The Villainess Wants To Live

A groan escaped my lips as another wave of pain and nausea hit me. I felt like crying, screaming away all the pain. I was about to open my eyes when sudden fragments of foreign memories rushed into my mind, swamping my brain like a tidal wave. Whose memories are these?! Wait, am I even alive? More foreign thoughts began to fill my head. An abandoned castle. A beautiful woman with long platinum blonde hair and emerald green eyes holding a tiny baby who was swaddled in warm blankets, while looking out the window all day long, missing her husband who never visited her even once. Wait? What kind of fucked up thoughts are these?! 

For the first few days, I still thought that I was hallucinating or dreaming since I was in an accident. However, the reality betrayed my expectations. Nothing changed even if I slapped myself, cursed the author or cried all night    I tried everything I could come up with, thinking everything was just a dream.   I, who never practiced any religion in my past life even tried to pray to God, then I prayed to Budha. Neither heard or answered my prayers, so I got creative. I prayed to Zeus, and Hades, and then Morpheus, Isis, Diana, Freyja.   None answered. So in the end, I had no choice but to accept this as reality.   

It was already evening when Alistair finished his sword training. Instead of taking his time on the training grounds like he usually does, he went to bathe and changed his clothes into something more grand than his usual indoor clothing. Perhaps Alistair's appearance left quite an impression, that Alfons, the butler of Star Palace asked his master if he was going to see his mother, the empress. "No." He answered without changing his expression. "I'm going to Lily Palace. Prepare some chamomile tea leaves and any kind of dessert with chocolate flavor, I'm going to take it there." Even though the butler was concerned about his master spending more time at Lily Palace, he knew better than to question his decision. So like the obedient butler he was, he just did what he was told

The usually composed Alistair looked murderous while walking towards Lily Palace with a sense of urgency.  After Osiris told him what was happening there, he felt something tugging at his chest. So he didn't even think twice when he ordered Osiris and his guard to come with him to Lily Palace.  He knew he was being emotional right now which is not like himself. But he couldn't deny that a month he had spent with Bella made him experience countless new emotions that he didn't know he was capable of feeling. It was the first time that he felt the urge to protect someone so badly.  ‘How many years did she have to endure it by herself? She must have suffered a lot.’  Alistair thought with

A pair of amethyst eyes stared down at me coldly. His mouth formed a thin line as he watched me being dragged to the center of the plaza. Not an ounce of mercy could be seen in his expressionless face.  A beautiful woman with long reddish brown hair and emerald green eyes was standing beside him. It was really a sight to behold. The male lead and the heroine.  And here I was, the pitiful villainess that would soon meet her end. I could neither move nor scream as the executioner forced my head to stay still under the guillotine. It happened in a flash. My eyes still transfixed at those amethyst eyes that mirrored mine as the cold sharp blade cut down my neck, separating the head and the body.