Evening Strolls Take A Toll

It was time for me to go home so I header there. Just when I was in the taxi, waiting for it to depart town, a number called me and left was like ' !WTF is this '?

Honestly I did recognize the contact somewhere somehow and since I did and it wasn't saved, I knew it was probably one of those assholes who are always asking "when are you visiting me"?

I mean like seriously seriously this shit is really fucking annoying. Do whites do this bullshit? Hahaha I don't think so, probably its blacks! Hahaha.

Apparently I knew this guy, he was one of the guys I had hooked up with and never liked form then. I just never pictured myself being with him ever again! You wanna know why?

This guy had asked me out on a date,  we exchanged numbers and then he basically asked me out and requested that I pick a place and I did! When we met in town, he asked me to accompany him to the ATM first so he could withdraw some cash and I did.

Just as he had asked me to choose a place,  I chose Spur cause I felt like ribs and they made the best, so we just went down there and boom! We were there!

The time we both got our menus he started complaining that it was super expensive! Hahaha I know right? The feeling you just got now is the very same one I had when he said that.

You know I literally felt offended like 'WTF bra!' That was a huge turn off to me, okay probably if he was my boyfriend I.wouldnt have had a problem but he had asked me to pick!

I had never felt so embarrassed to the waiter, I was ashamed myself! Funny right? So from that day after the date I never ever bothered to text or call or say a damn thing!

There are things you can't say or do on a first date which you would do or say to your partner,  like it's literally like that! It's just as that!  So that's the very same reason why I never liked him plus the fact that I never liked him even from the first instance, like I was just going for the food...hahahaha!

As I was walking home ,watching beautiful sexy cars pass by me, I got into thoughts,  like how could I be successful?

That question never got erased in my mind, it was an everyday and every minute thought ,I was literally hungry for success, I couldn't just stop, it was crazy as fuck that whenever I thought of it I could just have glasses on my eyes and I just lose it right there.

Someone would think I'm emotionally tortured or something yet no! I'm hungry for prosperity of all the things that I want to be life, and the issue with me was that I wanted it all to occur right then, I wanted prosperity at a young age, like by 24, yes! Shoot me for that but that was just me.

It's funny how I viewed life when I was 16, I thought you just graduate in high school , go to prom, get results,  got to varsity and study, hahaha....

I'm actually not laughing, it's quite sad how I thought I would have achieved everything I dreamt of by the age of 23 and now that I was 23 i but I hadn't achieved shit!

Yes I had my career or writing but I with publishing I was way behind because of money, living in a  fucked up country where arts and talents are considered at the tail of a 'z' ! Wow!

That completely made me furious and fuming like what the fuck is this country!? Beautiful for nothing ' I thought.

As I was walking through,  strolling on the road, my eye caught up with this wonderful, astonishing,  sexy bitch of a rolls Royce. It's like it was my first to seeing such sexy shit as that! Dammit!

That was  a hell of a machine. I didn't know I would see that car as soon as I did. I had only seen it on SABC adverts only. That shit got me very emotional,  because it was driven by a young lady ,that got me thinking...like 'Why isn't that me'?

I asked myself whilst my neck had already turned back like it was going to break or something. I took a stared till It vanished, I took a heavy deep breathe and proceeded with strolling along.

I passed my house mistakenly, the second I realized, I just continued downing with road looking at the other beautiful houses, that's where I built my dreams ,my wishes, my desires and my fantasies,  even great Because everything got beautifully built in my mind with the assistance of the sky, the moon and the stars.

Some people don't understand that Nature is therapy.  Yes it is!

More and more research suggests that spending time in natural environments can be linked to mental health benefits.

Just like being in a green space has been linked to less anxiety, fewer depression symptoms, and lower stress levels. Spending time in nature helps people with depression and kids with attention problems think more clearly.

“One of the top benefits that we address are for people who are trying to reduce anxiety or depression and increase relationship and connection,” Lung says. “I also think it’s super engaging, so for kids and teenagers ... [and] for people who are reluctant to be in therapy.”

Ever came across the word "Ecotherapy", also known as nature therapy or green therapy, is the applied practice of the emergent field of ecopsychology, which was developed by Theodore Roszak.

Ecotherapy, in many cases, stems from the belief that people are part of the web of life and that our psyches are not isolated or separate from our environment.

Ecopsychology is informed by systems theory and provides individuals with an opportunity to explore their relationship with nature—an area that may be overlooked in many other types of psychotherapy.

While some professionals teach and practice ecopsychology exclusively, other mental health practitioners incorporate aspects of ecotherapy into their existing practices.