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Happy Passover, Easter, and Ramadan
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2024-10-29 19:42:56Happy Ramadan, Passover, and Easter to all who celebrate!
Because of the holiday, I did not have time to complete a chapter this weekend, and I apologize! But worry not, there will be another chapter soon. We are rounding the last bend.
This coming weekend, I will be out of town for the memorial of my partner's grandmother. It has been a rough few weeks for us. I will do my best to get a chapter up as soon as I can.
Thank you for sticking with me, even though I am slow to update.
All of my love,
Blair
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