ZAVIERWhat would be the best way to describe how I was feeling at that moment?Broken at the fact that I was beyond damage these few months that I had stayed away from her, or acting like finding her hiding did me more harm than good?Either way I felt no need to stay as I was at the verge of showing her how I had felt this whole time .Rai stared at me, I had never seen her like this— I had seen her looking at me in so many ways but never with fear or any other emotions associated with it.It wracked through me, not because of the picture of her face before me, imprinted into my soul like I would have to deal with it forever, but because it should never have been her.it should have never been this woman I loved with every bit of my soul looking at me this way.The fact that I wanted her, and still did and despite all that she didn't want anything to do with me .If it weren’t for me, she would never had thought about leaving —What the hell was the matter with me?As I stood rig
RAINIHow do one deal with the aftermath having your heart ripped down by circumstances.I felt exactly that way, the rate of my heart beat as fast as it could, I wiped my neck and tossed the napkin at the sink .Tension coiled beneath my skin, and all that filled my mind was the question.What was this all about?The door knob turned."He is not very pleased about it." River muttered immediately she got into the room, I stood there at a spot trying to process everything that had just happened.In a way I felt bad for how I had treated him but like I had said countlessly it was for all the bestI had thought about how It would feel to see him again after so long but I had never thought it would be this way, I had never thought he would leave my heart racing.I could literally feel the pace of my heart as it was ricocheting.I swallowed hard before speaking. "Are you certain that was what he said?" I asked as though I had not heard her speaking the first time.It was hard to believe th
RAINI"What are we going to do about this?" River asked me.It was hard to comprehend, I couldn't quite describe the feelings I was having as it seemed provocative at my end.I could see that he hadn't taken keeping his child likely, or how else could there news be out already that I was with child.The more I thought about it, the more it gave me a sick feeling, almost as though I would throw up any moment.I did, I dashed in the bathroom and threw up over the toilet sink.Walking back outside there was a look of concern on River's face.Thinking back at it , my mind was racing wildly at the moment.There was nothing I could do as I thought about the whole situation, my mindset had been to keep the whole issue but it did look like the whole issue was quite frustrating."I thought I did enough to get over this.""Well you did but with Zavier back in town what do you expect?" River answered.All that while I thought about how complicated everything was, I was still in my first trimeste
ZAVIER.It all happened so fast, slowly I could see her falling…I tried to muster all the speed I could as soon as I was reaching her side.The expression on River's face was priceless; it was as though she wasn't expecting everything that was happening.Raini laid there in my arm, I laid my ears against her chest hoping to myself that I could hear her heartbeat."Quick get the door."I lifted her clearly off the ground as we went to the door.My heart was pounding deep within my chest.Soon we reached the car and her sister entered with her in the passenger seat.While I sat close to my chauffeur, our car sped through out of the apartment.I could see that River was panicking through the rearview mirror and on my part I was both worried for mother and child. The whole situation was worrisome but I tried to keep myself in check.All that was in my mind was the thought of how I was going to deal with the entire situation, that looked to be concerning —Throughout our long ride, or the
RAINIAll my mind was settled on was what the doctor was going to say, immediately we walked in, he walked out of the room to answer a call so we had to wait till he came back in.When the door behind us opened, I was startled about what to do as I thought about the situation we could be in at the moment and what it was all about.Could something be possibly wrong? I pondered to myself if the baby was fine as that was the only thing that I could think about at the moment, when the door sounded I jerked my head to look behind.Zavier had been sitting by me for the past minute and I had not been able to look into his eyes now that I looked at him, it was hard to read the emotions he had all over his face.The doctor closed the door, straightened, and pinned us with that look as he walked in.He cracked his fingers, he mouthed “let us do this." as he slowly approached us, probably trying to keep himself cool headed while taking his seat.I tried to hold back the feeling I was having a
RAINI“Is there anything you can do to help me make sure they will be safe?” I asked in a shaky voice.My babies, how could they be in danger when they aren’t even in the world yet?“There is nothing. After using the drugs I think it should all go well but I can’t say.” The doctor said picking up her documents and ready to leave the ward.My heart shattered, I didn't know how I was supposed to react to something like this and why things have to get this complicated for me.I was managing to do everything and being my best for my unborn children but everything seemed to be fine till Zavier came back into our lives.“Are you sure there’s no expensive treatment we can use to make sure they would be safe? You can’t just put us on hold.” Zavier finally said walking ahead to the doctor:I didn’t know how I was supposed to feel about all of this but I knew for certain that any money from now I was going to flare out.“No, at this point after getting the drugs, there is nothing that we can do
RAINI-Everything was building up inside of me and I didn’t know the best way to make myself feel better than to cry.I felt so disappointed in myself for not being as strong as I thought I should be but there was nothing I could do.I wanted the best for my children and the fear that something might happen to them made me lose faith IN myself.I started sobbing, sitting up on the bed because the tears were not just coming, I felt Indulged and very weak to have to break down because of something like this.This wasn’t minor, this was my unborn kids and I was already failing as a mother and even before they were born.Just then I heard a knock on the door interrupting me and I immediately wiped off my tears.I wondered if my tears woke up someone but I didn’t think I was sobbing that loud.“It’s me bianca, I know you’re awake, Raini opens the door.” She said gently from the other side of the door.I stood up and walked over to the door and opened the door for her and she walked in.“Co
RAINIBianca wasn't the first to warn me about the woman and now that it made two people tell me, it felt like the universe was screaming out something and I would be a fool not to listen.Trinity made her way back. There was an exchange between the two women as it looked as though she had heard something that was being saidIt looked not too certain that she must have heard her as if in a kind of distance."I have to leave, there is something I have to do."I merely nodded my head as I thought it was better she did before any altercations started up.I never expected that they would get along, Trinity never got along with anyone except me and I guessed it had something to do with me seeing the best in people.I walked with her to the door and after closing it behind her, I turned and smirked at Bianca."What?" She shrugged. "I am just telling you the truth. " You should really look into that girl."I sighed and fell back in my seat. I’d been excited about having her over but it look