(before 5 years, past)
My phone rings with a massage while I’m driving.
Kai: Where are you?
Me: I’m going to Dom...
Kai: With a car? ‘ I smiled at his words and giggled silently.
Me: No with the horse. ‘ I had put smiling emoji I was smiling like an idiot too.
Kai: You will get lost. ‘At the end of his text, he also adds a smile and I can imagine how he is laughing at me or maybe smiling with that cute smile on his face and which shows little dimples on his cheeks.
Me: No I won’t get lost! I’m using navigation….
Kai: You will be lost even with that. ‘Again smiling emoji. I rolled my eyes at his words but still can’t hold that stupid smile of mine.
Me: No, I’m not. ‘I just easily write while looking at the same time on the road.
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Kai: Where are you?
Me: I got lost. ‘I sighed with annoyance.
Kai: Jesus Christ …..Super warrior, I’m coming.. ‘He adds at the end of his sentence emoji with a huge smile and some sweat near it. I’m blushing from embarrassment and growl from anger at myself; he will think that I’m a stupid child who doesn’t know how to even find the address of my best friend even with my navigation, why this thing doesn’t work for me, all the time? -“Argghh” I beat with palms to my wheel with anger.
And then I remembered that I even didn’t tell him where I am. I stopped my car on one side of the road and tried to find the street’s name, but soon I saw Dominick coming in my way with a huge smile. On his nose are pink sunglasses. He looks so good with those ragged jeans and checker t-shirts on his slim body. He playfully put his hand in the air as would thank God.
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“Oh my God thank you to bring her here safely!" He rolled his eyes with annoyance."Why didn’t you called me I was waiting for you all century! I began to think that Kai didn’t let you from his bed, but you managed an escape, well I wouldn’t blame you if you would f…” He winked at me with a huge smile on his face.
- “Dom!“ I shouted at him with my angry gaze but also with a little smile, in the corner on my lips, and didn’t let him finish what he wanted to say, but he still continued to tease me.
- “ But don’t dare forget me even if sex is inhumanly hot .” He laughed and licked his lower lips and I blushed more.
He put his sunglasses off and hugged me so strongly that I gasped from needing air but needing his cuddle was more in need.
- “Well, I’m a big girl despite you, and Kai thinks else.” I rolled my eyes but still kept a smile on my face. “And I can find my stupid friend with his new stupid gorgeous house. I’m maybe poor but not stupid it does just take more time for me to figure out where you live.
-" Oh really? He raised his one eyebrow. So you know where you are now?" He had put his arms on his hips in challenging me.-"Well, of course, I know you live...” I turned around and showed with my one finger to the first house I saw and already knew that I'm so screwed up.
“Here” Yes, I'm clueless about where we are and he just chuckled.“Oh shit…That stupid navigation why it didn’t show me.” I went to car check it if I had put the wrong address here.
- “My house is on another side of the road I was going to pick us some fun stuff…” he smiled and leaned back to my car with one hand he raised a bottle of champagne.” Did you think I let you run away easily? We must celebrate in an appropriate way girl.” I smiled at him and chuckled from his burning eyes and such a wide smile on his face. But soon I sighed heavily.
- “What’s wrong it’s not cheap champagne?” He raised one eyebrow after scanning my serious face.” It's really good I won't poison you with some dung” he continued and looked at the bottle and structure of it.
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“Dominick from all your many, crazy, and fancy friends I’m mostly not fancy.” I giggled and leaned my back to the seat in hard thinking.- “You are my only friend and others are just… he took a moment and shrugged with his shoulders like an innocent child. “ fancy …stuff?” I laughed at his cocky but also funny attitude.
- “Dom I can’t drink alcohol anymore.” I looked into his eyes. How he doesn’t get this still, he is all the time like in another world but I love him for that. I love him so much that I can't describe that, he is like my twin brother, he and Kai both are my family.
“-Girl if you say again Dom I will put in your mouth something nasty..” I stood up from the car and pushed his shoulder with my fingers at the same time laughing, he almost lost his balance but he controlled himself in hugging me again, then pushed away for a little bit that he could see my eyes. "Don’t say that my little bitch is pregnant” he laughed again, but I looked in his face with a serious gaze.- “Noooooo”….His no was so long that I blushed in shame, ten minutes, and Dom made me into tomato just nice I rolled my eyes in thinking. “No way Mathea are you serious?! Does Kai now?” He was holding my shoulders and almost screamed at me like he would be my father, but I just slowly shake my head. I didn’t say to Kai, I don’t know if I avoiding to say or there just wasn’t a good time.
- “You are the first whom I told but If you will just judge me I’m going home. “I turned around from him with anger.
-“Wait I’m sorry, that just was..” I didn’t let him finish words as some anger was in my words.
- “Crazy? Unexpected? Yeah, you can tell me.” My voice was loud but soon it turned lower and it became almost a whisper, I was looking now at my shoes.” But it is what it is and I’m so afraid Dom. I’m just afraid.” Tears began to show in my eyes and my lower lip began to tremble.
- “Hey girl, don’t be everything will be ok, ok?” He came closer and holds my shoulders with supporting eyes at his face. I love all the time when he says to me those words ( it will be ok, ok?) I love the way, how he speaks, I love his attitude well most of all people like him, his soul is so free, maybe because he doesn’t care what others think about him, he just is the way he is. His opinion is more important for me than my own family, and my family is only my mother, but Dominick is caring about the feeling of family and not the only name of it.
“-Kai loves you and you two will be a perfect family.” He hugged me with his skinny arms and his scent of expensive perfume was melting me in comfort.
- “How about your mum?” His eyes went wide in fear when he thought about her and he pushed himself from hugging that he could see my face.
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“You think I can tell her? “ I raised my eyebrows with sarcasm in my voice. “She will burn me on fire, and then curse me that I’m bitch and embarrassed all our generation, I’m weak who was seduced by the devil, which maybe is using many children to satisfice his needing and I will burn in hell with my unborn child. No, thank you, I will keep it to myself” I had spit all words so quickly and hugged myself as coldness came to my all body. And Dominick just rolled his eyes.-
“Yeah I wouldn't be in the surprise of that…Look you need to go away from her as quickly as you can.”He had put his fingers on his cheek in thinking “ Maybe he is older than you in 9 years but he is so in love with you, I can see it, how he is looking at you” He looked around and then again he took my hand we must talk about so much but not here. He smiled and went to the passenger seat.-“And I said to you that you can live with me" He sheepishly smiled " But know... In your condition, you will go to our sexy teacher’s house sooner than I thought”. His white teeth shined from the huge smile on his face as I rolled my eyes. He wouldn’t be he if he wouldn’t plan all my life in one minute. For him, everything is so easy, but it’s not a movie it's real life and everything is more difficult for me.
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“Wait. Oh shit…” I gasped in fear.“-What?” He froze…- “I forgot to say that I don’t need any more help from Kai and he is going to find me but he doesn’t know where I am.”
- “Didn’t he ask?” He asked with a raised eyebrow but I just shrugged...
-” Well, no.” It looked like he was sure where I am more than me knowing where I am. I didn’t think about that but when Dominick is asking it’s strange that he didn’t ask me where he needs to go that he could find me. He just said that he is on his way to me. Maybe he is just waiting while I figure out that name of the street.
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“Then don’t worry. When he won’t know where to go he will call you…Maybe we together could make that big bear of yours make some fun with us. He needs to socialize a little bit from his cave…Or our teacher is too cool for hanging out with us?” He smirked at me. I’m giggling a little bit from his irony…- “Well not all people are party lions like you, Dominick. “I pushed his shoulder with my hand with a smile and relief that we just can easily talk again and don’t think about anything bad or stressful. I like how he can make me forget all the heavy stuff on my shoulders and just in sort time to chill.
- “Well it's true, I’m best but I will let him swim in my shining rays because I love you…” He smirke4d at me and put his pink glasses again on his face but the glass didn’t hide his eyes they just made him look cute.
We laughed while I was driving. I felt happy and just looked at Dom when he was choosing a song. For him music was important every his mood was described with music and now he chooses some crazy song for a chilling mood. It’s just good to feel good vibes from him I was relaxed and happy just being here together. I was enjoying the wind which was blowing through the window to my hair and the bright colors of the city on a warm summer day.
- “Where is your car?” I frown a little bit when remembering that his way into the home was still long.
- “I came with uber. My annoying sister took my car yesterday and she is still keeping it. That bitch is unbelievable…” he rolled his eyes in frustration.
"- Oh common when you were sixteen you have been much worse." I’m laughing from memories of how he all the time made frustrate teachers and at the same time, he made them laugh. He all the time was late to lessons but, he managed with his tongue and good-looking somehow to avoid conflict, I think even teachers didn’t have the patience to argue with him because soon he began to flirt with them especially if that teacher would be a man.
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“You are talking like it was long ago” he smiled and put his hand behind his head, I can't believe that school is over and we must choose our universities and common I was an angel” He smirked at me, “but if she will bruise it, for her it will be worse than meet with a demon... “He laughed while I was driving, "Wait for you will choose to go to University right? As we planned..." he couldn't continue as my phone rang with a massage.-“I think it’s Kai I think maybe he is asking the place where I am that he could pick me" I knew that I should have written to him that Dom had found me and he doesn’t need to save me again, but when I looked at the number, it wasn’t his.
"-Don't change theme Mathea Snow..." he crossed his arms. “ I know baby changes everything but you just can't leave me alone with those dorks, we go together everywhere remember?" He leaned to me and my phone because I don't answer him so he looks at what took my attention.
I open the message but it was a video.
-“Who text you?”, Dominick raised his eyebrow, when he looked at my face.
-“I don’t know. It’s an unknown number.” I don't have many friends and my phone number knows only a few people. So it’s just strange.
With one hand I’m keeping my phone with another I’m driving I opened massage and saw a man's back who is kissing sexy, blond hair woman, soon he turned around, he was holding the woman to the wall and I saw his face then. My leg suddenly pushed the pedal of brakes.-“What... ta fuck Maia!” He frowned and I sensed as he looking at me but I couldn’t put off my eyes from the screen of my phone.
-“MM aya what is that?” His eyes were so wide and his face became pale. I didn’t answer him my eyes were full of water my hands were shaking. He leaned to screen and could see what I was watching, as Kai kissed with all his passion another woman he took with his hand her ass as she moaned and breathed heavily, his tongue was in her mouth like they would eating each other faces.
I felt sick my head was spinning. I get out of the car because I couldn’t breathe anymore, Dominick immediately followed me. Other cars began to signaling to us but I only could hear her hard breathing and moaning. I screamed in the middle of the road and throw out my phone, I fell on my knees it seemed I can’t breathe anymore. My hands were shaking abnormally and my heart was beating so loud that it seemed soon it will burst. The sunny day quickly changed. Dark clouds surrounded the sky. Dominick kneeled near me…-It's ok breath just breath baby I’m with you….You are not alone, Please Mathea just breathe.” He begged me with concerned eyes his hand stroke my back, then he brushed with his fingers through his blue hair with not knowing how to help me or what he should do or say to m
I cried all night on Dominick's lap while he just brushed my hair with his fingers. Kai was sending messages to him all night because I left my phone somewhere. But Dominick didn't say what he wrote he just rolled his eyes or snifted air from his nose with annoyance when he was answering Kai's messages. When I stopped crying and almost began to sleep, but suddenly began to feel sick and quickly ran to the bathroom. Dominick didn't sleep almost all night too, all the time was checking me with fear in his eyes until we both closed our eyes.***I was at Dominick's house for almost all three months. Most days I was in bed I knew soon I must come back home but I was avoiding that day I was so afraid that my belly soon will be bigger. I am afraid to see my mother's reaction. I only said that I'm at my friend's Emma house. She was my friend but we got to fight and didn't speak from that day. But my mother liked her. Dominick's parents rarely were
-"But why?" I was stunned.-"Because I don't know how to love ok?" I could feel how he with annoyance rolled his eyes but he didn't show his face, he just easily turned around from me.-"What? I was stunned. "That is the most stupid thing which you ever had said to me." I giggled, but it seemed he was avoiding to look at me he just looked at his sisters' clothes in thinking about what I should be wearing tomorrow.-"How about a mini skirt of jeans, it is still summer, and you wearing those stupid jeans it's not winter, Maia."He said sarcastically and rolled his eyes so hard that he almost could see his brains.-"Dominick you are not serious aren't you? Do you know who is not available to love? It's my mother...And you.." I was struggling in talking because in my mind I wanted to say to him so much about how he is wonderful, and caring, and sensitive, I just couldn't understand what's wrong with him.He is rich, has so many friends, he has a s
Who is this guy?he looked at me for a few seconds but for me, it seemed like an hour. My heart was beating like crazy. I began to breathe hard I wanted so much to know who he is? Why he is here watching me. Somehow I wasn't afraid of him, of a strange man with guns, but soon he turned his head away from me and pushed with his hands steering-wheel of his bike, even one of his tires jumped up. I couldn't blink as he was gone from my view and my ears only could hear the sound of it.I stepped a few steps from the window and brushed with my hand through my hair. Who the hell are carrying such guns on their backs in the street at night. Do the police not notice it? Is it even legal? Maybe he is some creep or terrorist. But of course, I'm thinking about how he is exciting and somehow sexy, even in the dark I could see that huge body covered by a black suit. I shook my head from my stupid thoughts and went to my bed.I was so tired from thinking all the time of Kai, o
-!What... ta fuck Maia! "I gritted my teeth with annoyance, I almost hit my nose with her crazy driving. What is wrong with that crazy girl who gave her license? I knew I should take her phone while she was driving. All the time she is like in another world and her love life doesn't help with that at all. I looked at her face, but I felt that something was off with her, she became so pale. Her eyes were focused on her screen as if she was looking at her death in it. Fear ran down over my skin. With every second she looked paler almost blue, she didn't even breathe. She began to shake from fear, is it a panic attack? My eyes landed on her phone screen. And I couldn't believe what I saw.My voice became like a whisper, I didn't know what to say. What I should to say her? I knew it I must something to do or say but I only could watch how all fire of life slowly was losing her eyes."-MM aya what is that?"Good job Dominick nothing wiser couldn't you say? You
Kai disappeared in the dark and I was happy that he didn't follow her anymore. I couldn't watch how he destroys her with his words or just existence. I am looking at the car where my best friend is sitting as she was frozen into ice and I so afraid to go to her, this day should have been the most fun day, most beautiful and we should have had a laugh until tears drop from our eyes or laugh until stomach would hurt.But there she is, a pregnant woman without money or properly family, without anything and I afraid to look into her eyes. Should I say that everything will be alright? or should I say that Kai is a dork, or that I love her so much and I will be with her be matter what...I deeply breathed and went by that car, I open the door but she didn't look at me. And all thing which I should say to comfort her just disappeared from my head. Nothing will comfort her, not one my word. And everything that I would want to say to her is helpless.-"Come o
I opened my eyes when my phone beeped again I groaned from the noise and turned around but some hair was tickling my nose. Wait I don't have long hair....what the f...I raised my head and a girl was lying in my bed... Maia. My head suddenly dropped again on my pillow it was heavy. Heavy because I know that shitty day must begin... I hate Mondays... My phone began to ring. Just perfect..."Mom." I took lazily my phone and sighed when I saw what is calling.-"I'm Listening, talk women." I said with a cold voice.-"Are you serious?! "My mother screamed at me. "What is wrong with you?!"-"Ok, ok I'm kidding mom." I smiled and giggled. Don't be so serious. I slowly moved from my bed and left Maia with her peaceful sleep of beauty. My head turned to her while I sat on another side of the bed.-"Oh If you think that I'm serious maybe you wanna talk with your father?" Her voice sounded playful. Oh hell no, I'm more in messing with my mom than dad. He is no
Me-'Hi nerd, are you smart enough or just pretending to be one of them to make impress me? I put a wink emoji. And didn't need to wait as he responded to me.Tom- 'Try me. he added a smile in his text.Me - 'We don't have a phone but there was send a video message in it, can you say who had sent it?- 'Um can I ask who is we? To whom belongs this phone, Dominick? I sighed and began to scratch my back it really hurts but the more I touched it more I felt weak and sick.- 'So you can't do it, I was right. I added a smile. He sounded jealous and it made me smile.- 'Do you have the number of a sender? "No emoji? You really are jealous and irritated, don't you? I smiled of thinking.-No we lost the phone as I mentioned we don't have it. As my head was a little bit dizzy I sat down by the table. What is wrong with me did I something eat yesterday.- Well do you remember the number of the phone's owner?I quickly se
“-Hey my little boy, about what are you talking?” I hugged him so tight I could feel as our hearts began to beat quicker. Did he notice anything? Jesus how it affects Orest? I never thought that he knew something is wrong between me and Kai. I took his both cheeks with my hands and I looked into his oceans’ eyes.“I never going to leave you. How can you say that? I’m going to come back just maybe in late time when you will be sleeping, but I never leave you do you understand that?”’ My voice was a little bit with anger, that he thought that I can leave him, but soon I softened my gaze, he is just afraid, he is still a little boy, my little boy.“-I…I just dreamed that you left and forget us, you didn’t want to come back.” He whispered and his lover loupe began to tremble and the tears began to make him wet his eyes. “I don’t want to go sleep if you go alone.”“-It is only
Maias point of view: future All the time I felt those goosebumps when he was near me. I didn’t want to show him, how deeply I was affected by him, by his appearance, so I just casually took my eraser and slowly began to clean the mirror. It was a bad idea because now I could see his muscular body, and my heart began to beat quickly and loudly. I think he could hear it. Because now I could see a small smile on the corner of his lips like he knew how desperate was beating my heart for him. He stands right behind me, three times taller, four times bigger, that behind him I just disappear. His eyes lustfully looking to me from my legs he slowly looks to my necks then he ties to find my eyes in the mirror, there is a tense aura in that way he looks at me, but his hands do not dare to touch my body, if he would be in fear that I may disappear right in front of him, like a fog. I wiped through my long hair with a towel, so careful
After 5 years, Maia point of view: I can’t take my eyes off my cactus, which proudly standing in OUR bathroom, of OUR house. Kai's and mine. Cactus decorated with dark red flowers, I gave it to myself. I found him in a small flower shop, in the outskirts of town. As soon as we settled into our new home, I wanted a plant that would enliven the white, cold walls. I was expecting a big green plant, something like a tree with big leaves, but those big, white, cold walls are still naked. I can’t say that I love flowers or appreciate when people give them to me. Yes, plants can hurt when someone gives you it for apologies then flowers become the symbol of pain. I know that pain, it’s more painful than injury from the body. Cactus injured by barely visible needles, the body is permeated by unrestrained pain, which is not easy to eliminate without removing all the causes of pain. This plant, makes me smil
I was walking slowly down the stairs, my mind was busy with thoughts of strange vision which I saw, but at least my head and back didn't hurt anymore. I was like in another world where was chaos, dirty people with guns in the distance, and Maia she looked much older as well as I was. Did I just saw the future? If I did it looked really fucked up.I looked so unrecognizable and there wasn't only my look, the way how I talk or how I was walking: he was me but also not me. He hadn't any confidence, he was keeping his head lowered, and he was with a humpback. He said that Maia was a madwoman and that everybody was talking about her in that way. But I could never do that to her no matter in what hell we would be.But it was exactly the same words I said to Nina. Did I hurt my sister for real? did I crossed the line... I feel so bad now and frustrated with myself. I shook my head with annoyance.I shouldn't say those words but still, it wasn't said so cruel as that gu
Me-'Hi nerd, are you smart enough or just pretending to be one of them to make impress me? I put a wink emoji. And didn't need to wait as he responded to me.Tom- 'Try me. he added a smile in his text.Me - 'We don't have a phone but there was send a video message in it, can you say who had sent it?- 'Um can I ask who is we? To whom belongs this phone, Dominick? I sighed and began to scratch my back it really hurts but the more I touched it more I felt weak and sick.- 'So you can't do it, I was right. I added a smile. He sounded jealous and it made me smile.- 'Do you have the number of a sender? "No emoji? You really are jealous and irritated, don't you? I smiled of thinking.-No we lost the phone as I mentioned we don't have it. As my head was a little bit dizzy I sat down by the table. What is wrong with me did I something eat yesterday.- Well do you remember the number of the phone's owner?I quickly se
I opened my eyes when my phone beeped again I groaned from the noise and turned around but some hair was tickling my nose. Wait I don't have long hair....what the f...I raised my head and a girl was lying in my bed... Maia. My head suddenly dropped again on my pillow it was heavy. Heavy because I know that shitty day must begin... I hate Mondays... My phone began to ring. Just perfect..."Mom." I took lazily my phone and sighed when I saw what is calling.-"I'm Listening, talk women." I said with a cold voice.-"Are you serious?! "My mother screamed at me. "What is wrong with you?!"-"Ok, ok I'm kidding mom." I smiled and giggled. Don't be so serious. I slowly moved from my bed and left Maia with her peaceful sleep of beauty. My head turned to her while I sat on another side of the bed.-"Oh If you think that I'm serious maybe you wanna talk with your father?" Her voice sounded playful. Oh hell no, I'm more in messing with my mom than dad. He is no
Kai disappeared in the dark and I was happy that he didn't follow her anymore. I couldn't watch how he destroys her with his words or just existence. I am looking at the car where my best friend is sitting as she was frozen into ice and I so afraid to go to her, this day should have been the most fun day, most beautiful and we should have had a laugh until tears drop from our eyes or laugh until stomach would hurt.But there she is, a pregnant woman without money or properly family, without anything and I afraid to look into her eyes. Should I say that everything will be alright? or should I say that Kai is a dork, or that I love her so much and I will be with her be matter what...I deeply breathed and went by that car, I open the door but she didn't look at me. And all thing which I should say to comfort her just disappeared from my head. Nothing will comfort her, not one my word. And everything that I would want to say to her is helpless.-"Come o
-!What... ta fuck Maia! "I gritted my teeth with annoyance, I almost hit my nose with her crazy driving. What is wrong with that crazy girl who gave her license? I knew I should take her phone while she was driving. All the time she is like in another world and her love life doesn't help with that at all. I looked at her face, but I felt that something was off with her, she became so pale. Her eyes were focused on her screen as if she was looking at her death in it. Fear ran down over my skin. With every second she looked paler almost blue, she didn't even breathe. She began to shake from fear, is it a panic attack? My eyes landed on her phone screen. And I couldn't believe what I saw.My voice became like a whisper, I didn't know what to say. What I should to say her? I knew it I must something to do or say but I only could watch how all fire of life slowly was losing her eyes."-MM aya what is that?"Good job Dominick nothing wiser couldn't you say? You
Who is this guy?he looked at me for a few seconds but for me, it seemed like an hour. My heart was beating like crazy. I began to breathe hard I wanted so much to know who he is? Why he is here watching me. Somehow I wasn't afraid of him, of a strange man with guns, but soon he turned his head away from me and pushed with his hands steering-wheel of his bike, even one of his tires jumped up. I couldn't blink as he was gone from my view and my ears only could hear the sound of it.I stepped a few steps from the window and brushed with my hand through my hair. Who the hell are carrying such guns on their backs in the street at night. Do the police not notice it? Is it even legal? Maybe he is some creep or terrorist. But of course, I'm thinking about how he is exciting and somehow sexy, even in the dark I could see that huge body covered by a black suit. I shook my head from my stupid thoughts and went to my bed.I was so tired from thinking all the time of Kai, o