All Chapters of The Alpha’s Lottery Wife: Chapter 121 - Chapter 130

ZAVIERAs I watched the door close, I could swear that my heart was beating heavily from where it stood. It was frustrating…That brief moment of silence that existed between time and the periodic breathing that came after closing my eyes.In my life, regrets were easy to come by.The manner at which it came by was in such a way that they piled up, each one upon another until it was as though nothing was left in me than this feeling as though, weakening a man’s resolve.I didn’t regret much, and up until recently I had only felt guilt and pain,each one that followed me around ever since she left.Yet right at this moment, seeing her again… I regretted letting her leave.The regrets and everything I felt was heavy on my mind and even as I tried getting rid of it, it just wouldn't leave.It was as though, I was still married to herMy heart wanted to cleft close to her, I wanted her more than I had ever wanted anything and it hurt my heart to see that I was leaving me with a frustrating

RAINI.Zavier did make my heart pump so hard that I felt like I was on a damn roller coaster and the fact about it all was that he wasn't even her, yet I could fell his heavy presence all about .It was crazy…It was crazy the way this was turning out.I tossed and turned on my bed unable to fimd sleep wondering why I was feeling this way, it was like I was coming in terms with the obvious.He wasn’t in my dreams, and he wasn’t the first person I thought about when I woke up usually, but as a thunder clasped across the sky in s distance,I could have sworn that he was right there.He did was haunting me.I tucked my hair behind my ear, noticing the warm breeze that briefly drifted into the room, a lightning flashed to my left on the wall and I quickly averted my eyes as if I didn’t see it.It was like he left in there scar.I could feel it burning into my soul, this scar that made me less than perfect, I guess.Tossing again ony bed, I urged myself to get up dipping my forehead i

ZAVIERLooking around the room I could tell something was off when River stood right there in my front unable to speak.The look she gave me was as though she was looking into the eyes of a ghost.The good thing was I was no ghost—I was standing right before my body and soul, and the bad thing…I hated being lied to.River did just that, she lied just to my face."Raini isn't here." River said without looking into my eyes.But no, there was nowhere she wouldn’t be here. There was every chance she was hiding somewhere around here."Are you certain of that? I really need to talk with her about something."I Insisted. "Can I come in and wait.""I don't know if that would be a very good idea, you are not really with my sister anymore."Looking down at River I wondered why she was donning one of Raini's favourite dresses. I could remember that particular one as I had seen the glint in her eyes the first time I gifted it to her."Are you saying this because your sister might be here?""I beg

ZAVIERWhat would be the best way to describe how I was feeling at that moment?Broken at the fact that I was beyond damage these few months that I had stayed away from her, or acting like finding her hiding did me more harm than good?Either way I felt no need to stay as I was at the verge of showing her how I had felt this whole time .Rai stared at me, I had never seen her like this— I had seen her looking at me in so many ways but never with fear or any other emotions associated with it.It wracked through me, not because of the picture of her face before me, imprinted into my soul like I would have to deal with it forever, but because it should never have been her.it should have never been this woman I loved with every bit of my soul looking at me this way.The fact that I wanted her, and still did and despite all that she didn't want anything to do with me .If it weren’t for me, she would never had thought about leaving —What the hell was the matter with me?As I stood rig

RAINI"What are we going to do about this?" River asked me.It was hard to comprehend, I couldn't quite describe the feelings I was having as it seemed provocative at my end.I could see that he hadn't taken keeping his child likely, or how else could there news be out already that I was with child.The more I thought about it, the more it gave me a sick feeling, almost as though I would throw up any moment.I did, I dashed in the bathroom and threw up over the toilet sink.Walking back outside there was a look of concern on River's face.Thinking back at it , my mind was racing wildly at the moment.There was nothing I could do as I thought about the whole situation, my mindset had been to keep the whole issue but it did look like the whole issue was quite frustrating."I thought I did enough to get over this.""Well you did but with Zavier back in town what do you expect?" River answered.All that while I thought about how complicated everything was, I was still in my first trimeste