Fifty

"Oh, put on some clothes." I rolled my eyes, very uncomfortable about Harper's nudity when Natalie was standing inside the room.

Okay, I get it. They slept together, they may have got pregnant too, but they could at least have a sense of propriety when I was around. 

Natalie turned around immediately as if she hadn't seen a naked Harper before and Harper scrambled with his boxers and hastily put them on. I rolled my eyes at this fake display.

I picked up my discarded sandals from the floor. I walked towards the bed so I could put them on. 

"Zara, we need to talk," Natalie whispered and my eyes snapped up to meet her red, blotchy ones.

"Do we, Natalie? I think you and Harper need to do that more and let me know what conclusion your discussion brings." I smiled at her but my eyes reflected the venom I felt inside.

I wanted to applaud myself because I knew I looked like I was in control of the situation, while inside I was slowly crumbling. I wanted out of this room, away from the two people who betrayed me in the worst way possible.

The room felt like a black hole. Different thoughts and questions raced in my mind a mile a minute. Different feelings raged through me, but on the whole, I felt numb. My body registered only one thing, that I needed to get out of there.

I stood up after I was done wearing my sandals and came face to face with a familiar pair of green orbs. The green orbs that I had fallen in love with, the orbs I had looked into as I had asked Harper to mark me last night. It is really funny how different today am last night were, they were worlds apart.

Harper was done fumbling with his clothes because he was standing fully clothed in front of me, his eyes pained but determined.

"Please, just five minutes. Listen to us." Harper pleaded with me and I couldn't help but gaze into his eyes. I felt his wolf call out to me, call me crazy or whatever, but I could feel his wolf clawing at the back of Harper's head, struggling to take control.

A breath got stuck in my throat as I noticed how Harper's green eyes changed to black ones. I was afraid, I had no idea if I felt my fear or the fear Harper's wolf was radiating.

I sighed in defeat and my shoulders slumped. I had no idea why these kinds of things always happened to me. What had I ever done to deserve such a shitty hand?

As if Harper's wolf was ordering me, I sat back on the bed, my eyes firmly on the ground. I refused to look at them and whatever they had to say, better be quick.

"I rejected you and chose Amanda as my chosen mate like I have already told you." Didn't mean it hurt any less. "I was depressed during that time, my wolf was in disagreement with me, which made me have constant mood swings."

I did not move, but I could see Harper sitting on the bed beside me. If he liked his fingers, he wouldn't try to touch me. Natalie moved from the door and walked to stand in front of me, blocking my view of the ground.

"I slept around even after I had promised to be Amanda's mate." Wow, depressed and horny. I scrunched my nose in disgust at the fact that Harper slept around even after he had his chosen mate. Was he going to cheat on her for the rest of his life?

Natalie took a step closer and crouched down in front of me, her eyes red and puffy. "Me and Samantha knew you were mates and we couldn't understand why he would reject you. So, we planned to confront him about it." 

So much for confronting him.

"They cornered me at a pack party a few days later. Both of them were drunk, slightly tipsy but could hold their own." 

I felt a sense of foreboding which made me uneasy. Did they have a fucking threesome? I didn't even want to consider the possibility.

"Something happened and Samantha had to leave early, so I planned to confront him on my own. I scanned the party venue but couldn't find him. You wouldn't be surprised to hear that I found him in one of the rooms and he wasn't alone."

I registered the words and my eyes snapped up to meet Harper's green ones but they were downcast. I felt disgusted then, truly disgusted. I never knew it was possible to want to get away from someone as much as I wanted to get away from Harper at the moment.

My heart ached with the thought, he was my mate and I loved him with all my heart. This love never felt as toxic as it felt right then. Different emotions were warring inside my head but I couldn't get a hold of any single one of them.

"I caught him naked with another she-wolf from our pack. If he was surprised, he didn't show it, but the girl quickly scrambled off the bed, gathered her clothes, and scurried out of the room."

I turned my head in Harper's direction, waiting for him to deny whatever Natalie said. He was sleeping with another girl when he had already decided he would mate with Amanda. Was that how their relationship was going to be, him cheating all the time? 

Harper hung his head in shame and I wanted to bash his face in the hardwood floor as hard as I possibly could. Was that how our relationship would have been? Him cheating all the time while I wouldn't have been able to do anything else? I won't even be able to describe how many levels of disgusting I found it.

"I wasn't prepared to catch him while having sex, I mean I had considered the possibility, but I was hoping against it." Yeah, now I know why! "I just wanted to know why he was acting the way he was, sleeping around, rejecting you, mating Amanda."

Natalie and Harper shared a look before looking at me again and honestly speaking, I was too emotionally exhausted to care what it was. For me, I had come past the point where these things mattered anymore. They had already shared their juices, they could very well share looks with each other, fuck each other for all I care. I was done, in more ways than one. 

They must have sensed something change in me because Harper spoke before I could make an effort to get up from the bed. "To make the story short, one thing led to another and we had sex." 

I nodded and pushed myself up from the bed. I had no idea what point they were trying to prove from this story because they had just confirmed what I had already hunched at.

"So, I didn't cheat on you," Harper said, sounding idiotically hopeful.

I stopped on my way to the door and turned around to face the two people who I had trusted most. It was as if my mind had suddenly come up to speed with all the new revelations because I slapped Harper as hard as I could. 

"And what does that prove?" I screamed in his face. "You had sex with my best friend, Harper and the only thing you're worried about is that it happened before you accepted me as your mate," I answered in his face, he looked visibly hurt and shaken but I was in no mood to coddle him.

"I have let everything go by us, to be in a healthy relationship with you. I have let go of your playboy past, the fact that you slept with my sister and treated her like shit, the fact that you rejected me as your mate, that you took another she-wolf as your mate. But I can't let this go, I simply won't let this go. You slept with my best friend and it didn't seem important enough to tell me. The only thing you care about is that you stuck to some sort of fucked up rules about relationships. This is the last straw; this is where I stop neglecting your screw-ups."

Harper looked visibly shaken up and I reveled at the pain and regret I registered in his face. I turned to Natalie then.

"And you, why did you even come here, barging in the room like you own the fucking place? I have been a true friend to you for so many years and that's how you repay me, by sleeping with my so-called mate? What did you even come to explain?"

I took a deep breath again as I finished my rant. It felt good, really good to scream at these traitorous people standing in front of me. Why am I always stuck in the crossfire?

"You know what, I was happier when you weren't in my life," I said, my gaze piercing Harper's green eyes. Hurt flashed through his eyes and a sudden warmth of satisfaction flooded inside me.

I reached the door and grasped the doorknob in my hand. I turned around to face Harper and Natalie again. "Harper?" 

His pained eyes snapped up to meet mine and for a second, I felt all the pain he was feeling.

"It would be the right time to tell me if you slept with Samantha too!"

He gently shook his head. 

"Why?" Natalie said while lowering herself on the bed.

"Because I need a fucking ride to home." With that, I opened the door and slammed it shut behind me. Won't deny that it felt damn good to do that.

I was done with all this drama and high time I let people walk over me!