She never really took me seriously at first. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero sa palagay ko ay dahil iyon sa lahat ng katarantaduhang nagawa ko noon.
It felt like all of my sins were recorded, and she became my punishment.
“I don’t believe you, River. I’m sorry, but you’re unbelievable.” I couldn’t remember how many times Sandra replied this statement to me every time I told her that I like her very much.
Kalimitan ay dinadaan ko na lang talaga sa pagbibiro ng pamimilit o di kaya’y pagsuyo sa kaniya. But deep inside, it’s slowly hurting me. It’s like she never trusted me.
Imagine? She even tried to turn me into a gay just so her family wouldn’t know about it!
“You’re marrying Charlotte, and that’s final.” Napatanga ako sa sinabi ni Mom sa kabilang linya ng telepono. What the fuck?“Mom, I thought we’re on the same side? You promised me that we’ll convince Dad that I will never marry Cha!”Damn it. It’s been days since I went to Batanes with Cha. Pumayag akong pumunta rito, and even lied to my love that I have a business trip with Dad dahil nangako si Mom na tutulungan niya akong kausapin si Dad basta sumama muna ako pero…“I don’t like that girl, River! Kung ayaw mo siyang hiwalayan… ako ang maghihiwalay sa inyo.” Before I could even argue, ibinaba niya na ang telepono. This is frustrating!Pero hindi
I woke up the next day, feeling more tired than usual. Rinig ko ang pagiging abala ng lahat sa labas kaya't tumayo na ako mula sa pagkakahiga.Napabaling ang aking tingin sa kabilang bahagi ng kama. My tears fell once again at the sight of it.“Dad,” I heard Jordan knocking on the door.Pinunasan ko ang aking mga luha at nilingon ang pinto. Jordan managed to open the door and ran immediately to hug me.“W-What's wrong, Jordan?” I asked him.Umiyak siya at mas humigpit ang yakap sa akin.“H-Have you had breakfast?” tanong ko sa kaniya. Umiling siya at narinig ko ang kaniyang hikbi habang nakayakap sa akin.
“I'll stay here for a bit. Iuwi niyo na lang muna si Jordan. Susunduin ko na lang siya bago ako umuwi sa bahay,” sambit ko at inihiga ang natutulog na si Jordan sa backseat ng van kung nasaan si Aubree. “Alright. We'll go home already. Umuwi ka rin agad at magpahinga…” Dad said. Tumango ako at hinawakan ang pinto para isara. I closed the door and watched them go. Tahimik na ang lugar. The tent was still built, but the chairs were gone already. Bumuntonghininga ako at saka nilingon ang sasakyan ng taong alam kong kanina pa nanonood. “You can come near if you want to. Hindi kita bubugbugin ngayon,” I said after sitting in the grass in front of the grave, knowing that someone can hear me.
“Flight Attendants, prepare for landing, please,” I announced. I stared at the firm runway where we are going to land. Inayos ko ang aking salamin at naghandang mabuti. Mahigit isang linggo rin akong hindi nakauwi. Our overseas flight required us to stay there dahil na rin sa sunod-sunod na flights. I missed home already. Miss na miss ko na rin si Damien. Noong ibinaba ng kasama kong piloto ang landing gear ay ngumiti na ako dahil sa pagka sabik. I gave my full attention to give this flight a smooth landing. Bahagyang sumulyap sa ‘kin si Lionel, but I didn't look back. He should concentrate. Alam niyang hindi ko palalampasin ang pagkakaroon ng magandang landing. But I know that he's also good at this. When we touched down, I smiled a bit as we continued and reduced our speed. Nang makatigil kami ay saka ko naramdaman ang galak sa naging lipad. It was tiring. Nakakangalay at minsan ay nakakairita pero kahit ganoo
Damien was my boyfriend for six years, but I realized that it doesn't depend on how long your relationship was. If the other half cheated once, that person would surely do it again. How ridiculous.“Jeanne, sino ‘yon?” nakangiting tanong ko habang itinuturo ang lalaking nakikipagtawanan at tumutugtog ng gitara.He was smiling from afar while talking to his friends, and he looks so friendly.“Alin?” tanong ni Jeanne.“Iyong tumutugtog ng gitara?”“Ah, si Damien. Hindi naman marunong 'yan, hawak lang ‘yong gitara. Gusto lang magpa-pogi,” aniya.Napangiti ako habang pinagmamasdan iyong Damien na nakikipag kulitan. Totoong hindi nga siya marunong maggitara at puro strum lang.I giggled when I realized that he looks cute and friendly.“Anong buong pangalan?”“Hindi ko
“Sino ang kasama mo, kung ganoon?” inis na tanong ko. Natigilan siya bago tumingin sa akin nang maayos. Damien looks so innocent that it breaks my heart whenever I remember that he cheated on me. “She's Architect Tanya Renales. Inihatid ko lang sa bahay nila dahil lasing na lasing,” aniya. I just nodded and acted as if I believe him. Hatid lang ba talaga, Damien? “Walang nangyari sa inyo?” “Wala, Sandra! Maniwala ka sa akin.” I nodded at his lies. I am sure that he just did it with her, or with someone else. Dahil sa pag-uusap namin sa telepono kahapon, alam ko ang ginagawa niya! “I believe you,” I lied. He hugged me tight. Gumanti rin ako ng yakap sa kaniya. Mas mahigpit na para bang pakakawalan ko na siya. “Sandra? Pwede ba akong manligaw?” tanong ni Damien. “M-Manligaw? Sa akin?” tanong ko. Bahagya siyang tumawa at saka tumango. “Kung papayag ka?”
“Fuck you, Damien! Fuck you! Ang makita kitang nambababae nang paulit ulit ay kinakaya ko pa! Pero ang makita kitang kasama ang kapatid ko? Sa tingin mo ba talaga ay papakasalan pa kita?” “Love, makinig ka muna sa akin. I'll explain. I can explain.” “You can explain? That's bullshit! Anong rason mo? Anong rason mo ang tatanggapin ko?!” sigaw ko sa kaniya. “Ate, I'm sorry, please.” Lumapit na rin sa akin si Aubree. It hurts seeing her cry in front of me. I hate her for being like this! I hate her for trying to do this! “Bakit ganito, Aubree? Anong pagkukulang namin sa pagpapalaki sa ‘yo para maging ganito ka?” “Ate, I love him! I love Damien, Ate.” Tumulo ang luha ko sa sinabi niyang iyon. Nagagalit ako dahil nagiging ganito siya. Nagagalit ako dahil sinisira niya ang reputasyon at pagkatao niya at hindi dahil mahal niya si Damien. Nagagalit ako kasi hindi puwedeng ganito si Aubree! Kay Damien man o sa ibang magkarelasyon,
“Call me when you need anything,” sambit ni Jeanne nang makarating kami sa apartment niya.. I nodded and went inside of the guest room. Nahiga ako sa kama at muling nakatulugan ang pag-iyak When I woke up the next day, sobrang hapdi ng mata ko. Hindi ako makabangon sa bigat ng pakiramdam. Akala ko noong una, maayos na. Pero nang maalala ko ulit ay tumulo na naman ang luha ko. Kinatok ako ni Jeanne. “Sandra, magtatrabaho lang muna ako. Ayos ka lang ba rito?” she asked. I smiled at her and nodded. “Magbreakfast ka na. May pagkain sa lamesa.” “Salamat, Jeanne. Uuwi din ako ngayon,” sabi ko. Tumango naman siya. Later on, she left while I ate breakfast. Bagsak pa rin ang balikat ko at pinag-iisipan kung uuwi na ba ako. Mayamaya ay nakita kong tumatawag sa ‘kin si Vincent, the CEO of my airline, kaya kahit gaano kasama ang mood ko ay kailangan kong sagutin iyon. “Hello, Sir, good morning.” I tried to sound happy
“I'll stay here for a bit. Iuwi niyo na lang muna si Jordan. Susunduin ko na lang siya bago ako umuwi sa bahay,” sambit ko at inihiga ang natutulog na si Jordan sa backseat ng van kung nasaan si Aubree. “Alright. We'll go home already. Umuwi ka rin agad at magpahinga…” Dad said. Tumango ako at hinawakan ang pinto para isara. I closed the door and watched them go. Tahimik na ang lugar. The tent was still built, but the chairs were gone already. Bumuntonghininga ako at saka nilingon ang sasakyan ng taong alam kong kanina pa nanonood. “You can come near if you want to. Hindi kita bubugbugin ngayon,” I said after sitting in the grass in front of the grave, knowing that someone can hear me.
I woke up the next day, feeling more tired than usual. Rinig ko ang pagiging abala ng lahat sa labas kaya't tumayo na ako mula sa pagkakahiga.Napabaling ang aking tingin sa kabilang bahagi ng kama. My tears fell once again at the sight of it.“Dad,” I heard Jordan knocking on the door.Pinunasan ko ang aking mga luha at nilingon ang pinto. Jordan managed to open the door and ran immediately to hug me.“W-What's wrong, Jordan?” I asked him.Umiyak siya at mas humigpit ang yakap sa akin.“H-Have you had breakfast?” tanong ko sa kaniya. Umiling siya at narinig ko ang kaniyang hikbi habang nakayakap sa akin.
“You’re marrying Charlotte, and that’s final.” Napatanga ako sa sinabi ni Mom sa kabilang linya ng telepono. What the fuck?“Mom, I thought we’re on the same side? You promised me that we’ll convince Dad that I will never marry Cha!”Damn it. It’s been days since I went to Batanes with Cha. Pumayag akong pumunta rito, and even lied to my love that I have a business trip with Dad dahil nangako si Mom na tutulungan niya akong kausapin si Dad basta sumama muna ako pero…“I don’t like that girl, River! Kung ayaw mo siyang hiwalayan… ako ang maghihiwalay sa inyo.” Before I could even argue, ibinaba niya na ang telepono. This is frustrating!Pero hindi
She never really took me seriously at first. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero sa palagay ko ay dahil iyon sa lahat ng katarantaduhang nagawa ko noon.It felt like all of my sins were recorded, and she became my punishment.“I don’t believe you, River. I’m sorry, but you’re unbelievable.” I couldn’t remember how many times Sandra replied this statement to me every time I told her that I like her very much.Kalimitan ay dinadaan ko na lang talaga sa pagbibiro ng pamimilit o di kaya’y pagsuyo sa kaniya. But deep inside, it’s slowly hurting me. It’s like she never trusted me.Imagine? She even tried to turn me into a gay just so her family wouldn’t know about it!
I ran to the hallway quickly and quietly. I don't want to attend the philosophy class. It's boring.“Hey, River,” Alice greeted me nang malampasan ko siya sa hallway.I winked at her and she held my arms. But damn, this isn’t the time for flirting.“I'll catch up with you later at the party. Right now, I just need to run away from class,” I said and kissed her cheeks.“Alright, see you later,” she said.I smirked and continued running. Surely, the lecturer will catch me in no time kaya mas dapat ko pang bilisan ang takbo. Madaya naman kasi at foundation day tapos may klase siya sa amin.
“I'm sorry, the patient died due to the wound in her chest and internal bleeding. Her ribs are broken, and it affected her lungs. Kung nabuhay siya… she won't be able to walk. Her legs are fractured badly.”That’s what the doctor told us.I stood up slowly and noticed Kuya Angelo wiping his tears.I bit my lip. I remembered our youth. She was blooming like a flower, and her brother was already building fences so no man could touch her.I had that flower. But somehow… I failed to protect her.“Gusto kong makita ang anak ko… pupuntahan ko si Sandra,” Mama Alondra told Kuya Angelo.“Makikita rin natin si Sandra. Konting tiis la
“River! What the hell happened? What did that bastard do to Sandra?” salubong sa akin ni Lionel nang makarating ako sa kanila.Bumaba ako ng sasakyan at ngumiti sa kaniya. He looks so worried and behind him is his wife. Nakita ko ang galit at panggigigil sa kaniya. It seems like Alejandro wronged them as well.Subalit nang makita niya kung gaano ako kalugmok ay unti-unti niyang ikinalma ang sarili. Dapat lang niyang ikalma dahil pinapahanap ko na si Alejandro. Ang gusto ko munang tutukan sa ngayon ay ang aking asawa.When Lionel sensed my mood, wari ko ay naintindihan niya na agad ang nangyayari. M-Maybe he already has an idea.“I-Is the news… t-true?” tanong niya sa akin. Ramdam ko ang pag-aalinlangan sa boses niya.
Without any hesitation, nag u-turn ako kaagad at mas binilisan ang takbo ng aking sasakyan dahil sa sinabi sa akin ni Vincent. I’m not sure what it is pero kung mula sila sa tower control at hinahanap nila ako ay paniguradong may kinalaman ito kay Sandra!“C-Come quick.” Iyon ang huling sinabi ni Vincent bago ko narinig ang hikbi niya at pagpatay niya sa tawag.I was too excited to go back. Thinking that Sandra is already there excites me. Goodness. Sana ay naroon na siya dahil kung wala pa ring balita ay hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko! Masisiraan na yata ako ng ulo.Gustong-gusto ko nang bilisan ang takbo ng aking sasakyan at makarating doon kaagad.The sun is already shining. I haven't slept or eaten yet. Gusto ko lamang makita ang aking asawa. Mabut
The storm is still preventing us from searching the sky clearly. Wala kaming ideya kung anong aircraft ang ginamit ni Alejandro... o kung talaga bang ginamit niya iyon.“Why are you still awake? Hmm?” I asked Jordan when I visited him.“I can’t sleep properly. Have you eaten?” he asked.I smiled weakly and shook my head.“You should eat. If Mommy comes back, she'll be angry if she'll know that you didn't eat,” he said and held my hand.Nag-angat ako ng tingin nang makita sa likuran niya si Dad.“How is everything going?” Dad asked.“The authorities are helping us too. Sinisimu