The Sudden Obsession

I listened,  for what? To be tortured again? Fuck me for being such a stupid whore, I said in my thoughts whilst staring at the beauty of the moon, for it had appeared.

I don't know man but glazing at the moon and the stars makes us feel whole and all that.

Personally it makes me look smaller , like literally when i look at the night sky and just feel it I get to know how puny I am are compared to the universe .

It makes us question ourselves and everything like why do we exist and why is everything exactly like they are why are there so many stars in the sky and why do they exist like these and many more.

We feel lonely looking at when we stare at something that vast we just get lost and it makes us feel lonely.

The beauty of it, after the green forest's on our blue planet it is the most beautiful thing to look at yeah most of us cannot enjoy it due to light pollution.

If light pollution is non-existent we can enjoy our own Galaxy in the night sky and if it's summer and without moon it will be the best thing we can see, and that's when I felt better, therapy with the moon and the stars, how wonderful.

The first thing I used to do when I got home was to check If the WiFi was working or not. 

Hahahaha I know right ?

It's so silly but it's the truth. Just as I got in my room countless messages kept on popping in, and you know what's funny?

That WiFi password wasn't permitted to me...i hacked it! Hahahaha! Yes I did.

I stood in front of the mirror naked, swinged my braids and stared at myself again fully, like it was the first time seeing myself like that and spoke to myself in silence. 

Wow! I've got it all, full packed ass, big boobs, flat tummy which was slightly turning into a big belly which I didn't want at all, but exercising is something I don't have time for, well unless that guy I met today fires sparkles on me.

Hahaha wow! 

I could imagine myself walking next to him, but then I decided to switch off those imaginary thoughts and go relax myself by watching tv and chatting.

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"Dude....I met this girl today in town. Its funny how I'm always there but I think it was my first time seeing her. She's fire, I don't know why she's been on my mind but yeah...I can't get rid off her since"! 

This was Adam talking to his friend Noah on phone call. Noah was his best friend since they were kids in the kindergarten,  they were neighbours too and that made it even more easily amazing.

"Bra! You haven't liked anyone new for the longest time now...so what do you think? You want to splash some fire works on her?

And wo! Wo! Wo! Wait! Aren't you dating someone already? Your so called girlfriend what's her name? Ahm Olivia right"? 

He asked with the sense of not being sure of the name.

"No man! What you talking about? I dumped Olivia 2 months ago don't you remember? This one is Linda bra, Linda! Glue that on your skull"! 

So he emphasized jokingly. 

 He back questioned him and laughed about because he knew he was also going to as soon as he would recall what she had done.

"Owww hahahahaha that one bra! I remember now, she used to mother you and all...but dude, she wasn't that bad you know, she was just too clingy".

They both laughed about it so much that Adam wished they were together but he had work to files to attend to.

"So what you going to do now? Take them both and see who's serious or what"? 

Noah asked him out of curiosity. 

"Bra...i don't know....maybe I'll ask her our or something,  I think I'll sleep on it,  but I'll wake up with an answer I'm sure, nah you know what ? I'll asked her out on a date then I'll see", he said.

Truth of the matter is that we meet people every single second, every single minute of everyday, but there's just thus one and only one person you spot and like at the heart of a second, and know that 'you know what? 

There's something about this person'. It's a sparkling feeling actually, it drives you to the moon and the stars.

Beginning something isn't easy at all! You don't know which buttons to push for another to function...you know what I mean?

It's really a challenge meant for everyone to attain and see if they can be able to swallow huge dilemmas in future. 

We all wish  it could be that feeling from the beginning to the end but hell to the no! This feeling is usually at the first moments of planting the garden, it becomes a very attractive garden but after 3 months, unnecessary things tend to grow at the corners of the beautiful flower and if they aren't attended on time, they destroy the garden and its done! 

We often think all intimate relationships reliably progress from the initial meet-cute to giddy infatuation, to a series of small trials and tribulations, and finally to a blissful state of happily-ever-after. It's a satisfying narrative we see all the time in the movies, TV, and music. 

In reality, love is a journey without a final destination. We shouldn't expect that at some point in our relationship, we'll look back at the obstacles we overcame and say...

"Well, that's it! We're here! We made it!"

Because beyond wherever you are now, another hurdle awaits.

Falling in love with someone can feel exciting, even exhilarating. But over time, these feelings may settle into something that feels a little different.

This love might seem mellow or calm. You might find yourself thinking “I love them” instead of “I’m in love with them.”

This transformation doesn’t necessarily mean there’s anything wrong with your relationship.

Loving someone instead of feeling “in love” with them simply illustrates how feelings of love evolve over the course of a relationship, especially a long-term relationship.

Being in love can change the way you see things. Even everyday activities like going to the grocery store can become more enjoyable.

You might also look at other things with new eyes. Many people in love feel more willing to try new things, or things they previously didn’t care for, simply because their partner enjoys them.

In the first rush of being in love, you might feel completely dedicated to your partner, ready to do anything and everything to help them through a tough spot or even just make their lives a little easier.