RAINIAs the light from the sun made its way to the room and blurred through the floor-to-ceiling windows and into my eyes I shielded my eyes —yawning.I blinked at the alarm clock that read Seven a.m. and then rolled onto my back.Fear hit me in the chest for that minute as I thought about what had happened the previous day and how and for a minute I still trembled.The fear in my heart was quickly replacedwith a relief so strong I felt breathless.I had to do something about this…I sat on the side of the bed with my face toward the window, my elbows on myknees, and my gaze out lost in thought.From the mere thought of him, my heart quaked, in a way I was still finding out hard to see if he was really there or perhaps it was just reality and my dream state playing a trick on me.Every cell in my body was filled with desperation, longing, and frustration…The three battling away in my heartWhen I stood up that morning I could still feel that he was actually there, watch
ZAVIERLooking around the room I could tell something was off when River stood right there in my front unable to speak.The look she gave me was as though she was looking into the eyes of a ghost.The good thing was I was no ghost—I was standing right before my body and soul, and the bad thing…I hated being lied to.River did just that, she lied just to my face."Raini isn't here." River said without looking into my eyes.But no, there was nowhere she wouldn’t be here. There was every chance she was hiding somewhere around here."Are you certain of that? I really need to talk with her about something."I Insisted. "Can I come in and wait.""I don't know if that would be a very good idea, you are not really with my sister anymore."Looking down at River I wondered why she was donning one of Raini's favourite dresses. I could remember that particular one as I had seen the glint in her eyes the first time I gifted it to her."Are you saying this because your sister might be here?""I beg
RAINII saw him Veering to the right, at first he bypassed the kitchen—One that wasn't too far from my room and like the predator that he is, he sniffed the air.He stopped right at the doorway adjacent to where I was, as he headed to the bathroom of my large room.Opening the double doors, he stepped into the massive bathroom room, the walls and ceiling made entirely of glass. He looked in either direction in search of me.The thick, wet heat soaked through thefabric of my dress, making it melt to my body …I had been in the closet for close to twenty minutes and already I was starting to feel uncomfortable.It was all a matter of how much I could hold my breath—He was right there in the room. I could feel his presence, his cologne filled the room.In a way I felt like a coward hiding from his presence but it was the best I could do at this moment, I wasn't ready to face him.I could feel the sound of his voice, his low growl that made my heart warm till it started to beat fast.M
ZAVIERWhat would be the best way to describe how I was feeling at that moment?Broken at the fact that I was beyond damage these few months that I had stayed away from her, or acting like finding her hiding did me more harm than good?Either way I felt no need to stay as I was at the verge of showing her how I had felt this whole time .Rai stared at me, I had never seen her like this— I had seen her looking at me in so many ways but never with fear or any other emotions associated with it.It wracked through me, not because of the picture of her face before me, imprinted into my soul like I would have to deal with it forever, but because it should never have been her.it should have never been this woman I loved with every bit of my soul looking at me this way.The fact that I wanted her, and still did and despite all that she didn't want anything to do with me .If it weren’t for me, she would never had thought about leaving —What the hell was the matter with me?As I stood rig
RAINIHow do one deal with the aftermath having your heart ripped down by circumstances.I felt exactly that way, the rate of my heart beat as fast as it could, I wiped my neck and tossed the napkin at the sink .Tension coiled beneath my skin, and all that filled my mind was the question.What was this all about?The door knob turned."He is not very pleased about it." River muttered immediately she got into the room, I stood there at a spot trying to process everything that had just happened.In a way I felt bad for how I had treated him but like I had said countlessly it was for all the bestI had thought about how It would feel to see him again after so long but I had never thought it would be this way, I had never thought he would leave my heart racing.I could literally feel the pace of my heart as it was ricocheting.I swallowed hard before speaking. "Are you certain that was what he said?" I asked as though I had not heard her speaking the first time.It was hard to believe th
RAINI"What are we going to do about this?" River asked me.It was hard to comprehend, I couldn't quite describe the feelings I was having as it seemed provocative at my end.I could see that he hadn't taken keeping his child likely, or how else could there news be out already that I was with child.The more I thought about it, the more it gave me a sick feeling, almost as though I would throw up any moment.I did, I dashed in the bathroom and threw up over the toilet sink.Walking back outside there was a look of concern on River's face.Thinking back at it , my mind was racing wildly at the moment.There was nothing I could do as I thought about the whole situation, my mindset had been to keep the whole issue but it did look like the whole issue was quite frustrating."I thought I did enough to get over this.""Well you did but with Zavier back in town what do you expect?" River answered.All that while I thought about how complicated everything was, I was still in my first trimeste
ZAVIER.It all happened so fast, slowly I could see her falling…I tried to muster all the speed I could as soon as I was reaching her side.The expression on River's face was priceless; it was as though she wasn't expecting everything that was happening.Raini laid there in my arm, I laid my ears against her chest hoping to myself that I could hear her heartbeat."Quick get the door."I lifted her clearly off the ground as we went to the door.My heart was pounding deep within my chest.Soon we reached the car and her sister entered with her in the passenger seat.While I sat close to my chauffeur, our car sped through out of the apartment.I could see that River was panicking through the rearview mirror and on my part I was both worried for mother and child. The whole situation was worrisome but I tried to keep myself in check.All that was in my mind was the thought of how I was going to deal with the entire situation, that looked to be concerning —Throughout our long ride, or the
RAINIAll my mind was settled on was what the doctor was going to say, immediately we walked in, he walked out of the room to answer a call so we had to wait till he came back in.When the door behind us opened, I was startled about what to do as I thought about the situation we could be in at the moment and what it was all about.Could something be possibly wrong? I pondered to myself if the baby was fine as that was the only thing that I could think about at the moment, when the door sounded I jerked my head to look behind.Zavier had been sitting by me for the past minute and I had not been able to look into his eyes now that I looked at him, it was hard to read the emotions he had all over his face.The doctor closed the door, straightened, and pinned us with that look as he walked in.He cracked his fingers, he mouthed “let us do this." as he slowly approached us, probably trying to keep himself cool headed while taking his seat.I tried to hold back the feeling I was having a