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2021-08-30 19:34:06I stepped in and followed my instincts that led me to the living room. I didn’t know where to go but I had been here so many times that my feet did know.
“Ryan…” I called him. I didn’t want to go to his bedroom. I felt like it would be too personal, considering that we were not on those terms at the moment. I walked further to the kitchen and just the kitchen of this mansion was bigger than my entire house.
“Noah…” I heard his voice behind me and I froze in my position.
If I turn around, I'm going to see him, for the first time ever. Am I ready to see him in this situation when I'm supposed to hate him? My mind was a mess of thoughts.
“C’mon, I think we should sit down.” He spoke again and I shut my eyes tight. I was mustering up the courage to turn around and look at him.
“Noah…” He called again and now his hand was on my shoulder. His touch ignited me. The spark, the burn that I was craving for, returned. I felt alive the moment his
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He was glowing in the warm yellow light of fire. Though this whole mansion was advance in technology and had everything available on one click, I was glad he had a fire place. The shadow of his eyelashes on his cheeks was making my stomach churn and the way his chiseled jaw was looking under the only light that was coming from the fireplace made me look at him in awe. His jaw looked sharper and his eyelashes looked longer. I tried but couldn't look away from him. “I told you about my high school sweetheart, didn’t I?” He spoke after a while. I shook my head to focus on his words, not on his face. “Just that she left you after an argument.” I said honestly. “Ivy Martin, I met her in school. She was my junior. We started dating when I was in the senior year of my high school, before that we were just friends with benefits. When I went to college, being intelligent I chose both business and English major but because of that I couldn’t give our relationship the t
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“Kiss me please.” I blurted out. He chuckled, put his hand on my waist and pulled me closer. I blushed and look down at our feet biting my lip.“Look up.” He said lifting my chin and my gaze met his.“I love the color of your eyes.” I whispered leaning closer.“I was about to say that” he whispered and our lips brushed sending tingles through my body. He leaned in further and attached his lips to mine. I was staring at him as he closed his eyes and started moving his lips. I had never seen it, the way his eyes were closed and he was devouring me, his lips were moving along mine in synchronization, the way our lips fitted like they were made for each other, the way my hands knew where to go and traveled into his hairs as his slid down my back to waist and rested on my lower back, I knew by then we were meant to be.I closed my eyes and let him do whatever he wanted and just moved my lips along with his. His t
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I felt small butterfly kisses on my collarbone and a smiled crept on my face. I stirred in the silk sheets. “Rise and Shine, Sleepyhead.” I heard Ryan’s voice before I felt his lips on my forehead. I slowly opened my eyes and it was too bright that I instantly shut them tightly. “RYAN, CURTAINS!” I yelled, pulling the duvet over my face. “Oh sorry!” He rolled off me hurriedly and pulled on the curtains to block the light. I pushed the duvet down and opened my eyes again. Ryan climbed back on bed. “So, what are we going to do today?” I asked when he rolled on top of me balancing himself on his hands on each side of my head. “Let’s be lazy today.” He said nuzzling his face in my neck and keeping it there. “How about you teach me alphabets and counting, is that lazy?” I asked turning my head and kissing his hair. “Yeah I guess so.” He chuckled and pulled back. I suddenly felt the urge to empty my bladder. I pushed him off me.
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“What happened?” Ryan asked glancing at me as I buckled my seat belt. “Nothing.” I mumbled and waited for him to drive us back to his place. When he didn’t I turned to him. “What?!” I asked, rudely, raising my eyebrow. “What happened?” He repeated. “I said nothing!” I spat and crossed my arms. “Noah I-” I cut him off. “Ryan please not now.” I pleaded. He sighed and started the engine. Just when we arrived at the mansion, I opened the door and stormed inside, Ryan followed me. “Noah, please tell me what happened?” He asked following me to the living room. “What idiot roll down the window outside their boyfriend’s house if they are trying to hide their relationship?” I seethed through my teeth. I knew I was being rude and it wasn't Ryan's fault but I needed to take out my anger out on something and Ryan wasn't helping. “I… uh… what?” He asked as I sat on the couch and took my glasses off. He looked so conf
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The night passed and we both didn’t try to talk much and just enjoyed the tingling feelings in our body as we laid down on the bed, pressed to each other, listening to our steady and calm breaths and the rhythm of our heartbeats. We knew if we talk we would ruin it so we decided not to. With my back pressed to his front and his arms enveloping me, with his face buried in the back of my neck, I thought about how I almost risked these moments with him because of my outrage earlier. I didn’t know what happened to me earlier but the thought of spending a life where Ryan wouldn’t be available shook me to the core. “Ryan… tell me about colors. I do recognize two or three and I want to know more about them. They fascinate me.” I turned around to beam at him. We were currently sitting on the carpet in the living room. Ryan was sitting behind me and I was between his legs, my back was pressed to his chest. “What colors you do recognize and how?” He questioned, his hand that t
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That was the best head I had gotten in my life. Well, the only one but who was counting. He pulled back wiping his lips. I was panting heavily. Chasing the high and then coming down from a high was my new favorite game. He crawled up to me. “I love you.” He whispered and pulled me in a kiss. “I love you.” I whispered pulling back and we both just stayed like that for a while. His forehead was against mine. “How about we actually do what we came here to do?” He suggested and I chuckled. “But what about you?” I asked pulling back. He tucked me back in my boxers. “I’m fine” he winked and rose to his feet. I hated when he acted all mature around me and made me feel like a horny teenager but then my eyes landed on the tent in his shorts and I realized he just acted like he didn’t need it because his body was saying different. He extended his hand for me and I took it and rose to my feet. “Wanna do something about it?” I pointed to it.
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