Prologue: Thinking Out Loud

There will always be that one guy that you would constantly be pining for but never truly have.

That one guy that you would change your hairstyle for, hoping that he'd somehow notice.

That one guy that you would spend sleepless nights thinking about, wondering if he's doing the same thing about you.

That one guy that you secretly loved from afar, wishing that maybe someday he would somehow reciprocate your unrequited feelings.

That one guy that you would still wish happiness for even if that happiness did not include you.

For me, that one guy's name was Marcus Adrian Lee.

I never even really existed in Adrian’s eyes.

I never really had his heart.

I could never truly make him smile the way that she used to.

I could never really mend his heart no matter how hard I tried.

I mean how do you even begin to fix a broken man? How can you became the person that he not only needs but also wants?

I constantly ask myself why I even try but then I take one look at Adrian and immediately know why.

My name is Madison Rain Rivera and this is how The Decadence of The Fallen’s Adrian changed me forever.