I opened my eyes when my phone beeped again I groaned from the noise and turned around but some hair was tickling my nose. Wait I don't have long hair....what the f...I raised my head and a girl was lying in my bed... Maia. My head suddenly dropped again on my pillow it was heavy. Heavy because I know that shitty day must begin... I hate Mondays... My phone began to ring. Just perfect...
"Mom." I took lazily my phone and sighed when I saw what is calling.
-"I'm Listening, talk women." I said with a cold voice.
-"Are you serious?! "My mother screamed at me. "What is wrong with you?!"
-"Ok, ok I'm kidding mom." I smiled and giggled. Don't be so serious. I slowly moved from my bed and left Maia with her peaceful sleep of beauty. My head turned to her while I sat on another side of the bed.
-"Oh If you think that I'm serious maybe you wanna talk with your father?" Her voice sounded playful. Oh hell no, I'm more in messing with my mom than dad. He is not one of those persons on who you could make pranks and escape with unbroken bones. One his look and I want that ground would swallow me.
- "No, thank you, mom, I'm enjoying time with you." I looked at the fridge while my neck was holding the phone. But soon closed it and decided to make coffee. My breakfast when parents are out: coffee and cigarettes, yes this day must begin correctly, and I wouldn't be I if I wouldn't fix it in my style.
While I was waiting for boiling water I looked at the mirror and touched my hair. They are messy and a little bit greasy. I need a shower. Wait, is this grey hair? No, it can't be my beautiful, blue hair. What the fuck?
-" Dominick? Hello"Are you listening to me?" My mother sounded annoyed.
-"Yes, yes I'm here, sorry, I didn't sleep well." I sighed in a tired voice.
-"Is everything alright?" Her voice sounded concerned. "Is somebody bullying you at school if it is I swear..."
-" What? No what are you talking about?" 'Try me pensioner and from the moment I open my mouth you will need to buy some nervine tea for your heart that it wouldn't explode from shock. Try my confidence bitch, I smiled when thought about the challenge it would be fun. It was a long time when somebody tried to insult me I almost missed it.
"Besides school is over, mom." I can't believe she forgot that little unimportant fact that their son ended school. I put my cup on the table angrily, and put some coffee, then sugar in an aggressive way.
- "Oh...yes of course it is. I can't believe that time is running so quickly. I wish we could spend more time," she sighed heavily.
"-Whatever" I whispered. I hate those awkward pauses which now are too frequent.
" - No it's a very important period of your life I'm so sorry we couldn't be there for you...Do you need some help with university or maybe some money?" I hear the word sorry from her too often. But of course, everything can fix the money. I'm not surprised. Well, it's better with money than without anything.
-" We both will choose art in creating style, mom. And money yes of course you can send me it."
-"Both...Who are we both? Dominick? Listen you are smart you could easily be invited to a prestigious university and your father would be happy to support that school, don't waste your potential son, it's time to grow up." Ok, this is not her thoughts it's clear as day that my father washed her brains.
-"Who said that it's dad yes? You know you talking like him." My hands began to shake and I can't hold anymore that cup. I need to smoke.
-"No listen we just thought that any hobby is ok, but it's your life Dominick, and you are smart. You can be whatever you want. Is this? that girl.... who stops you? Maybe you like her more than a friend".. She whispered as it would be some secret or bad thing. Hobby?oh this is nice I rolled my eyes.
-"Exactly mom, I will be whatever I want, not you or dad or anybody else can decide it. And nobody stops me from anything. I am gay, I am who I am, deal with it." I remember when I was fourteen: My parents were eating dinner and I said:" mom, dad, you will not be grandparents. Never ever." They smiled at me and I continued.
"I will never have a girlfriend." My mouth was full of food. And they both were reading something on their phones. I didn't see a lot of my family when they were at home they were on phone or computer and then most of the time they spend in traveling. "For sure you will. You are so cute any girl would want to be with you." My mother said and dad laughed, still eyes on the screen, but soon every sound of laugh was quickly forced into awkward silence after I talked again: U won't have a grandchild from me because I'm gay." Well, it was said. And my belly already was full, it was a delicious dinner and one of our longest talks as I remembered. My father dropped the phone and my mother's eyes almost fall out from her head. Easy-peasy. I stood up, took an apple from the table throw it into the air, and caught it with a huge smile on my face. I went to my bedroom while my mother and father were sitting as they saw a ghost. As I said easy peasy. And their reaction was just hilarious it's sad I didn't record it.
-"Don't be angry with me you know I'm not saying that it's bad what you like or sleep, ok that sounded strange."She sighed like she would make some hard crossword. "just... You know maybe something changed about what you like, you are so fond of her and I'm talking about your life, not every time I will be able to send you money? How much money do you think a hairstylist or makeup stylist is making?" Why all the time everybody thinks that I'm in love with Maia, yes I love her but not as a woman my love is much stronger she is my soul-friend, my soul-sister, she is my other half, the one who sees me, in real.
-"So this is about money? Don't afraid I don't need your money. " I set fire to my cigarette. I needed it so bad. The smoke was delicious and the action of my hand how I held a cigarette to my mouth then out. It made me calmer. More I liked when we didn't talk so much. And still, somehow I can't be irritated with her. I wish I could, but I just can't maybe because she reminds me of Maia.
She sighed heavily.
-You are unbelievable. Do you know how much patience we have to have just to talk with you? You know we would give you everything but ... wait are you smoking?
-"Of course not, mother." I have frozen.
-"You are lying to me." She sighed. Why she all the time knows when I'm lying is there any cameras at the house? I checked them yesterday it can't be. She doesn't remember when I ended school but she can say when I'm lying, damn this woman. "And talking about your friend do you know how many times her mother called me.
-"Just block her." I quickly found a solution isn't I the smart one?
-"Dominick!" mother was angry with my decision and giggled at her irritation. Yep, can't be angry with her.
-"what? She is psychic. " I pretended naively.
-"I don't want any scandals Dominick or I swear we will send you to the army." She was loosening her patience with my attitude.
-"Mom it's 21 century you can't force anybody...I sighed tiredly. Especially to force be enough stupid to listen more stupid people take a gun and splash other brains. Only idiots go to the army."
-"Dominick please after your last show all paparazzi are around us. Do you even imagine what has your father to go through? You know don't play with his patience, you can be very surprised what is waiting for you if he will lose it." she sighed heavily words almost in a whisper.
- "He is tuff he will handle it." I rolled my eyes.
-"Watch your tone boy." My father's voice was heard under next to my mother. "Shh it's ok I got it " My mother shushed him immediately in a whisper. I heard as she went to the yard and closed the door behind her.
-"Is dad near you?" I already knew the answer and my body tensed immediately.
-"Nooo." she squeezed she is such a bad liar. I rolled my eyes her tone was in a panic. And a heavy sight ran from my mouth.
-"Mom, Maia really feels bad she needs me."
-"Baby, she should be with her parent no matter what they are in your eyes."
-"You don't imagine, what that witch forces her to do, Maia is afraid of her, she is all contained because of her. I won't leave her no matter what. Even if dad is against it"
- "Listen Dominick why do you think she texted and called me? I don't want that her come to our house and would make here a scene. Another one."
-"What did you say?"! I almost screamed in shock. My eyes grew wide from realization.
-"Hugh? What do you mean? I don't wanna of that girl's mother in our house?" she was confused.
-"No, you said she texted and didn't want to make a scene? Why somebody sends a video of kissing and cheating? If this was that girl who had sent it?" My mind traveled a hundred miles away to yesterday when Maia got that video.
-"Oh my god Dominick what are you talking about?" My mother was confused of course she didn't know what I was talking about, but she just gave me the fought. Is that woman from the video searched for Maia? What are the relationships between Kai and her? well, it's obvious that their relationship is deep between her legs. Are they a couple or just one stand night?
-"Am...yah mum listen I have to go, no worries, I will care for Maia." I need to find who send her that video who wanted that Maia would know the truth about Kai. Damn why I gave her phone to Kai?
-"Jesus Dominick for once can you listen to what I am saying to you and don't create your own interpretations of what I said and not what you want to hear? You should care for your sister more than your friend, do you know that?!" she almost screamed at me in a whisper, for suppose that my father wouldn't hear our conversation. She was afraid of me more than myself of my father.
- "Diana, do you understand that he is out of control, he needs discipline." My father angrily said to my mother when he closed the door too loudly. I heard when she sighed heavily well it seemed that they will have a hard conversation about me again. Mum on my side well as my dad with his Japanese discipline in another. Not my problem guys.
-"Yeah ok mom it looks like dad wants to talk with you and I must go make some breakfast for Maia." I wanted to end the conversation as quickly as possible. I won't be the subject of their dramas again.
-"What? Are you for real? are you making food? for that girl? By yourself? I'm not surprised why Nina is so jealous of that girl. Listen to Dominick I want you that...." Well, Samantha, will survive her drama. I thought about my sister. My father called her Samantha, but my mother- Nina. My grandmother gave my sister this name, but my mother wasn't happy about it. She all the time calls her Nina.
-"Mum, I really have to go, bye, see you soon." I ended smoke as well as this call and quickly send a message to Tom.
Me-'Hi nerd, are you smart enough or just pretending to be one of them to impress me? I put a wink emoji. And didn't need to wait as he responded to me.
Tom-Try me. he added a smile in his text.
Me-'Hi nerd, are you smart enough or just pretending to be one of them to make impress me? I put a wink emoji. And didn't need to wait as he responded to me.Tom- 'Try me. he added a smile in his text.Me - 'We don't have a phone but there was send a video message in it, can you say who had sent it?- 'Um can I ask who is we? To whom belongs this phone, Dominick? I sighed and began to scratch my back it really hurts but the more I touched it more I felt weak and sick.- 'So you can't do it, I was right. I added a smile. He sounded jealous and it made me smile.- 'Do you have the number of a sender? "No emoji? You really are jealous and irritated, don't you? I smiled of thinking.-No we lost the phone as I mentioned we don't have it. As my head was a little bit dizzy I sat down by the table. What is wrong with me did I something eat yesterday.- Well do you remember the number of the phone's owner?I quickly se
I was walking slowly down the stairs, my mind was busy with thoughts of strange vision which I saw, but at least my head and back didn't hurt anymore. I was like in another world where was chaos, dirty people with guns in the distance, and Maia she looked much older as well as I was. Did I just saw the future? If I did it looked really fucked up.I looked so unrecognizable and there wasn't only my look, the way how I talk or how I was walking: he was me but also not me. He hadn't any confidence, he was keeping his head lowered, and he was with a humpback. He said that Maia was a madwoman and that everybody was talking about her in that way. But I could never do that to her no matter in what hell we would be.But it was exactly the same words I said to Nina. Did I hurt my sister for real? did I crossed the line... I feel so bad now and frustrated with myself. I shook my head with annoyance.I shouldn't say those words but still, it wasn't said so cruel as that gu
After 5 years, Maia point of view: I can’t take my eyes off my cactus, which proudly standing in OUR bathroom, of OUR house. Kai's and mine. Cactus decorated with dark red flowers, I gave it to myself. I found him in a small flower shop, in the outskirts of town. As soon as we settled into our new home, I wanted a plant that would enliven the white, cold walls. I was expecting a big green plant, something like a tree with big leaves, but those big, white, cold walls are still naked. I can’t say that I love flowers or appreciate when people give them to me. Yes, plants can hurt when someone gives you it for apologies then flowers become the symbol of pain. I know that pain, it’s more painful than injury from the body. Cactus injured by barely visible needles, the body is permeated by unrestrained pain, which is not easy to eliminate without removing all the causes of pain. This plant, makes me smil
Maias point of view: future All the time I felt those goosebumps when he was near me. I didn’t want to show him, how deeply I was affected by him, by his appearance, so I just casually took my eraser and slowly began to clean the mirror. It was a bad idea because now I could see his muscular body, and my heart began to beat quickly and loudly. I think he could hear it. Because now I could see a small smile on the corner of his lips like he knew how desperate was beating my heart for him. He stands right behind me, three times taller, four times bigger, that behind him I just disappear. His eyes lustfully looking to me from my legs he slowly looks to my necks then he ties to find my eyes in the mirror, there is a tense aura in that way he looks at me, but his hands do not dare to touch my body, if he would be in fear that I may disappear right in front of him, like a fog. I wiped through my long hair with a towel, so careful
“-Hey my little boy, about what are you talking?” I hugged him so tight I could feel as our hearts began to beat quicker. Did he notice anything? Jesus how it affects Orest? I never thought that he knew something is wrong between me and Kai. I took his both cheeks with my hands and I looked into his oceans’ eyes.“I never going to leave you. How can you say that? I’m going to come back just maybe in late time when you will be sleeping, but I never leave you do you understand that?”’ My voice was a little bit with anger, that he thought that I can leave him, but soon I softened my gaze, he is just afraid, he is still a little boy, my little boy.“-I…I just dreamed that you left and forget us, you didn’t want to come back.” He whispered and his lover loupe began to tremble and the tears began to make him wet his eyes. “I don’t want to go sleep if you go alone.”“-It is only
(before 5 years, past)My phone rings with a massage while I’m driving.Kai: Where are you?Me: I’m going to Dom...Kai: With a car? ‘ I smiled at his words and giggled silently.Me: No with the horse. ‘ I had put smiling emoji I was smiling like an idiot too.Kai: You will get lost. ‘At the end of his text, he also adds a smile and I can imagine how he is laughing at me or maybe smiling with that cute smile on his face and which shows little dimples on his cheeks.Me: No I won’t get lost! I’m using navigation….
I felt sick my head was spinning. I get out of the car because I couldn’t breathe anymore, Dominick immediately followed me. Other cars began to signaling to us but I only could hear her hard breathing and moaning. I screamed in the middle of the road and throw out my phone, I fell on my knees it seemed I can’t breathe anymore. My hands were shaking abnormally and my heart was beating so loud that it seemed soon it will burst. The sunny day quickly changed. Dark clouds surrounded the sky. Dominick kneeled near me…-It's ok breath just breath baby I’m with you….You are not alone, Please Mathea just breathe.” He begged me with concerned eyes his hand stroke my back, then he brushed with his fingers through his blue hair with not knowing how to help me or what he should do or say to m
I cried all night on Dominick's lap while he just brushed my hair with his fingers. Kai was sending messages to him all night because I left my phone somewhere. But Dominick didn't say what he wrote he just rolled his eyes or snifted air from his nose with annoyance when he was answering Kai's messages. When I stopped crying and almost began to sleep, but suddenly began to feel sick and quickly ran to the bathroom. Dominick didn't sleep almost all night too, all the time was checking me with fear in his eyes until we both closed our eyes.***I was at Dominick's house for almost all three months. Most days I was in bed I knew soon I must come back home but I was avoiding that day I was so afraid that my belly soon will be bigger. I am afraid to see my mother's reaction. I only said that I'm at my friend's Emma house. She was my friend but we got to fight and didn't speak from that day. But my mother liked her. Dominick's parents rarely were
“-Hey my little boy, about what are you talking?” I hugged him so tight I could feel as our hearts began to beat quicker. Did he notice anything? Jesus how it affects Orest? I never thought that he knew something is wrong between me and Kai. I took his both cheeks with my hands and I looked into his oceans’ eyes.“I never going to leave you. How can you say that? I’m going to come back just maybe in late time when you will be sleeping, but I never leave you do you understand that?”’ My voice was a little bit with anger, that he thought that I can leave him, but soon I softened my gaze, he is just afraid, he is still a little boy, my little boy.“-I…I just dreamed that you left and forget us, you didn’t want to come back.” He whispered and his lover loupe began to tremble and the tears began to make him wet his eyes. “I don’t want to go sleep if you go alone.”“-It is only
Maias point of view: future All the time I felt those goosebumps when he was near me. I didn’t want to show him, how deeply I was affected by him, by his appearance, so I just casually took my eraser and slowly began to clean the mirror. It was a bad idea because now I could see his muscular body, and my heart began to beat quickly and loudly. I think he could hear it. Because now I could see a small smile on the corner of his lips like he knew how desperate was beating my heart for him. He stands right behind me, three times taller, four times bigger, that behind him I just disappear. His eyes lustfully looking to me from my legs he slowly looks to my necks then he ties to find my eyes in the mirror, there is a tense aura in that way he looks at me, but his hands do not dare to touch my body, if he would be in fear that I may disappear right in front of him, like a fog. I wiped through my long hair with a towel, so careful
After 5 years, Maia point of view: I can’t take my eyes off my cactus, which proudly standing in OUR bathroom, of OUR house. Kai's and mine. Cactus decorated with dark red flowers, I gave it to myself. I found him in a small flower shop, in the outskirts of town. As soon as we settled into our new home, I wanted a plant that would enliven the white, cold walls. I was expecting a big green plant, something like a tree with big leaves, but those big, white, cold walls are still naked. I can’t say that I love flowers or appreciate when people give them to me. Yes, plants can hurt when someone gives you it for apologies then flowers become the symbol of pain. I know that pain, it’s more painful than injury from the body. Cactus injured by barely visible needles, the body is permeated by unrestrained pain, which is not easy to eliminate without removing all the causes of pain. This plant, makes me smil
I was walking slowly down the stairs, my mind was busy with thoughts of strange vision which I saw, but at least my head and back didn't hurt anymore. I was like in another world where was chaos, dirty people with guns in the distance, and Maia she looked much older as well as I was. Did I just saw the future? If I did it looked really fucked up.I looked so unrecognizable and there wasn't only my look, the way how I talk or how I was walking: he was me but also not me. He hadn't any confidence, he was keeping his head lowered, and he was with a humpback. He said that Maia was a madwoman and that everybody was talking about her in that way. But I could never do that to her no matter in what hell we would be.But it was exactly the same words I said to Nina. Did I hurt my sister for real? did I crossed the line... I feel so bad now and frustrated with myself. I shook my head with annoyance.I shouldn't say those words but still, it wasn't said so cruel as that gu
Me-'Hi nerd, are you smart enough or just pretending to be one of them to make impress me? I put a wink emoji. And didn't need to wait as he responded to me.Tom- 'Try me. he added a smile in his text.Me - 'We don't have a phone but there was send a video message in it, can you say who had sent it?- 'Um can I ask who is we? To whom belongs this phone, Dominick? I sighed and began to scratch my back it really hurts but the more I touched it more I felt weak and sick.- 'So you can't do it, I was right. I added a smile. He sounded jealous and it made me smile.- 'Do you have the number of a sender? "No emoji? You really are jealous and irritated, don't you? I smiled of thinking.-No we lost the phone as I mentioned we don't have it. As my head was a little bit dizzy I sat down by the table. What is wrong with me did I something eat yesterday.- Well do you remember the number of the phone's owner?I quickly se
I opened my eyes when my phone beeped again I groaned from the noise and turned around but some hair was tickling my nose. Wait I don't have long hair....what the f...I raised my head and a girl was lying in my bed... Maia. My head suddenly dropped again on my pillow it was heavy. Heavy because I know that shitty day must begin... I hate Mondays... My phone began to ring. Just perfect..."Mom." I took lazily my phone and sighed when I saw what is calling.-"I'm Listening, talk women." I said with a cold voice.-"Are you serious?! "My mother screamed at me. "What is wrong with you?!"-"Ok, ok I'm kidding mom." I smiled and giggled. Don't be so serious. I slowly moved from my bed and left Maia with her peaceful sleep of beauty. My head turned to her while I sat on another side of the bed.-"Oh If you think that I'm serious maybe you wanna talk with your father?" Her voice sounded playful. Oh hell no, I'm more in messing with my mom than dad. He is no
Kai disappeared in the dark and I was happy that he didn't follow her anymore. I couldn't watch how he destroys her with his words or just existence. I am looking at the car where my best friend is sitting as she was frozen into ice and I so afraid to go to her, this day should have been the most fun day, most beautiful and we should have had a laugh until tears drop from our eyes or laugh until stomach would hurt.But there she is, a pregnant woman without money or properly family, without anything and I afraid to look into her eyes. Should I say that everything will be alright? or should I say that Kai is a dork, or that I love her so much and I will be with her be matter what...I deeply breathed and went by that car, I open the door but she didn't look at me. And all thing which I should say to comfort her just disappeared from my head. Nothing will comfort her, not one my word. And everything that I would want to say to her is helpless.-"Come o
-!What... ta fuck Maia! "I gritted my teeth with annoyance, I almost hit my nose with her crazy driving. What is wrong with that crazy girl who gave her license? I knew I should take her phone while she was driving. All the time she is like in another world and her love life doesn't help with that at all. I looked at her face, but I felt that something was off with her, she became so pale. Her eyes were focused on her screen as if she was looking at her death in it. Fear ran down over my skin. With every second she looked paler almost blue, she didn't even breathe. She began to shake from fear, is it a panic attack? My eyes landed on her phone screen. And I couldn't believe what I saw.My voice became like a whisper, I didn't know what to say. What I should to say her? I knew it I must something to do or say but I only could watch how all fire of life slowly was losing her eyes."-MM aya what is that?"Good job Dominick nothing wiser couldn't you say? You
Who is this guy?he looked at me for a few seconds but for me, it seemed like an hour. My heart was beating like crazy. I began to breathe hard I wanted so much to know who he is? Why he is here watching me. Somehow I wasn't afraid of him, of a strange man with guns, but soon he turned his head away from me and pushed with his hands steering-wheel of his bike, even one of his tires jumped up. I couldn't blink as he was gone from my view and my ears only could hear the sound of it.I stepped a few steps from the window and brushed with my hand through my hair. Who the hell are carrying such guns on their backs in the street at night. Do the police not notice it? Is it even legal? Maybe he is some creep or terrorist. But of course, I'm thinking about how he is exciting and somehow sexy, even in the dark I could see that huge body covered by a black suit. I shook my head from my stupid thoughts and went to my bed.I was so tired from thinking all the time of Kai, o