All Chapters of Loved by the Mafia King: Chapter 71 - Chapter 80

I don't know why, but I ignored Raven's phone call. I don't think that my heart is ready to speak to her again yet. I somehow cannot help but wonder what it is that she wanted. Well, I can only think of one thing, things with her and Jax fell through, and she wants me to let her back into my life.That is simply not going to happen.I can say that I have slowly started to move on with my life. Yes, Maddison has been a welcomed distraction, and yes, after all these years, I still have those feelings for her that I once had. She was a part of my life when everything was dark, and I felt lost.We were together for a good couple of years, and that is when I met Raven. She saw that my focus was not on us anymore, and we both decided to end it.Yes, perhaps she is saving me from myself and from a broken heart, and there is the possibility that she is a rebound. But there are things that a man can simply not do alone. Now, all we have done was kissed that one ti

The thought has not left my mind since yesterday that I spoke to Raven.Am I in love with Maddison?It is early morning, and we both are sitting in my office with a cup of warm coffee. As I look over at her, I can see the beauty that her face holds. She might not be Raven, but she is a woman of her own. I loved her deeply once. Do I still love her?Then she catches me staring at her for what seems for a moment too long."What is on your mind, Hunter?""Do you really want to know?""Is it Raven? Did you guys fight again?""No, I am not thinking about Raven; I am thinking about you."I pull her closer to my body that is now trembling, and softly whisper in her ear, "I think I love you.""Hunter.""Ssshhh Maddison. Let me just talk for one minute. I know if loved you once, and I think I never stopped loving. Spending this time with you made me realize that you were always the one. You always choose me, and I was alwa

…Raven POV…The ride back home is quiet; I don't feel like talking, my heart is breaking again. I love Hunter so much; I want to be with him, I want to go back home with him. I don't know if it is me or him or the both of us. Why is it not working? All I want now is time for myself; I came here for a reason, everything is just falling apart. I don't want to run away again; I have to make this work.We are back at Jax's house, sitting in the kitchen having wine; I can still not read his face. Something has changed in him; I hope it is not because of me; I hope I have not broken him. First Hunter and now him."Do you want me to run you a bath?""Please, I need to get that icky smell of Maddison off me."I hear the water running in the bathroom; I make my way up and find Jax standing there. He does not say a word. He keeps his eyes on me as I slip the straps of my dress over my shoulders. He steps forward and slides my dress down my body

It's is eleven in the morning, three bottles down, and I am still going. I am well on my way down a road of self-destruction, self-pity, a lot of feeling sorry for myself, playing the victim. One word sums me up perfectly, both physically and mentally, fucked.And do I learn my lesson?No!"Hey, gorgeous.""Jax! Are you having a drink with me?""Yes."I watch him and I can see the hurt still in his eyes."Jax.""Yes?""I am sorry I threw you out. I was just pissed off at the both of you.""Forget about it, just as long as you are okay.""Not really, but the wine is working. Best you catch up; it's no fun being drunk by yourself."I hand Jax the bottle of wine, and he pours a glass for himself, then he turns to me, "Raven.""Yes?""Hunter was wrong when he said I have no feelings for you.""I know."Without hesitation, his hands come up to frame my face, by my jaw, tilting

…Raven POV…For the next hour, I fight this internal battle with myself, trying to come to terms with what it is that I want. By the time we reach Jax’s house, I have come to my decision."I will give you time to say bye to Jax; a hug is fine, but kissing and touching, then I kill him. I am sorry if you think that I am telling you what to do and that I am too hard on you; you have a lot of fixing to do, that is, if you want to stay with me." "I want to stay with you.""Let's go get your stuffWhen we pull into the driveway, we are faced with Jax standing outside by his car. At first, he smiles when he sees me; as soon as he sees Hunter, his smile fades."I will go inside and fetch your things. I don't want any fucking funny stuff.""Okay."When I get up out of the car, Jax walks up to me; he briefly faces Hunter, "Morning, Hunter.""Yes, Jax. I will break your fucking hands if you don't keep the