An Almost- Fuck Up!

I literally felt like shouting and screaming that 'guys! I have a date'...Hahahaha funny right?

Well I literally love the feeling of meeting someone new you know, like the inner butterflies and all, its really incredible honestly.

Like skipping bed because you gotta squart by the plug with a charger just so that your phone's battery doesn’t run low....I mean really? We've all done this right? So question is where are they now? Hahaha they gone! No longer exist in our lives.

See? You should have been doing something useful and productive with those late hours ,hahaha....just kidding but it's true just that we can't live in regret, we meet people for sacred reasons , either they learn or you do, its just one of the lessons and principles of humanitarian life.

I sometimes wonder what I would do if I could be 16 years again, or perhaps 18? Would I wanna have more wild life and hang the 'FUCK EVERYONE ' pags on my ears or what? Fuck! I don't know yet, not so sure honestly.

Like there are decisions that I wish I would have made back then, I wasn't a wild kid you know but when it comes to the matters of the heart, I wish I was as mature as I am now. 

We just watched too much Cinderella not knowing that this is life, and hilarious thing is that we never listened,  shame....we never! At all! I recall all those moments with my friends and damn!

Honestly I couldn't literally believe I had scored a goal just like that? I did discern he wasn't mine but the main fact was that I myself had managed to make a fucking hot guy like that encounter the blood rush in his fucking veins all because of a fucking hot bitch which was me.

Honestly that was crazy shit,  but what felt more crazy was this shitty feeling I had of that 'single status'  he had mentioned.  I mean seriously seriously he was single?

I didn't want to believe but I decided to swallow the chill pill and live, you know sometimes you gotta do that.

I had expensive luxurious dreams which not just any guy would afford. So I had adapted the mentality and the spirit to hustle for myself, feed myself, cloth myself and literally do everything all by myself because wow!

Guys are full of shit lately, no one want to loyally commit themselves, so I didn't want to end up getting hurt.

Excuse me for being me but I ended up calling Chantelle wanting to let her know of the upcoming event. I had planned to scream the hell out of me from as soon as she said 'Hi bitch'! 

I waited for the beep but the fucking white woman cut my call cause she didn't pick up. I was very disappointed honestly but then there was nothing I could do, I had no choice but to wait for after work so we could bitch about the whole shit .

We apparently met by the other mall and my Goodness shit! All eyeballs were on us cause I just yelled it whilst I was meeting her by the traffic lights, coming my way like 'Bitch I have a date'! And  everyone just gave me that look which went like "Seriously ? This is a city why you screaming "?! Guess what? I did it more  cause I didn't give a fuck about anyone.

Chantelle screamed back like 'What the fuck? You got a date with who and where'? 

Our friendship was drastically crazy, we never even said a hello to each other but we just went on top of the hill with my story and the feeling was amazing.

Having a friend who just gets you like none other shit. It was unbelievably amazing.

"Bitch! Just don't tell me it's that Scottish fella....Jesus! That look! Is it him? Oh my Word slut he asked you out?" She yelled.

"Shut the fuck up! Stop screaming this vulgar they'll think I'm a real slut! " I, said .

"Wait! Who are they? Cause there's literally me and you in this circle"?

"Just look around you man..." I said.

"Fuck them! Who cares? Anyways uhm where's the date and you have to be home early today so you can choose your tomorrow's outfit".

Chantelle was supper excited for me and I could see the joy in her eyes, it was true as fuck!

"Uhm....it's actually not tomorrow...." I said.

"What? When is it then"? She asked with a surprised facial expression.

" Well the day after tomorrow,  I actually lied to him,  its supposed to be tomorrow but I told him I have a meeting in the morning before work".

I said that knowing she was going to bite my head off.

"What the fuck on hell is wrong with you? What if he thinks you will be going on a date with another guy? He's probably lost interest "?

She yelled at me, I could get her point but she was overthinking it.

"No! I said it's an Editorial meeting so I'm safe and it's okay...you are overthinking this you know that "? She asked me.

"I'm just assured about the way he makes you sparkle whenever you think or talk about him ,I want you to have him, I know it's crazy cause I don't know him yet but he makes you sparkle".

That really took a turn out of me, it was really impressive to hear honestly and I loved the way she said it as I realized that she was  noticing, and the fact that she cared so much about my happiness.

"Honestly Chantelle I feel like I screwed up you know, cause I feel like I could be seeing him tomorrow! You know what I mean right? But hey....what can I do...I just hope he texts me tonight....".

"He will definitely text you sweetheart but hey....I know you feel like shit right now cause you wish you could be seeing him like within 12 hours but congrats for being a smart-ass, for not making yourself available so much you know.....I'm proud of you honey".

Those sweet words were accompanied by a sweet sweet hug which was so very touching that it got me emotional, it was very sweet.