The semi-final round of the Music Festival has arrived. Everyone looked very excited even behind the stage. The members of Encapsulation all find ways to calm down and to reduce their nervousness. Only Nathaniel is... sitting down to eat.I've never seen this guy being so stressed out of anything.Miss Khaycee is with Nathaniel. They are sitting, eating skewers leisurely. He also joins the competition with a group called 'Sunshine, Daisy flowers and Ripe Avocado', which consists of seniors and the bastard, Adrian. I am also curious as to where did they get their name from? Probably, one of them is a Harry Potter fan. (Ron Weasley's line in Harry Potter series is "Sunshine, daisies, butter mellow, turn this stupid, fat rat yellow".)Not far away, Benjamin's group was trying out their guitars. This time he didn't send anyone to mess with us or make any threats, so we were somewhat relieved. His group is called 'The Idol'."And now, it is the time for the 2016 Music Festival!" The sound
The song ended with applause from the crowd. As for me, the emotions welled up in my chest suddenly flowed. Nathaniel smiled at me. We just smiled at each other before he stepped out of the stage. Just looking at him from the beginning to the end is worth it. We understood each other just by looking at each other's eyes.Not long after that, the famous band that the university hired performed. I went out to escape the stifling atmosphere of the crowd and headed straight behind the stage. Nathaniel waited there with his calm face. Sweat rolled down on his face, but still dared to tease me."You looked at me without blinking so I purposely played it wrong.""But that was a great song!""Love each other! If one day they will leave you, just trust each other. Because if you are meant to be together, you will always be together!"After that, Taylor Swift's song came out. They are the last group to play in event. Nathaniel is on my side and we just dance until we're exhausted. The song th
MAHIRAP maghanap ng tunay na pag-ibig kapag teenager ka. Pero mas mahirap mabasag ang puso mo kapag die-hard fan ka. “Denise, let me kiss you.” “Wala talagang kupas ang kagandahan mo!” “Ganda mo talaga!” “What if ako na lang kasi.” These freaking annoying voices are my demons. The Laughter has slowly faded dahil may nag-interrupt. Have you ever wondered bakit ang daming bagay sa mundo na need to be in pairs? And when they're separated, ang lungkot, ‘di ba? Ako yung taong dating obssessed sa mga bagay na magka-tandem, whether it’s my friends o mga jowa. I can totally relate, never nga akong naging lonely. Siguro kasi isa ako noon sa top 4 na all-girls school dito sa Philippines, palaging may mga boys na pumapasok para lang magpapansin sa akin. Pero nung naging first-year college student na ako, nagbago na ang high school life ko hanggang sa hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili kong magtanong... How did I even get to this point? Dati, ang dami kong manliligaw na boys mula nung high sch
ANG TAGAL bago bumalik sa normal ang tibok ng puso ko noong mangyari yun. Nag-confess siya ng love niya sa'kin. Hindi naman siya gano’n kasama. Sa unang tingin, guwapo siya. Hanggang ngayon naiisip ko pa rin. Baka hindi ako makatulog mamaya, kasi baka sumulpot siya sa panaginip ko, bangungutin pa ako. Pero okay lang. Kayang-kaya ko ito, basta ‘wag ko lang siya isipin. Kahit anong gawin niyang pagpapa-impress, hindi talaga ako mai-inlove sa kanya. Hindi ko rin siya finollow back sa i*******m. He must have been prepared for something beforehand, so there is nothing to worry about. I'm ready to go through life with my cool girl style. Siguro may inihanda siyang plano, kaya wala akong dapat ikabahala. Handa na akong harapin ang buhay na cool girl chic style. Pero... "Den, meron ka bang tissue? Kung wala, kukunin ko na lang para sa’yo." Sandali lang, nawala na rin yung manners niya. Sumusunod siya sa'kin parang multo, kahit dito sa CR. Hindi ko alam saan galing yung confidence niya, T
MATAPOS ang halos tatlongpu't limang minuto, bumalik si Ivan at umupo sa tabi ko, dala ang isang water bottle na pareho ng brand ng inalok kong inumin kanina. Paano ito tinatawag na pagbili ng mineral water? Is this what cheating is? Sa sitwasyong 'to, totoong nakakainis siya.Gano’n din sa mga performance sa entablado, parang pinipilit lang silang sumayaw at kumanta. Kung ako ‘yan, ipapakita ko ang isang alternative dance at pababagsakin ko ang mga girls."Deniseee!" Yung boses na yun..."Ano ba! Bilisan niyo at itago niyo ako. 'Wag niyong hayaan na lumapit siya!" Hindi ko na talaga maiiwasan. Narito na ang mortal kong kaaway. Swerte na lang at kasama ko ang mga kaibigan ko at lahat sila ay tumayo para protektahan ako."Kath, hawakan mo kamay ko. Yvonne, huwag kang bibitaw.” Anak ng tipaklong! Hindi 'to biro, bakit sobrang intense?"Ginagawa mo na namang panangga mga kaibigan mo?""Ano ba ang dahilan ng pagpunta mo? Diyan ka na lang sa faculty niyo."Papalapit pa rin si Adrian sa'kin
“OH MY GOSH! Like, I totally wanna be in jail right now, just to get caught by him, you know?”“Your wife is here.”“Itabi niyo akin na ito #TeamNathanielHere”Grabe, yung buong campus, walang tigil sa chikahan about kay Nathaniel.Habang nagi-scroll ako, may nakita akong comment sa page from someone with a photo of Inter Milan football as his profile photo:“Nathaniel is a close friend of mine, he's so low-key, no Facebook, no IG, no Twitter. It's important for you to know that he's not into all that spotlight stuff. He asked me to talk to the Admin of this page to immediately delete his photo.”So totoo nga yung sinasabi ng iba na ayaw niya talaga ng center of attention, Walang ere-ere, walang social media drama. Chill lang siya, like, walang halong keme.I'm raising a tarpapel now, na may nakalagay na “I love Nathaniel.”Hays, parang tanga.Right after school at three o'clock in the afternoon, me and my gang walked from the faculty of Law to the Faculty of Political Science because
PARANG gusto ko magalit kay Nathaniel sa mga ginawa niya sa akin kahapon, sobrang nakakahiya. Ngayon, kasama ang mga kaibigan ko, iniisip namin kung paano lulutasan ang problema ko. Wala akong kahit anong impormasyon tungkol kay Nathaniel, wala akong numero, Facebook, Instagram, o kahit Twitter niya. Wala rin siyang mga aplikasyon na iyon, at dinamay pa ang aking email sa spam. Wala kaming paraan para makontak siya. Sobrang nawalan na ako ng pag-asang makatakas kay Adrian."I think that cruel Nathaniel is not the right person to help you." said kath, frowning as she steamed her eyes."Hindi siya masama, kupal lang talaga siya." Iyan ang totoong nararamdaman ko."Mahirap na siyang i-approach ngayon. Make yourself all busy in the group #NathanielContent. After all, the people in the group will help each other. If anyone finds his phone number and shares it, then we should take advantage of that." Suggestion from KathBut you know, me appearing in the group page of the devil's wife... th
THE STORY of Nathaniel's cell phone has been temporarily set aside because that won't be fixed in a day or two. If there is a chance, I am ready to argue with him again.Ngunit ngayon, may problema ako... Gutom na gutom na ako. Fortunately, this afternoon I had an appointment with my student code members for the second time to strengthen senior-junior relations. Students from our Law of Faculty are all handsome and beautiful people, so we went to a Japanese restaurant near the university to eat. Too bad that my friends couldn't get together because they went with their respective code members as well. So, I had to sit alone with the seniors."Denise! Bakit ka ba nandito nang maaga?"is a cute little boy with his braces. His name is Jericko. The very first time I saw him, I really wanted to flirt with him but unfortunately, he already has a girlfriend."Oh, sobrang gutom na ako. Haha!" I replied."Sige, hintayin na lang natin ang mga senior at junior year mentors natin. Ayun! Narito na
The song ended with applause from the crowd. As for me, the emotions welled up in my chest suddenly flowed. Nathaniel smiled at me. We just smiled at each other before he stepped out of the stage. Just looking at him from the beginning to the end is worth it. We understood each other just by looking at each other's eyes.Not long after that, the famous band that the university hired performed. I went out to escape the stifling atmosphere of the crowd and headed straight behind the stage. Nathaniel waited there with his calm face. Sweat rolled down on his face, but still dared to tease me."You looked at me without blinking so I purposely played it wrong.""But that was a great song!""Love each other! If one day they will leave you, just trust each other. Because if you are meant to be together, you will always be together!"After that, Taylor Swift's song came out. They are the last group to play in event. Nathaniel is on my side and we just dance until we're exhausted. The song th
The semi-final round of the Music Festival has arrived. Everyone looked very excited even behind the stage. The members of Encapsulation all find ways to calm down and to reduce their nervousness. Only Nathaniel is... sitting down to eat.I've never seen this guy being so stressed out of anything.Miss Khaycee is with Nathaniel. They are sitting, eating skewers leisurely. He also joins the competition with a group called 'Sunshine, Daisy flowers and Ripe Avocado', which consists of seniors and the bastard, Adrian. I am also curious as to where did they get their name from? Probably, one of them is a Harry Potter fan. (Ron Weasley's line in Harry Potter series is "Sunshine, daisies, butter mellow, turn this stupid, fat rat yellow".)Not far away, Benjamin's group was trying out their guitars. This time he didn't send anyone to mess with us or make any threats, so we were somewhat relieved. His group is called 'The Idol'."And now, it is the time for the 2016 Music Festival!" The sound
NATHANIEL'S POVI am speechless.I have to say that I was truly speechless with the sentences she just said from her own mouth. What should I say? It is both pitiful and cute. Her hand still has a cotton ball stuck on it while she is wiping away her tears.He really is a little crazy devil with a small brain.Yesterday, Denise asked me about my first love. I don't want to answer her because I thought that it just came from nowhere. Now, I want to step forward and hug or soothe her to stop crying but because this annoying girl keeps on pushing me away and waving her hand, I can't do anything. I don't want her to cry anymore because she is sick right now."So, are you ready to listen now?" I spoke in a monotone voice then looked back, avoiding to stare at her causing Denise eyes that were looking at me to tremble. Probably, she is afraid of breaking up. But I only want to tease her. I am so sorry for her because I think that I have twisted her mind and broke her heart."Then... Are you
I was taken to the emergency room because of constant vomiting. On the way to the hospital, Nathaniel's car is full of my vomit. I feel bad for the person in the backseat but I don't have time to go back and apologize to people. I looked like a full mess right now. Anyone who has ever seen me as a university cheerleader must now think that I don't belong there. Losing all that image that I built up throughout the year... My heart. My heart. My heart.Doctors and nurses gathered around the bed, measuring blood pressure while asking for symptoms that made me dizzy so I accidentally vomited again into the bag. The nurse then punished me by pricking the blood with revenge. Inject fingers, biceps, arms. Put it all in until my body is full of holes. I want to cry again but it will just make me look more foolish.In addition, the needle was inserted into the back of my hand. The doctor told me that I was given an anti-emetic medicine, but I still didn't feel better. Lying there for nearly tw
I was not in the mood to study. The reason comes from the restlessness last night thinking about Nathaniel's story. Or maybe, this is because of the food we ate yesterday. Now everything is attacking me at once. It made me almost collapse on the lecture table but I still tried to endure until I couldn't stand it. I have to run in the toilet to vomit. What a pathetic form.No one knows how bad I feel right now. I don't want to worry anyone. Yvonne asked, I just replied that it was okay with a forced smile. Besides, I already took medicine. Five in the afternoon is the free time of the Law students. My three buddies intend to take me to relieve stress in a cafe. But because I had to be with Encapsulation to watch them practice music, I refused. Before I went to the training room, I didn't forget to buy snacks, fruit and canned milk for the members including Nathaniel. I don't know if I was dismissed early today or the rest of the group haven't appeared yet. So I waited silently until hi
At three o'clock, my stomach began to feel bad. Then I remembered Yvonne organized our meal in four different restaurants. Since I can't sleep and nowhere to vent, I slowly take myself out of bed then proceed to the bathroom. I quietly stood in the hand washing area for a long time. When I got back, I saw that the tall man was already waiting. The light from the head of the bed was illuminated enough for me to see the other person's face clearly. "What's wrong?" He asked me in a smooth voice, as always. "I don't know. I want to puke but I can't." "You want antacids?" "..." I shook my head before crawling into the bed. Nathaniel pulled me to move closer. He then hugged me like he was comforting me to relieve my uncomfortable feeling. Since I can't sleep tonight, I choose to break the silence by talking. "I can't sleep." I initiated the conversation. "Because you are only listening to music." "How did you know? Normally, I listen to music when I can't sleep." "What about now?"
I think this girl is something that Nathaniel has been searching for a long time. She studies well, she looks pleasant all the time, and is very caring. He fell in love with her for the first time and after that, he did not date anyone. No matter how it looks, there will be a breakup like other couples. In the end, all we can do is sit and regret that love did not happen the way we hoped for.You will love everything at first because it all looks beautiful. As days go by, the problems will slowly arrive. We then try to conceal that to maintain the image on the first day. We began to emerge from many things. But if things won't work out... then we may have to end it.I never believed in love anymore after breaking up with my first boyfriend. I became that someone who finds breaking up so easy just because I feel bored. I never really loved someone for the reason that I didn't want to be hurt just like in the past. As much as possible, I have to protect myself in every way that I can.A
Today was another chaotic day for our cool lives because Nathaniel just announced to social media that he is in a relationship with me. Therefore, his wives kept on following us to the point that they knew that we were living together.They are obviously true stalkers.Second term has quite a few activities but there is still a big event that is expected to happen. That is the university's music competition. So after my classes, I went to buy a snack and waited in the club room where Nathaniel and his friends from Encapsulation always come to practice."Denise! Why come so early?" The greeting from the lead singer made me immediatelysmile and greet back."I've got nothing to do after my class. I bought snacks for everyone.""Thanks a lot. I actually thought you fled to your room first.""Why?""Nathaniel’s fans started gathering under the Law School building. Afraid that it will bring inconvenience to you." Why don't you call the newspaper from the start. So chaotic. But, It was stil
After returning from school, Theo went straight to the bedroom and slept.Nathaniel and I were busy preparing the food in the kitchen. His phone rang and he answered it."Why?" I feel like something is suspicious when he asks that question."...""Roble is inviting for a drink." Nathaniel looked at me. It seems that this question is especially for me."Where? Ask him." I quickly responded."Same bar as last time.""Okay. But don't come home late.""No. He is inviting us... including your brother." I paused for a while. I mean, even if Roble won't invite me, I would still go. Who will take care of this bastard if he gets drunk? But the sentence included my brother so it made me think for a while."What does he want from my brother?""How can I know?" He refused to answer, then turned to continue talking to the other end for a while before hanging up.Alright. I will invite my brother since he's got nothing to do. Whether he will go or Lion gang has another monkey business? Hmm..."Haha