3.|| Rejection: Let Me Go.

Lilliana’s POV

“You’ve got to be kidding me!” He laughed as he made his way past me. I wanted to go after him but my feet seemed glued to the ground.

I couldn’t believe it. This just has to be some sick joke that the moon goddess is playing with me but it didn’t seem like a joke because Nala was dancing around in happiness.

“Alpha Nikolai is our mate,” she announced like I didn’t already know that, like I didn’t already open my stupid mouth and call him ‘mate’.

“He’s the Lycan King of the Bloodmoon pack and he’s our mate,” she added in excitement, “I can just feel his Lycan calling out to me.” She added and as I yelled at her, all of the excitement came washing down.

There is no way Nikolai Ashwood is my mate. There is no way I am going to accept a rude, arrogant and condescending person as my mate.

“I can never accept it.” I thought to myself as I quickly rushed after him. He’s a total playboy and there is no way I’m going to accept someone like him. He’s been in the pack for just one week and in that one week, he’s been with more of the maids than I can count.

“Nikolai!” I yelled, completely out of breath as I drew the attention of everyone to me. I had no idea how far I had run until now.

“You have to be so deep inside your own head if you think I’m going to accept a lowlife maid such as yourself as my mate.” Nikolai spat and everyone bursted out laughing.

It was embarrassing, my legs shook and I felt like the ground should open up and swallow me whole but that seemed far fetched.

“What’s your name?” He asked, his voice condescending.

“Lilliana Ayers,” I responded, “you can reject me if you want to, I don’t care. All I care about and what I wanted to see you for is this.” I added, raising the papers up.

“What’s that?” He demanded.

“My release papers, your father was supposed to sign this before his death but since a total asshole like you is now the Alpha, I have no other choice than to give it to you to sign.” I retorted.

“Really?” Nikolai smirked as he walked towards me, I would give anything to be out of here, “Okay.” He added as he took the papers from me.

“I, Nikolai Ashwood, the future Lycan King of the Bloodmoon pack, reject you Lilliana Ayers as my mate and future Luna.” He affirmed, his eyes bloodshot with anger as they pierced through me.

My heart pricked and suddenly it felt like I’d lost the ability to breathe. I never knew that being rejected would hurt this much, especially by an Alpha.

I felt like dying and Nala, she’s probably dead by now because after hearing her painful howl, I didn't feel her anymore.

The pain from the rejection was heart wrenching and after my heart, I began to feel my body threatening to break.

“But if you think for once that I’ll ever let you go, then you’re severely mistaken.” He growled through gritted teeth, his hands wrapped around my neck, depriving me of air.

My eyes begged for him to release me and after a while of almost sucking the life out of me, Nikolai dropped me, humiliating me in front of everyone as he tore the papers he was supposed to sign.

“No!” I screamed as hot tears trickled down my cheeks.

“You got your rejection, we’re no longer mates,” he continued, “but not your freedom because you will keep working here until I am done with you.” He gritted.

“Now get out of here if you still wish to live!” He yelled. Heartbroken, I ran out of the ceremony and into my room as I slammed the door before finally breaking down in tears.

What have I ever done to deserve this?

I groaned as I tossed and turned on the bed. My mind drifted off to what happened last night and I curled up like a ball under the big bedsheet as I bawled my eyes out again.

Nala has refused to talk to me and nothing I tried would reduce the pain of the rejection she felt yesterday or was probably still feeling.

“I don’t care if your expectation got broken, Liana, you really have to get your ass off and start working!” The house mistress pounded on my door before leaving.

Frustrated, I stood from the bed and made my way to the bathroom to get myself ready for the day’s work and to also find a way to change Nikolai’s mind and talk him into letting me go.

I opened the door and just as I took a step out of my room, I tripped over a bucket and fell down so hard that my bones felt like they’ve broken.

I winced in pain as I looked at my bruised elbow, “bold of you to assume that Alpha Nikolai would want anything to do with you.” One of the maids spat as she walked past me, not caring that I was already hurt.

Asides from the physical pain I was feeling due to falling face down, I was also feeling an immense pain in my heart and it felt like someone had stabbed me with a dagger and instead of pulling it out at once, they twirled it inside me and dug it deeper.

“You really thought that he was going to accept you, a good for nothing Omega, as his mate?” Another asked while I focused on cleaning up the mess I’d made.

I knew that someone had intentionally placed the bucket there as a trap and to get me in trouble with the mistress. I wasn’t expecting any less, I’ve heard them talk about my position and how the late Alpha Demitri treated me.

It wasn’t news that most of them hated me because they were jealous of my position and now that they know that moon goddess had decided to curse me by making Nikolai my mate, it was only going to get worse.

Any lady would think of being Nikolai’s mate as a blessing but not me. It felt like a curse to me. Nikolai isn’t capable of love and all my years of fantasizing about finding a mate I’d prayed desperately for it to be someone who loves me.

I’ve always wanted a love story like that of my mother and father so knowing that Nikolai is my fated mate made me angry.

He’s a notorious cheat if anyone would finally decide to be in a relationship with him. Scrunching my nose, I returned my focus to cleaning the floors and shaking the thought of Nikolai out of my head.

“Here!” The house mistress’s voice made me lift my tired gaze as she dumped a pile of dirty laundry in front of me, “wash them and you’re not allowed to use the machine.” She finished.

Sighing, I did all that I was supposed to do and by the time I was done I felt pain pricking every part of my being. My stomach growled and it wasn’t until now that I realized I haven’t eaten anything all day.

I decided to rest in the laundry room for a while before going to see Nikolai again. I couldn’t just give up on my freedom like that, I have to find a way to change his mind.

Every moment I spend in this mansion makes me feel like a prisoner, it feels like I was in a cage and I can’t possibly let that cage be my reality.

I have to break loose.