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2021-12-05 21:19:44I stirred in the sheets, groaning at the sound that was blaring through my room. I grabbed a pillow and put it on my face to block out the ringtone of my bloody phone but that didn’t help. It kept blasting “One last time” by Ariana Grande and I had no choice but to answer the call. Due to the rude hour of call, I didn’t bother to look at the caller ID.
“Who is it?” I spoke, huffing in the phone.
“Baby…” Ryan’s voice pulled me out of my sleepy state. I looked at the neon clock on my nightstand and it was ticking 2: 30 in the morning.
“Ryan? Is everything alright?” I questioned, creasing my forehead. My heart was beating so hard and fast against my chest, felt like it was fucking my chest cavity but trust me it didn’t feel nearly good. Ryan never called me at this hour.
“I miss you.” He spoke but there was a drunk slur. I frowned.
“Have you been drinking?” I asked, getting out of sheets. I don’t know why I did that.
“Nope.” He spoke and
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“Can you take us inside?” I asked him. “Sure.” He started the engine again. I gestured the guard at the front gate to open the gates and he did before the cab sped through the paved path between the split garden of Ryan’s mansion and then stopped right at the front door of the big house. I paid the cab driver a good amount of cash for putting up with me before I pulled Ryan out of the taxi and dragged him to the door. Opening the door with him sucking the back of my neck was another challenge. As soon as we were inside, he pressed me against the door and smashed his lips on mine. I had to press my palms against the door to hold myself up and it took a few seconds for me to understand what had happened. His movements were so rushed and lust filled. His hands were trying to grab every bit of my body while his tongue was trying to push inside my mouth. “Ryan…” I tried to push him away, speaking through my urgent breaths. But he moved to my jaw wh
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I walked down the hall to Ryan’s office as soon as I heard the bell. He had some explanation to do. The motherfucker never told me today was his birthday. I fucking got to know about if from Haley. I was thinking of chopping off his dick and dumping it in the Atlantic. I opened the door only to see our principal Mr Dickhead, I mean Mr Dunkin sitting there across Ryan. I stopped right there with my mouth slammed shut and eyes growing to the size of a tennis ball. He stared up and down at me with furrowed eyebrows. I didn’t know what excuse to make for just barging in like that as I owned the place. I cleared my throat, smiling at him because I had no fucking clue whether to dig a hole and fall into it or to sprint out of the school, leave the city and never come back. "Yes?" He finally asked. I gulped and sneaked a glance at Ryan who looked like he had seen a ghost. I was sure that he was as scared as me if not more. I gulped before opening my mouth.
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I got out of the cab after paying the driver. I looked at the metal gates in front of me and took a deep breath. “Welcome, Mr Carter.” Guard on the gate greeted me and let me in. I looked around the garden and it was decorated with fairy lights, white ribbons and lanterns. I walked all the way to the front doors of the mansion and I was sure it took me whole 10 minutes. I skipped through the front doors that were open for me obviously. I made my way to the living room and a guy was sprawled on the couch. I cleared my throat to gain his attention. He looked up from the phone he was using, at me and sat up. "You must be Noah." He smiled and walked over to me. "Umm... yeah and you?" I questioned, trying to remember if Ryan told me about having a brother or cousin brother coming over. "Name's Shawn. Shawn Brandon." He extended his arm, making me remember. So, this is Shawn, his best friend, who manages his business. He didn’t look much of
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I threw my bag in the foyer before running upstairs, trying to hold the tears that were threatening to leave my eyes since I saw those pictures. I didn’t know who was stalking us but they sure were doing a great job at it. If I were alright, my first thought would be to brush my teeth and rinse my mouth with mouthwash after puking but I didn’t care at the moment. I flopped down face first on the bed and cried my eyes out because that’s all I could do then. I couldn’t lose him. Not after everything we have been through. We were going so strong. I didn’t have it in me to think of a day without him. Thinking of a day without Ryan in it was like eating fries without ketchup… even worse. The point is Ryan added the taste, the colors to my life and he was so important to me. Not because he made me feel alive but because between all of this back and forth with each other, we really found the out that we complete each other. I heard my phone ringing which pul
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