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2024-10-29 19:42:56I sat on the concrete bench in the park and let the tears flow through my eyes. All I could think about was 'He was lying to me all this time.' I asked him about his past, his relationships he purposely skipped that he was married and had a kid.
My phone vibrated in my pocket. I knew who was calling so I ignored it. I laid my head back on the back of the bench and closed my eyes. All I could see was dark as usual. It felt like now all the darkness in my eyes had engulfed my whole being in it and the last hope of being happy in life was snitched away from me.
"Hello!" I heard a voice. It was pitch dark and I was alone like always.
"Hello!" I repeated my words louder. I didn't know where I was. I was lost.
"Hey" I heard Ryan's voice and saw a flicker of light. My hope.
"Ryan... you're here?" I asked turning my head to the light.
"Yes I am" he replied in his usual calm and soothing voice.
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