For the past few days, Nathaniel has been practicing football too much. Today, he invited me to eat before his training. We went to the brothel's old shop, Nathaniel and mine's favorite cafeteria. He is wearing the shirt and pants of the International Milan football team."What do you want to eat?" He asked me."I'm not very hungry. But I'll have iced chocolate. You?""I'm not hungry either. I'd get a stomach ache during practice.""Oh! Then, why did you invite me?""I just want to see your face. I haven't seen it for many days." He said.Today, I still don't know what my relationship with Nathaniel is. Are we just friends or just letting it develop into something else? Everything looks so uncertain. But what I know is that... I like what we are now and it feels good.Let it be and just let it go, just like Taylor Swift said.But I must focus on my stomach first. I said earlier that I am not hungry but after looking at the food on the table next to us, I drooled. That crepe cake, I wa
Denise Merculio:I am always ready to cut anyone who doesn't know how to value me.Five missed calls from Nathaniel.Rrrrrrrrr~I got irritated on the sixth ring so I picked up my phone."What?"[Why don't you pick up my call?]"I'm taking a shower."[Taking a shower this late? Where did you go? Why did you leave without telling me?]But how should I answer him? I don't want him to know that I am upset. But I don't feel anything other than that. What to do..."I had diarrhea so I hurried back."[What's wrong?] I know what he means."It's fine. Don't mind me."[You can tell me everything. I am really worried about you, but I couldn't be with you because my senior wanted me to practice for the match. I am free now. Can I go to your apartment?]I want to cry. Damn it!"You don't have to come here."[...]“Nathaniel, I have a question."[What?]"Do you really like me?"[...] He did not answer me.All I heard was a deep sigh from the end of the line. I need an answer so I can make a decisi
It all ended with nothing. The sulking Nathaniel seemed to be happy now and is busy practicing football. Stephany has a lover so my mind is at peace. He is a senior of our club.As for the matter of him asking me to be his girlfriend, don't talk about it because it was just a joke. I did not take it seriously to the point of agreeing to be in a relationship with him even though I am still confused about my sexuality. I know I still like beautiful girls but let's wait for confirmation.But forget all the doubts right now. Because at the end of the day, everyone is looking forward to the match between Engineering and Political Science. After arguing the last time at the shop, I haven't seen Nathani and his friends because they are training double time.As for me, my heart really wants to find time to practice the guitar because Miss Khaycee will surely insult me again. But I don't know what to do because I have to juggle my time studying and practicing cheerleading until the end of the
The main event which is the match between Political Science and Engineering is happening. Duties of the university cheerleaders just like me is to walk in line to dance to the opening march. The players are preparing on both sides of the field.Engineering team is wearing a crimson red football shirt while Political Science wore their signature white shirt.SCREAMS!On the field are the players of both teams that are actively running, doing warmups. We were done with our performance so we are now walking out of the field. For a second, I walked past the tall man of the university. The only sensation I felt was his warm palm that gently rubbed and patted my head. He walked straight as if nothing had happened.But for me, there is nothing much left. My heart who is resting peacefully beats so fast through my chest."What is Nathaniel doing? Yes, we see that!""That's not good!"It turned out that I was being killed by the looks of his fans. Their attention was quickly shifted when the o
Today is our practice for the performance as appointed by the seniors of the club. I am too tired to carry a guitar but I don't want to look weak nor sound like a darling so I have to bring it with me. I sat at the long wooden table and started practicing.I already chose a song for the performance - "This Love" by Taylor Swift. Chords are not so easy but there are some chords that I am still not sure of so I get stuck here and there. I want someone to help me practice the chords. But guess what? I might be crazy because I only think of him.And since he is the only one I thought who could help me with this, I picked up my phone and gave him a call. I don't know where he is right now. He may be practicing for the performance or maybe go training football with his friends.I waited for a while before Nathaniel answered my call.[What?] Wow! What a greeting!This good day is now turning into a bad day. I washappy then but now I am getting annoyed. I feel like I disturbed him or somethi
During the past week, I spent a lot of time doing activities such as practicing the guitar with the club and practicing cheerleading, at the same time, studying my subjects and preparing for the final examination this term. It can be said that the work is too much but I'm a cool girl so I won't allow this to wobble me at all. I am also looking forward to my happiness - Friday! Meaning, the next days will be Saturday and Sunday so I have all the time to sleep, bump, spin, work out or even hang out with my friends.It is three o'clock in the afternoon and our last subject just ended. My friends hurriedly packed our things to find something to eat near the building. As soon as we stepped out of our building, we saw someone pushing a member of the White Lion gang at the corner of the building.Nathaniel and his friends' condition are no different from people attacked by dogs. And just like the day we met them, the front part of Roble’s clothes was smudged with various stains. I stared at
After cleaning his wounds, Nathaniel picked up a white T-Shirt to wear. I looked for painkillers so he can take it before turning on the TV. The show is about a male lead taking care of the female lead too. This is so wrong."Don't you want to sleep here tonight?""No. I'll just watch TV. Go to sleep now." I leaned against the head of the bed while wobbling my feet. Nathaniel lay down beside me but not far apart."Don't hurry to leave.""Yeah. Maybe late night until you fall asleep."We did not talk about anything after that. I keep on pressing the remote to find a good channel. Since I can't find a good channel, I turned off the TV.I checked the person beside me but to my surprise, Nathaniel is not there. So, I stood up, dragged my feet to the balcony and saw a tall man, cross-legged on the floor with a guitar in his hand."Your hands hurt. Don't play the guitar just yet.""I'll try to play your song just in case you'll have some problem.""Just be careful." I said it with my mouth
After a week, Nathaniel's body is almost healed. But I still don't know the reason why the seniors did that to him.Nathaniel’s friends is no different. Roble has a broken jaw so he can't eat rice for many days. Dim have broken wrist, fingers, and shoulder flaws. They are stumbling to go to school for a week. Most people have doubts on what happened but since the external wounds are not showing that much, there is no issue to discuss.In the past days, I spent a lot of time rehearsing for the song to be played on our performance. Nathaniel, after a break from playing the guitar, returned to practice twice as hard as before because he is afraid that he won't catch up with his friends. Everyone is playing in groups. I am so excited and at the same time, also afraid thatI might mess up the performance. Although Nathaniel comes and trains me every day before going back to my dorm. Still, no one can guarantee that the show will not fall bad."Hello everyone. We are from the Music Club. We
The song ended with applause from the crowd. As for me, the emotions welled up in my chest suddenly flowed. Nathaniel smiled at me. We just smiled at each other before he stepped out of the stage. Just looking at him from the beginning to the end is worth it. We understood each other just by looking at each other's eyes.Not long after that, the famous band that the university hired performed. I went out to escape the stifling atmosphere of the crowd and headed straight behind the stage. Nathaniel waited there with his calm face. Sweat rolled down on his face, but still dared to tease me."You looked at me without blinking so I purposely played it wrong.""But that was a great song!""Love each other! If one day they will leave you, just trust each other. Because if you are meant to be together, you will always be together!"After that, Taylor Swift's song came out. They are the last group to play in event. Nathaniel is on my side and we just dance until we're exhausted. The song th
The semi-final round of the Music Festival has arrived. Everyone looked very excited even behind the stage. The members of Encapsulation all find ways to calm down and to reduce their nervousness. Only Nathaniel is... sitting down to eat.I've never seen this guy being so stressed out of anything.Miss Khaycee is with Nathaniel. They are sitting, eating skewers leisurely. He also joins the competition with a group called 'Sunshine, Daisy flowers and Ripe Avocado', which consists of seniors and the bastard, Adrian. I am also curious as to where did they get their name from? Probably, one of them is a Harry Potter fan. (Ron Weasley's line in Harry Potter series is "Sunshine, daisies, butter mellow, turn this stupid, fat rat yellow".)Not far away, Benjamin's group was trying out their guitars. This time he didn't send anyone to mess with us or make any threats, so we were somewhat relieved. His group is called 'The Idol'."And now, it is the time for the 2016 Music Festival!" The sound
NATHANIEL'S POVI am speechless.I have to say that I was truly speechless with the sentences she just said from her own mouth. What should I say? It is both pitiful and cute. Her hand still has a cotton ball stuck on it while she is wiping away her tears.He really is a little crazy devil with a small brain.Yesterday, Denise asked me about my first love. I don't want to answer her because I thought that it just came from nowhere. Now, I want to step forward and hug or soothe her to stop crying but because this annoying girl keeps on pushing me away and waving her hand, I can't do anything. I don't want her to cry anymore because she is sick right now."So, are you ready to listen now?" I spoke in a monotone voice then looked back, avoiding to stare at her causing Denise eyes that were looking at me to tremble. Probably, she is afraid of breaking up. But I only want to tease her. I am so sorry for her because I think that I have twisted her mind and broke her heart."Then... Are you
I was taken to the emergency room because of constant vomiting. On the way to the hospital, Nathaniel's car is full of my vomit. I feel bad for the person in the backseat but I don't have time to go back and apologize to people. I looked like a full mess right now. Anyone who has ever seen me as a university cheerleader must now think that I don't belong there. Losing all that image that I built up throughout the year... My heart. My heart. My heart.Doctors and nurses gathered around the bed, measuring blood pressure while asking for symptoms that made me dizzy so I accidentally vomited again into the bag. The nurse then punished me by pricking the blood with revenge. Inject fingers, biceps, arms. Put it all in until my body is full of holes. I want to cry again but it will just make me look more foolish.In addition, the needle was inserted into the back of my hand. The doctor told me that I was given an anti-emetic medicine, but I still didn't feel better. Lying there for nearly tw
I was not in the mood to study. The reason comes from the restlessness last night thinking about Nathaniel's story. Or maybe, this is because of the food we ate yesterday. Now everything is attacking me at once. It made me almost collapse on the lecture table but I still tried to endure until I couldn't stand it. I have to run in the toilet to vomit. What a pathetic form.No one knows how bad I feel right now. I don't want to worry anyone. Yvonne asked, I just replied that it was okay with a forced smile. Besides, I already took medicine. Five in the afternoon is the free time of the Law students. My three buddies intend to take me to relieve stress in a cafe. But because I had to be with Encapsulation to watch them practice music, I refused. Before I went to the training room, I didn't forget to buy snacks, fruit and canned milk for the members including Nathaniel. I don't know if I was dismissed early today or the rest of the group haven't appeared yet. So I waited silently until hi
At three o'clock, my stomach began to feel bad. Then I remembered Yvonne organized our meal in four different restaurants. Since I can't sleep and nowhere to vent, I slowly take myself out of bed then proceed to the bathroom. I quietly stood in the hand washing area for a long time. When I got back, I saw that the tall man was already waiting. The light from the head of the bed was illuminated enough for me to see the other person's face clearly. "What's wrong?" He asked me in a smooth voice, as always. "I don't know. I want to puke but I can't." "You want antacids?" "..." I shook my head before crawling into the bed. Nathaniel pulled me to move closer. He then hugged me like he was comforting me to relieve my uncomfortable feeling. Since I can't sleep tonight, I choose to break the silence by talking. "I can't sleep." I initiated the conversation. "Because you are only listening to music." "How did you know? Normally, I listen to music when I can't sleep." "What about now?"
I think this girl is something that Nathaniel has been searching for a long time. She studies well, she looks pleasant all the time, and is very caring. He fell in love with her for the first time and after that, he did not date anyone. No matter how it looks, there will be a breakup like other couples. In the end, all we can do is sit and regret that love did not happen the way we hoped for.You will love everything at first because it all looks beautiful. As days go by, the problems will slowly arrive. We then try to conceal that to maintain the image on the first day. We began to emerge from many things. But if things won't work out... then we may have to end it.I never believed in love anymore after breaking up with my first boyfriend. I became that someone who finds breaking up so easy just because I feel bored. I never really loved someone for the reason that I didn't want to be hurt just like in the past. As much as possible, I have to protect myself in every way that I can.A
Today was another chaotic day for our cool lives because Nathaniel just announced to social media that he is in a relationship with me. Therefore, his wives kept on following us to the point that they knew that we were living together.They are obviously true stalkers.Second term has quite a few activities but there is still a big event that is expected to happen. That is the university's music competition. So after my classes, I went to buy a snack and waited in the club room where Nathaniel and his friends from Encapsulation always come to practice."Denise! Why come so early?" The greeting from the lead singer made me immediatelysmile and greet back."I've got nothing to do after my class. I bought snacks for everyone.""Thanks a lot. I actually thought you fled to your room first.""Why?""Nathaniel’s fans started gathering under the Law School building. Afraid that it will bring inconvenience to you." Why don't you call the newspaper from the start. So chaotic. But, It was stil
After returning from school, Theo went straight to the bedroom and slept.Nathaniel and I were busy preparing the food in the kitchen. His phone rang and he answered it."Why?" I feel like something is suspicious when he asks that question."...""Roble is inviting for a drink." Nathaniel looked at me. It seems that this question is especially for me."Where? Ask him." I quickly responded."Same bar as last time.""Okay. But don't come home late.""No. He is inviting us... including your brother." I paused for a while. I mean, even if Roble won't invite me, I would still go. Who will take care of this bastard if he gets drunk? But the sentence included my brother so it made me think for a while."What does he want from my brother?""How can I know?" He refused to answer, then turned to continue talking to the other end for a while before hanging up.Alright. I will invite my brother since he's got nothing to do. Whether he will go or Lion gang has another monkey business? Hmm..."Haha