」 父の頭上には「後悔値：60%」 弟嫁の頭上にも「後悔値：30%」が表示され しかし、母の頭上には「後悔値：0」が点滅してい……

"It’s not just a deal. It’s an opportunity. I’m offering you a way out of all the bullshit—" "By tying myself to you forever?" I laughed bitterly, the absurdity of the situation hitting me. "No, thanks." Ethan’s jaw clenched, his calm demeanor faltering for the first time. "It’s not forever. It’s just... a few years. Until we both get what we need. Then we can go our separate ways. You’ll have power, money, and respect." I stared at him, incredulous. "You’re insane. You're offering me marriage just so I wouldn't expose you for being a vile and evil man" His voice dropped and his expression darkened, "How much do you want?." ------------ Madison Taylor never expected to see Ethan King again—the arrogant high school golden boy who made her life a living hell. But years later, fate throws them together when she takes a job at his billion-dollar company. Madison is no longer the shy, vulnerable girl she was in high-school, she had changed into a gorgeous confident young woman who was ready to make her mark in the world and Ethan is intrigued by this transformation. Now, Ethan is desperate to keep his past buried and offers Madison a $30 million contract to marry him and protect his spotless reputation. Madison agrees, but not for the reasons Ethan thinks. She’s ready to make him pay for every cruel word, every insult that scarred her. But as their contract marriage unfolds, so do feelings neither expected. Caught between revenge and undeniable attraction, Madison must decide: will she ruin the man who once broke her, or fall for him all over again?

During the three years after I'm diagnosed with a malignant tumor, my husband performs over 30 major surgeries on me so he can keep me around to donate my corneas to his true love. Finally, when she has the courage to face her illness under his encouragement, he follows a doctor's advise and gives up on treating me. I laugh when taking my last breath. He has no idea that the cancer has already spread to my eyes. He won't be transplanting my corneas in his true love's eyes—he'll be planting cancer in her.