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Too Many Mistakes I Have Made
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2024-10-29 19:42:56Say You're Just a Friend - Austin Mahone
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Gerald's POV
Staring at the vast sky in blue makes anyone's heart feel at peace. But when the heart feels narrow and black, everything is no longer touching.
I just stood on the balcony, looking at the sky that felt to be a gray color. Tired must be tired, and I really don't understand what's inside that stupid Rara brain! For some reason, that stupid woman was just as she pleased. As if I was a game of chess that could advance it backward.
Stupid woman and her assumptions. What a deadly poison in my life. That short and stupid woman didn't understand what I meant at all. She always acts carelessly, in the end, blaming everyone for hee treatment. Argh ...
Actually, oma is not serious about talking like that, and oma is only testing Rara. But the woman thinks everything is wretched, too easy to believe. Why can I love a stupid woman like this?!
Oma often asked Rara when tha
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