"Pleasure of love lasts but a moment. Pain of love lasts a lifetime."- Anonymous Chapter 13 Weeks had passed, I never heard anything from Sandro and I am very thankful. It's still hurts, even tho he treated me so bad, I still miss him so much but despite of all this mourning, ayaw ko na siyang makita kahit kailan pa. This feelings will fade someday and right now, my focus should be in my baby. Wala narin akong balita kay Noah, I didn't get to meet him again after our encounter and that is a relief because I really can't handle meeting him again. Ngayon ang schedule ko sa prenatal, para macheck ang kundisyon ng anak ko, hinaplos ko ang aking tiyan and I smiled, ngayon ko din malalaman ang gender ng anak ko. I am still debating kung e reveal naba ang gender ko or surprise nalang pagkatapos ko siyang maisilang. I also have a lot of names in mind, I am really so excited to my baby.Naghanda naman kami ni Sherlyn para makapasok narin siya sa trabaho at para makapunta na ako sa hospit
Sylvia Plath- "Perhaps someday I'll crawl back home, beaten, defeated. But not as long as I can make stories out of my heartbreak, beauty out of sorrow." Chapter 14 "He clearly likes you Faye" Sherlyn beamed nong sinabi ko sa kanya lahat ng nangyari samin ni Noah. Hinampas ko naman kamay niya, she's talking nonsense, and even if Noah really did like me, mawawala rin iyon pag malaman niyang buntis ako. Who wants to date a pregnant woman huh? Tell me, cause let's be realistic here, dating a pregnant woman is literally disgusting. It's like dating a woman who is still carrying another man's child and besides wala akong balak makipag date ulit, not now or ever. "You're talking nonsense" sabi ko sa kanya."Look, I know that he's a very kind man pero halata napo na parang gusto ko niyang makasama ulit" sabi niya, I rolled my eyes. This girl is so annoying sometimes. "Sher, kahit taman man iyang mga hinala mo, mandidiri parin iyon pag malaman niyang buntis ako. Loko ka" tawa ko.
Marilyn Monroe "Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together. Chapter 15 Alessandro Carvalho's point of view I don't know what happened, I just woke up in silence. I was so drunk last night, I can barely walk. Wala akong narinig na ingay, wala akong narinig na luto ni Faye. And then flashback came into my mind sa nangyari, I hurt Faye. She's pregnant and I badly want the baby gone, hindi pwedeng magkaanak kami. Hindi pa niya alam ang buong katotohanan and it's better to stay that way. Everytime I see her in this house, I just feel anger. I hated her dahil naalala ko ang mga nangyari these past few years and it's her fault pero hindi na kailangan malaman niya ang lahat. We never told anyone, my family are the only one who knows this secret and it will remain burried.I got up and winced in pain dahil sa sakit ng katawan ko, I yelled Faye's name and then I realize na I locked her up in this room for two days without any food, I am not planning to kill he
Tin Man "Hearts will never be practical until they are made unbreakable." Chapter 16 Life must go on, I always tell myself that. My stomach is getting bigger at kung titignan ako ng tao, I am sure na they will recognize na buntis ako. I've been busier these past few days dahil maraming mga customers because bakasyon na kaya double time kami sa trabaho. I am really tired, emotionally and physically, buti nalang andito parati si Sherlyn sa tabi ko. I keep avoiding thinking about Sandro and that news, I still can't believe na nangyari iyon, kahit takot ako kay Sandro, kahit alam kong masamang tao siya, I am still hurt of the fact that he is now having a new family.He clearly said na ayaw niya ng anak but yet, magkakaanak na sila ni Brittany, will he be a good father? I shook my head, of course not because he is a very horrible person. I actually feel bad for their baby too pero mas mahirap sakin dahil ako lang bumubuhay sa anak ko. I sighed while naglalakad, bago palang natapos a
“One's dignity may be assaulted, vandalized and cruelly mocked, but it can never be taken away unless it is surrendered.” Michael J. Fox Chapter 18 I am currently cooking breakfast for both me and Sandro and I almost jumped when I heard him screaming in his room, I can hear glasses being shattered into pieces at nakaramdam ako ng takot. Anong nangyari sa kanya? Baka saktan na naman niya ako, my heart is beating fast. Huwag niya sana akong saktan, baka mapahamak ang anak ko. I held my stomach protectively, I can still hear the shattering of things inside his room, bumabalik na naman ang trauma ko sa lahat ng ginawa niya. I want to know kung anong problema pero I am too afraid na baka mas magalit siya na makita ang mukha ko kaya agad akong pumunta sa kwarto ko at nilock ang pinto at pumasok ako sa c.r at nilock rin ito. I was breathing nervously and after a few minutes ay wala na akong narinig na ingay sa labas. "Faye" I heard him call me pero hindi ako sumagot, I hid ins
“Sometimes the smallest things take up the most room in your heart.” Chapter 18 I am currently cooking breakfast for both me and Sandro and I almost jumped when I heard him screaming in his room, I can hear glasses being shattered into pieces at nakaramdam ako ng takot. Anong nangyari sa kanya? Baka saktan na naman niya ako, my heart is beating fast. Huwag niya sana akong saktan, baka mapahamak ang anak ko. I held my stomach protectively, I can still hear the shattering of things inside his room, bumabalik na naman ang trauma ko sa lahat ng ginawa niya. I want to know kung anong problema pero I am too afraid na baka mas magalit siya na makita ang mukha ko kaya agad akong pumunta sa kwarto ko at nilock ang pinto at pumasok ako sa c.r at nilock rin ito. I was breathing nervously and after a few minutes ay wala na akong narinig na ingay sa labas. "Faye" I heard him call me pero hindi ako sumagot, I hid inside the comfort room. Natatakot ako ngayon sa kanya. I heard him curs
“We’re getting hurt, but I’m a long-term investor.” – Al-Waleed bin Talal Chapter 19 I woke up with a headache, masakit ang katawan ko. The lights are blinding me, narealize ko nasa puting kwarto ako. Bakit ako nasa hospital? I gasp nang maalala ko ang nangyari, ang baby ko! Agad kong hinawakan ang tiyan ko at tinignan pero flat na ito. Asan ang baby ko? Napaiyak ako. Wala akong kasama dito, wala rin si Sandro. Asan si Sandro? At asan ang anak ko? Pinilit kong tumayo pero bumukas ang pinto at nakita ko ang mukha ni Sandro na parang wala pang tulog. "Asan ang anak ko Sandro?!" nag aalalang tanong ko, napahilot siya sa noo niya. "Premature siya, nasa incubator siya ngayon" mahinang sabi niya, I cried. Premature ang anak namin? Buti nalang nakaya ng anak ko, hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko pag may nangayring masama sa kanya, hindi ko kayang mabuhay na wala siya . I wince in paint at tumayo. "Huwag kang gumawala, masakita pa iyang sugat mo sa tiyan" sabi niya, cesarian pala ang
“It hurts because it matters.” – John Green Chapter 20 2 weeks later Masayang masaya ako ngayon dahil makakalabas na ang anak ko, normal ang anak ko at walang kapansanan at laking pasasalamat ko dahil tinupad ng panginoon ang hiling ko sa kanya. Ang maliit noon na katawan ng anak ko ay medyo tumaba na, breastfeed si Zoe kaya madali siyang tumaba at tsaka puro gulay ang kinakain ko kaya lahat ng sustansya napupunta kay Zoe. Wala na akong balita kay Sandro, hindi na siya tumawag, merong nagpapadala ng pera samin weekly, tinatanggap ko iyon dahil hindi ko inuuna ang pride ko, inuuna ko ang kapakanan ng anak ko. I smiled nang tinignan ko si Zoe, buhat ko siya ngayon at kasama ko si Sherlyn sa lake house. Dito muna kami tutuloy ni Zoe hanggat wala pa akong ipon, pag makaipon na ako, ibabalik kotong bahay kay Sandro. Sa ngayon, kailangan ko munang unahin ang kaligtasan ng anak ko. "Ang gandaaa" tuwang sabi ni Sherlyn habang nilalaro si Zoe, kahit maliit palang anak ko, klaro