Well it was what it was, same fucking situation which never seemed to be growing old, but what can I say?
We all get used to the everyday uniform that we just wanna scrap off our bodies. I'm talking about everyday heartbreaks which seem to have took its toll lately in this very same century.
I get to ponder about it at times if this is the very same pain that was experienced by our folks or what? But nah!
Come to think of it, arranged marriages occurred and happened to be the wide pictures, but now!
It's a stupid fucking twat of a trend. I mean look around...just take a glance.
People are divorcing every single day... global statistics mention that 41 percent of marriage end in divorce, wait for it....61 percent of second marriages end in divorce , imagine!
Then you ask yourself what goes wrong and where did it go wrong? Where did it trip? Is it panick rushes of peer pressure? Is it money or status? Is it love? Mhh....
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I didn't want to make myself available to the guy but I couldn't stop praying that he comes back.
It was a Wednesday when I was sitting on my chair swinging on It that I saw his reflection but I couldn't believe it was him ,I mean I was just thinking of him just so recently so it was hard to believe.
I looked at him with an outrage look, like I was seeing a spectre or something but I then suddenly came back to my senses like "Bra! Wake up"! Hahaha I know right?
Fuck! He passed by without a simple 'hi' ,I got so devastated , drowning, depressed like I just got dumped.
You won't believe it he passed by starring me in the eyes and God!
That was really embarrassing for me, and surely we can all relate to that, I mean we've all been dumped before right? So no need to laugh to death about it, hahaha.
I wanted to call Chantelle but then I was like 'nah man....it's too early and I can't tell her every single thing, does she even'?
I asked myself in my own thoughts.
Just as I was right there, I got a call from some twat of a guy who was after nothing but my pussy, he hadn't said that literally but I could see, and I did pick up, just as I was talking he came!
Yes he did! He came to me and dragged himself inside and I had no choice but to attend to him.
He had two Steers Packages, like I could smell the burger from right there, under the wraps, hahaha.
"Hey! How are you? You know you didn't have to drop your call,I wouldn't have minded waiting".
He had his car keys right on his hands and i couldn't stop smiling, then I quickly slapped myself in the cheeks and said to myself..."Yay' roar like a lion"! And I did just that.
"Ahhm no....I can make the call again plus its just a some twat who's a pain in the ass so chill about it".
I said , I didn't even know what kind of language he speaks.
I was used to British slangs and all but then I was assured he comprehended the language so I let it slide.
I was so in panick that my heart was beating so fast like my mom had just caught me rolling weed you know...hahahaha something like that.
"Ahm...who do you stay with by the way"?
He asked with some sort of intention, I didn't understand where the question was going but I caught up.
"Well I stay with my parents and the whole family if you get what I mean, and ahm what about you"?
I asked with some sort of bravery yet I wasn't at all! "Ahhm i stay alone".I was kind of impressed by that but at the same I got shocked like nah....this is weird....why? A hot guy like this?
"You look quite shocked....why"?
I didn't even know how to answer it and then I was like ...'you know what? Be you'! That's when I pulled myself together and I became me!.
"Yes I am! I mean why? Don't tell me you single, you look like you are married or committed somewhere with a very successful woman you know".... I said.
"Hahahahah never! Women are psychos so no! I don't do that anymore because No! I just don't anymore".
"Then I guess you do hook ups I guess"?
I decided to ask at that very moment because I didn't want to be wasting my time thinking of him when he was laying on another girl's boobs everyday, I mean time is everything and expensive.
"Ahhm...well not really, I'm not into girl's anymore, since I came back from Norway, nah....girl's are chasing money, they are hungry for Peruvian weaves and all, you don't give them money they go so nah..
He grasped some air....then he went on..
"Anyways are you ever free? Like can I take you out for breakfast anytime you free before you come to work"?
I almost screamed right there, I felt like a panick attack or something, In short...my temperature just went up like seriously seriously....so Simon Cowell says...hahahah....
"You okay " ? He questioned me again.
"Ahhm yeah sure we can do it....yeah we can...gotta be here by 0900 though ".
I said whilst I was thinking if I can agree to whatever day he suggested or I can pretend I'm a very busy person you know.
"Ahhm tomorrow? Half 7? Can I pick you up"?
He asked with a genuine smile and I was like 'ahh man....can you keep it forever '? Hahaha.
"Wait! Ahhm tomorrow? Tomorrow I ahm I actually have a meeting with some magazine editors, just at that time you know...so maybe Friday"?
"Oww !meeting? Okay ahm well I guess Friday it is then...you can take my contact details " he said.
"No! I mean you take my contact, so you'll confirm" .
Oh My Word! A whole I phone 12 pro max, just as he started punching the numbers his other phone rang in his pocket, an iPhone 13 ....I was like oh my God! Who the fuck is this?He took my contact details and he asked my name, I gave him and it boom! My number was in his phone book, just as he was about to leave ,he remembered he had bought me lunch....
When all along I thought it was for his woman, low self esteem and overthinking will kill us one day,hahahaha.Some guy popped up right there, probably it was his friend, he hallad at me and they left, and I on the other side couldn't wait to jump onto the burger and steak...mhhhh!
It's funny how we girls are at times, pretending we are very busy and independent and in need of no help when we know deep from our hearts that we do not have money and and we aren't busy. But we do it because we don't wanna make the guys feel like we don't have anything to do you know....hahahah
I literally felt like shouting and screaming that 'guys! I have a date'...Hahahaha funny right?Well I literally love the feeling of meeting someone new you know, like the inner butterflies and all, its really incredible honestly.Like skipping bed because you gotta squart by the plug with a charger just so that your phone's battery doesn’t run low....I mean really? We've all done this right? So question is where are they now? Hahaha they gone! No longer exist in our lives.See? You should have been doing something useful and productive with those late hours ,hahaha....just kidding but it's true just that we can't live in regret, we meet people for sacred reasons , either they learn or you do, its just one of the lessons and pri
It was time for me to go home so I header there. Just when I was in the taxi, waiting for it to depart town, a number called me and left was like ' !WTF is this '?Honestly I did recognize the contact somewhere somehow and since I did and it wasn't saved, I knew it was probably one of those assholes who are always asking "when are you visiting me"?I mean like seriously seriously this shit is really fucking annoying. Do whites do this bullshit? Hahaha I don't think so, probably its blacks! Hahaha.Apparently I knew this guy, he was one of the guys I had hooked up with and never liked form then. I just never pictured myself being with him ever again! You wann
CHAPTER 1 Butterflies in the stomach turn the mind and soul into the joyful space of the moon and the stars. Mhhh! Stars… The beauty ,adornment and embellishment of the stars... Stars are born as soon as the sun goes to be breastfed by its very own mother everytime it sets down, and I can say that's what elucidates broad daylight and the night. Commencing something beautiful is a natural,cosmical feeling, it's a beautiful feeling that no one can pass the question easily, writers and poets still can't pass that expressional answer, it's a mystery! Especially when it has took one a decade
I took a deep breathe and waited, just as I eyeballed the bridge on my right, damn! There he was, he came towards me and then diverted from there going to the Debonairs. I quietly screamed at myself like.... 'Fuuuuuuuck'!!! There he does it again! So said it to myself. I tried to calm down, I was dismay, you should all know how bad this shit feels, it pertids your whole mood ,your whole fucking day and it never becomes the same again because you keep on going down on your knees beseeching God that you see them again soon,otherwise you get sleepless nights. Well my soon is always a 'now ', 'right now"!
It was time to close, so I did, with a $100 in my purse! Don't you forget that. Just when I was about to lock. I video called my friend Chantelle, only to discover she was 2 minutes away, but we proceeded, it was very fun until my boss realized I was delaying him by doing that ,I mean cause he had to go with the keys and there she was! My night in shining armour, looking all great with the yellow top and black tight pants in heels, wow, she was amazing than I was at the time and I screamed at her for that, we had to slay equally! Hahahahaha ! We greeted each other with a hug and made our way to Cuba Nora for some burgers and coffee. I told her how amazing my day was and the whole $100 Scandal which occurred before she asked about the sources of the cash I had to spoil ourselves.
I listened, for what? To be tortured again? Fuck me for being such a stupid whore, I said in my thoughts whilst staring at the beauty of the moon, for it had appeared. I don't know man but glazing at the moon and the stars makes us feel whole and all that. Personally it makes me look smaller , like literally when i look at the night sky and just feel it I get to know how puny I am are compared to the universe . It makes us question ourselves and everything like why do we exist and why is everything exactly like they are why are there so many stars in the sky and why do they exist like these and many more. We feel lonely looking at when we star
In the first rush of being in love, you might feel completely dedicated to your partner, ready to do anything and everything to help them through a tough spot or even just make their lives a little easier. Empathy and your fast-growing attachment can fuel your desire to be there for them and help them however possible. But the hormones involved in love can sometimes affect how you make decisions. You might also look at other things with new eyes. Many people in love feel more willing to try new things, or things they previously didn’t care for, simply because their partner enjoys them. We sense our emotions from the time we're babies. Infants and young children react to their emotions with facial expressions or with actions like laughing, cuddling, or crying. They feel and show emotions, b
It was time for me to go home so I header there. Just when I was in the taxi, waiting for it to depart town, a number called me and left was like ' !WTF is this '?Honestly I did recognize the contact somewhere somehow and since I did and it wasn't saved, I knew it was probably one of those assholes who are always asking "when are you visiting me"?I mean like seriously seriously this shit is really fucking annoying. Do whites do this bullshit? Hahaha I don't think so, probably its blacks! Hahaha.Apparently I knew this guy, he was one of the guys I had hooked up with and never liked form then. I just never pictured myself being with him ever again! You wann
I literally felt like shouting and screaming that 'guys! I have a date'...Hahahaha funny right?Well I literally love the feeling of meeting someone new you know, like the inner butterflies and all, its really incredible honestly.Like skipping bed because you gotta squart by the plug with a charger just so that your phone's battery doesn’t run low....I mean really? We've all done this right? So question is where are they now? Hahaha they gone! No longer exist in our lives.See? You should have been doing something useful and productive with those late hours ,hahaha....just kidding but it's true just that we can't live in regret, we meet people for sacred reasons , either they learn or you do, its just one of the lessons and pri
Well it was what it was, same fucking situation which never seemed to be growing old, but what can I say? We all get used to the everyday uniform that we just wanna scrap off our bodies. I'm talking about everyday heartbreaks which seem to have took its toll lately in this very same century. I get to ponder about it at times if this is the very same pain that was experienced by our folks or what? But nah! Come to think of it, arranged marriages occurred and happened to be the wide pictures, but now! It's a stupid fucking twat of a trend. I mean look around...just take a glance. People are divorcing every single day... global statistics mention that 41 percent of marriage end in divorce, wait for it....61 percent of second marriages end in divorce , imagine!
In the first rush of being in love, you might feel completely dedicated to your partner, ready to do anything and everything to help them through a tough spot or even just make their lives a little easier. Empathy and your fast-growing attachment can fuel your desire to be there for them and help them however possible. But the hormones involved in love can sometimes affect how you make decisions. You might also look at other things with new eyes. Many people in love feel more willing to try new things, or things they previously didn’t care for, simply because their partner enjoys them. We sense our emotions from the time we're babies. Infants and young children react to their emotions with facial expressions or with actions like laughing, cuddling, or crying. They feel and show emotions, b
I listened, for what? To be tortured again? Fuck me for being such a stupid whore, I said in my thoughts whilst staring at the beauty of the moon, for it had appeared. I don't know man but glazing at the moon and the stars makes us feel whole and all that. Personally it makes me look smaller , like literally when i look at the night sky and just feel it I get to know how puny I am are compared to the universe . It makes us question ourselves and everything like why do we exist and why is everything exactly like they are why are there so many stars in the sky and why do they exist like these and many more. We feel lonely looking at when we star
It was time to close, so I did, with a $100 in my purse! Don't you forget that. Just when I was about to lock. I video called my friend Chantelle, only to discover she was 2 minutes away, but we proceeded, it was very fun until my boss realized I was delaying him by doing that ,I mean cause he had to go with the keys and there she was! My night in shining armour, looking all great with the yellow top and black tight pants in heels, wow, she was amazing than I was at the time and I screamed at her for that, we had to slay equally! Hahahahaha ! We greeted each other with a hug and made our way to Cuba Nora for some burgers and coffee. I told her how amazing my day was and the whole $100 Scandal which occurred before she asked about the sources of the cash I had to spoil ourselves.
I took a deep breathe and waited, just as I eyeballed the bridge on my right, damn! There he was, he came towards me and then diverted from there going to the Debonairs. I quietly screamed at myself like.... 'Fuuuuuuuck'!!! There he does it again! So said it to myself. I tried to calm down, I was dismay, you should all know how bad this shit feels, it pertids your whole mood ,your whole fucking day and it never becomes the same again because you keep on going down on your knees beseeching God that you see them again soon,otherwise you get sleepless nights. Well my soon is always a 'now ', 'right now"!
CHAPTER 1 Butterflies in the stomach turn the mind and soul into the joyful space of the moon and the stars. Mhhh! Stars… The beauty ,adornment and embellishment of the stars... Stars are born as soon as the sun goes to be breastfed by its very own mother everytime it sets down, and I can say that's what elucidates broad daylight and the night. Commencing something beautiful is a natural,cosmical feeling, it's a beautiful feeling that no one can pass the question easily, writers and poets still can't pass that expressional answer, it's a mystery! Especially when it has took one a decade