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2021-01-09 21:55:58Say You're Just Friend - Austin Mahone
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Whether to blame who, everything fell apart, the people who should love me and protect me ended up getting angry with me.
Gerald is mad at me. Because I screamed. And I'm really sick. I was lying weak and pale and had a lot of fluid loss. I drop again. I guess it's because I'm stressed lately. The stress continues and never ends. Is it because it's all made up? Am I overacting? But, I'm sick of this all.
Even though Gerald was angry, he still took care of me. And why should it hurt? I have to be healthy and strong for this. I have to be strong, mentally, and physically. And I'm physically helpless right now. I want to fight this helplessness, and I don't want to look weak. I have power. I can get through this. Get well soon. I want this drama to end soon. I still feel my head throbbing.
This too much headache makes my eyes hurt too. All illnesses come to me. Why don't you
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