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2021-09-07 01:19:26The night passed and we both didn’t try to talk much and just enjoyed the tingling feelings in our body as we laid down on the bed, pressed to each other, listening to our steady and calm breaths and the rhythm of our heartbeats. We knew if we talk we would ruin it so we decided not to. With my back pressed to his front and his arms enveloping me, with his face buried in the back of my neck, I thought about how I almost risked these moments with him because of my outrage earlier. I didn’t know what happened to me earlier but the thought of spending a life where Ryan wouldn’t be available shook me to the core.
“Ryan… tell me about colors. I do recognize two or three and I want to know more about them. They fascinate me.” I turned around to beam at him. We were currently sitting on the carpet in the living room. Ryan was sitting behind me and I was between his legs, my back was pressed to his chest.
“What colors you do recognize and how?” He questioned, his hand that t
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That was the best head I had gotten in my life. Well, the only one but who was counting. He pulled back wiping his lips. I was panting heavily. Chasing the high and then coming down from a high was my new favorite game. He crawled up to me. “I love you.” He whispered and pulled me in a kiss. “I love you.” I whispered pulling back and we both just stayed like that for a while. His forehead was against mine. “How about we actually do what we came here to do?” He suggested and I chuckled. “But what about you?” I asked pulling back. He tucked me back in my boxers. “I’m fine” he winked and rose to his feet. I hated when he acted all mature around me and made me feel like a horny teenager but then my eyes landed on the tent in his shorts and I realized he just acted like he didn’t need it because his body was saying different. He extended his hand for me and I took it and rose to my feet. “Wanna do something about it?” I pointed to it.
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"So, how do I look?" I asked Ryan after getting dressed. He eyed me up and down and smiled. "Why don't you see for yourself?" He replied and got up from the bed. I frowned. He approached me and led me to the mirror. "No... Umm... Ryan... I don't... I don't know if it's a good idea." I said trying not to look in the mirror. "It's fine." He cupped my face and pecked my lips. "Noah Carter, keep it in mind that you’re the most beautiful person I have ever seen and I'm not just talking about the physical features. I don't want you to give a tiniest bit space to these kind of insecurities in your heart." He spoke sternly yet so softly staring into my eyes that it was hard to protest. I nodded. "Now look at yourself and tell me how you look tonight." He turned me around. I stared at my shoes in the full body sized mirror. I was wearing vans, I started lifting my eyes, black tight jeans that were actually showing my curves and doing justice with my ar
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“Well, for those who are pussies.” He responded making me angry over the excessive use of that word in a demeaning manner. I looked at everyone and no one had a problem with it. Well, I had a problem because my brought up was done by two very strong women in my life because my dick of a father wasn’t strong enough to handle us. "I’ll swear if you stop saying pussies every other second. I respect women and so should you because you wouldn’t be here if you didn’t come out of a pussy!” I snapped at him which made every head turn to me. Jasper looked angry at first but then Haley placed a hand on his knees to cool him down and gave her a look that meant they’d take their revenge. “Whose life you’re swearing on? I bet you don’t even have a person except your mama!” Haley mocked me. Though Mateo tried to stop me but I was too much caught up in proving her wrong that I said “My boyfriend.” And that too very proudly. "He doesn't even have one. Desperate liar!
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I felt gentle and soft fingers caressing my cheek when I started to wake up. I gradually opened my eyes and saw Ryan hovering above me and his one arm balancing him above me while his other was extended and his hand was caressing my cheek. "Good morning, baby." He whispered and kissed my forehead. He lingered his lips there and I closed my eyes to revel in the moment of intimacy. "Good morning." I murmured. He pulled back enough to look at me. "I'm sorry for acting out last night." He said staring in my eyes. I shifted and cupped his face. "Hey... you don't have anything to apologize for. It was my fault and I'm sorry but Ryan, I love you and you only." I told him, staring deep into his eyes. "I love you, baby." He kissed my cheek. I gave him my dimpled smile. He kissed me right where the dimple was and rolled over. "Get your ass out of bed. Go get fresh, I'll be in the kitchen making cinnamon rolls." He kissed my forehead one last tim
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“What did she say now?” “That you told her to stop caring about you. That’s why she left without meeting you. She is hurt by your words.” I exhaled, thanking the lord that she didn’t tell mum about Ryan but again she made me the bad guy in front of her. I know I shouldn’t have said that but she said some pretty disturbing things too. She assumed I was the one who was the reason of Ryan and Ivy’s divorce. “She hurt me with the words too. We’re equal now. She should drop this attitude now.” I rolled my eyes. “Plus, she left without saying goodbye to me. Do you think it didn’t hurt me?” Just then, a car pulled over in the driveway and I knew Mateo was there. He was right on time because I didn’t want any more discussion about Eva with mum. I shuffled to my feet and turned my head to look at her. “Is it okay if I spend the evening out? I’ll be back before bed time.” I asked, hoping she wouldn’t refuse. “With Mateo?” She arched her eyebrow.
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I stirred in the sheets, groaning at the sound that was blaring through my room. I grabbed a pillow and put it on my face to block out the ringtone of my bloody phone but that didn’t help. It kept blasting “One last time” by Ariana Grande and I had no choice but to answer the call. Due to the rude hour of call, I didn’t bother to look at the caller ID. “Who is it?” I spoke, huffing in the phone. “Baby…” Ryan’s voice pulled me out of my sleepy state. I looked at the neon clock on my nightstand and it was ticking 2: 30 in the morning. “Ryan? Is everything alright?” I questioned, creasing my forehead. My heart was beating so hard and fast against my chest, felt like it was fucking my chest cavity but trust me it didn’t feel nearly good. Ryan never called me at this hour. “I miss you.” He spoke but there was a drunk slur. I frowned. “Have you been drinking?” I asked, getting out of sheets. I don’t know why I did that. “Nope.” He spoke and
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