All Chapters of Can't See But Feel: Chapter 31 - Chapter 40

I rolled over in the bed. I found it empty and cold when I tried to cuddle Ryan. I knitted my brows and opened my eyes, light did its thing and burned them. I sat up and stretched my arms and yawned. "Ryan..." I called him but no response. Then I heard a faint melody of the piano. I frowned and got out of bed. I made my way out of the bedroom and followed the sound. As I was getting closer the sound of the piano was joined by vocals and I got close enough so that I could hear it properly. The soft melody of the piano filled my heart with emotions and Ryan's angelic and soft voice was soothing my soul. I just stood there leaning against the wall and listened to him pouring his heart out. He was doing ad-libs and he was so damn pro at that. Seconds later he started singing and I got goosebumps. “Aren't you somethin' to admire … Cause your shine is somethin' like a mirror” He was singing mirrors by Justin Timberlake with so many

"Whoa! Man, Mr Brown is wild!" those were first words of Mateo when he met me in the cafeteria. "What?" I frowned. "Those hickeys I'm talking about." he said sitting beside me. I blushed but covered it with a frown. "Mateo, can you please try and keep your nose out of my business." I spoke sweetly though I wanted to just strangle him to death for making me embarrassed. I had no idea there were hickeys over my skin until Keith decided to lend that information to me. My day was going bad. First, we forgot to take my clothes to Ryan's penthouse so we had to drive back to his mansion which ended up us being late. Then in sociology I was paired with Haley for our project and I just wanted to cut Mr. Bright's balls but I decided against it, then I had a little argument with Keith in the bathroom because he had seen my hickeys, just because I'm a forgetful person, I forgot to cover them and Ryan didn't even remind me to, which I was going to talk about to hi

It had been two weeks and I still hadn't made a decision about it. Everyone tried to talk me into it but I couldn't wrap my head around it. I felt like there was more to it like Dr Brian was trying to hide something but then everyone was happy I just didn't know what to do. Of course when mum asked Nick and Eva they instantly said jumped on to convince me to grab the offer. Eva even tried to talk me into it by bribing me but I just shoved her away. I talked to Jessica and Mateo about it and they both told me that I shouldn't let this opportunity go. The only person I hadn't talked to was Ryan. Though I spent two weekends at his mansion I still hadn't said a word about this and I had no idea why. It's not like I didn't want to talk to Ryan but throughout the whole weekend, Ryan was acting differently. He was so distant. He didn't kiss me night or morning. He didn't kiss me like he used to do every other second. It felt like I was forcing myself on him. That was the re

I sat on the concrete bench in the park and let the tears flow through my eyes. All I could think about was 'He was lying to me all this time.' I asked him about his past, his relationships he purposely skipped that he was married and had a kid. My phone vibrated in my pocket. I knew who was calling so I ignored it. I laid my head back on the back of the bench and closed my eyes. All I could see was dark as usual. It felt like now all the darkness in my eyes had engulfed my whole being in it and the last hope of being happy in life was snitched away from me. "Hello!" I heard a voice. It was pitch dark and I was alone like always. "Hello!" I repeated my words louder. I didn't know where I was. I was lost. "Hey" I heard Ryan's voice and saw a flicker of light. My hope. "Ryan... you're here?" I asked turning my head to the light. "Yes I am" he replied in his usual calm and soothing voice.

"Noah get down honey. It's time to leave" Mum called me from downstairs. Today, I was going to have surgery. I sighed and trod down the stairs to the living room. Mum and Nick were waiting for me there. Eva couldn't visit but she said she'd come down for Christmas which was more than fine with me. I missed her. Mateo and Jessica would meet me after school. The only person missing was Ryan. That day when I misbehaved in the class, Ryan and I never spoke again. He never called me to his office and I never tried to reach out to him. Even mum got suspicious when I told her the other day about my broken phone. I don't know how but she somehow related it to having issues with my boyfriend. Eva even told me to ask him to visit me at the hospital but I obviously said he would be busy. Though my surgery would be long enough and by the time I'd be out of the operation room, it'd be evening and the school would be closed. "You ready, sweetheart?" Mother took my face in