All Chapters of Can't See But Feel: Chapter 51 - Chapter 60

That was the best head I had gotten in my life. Well, the only one but who was counting. He pulled back wiping his lips. I was panting heavily. Chasing the high and then coming down from a high was my new favorite game. He crawled up to me. “I love you.” He whispered and pulled me in a kiss. “I love you.” I whispered pulling back and we both just stayed like that for a while. His forehead was against mine. “How about we actually do what we came here to do?” He suggested and I chuckled. “But what about you?” I asked pulling back. He tucked me back in my boxers. “I’m fine” he winked and rose to his feet. I hated when he acted all mature around me and made me feel like a horny teenager but then my eyes landed on the tent in his shorts and I realized he just acted like he didn’t need it because his body was saying different. He extended his hand for me and I took it and rose to my feet. “Wanna do something about it?” I pointed to it.

“Well, for those who are pussies.” He responded making me angry over the excessive use of that word in a demeaning manner. I looked at everyone and no one had a problem with it. Well, I had a problem because my brought up was done by two very strong women in my life because my dick of a father wasn’t strong enough to handle us. "I’ll swear if you stop saying pussies every other second. I respect women and so should you because you wouldn’t be here if you didn’t come out of a pussy!” I snapped at him which made every head turn to me. Jasper looked angry at first but then Haley placed a hand on his knees to cool him down and gave her a look that meant they’d take their revenge. “Whose life you’re swearing on? I bet you don’t even have a person except your mama!” Haley mocked me. Though Mateo tried to stop me but I was too much caught up in proving her wrong that I said “My boyfriend.” And that too very proudly. "He doesn't even have one. Desperate liar!

First day of school after the winter vacations and everybody was staring at me like I had three heads. I really wanted to flip everyone off, the thing I gave Mateo the credit for, but I didn't do it considering that I was in school. Speaking of Mateo, I didn't talk to him yesterday and I really didn't want to because I knew it would hurt Ryan one way or another though he was trying so hard to show that he was no longer affected by it. I was walking down to my first class, Sociology. Though I could see now but I still was very new to this whole sensation of seeing where I was going. My legs were doing the most of the work as they coordinated with my brain because only they knew the directions. I was keeping eyes on the walls and the faces of the people who kept staring me like I was some abomination and I looked at them as if I had seen aliens. I’m sure humans would look at aliens the way I looked at them. In all this, I forgot to look straight forward

“What did she say now?” “That you told her to stop caring about you. That’s why she left without meeting you. She is hurt by your words.” I exhaled, thanking the lord that she didn’t tell mum about Ryan but again she made me the bad guy in front of her. I know I shouldn’t have said that but she said some pretty disturbing things too. She assumed I was the one who was the reason of Ryan and Ivy’s divorce. “She hurt me with the words too. We’re equal now. She should drop this attitude now.” I rolled my eyes. “Plus, she left without saying goodbye to me. Do you think it didn’t hurt me?” Just then, a car pulled over in the driveway and I knew Mateo was there. He was right on time because I didn’t want any more discussion about Eva with mum. I shuffled to my feet and turned my head to look at her. “Is it okay if I spend the evening out? I’ll be back before bed time.” I asked, hoping she wouldn’t refuse. “With Mateo?” She arched her eyebrow.

“Can you take us inside?” I asked him. “Sure.” He started the engine again. I gestured the guard at the front gate to open the gates and he did before the cab sped through the paved path between the split garden of Ryan’s mansion and then stopped right at the front door of the big house. I paid the cab driver a good amount of cash for putting up with me before I pulled Ryan out of the taxi and dragged him to the door. Opening the door with him sucking the back of my neck was another challenge. As soon as we were inside, he pressed me against the door and smashed his lips on mine. I had to press my palms against the door to hold myself up and it took a few seconds for me to understand what had happened. His movements were so rushed and lust filled. His hands were trying to grab every bit of my body while his tongue was trying to push inside my mouth. “Ryan…” I tried to push him away, speaking through my urgent breaths. But he moved to my jaw wh