LEO'S P. O. V
The high of ecstasy took him places phenomenal, beyond his imagination and it felt like he was riding the roller-coaster now he was coming down. Coming down the height of passion combined by love, love?
No infatuation, his body is still tingling... he felt his bliss in this mans arms, never have he ever felt so whole. Wait, bliss? What followed bliss was the mounting fear of realization? Oh shit. That did not just happen! Instant panic. There is not going back now. Hell. Breathe.
"Leo calm down. Breathe."
Calm down? The audacity of this dammed alpha! Fuck his audacity. Fighting the temptation to straggle this man who in his head has already shot the man six times.
Six will not do this situation justice, seven, eight, nine, ten times! He does not get the significance of this moment to him. Damn him. Hell why does he feel like balling in tears? Damn this forsaken alpha.
"Common love. Breathe. What's happening?"
What is happening? Indeed what is happening? Breathe? Breathing at that moment was a task. Breathe? How dare he tell him to breathe? The bastard. Breathe... he just has to think of something else, something more relaxing than this moment.
Tears followed his next revelation, ironically Jayden's presence calmed him but not enough to stop the hyperventilation. Is he being dramatic? Of cause his being dramatic. He came in him, then told him to breathe as if he is being irrational?!
"Bag."
Tears straggled him, his feet and fingers were getting numb. His clearly having an asthma attacks but the level of pain his in also indicates a more psychological reaction, his having an simultaneous panic attack... Which is bad.
Jay handed him the bag, which would not make a dent in his current issue. With shaking uncertain fingers he opened the zip of his bag. He is light headed and dizzy which means if he does not get air fast he will either pass out or suffocate.
He grabbed his inhaler, he pumped twice and tried breathing exercises. He pumped twice more this time using the bag to trap the oxygen and to circle it back into his body. He pumped once more as he felt his chest lessen the pressure trying to survive had on his burning lungs.
The alpha does not know the repercussions of his actions, of course he does not he has fated mate somewhere out there.
What pulled him back to the moment was the soft tender lips of his lover, Jay kept breaking the kiss giving him time breathe. Closing his eyes surrendering to the passion losing himself to the feeling. Throwing caution to the wind he kiss back with more passion, moaning when he felt him bite his lips.
"Do you want to talk about it?"
Thank the living stars he could not get pregnant or this mental breakdown would have been a whole lot worse. At this instance being a beta helped him not just to throw caution to the wind but also on the negative this mistake could potentially be met with serious repercussions.
He came inside of him, that jerk. Now his body will crave none but him. Fuck. Why would he do this to him? If Jay ever was to leave him now, he now knows it will hurt more than a simultaneous attack.
"Jay. I just do not want to get addicted to you... Your omega is out there somewhere and I am here. You will be able to move on without hiccups but I will not. It is not fair, you did that to me. That is part of the reasons why protection was invented, it also helps protect the heart from being irrationally invested."
At last he was no longer hyperventilating or angry instead the sadness hurt him. Gosh, is this what defeat looks like? (He groaned and buried his head in his arms) He did say he belongs to him and he did not lie, his body is his but everything else can not be in the market.
"Love look at me. Listen to me and hear the words coming out of my mouth. There is no way in hell, I am letting you go. You are my fated and I know you can feel the connection too. It is just your misconceptions stopping you from actually opening your heart up to me. Love consider us a special case and stop pushing me away, I want to be with you. I love you."
Leo's flush reached his entire body so he sank deeper into Jayden's arms. He chose to ignore the conversation, silence was better than false reasoning. He will just leave the fate of their relationship to time and if they destined to be together.
"You are mine."
"Yeah? In your dreams."
That might actually be true. His denial of his claim was tied to him showering and pretending it never happened. Now he can never forget because heart was tied to him forgetting. Time will give them another day or never.
"Yeah. There too. It is nice having you here in the real world, so I can do this."
"Whaaa..."
He flipped him on his stomach. Leo pointed a confused then when he realized what the man wanted he squirmed. Leo was still a bit sore therefore, what the hell was he doing?
"Arms."
Leo submitted as his arm were cuffed behind his back. As his alpha trailed the marks he made all over his body. For the first time he was with Jay, he released his invisible constraints and passionately wrapped his arms around his neck and kissed Jay. He knowingly broke his command but it felt so right but it is his fault self- control was not enough to be a binder.
"You mine."
"Forever."
"This is the place I want to bite."
He caressed his nape and pressed kisses and Leo moaned in both anticipation and uncertainty.
"Uhm. Uh. Not now please."
"Whenever you ready my little beta. Right now, you need to be punished."
"Punished? You wish."
Leo did not even waste time on thinking about it. Realizing the alpha still plans on punishing his disobedience he slipped off and high tailed it to the bathroom, the door closed and he heard a most desired click.
Laughing all the while as Jayden banged on the door. After a few minutes later he opened the door and Jay widened the range and his willing to be this surprised him.
He can never be what Jay needed in a sexual partner but he honestly did have fun surprising and messing with the good looking alpha.
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JAYDEN'S P. O. V
Claiming Leo in the mist of their combined pleasure incising erotic jungle fever. Not the mating mark but one humans considered a 'love bite'. No matter what Leo is a few steps away from being his?
He wanted to provide, protect, and support his Leo so much that it was all he could think about. Seeing the way he smiled running to the bathroom made his own heart flutter. When the door opened he claimed the man over and over, till they were both warn out.
****
"Morning."
"Wait... It's 06:34. Why the hell are you awake?"
"To do this."
"Stop it. I need to brush my teeth. Haha, Jay stop it my breath tastes horrible."
"Let me be the judge of that."
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ALEX'S POV
It has been approximately a week since they have been back and Noah spent most of the time studying for his entrance tests but he also made time to go out with her.
Although she acted annoyed, deep down she was touched someone chose her. Someone wanted to spend their free time with her. Someone listened to her. She has someone who she constantly had friendly debates with and that person made her kinda see this world as a beautiful gift.
She escaped her world of unjust to a world that is disintegrating but the people are happy because of the lack of order. She's here now and judging the system mean judging the only group of friends that took her in as she is... Which was never fair on her part, her pack was wrong in a lot of things they did but that does not give her the right to condemn a world that gave her refuge.
Noah 'forced' her to get lunch together, his treat of course she never wanted to eat with him. Wink* Wink*... She enjoys the platonic time she spends with him even though there was a voice in her head telling her, her feelings are insane.
Noah as usual ordered what looks to be half the menu and all she ordered was a shrimp salad. Compared to the alpha she rests just below 5'5 and had to eat proportionately because her ass especially enjoyed not cooperating. So seeing him gorge his face with arguably good food and kept offering her some to taste, declining was getting harder so he huffed.
"Common it's good trust me. Here. Take a bite. I will even feed you. Common."
"STOP IT! I already have enough on my damn plate."
"I am just offering you more, your dish barely has food."
"I said I'm fine stop offering me food you over grown ass."
"Okay. Okay. Fine. Pardon me for wanting you to take care of yourself."
"And here I thought I am a doctor. Ah. I'm sorry. Uhm. Thank you. I am just not used to anyone caring this much about me. Thank you I will have some but if I get fat you will pay for my gym membership."
"Deal. You now have someone who wants to give you the world now."
"I do not what the world."
"Then what do you want?"
"It does not matter. Mmm the shrimp here is delicious."
"It matters because you matter to me."
Face flushed her gaze did not rise to attention, she cannot raise her head to face him. Her eyes could not meet his and all she was in fact able to do was lightly kick his shin.
Exaggerating his injury he manage to make her laugh and actually forget where they were. Realizing his break for an hour was over she groaned internally despising time but she could not bear her vulnerability so she waited for the man to leave.
"Alex. This week we have our annual test and the next week we finally end the Moon thing. I will try to see you when I can. So for good luck, do you not want to give me a kiss?"
"Do you want me to kick you again?"
"For your lips I will take two."
"No."
"Seriously. Your kiss will give me luck with my tests and you finally agreeing to go out with me will make me the Moon of 2019 for the engineering faculty."
"A kiss or agreement does not make that happen it is simply impossible."
"Then let us defy the odds together."
"No."
"Please a kiss on the cheek will be enough. I have to go study group that starts in five minutes but I will not until you agree."
"Fine. You giving me a headache now. I will but you not allowed to enjoy it."
"I promise nothing."
Alex slowly leaned in and when she was closed enough to breathe in his woodsy aroma. Her breath so close tickling the tender skin, lips so close to their destination, his skin anticipated the drop. Blowing in his ear successfully fighting the urge to bite it seductively.
Damn that could not happen because the damned alpha will not leave him alone if she were to succumb to her biological instincts. Before Noah could react she planted a kiss, which did not surpass three seconds but felt long enough that the world got restored.
To think she said she never wanted the world... she was probably right, she wants his and that really scared her.
"Wow. I have never been so turned on from a kiss on my cheek before. My, my Alex. We are bound to have fun."
Kicking him again she got up and walked away, laughing. Since Leo was no where to be seen he went to Lucas room knowing Toby would be also be focusing in his studies.
...
"Come in."
Alex entered one of his best friends very light apartment. The walls were a cute baby blue with so much windows he wondered how anyone could sleep in here.
"Toby?"
She asked, heart set on not intruding on the couple if they were together (he stepped in slowly to make sure he not disturbing anyone and any plans).
"His place. I'm just catching up on my notes unlike you I don't have a photographic memory."
"No. Do not go there, I just work smart not hard."
"Yeah. Yeah. Where is Leo?"
"I have no idea but if I had to guess. By the way he looked or the way he addressed Jayden, he might still be fighting off Jayden's advances."
"My innocent friend. My incredibly naively stupid friend. Have you seen either of them since we returned? If Leo was fighting let us just say he gave in."
"No. Oh. Shit. You don't think?"
"And somehow I have to work adequately hard to be top in our class."
"Technically we both at 98.89% but yes you are smarter than me by a small margin. (He left his bag near the door and pushed Lucas on side.) Now move out of the way, I just want to sleep."
"So you and Noah finally?"
"No. Leo is nowhere to be seen and sometimes I hate being alone for a long time... I do not need to explain, you know."
"Don't worry Lex. I was just teasing. Come in I will work here silently."
"Thank you."
"Don't mention it."
JAYDEN'S P. O. VTheir relationship could never be for the weak. He is possessive, dominating and obsessed with his fated mate. Leo on the other hand is jealous, needy and stubborn. Their relationship was considered beautifully toxic but it worked for them.At this point every girl or guy in the University knew that they were both taken. They heard the silence groans of annoyance depending on what faculty they were in. Although when the two are together they fail to recognize whatever that was not them.(Breaking news most of the Moons in Moon University are taken. Poor everyone who did not get to shoot their shots, there is no hope now because they are happy.)Everyone there knew his possessive temperament that no one dared made and advance towards his handsome fated. His possessiveness raged mostly when his fated was on campus grounds, the humans at least knew to not touch what was his.With Leo's gorgeous skin bearing his marks of his love. They were both possessive enough they ma
ALEX'S P. O. VThings were going great between them or at least she could not argue considering the relationship she has alphas. Noah kinda made his way to her open attention. Perhaps it was vice versa but she still had that hint of uncertainty regarding involving herself with an alpha. One day Noah sent her a text during class saying:>She blushed and ignored the message, rolling her eyes as she organized the table."Ah. Leo. Do you see that?""Are you not curious Lucas?""Indeed I am. Alex your good mood, does it have to do with Toby's best friend? What is his name again?""Mmm. Noa. Nay. Navin. Nee-""For the last time it is Noah.""So do you have a thing going with this, Noah?""No. I just decided it is easier agreeing to be his friend and only his friend."She emphasized categorizing ideas on which disease they will fund with the money they collect from various ideas the entire class contributed. She was tasked with choosing a diseas
JAYDEN'S P. O. V"Leo. Love. What are you talking about? Talk to me, not at me."He orders and the hopelessness of the dreadful situation sinks in and his beta, dropped his shoulders as if at a loss. What the fuck was going on? What is Leo not telling him?"His name is Shawn. I spent a year trying to get him to notice me but he never gave me the time of day. His human. Although I also gave up on him because of my interest in Alex. You know I wanted Alex, I wanted her close even as just a friend. But there was a rumor that said Shawn always gets what he wants, it was never me but now he wants you- Jay. Jay he came from wherever and asked me for something but you pulled me away from protecting-""What are you talking about? At least finish your sentences."Before Leo could answer, his phone rang. It was an unknown number. He answered for no other reason than to end the sadness in fated mate's eye."Who is this?"
ALEX'S P. O. VRelaxed and comfortable in Noah's strong secure arms. The last thing that crossed her mind before sleep showed her the best parts of life, was Noah's last words... Trust me. Trust me. Trust me.***She woke up but now hugging Noah's pillow enjoying the scent. Weird to say she even went as far as to sink deeper into his warm pillow taking in it's dry vanilla scent or maybe it was ocean breeze. Noah spent no expense on his pillow, they are just perfect. Her eyes cracked open scouting her surroundings, eventually when she looked up her eyes met amused eyes. Oh shit. Noah. There is no way she just did that. Covering her face with the culprits hard chest, she mentally kicked herself in the ass."Hey."Perhaps if she stays still, silent and close her eyes she will not see the attractive man hence forth embarrass herself more than she already did. Then by some miracle in turn the man will not be able see her. The moment she thought it worked, a laugh bubbled from the guy and
JAYDEN'S P. O. VCompleting his stamps of acts of community service and processing all his documents he heard a knock on the door.His wolf counted the seconds to this moment. When that moment came he was still at a loss but he could not let Leo see how him leaving him affected him. His an alpha, alphas should barely be rattled by their emotions but this man got to him. His weak when it come to his fated mate.Two days have passed he pulled out his ear pieces. Opening the door, his wolf elated his Leo came back to him. He already had Leo this time he had to let him go. Now Leo has him all he had to wait for is his decision."Tomorrow night draws the end of the moon thing. Are you going to go support Toby?""Yes.""Are you mad at me?""Did you do anything wrong?""No. Eyy... Jay. I just was to spend time with you before you leave, please do not make this hard I am trying.""If that is so, you would already be in my room wearing your gorgeous birthday suit. Hands behind your back surely
ALEX'S P. O. VLeaving the bar and his friends was probably an overreaction on her part. Still the point is she left, she could not voice her displeasure so she ran like a coward. What is wrong with her? Lucas and Leo warned her about Noah's past. Apart from the woman he was with, what hurt the most was how much he still cared about them.As if her pain was not enough her mother sent her a message saying Parker wanted to speak to her. To apologize. To give them a chance. Never. No thank you. She would rather get shot five times and jump off a cliff into a pool of starving sharks.Sometimes good people are hurt by monsters and are shamed for being victims. That the norm, right? The world sucks. She sucks. Her entire life sucks. Crying sucks.She decided to do the one thing that she could think of to distract herself enough to ignore her demons. Whipping out bowels and ingredients. In the black of night Alex was cracking then whisking. Frustrated, hurt and tired.The doorbell brought he
ALEX'S P. O. V She honestly expected Noah to be disgusted by her. Figure it was not a story and walk out. Never speak to her again but what she did not expect him to do is pull her into his strong arms. He brushed her braids back and lulled her to sleep with the reassuring rumbles. That story was meant to kinda push him away or see if he would stay. He said nothing maybe there is no real reason to stay. Noah knew that was the tip of the iceberg. There was more, more that he should have run before his wolf imprints on her. Run before he catch feelings like a bug. Run before he is trapped in this complicated mess. Run. She needs him to run but right now all she could do now was wait for a response. *** Alex woke up still comfortable still in Noah's arms. She did not dare move in fact his breathing style told her, the alpha is awake. Dammit. Dammit. Dammit. Panic over rode her peace of mind after sleep. Trying to get up as quiet and slowly as possible. An arm pulled her down and her
JAYDEN'S P. O. VTalking to his best friend Leam about a new project they were delegated to complete before their internships beginning. The absolute last thing he expected from the day was the hand that swung at him. Fuck. Who the hell dared? Lucas? The hell! Facing the fuming alpha that looks to be seconds away from shifting in front of a human."What the fuck was that for?"Leam helped him get up and they faced the alpha, the human got in front of him to prevent future attacks. There is no way he can get his best friend involved in his world, he will just get hurt that way and if that happens his brother will never forgive him."This is the engineering faculty and you just assaulted the faculty head!"Still shocked. Jayden controlled his stance and acknowledged the fact he just got the punched shitless. Regardless of his anger and fury the secret of their native existence is far more important than the disarray here between them especially when there was a human literally between t
GAB'S P. O. V "Here." He directed Toby and his friend. "This is Alex. Alex this is Gabriella but everyone calls her Gab." She never wished to give Toby a bad name ever, even amongst his friends so she willed her life to behave. She politely smiled, shaking her delicate hand. It was clear as day this omega is super high on suppressants. How do they stand the scent? Why is she taking such large dosages of suppressants? Does she not have her alpha? There are cases she has witnessed where pimps would force their sex workers to drink the drug, to of course avoid pregnancies. She was not part of the crowd but her friend was. Eventually the scent blocker became something she avoided, that drug was a reminder of a life she was grateful she was saved from. She did not want to say anything or ask in case she does have a reason to hide her nature. Everyone has to have a reason to do anything, right. Like my reason to visit Zoe as her sister, a sister that trusted an entire pack to do what
LEO'S P.O.V Everything was going well until it did not and it did not the day Jayden bit him. They are still very much interested in each other, in all aspects of the word but they grow distant as if something crucial is missing. Leo feels wrong being with his mate and there are times when he has this terrible thought that tells him this emptiness is not worth it. That he must master up all his strength and run far, very far away so that this feelings can evaporate. He knows that his logic is nonsensical, they are fated mates now and they took a literal term to 'to death do them part'. That was his decision to commit which means there's no escape from all these feelings and that knowledge is enough to make him want to cry. There are days he wanted to leave his dammed beloved. Oh, goddess of fate forgiveness but it is nothing bad he just contemplated it. Okay, it does not help him if he keep contemplating his decisions. It does not help that he keeps overthinking his situation more
LEO'S P. O. V"Happy anniversary!"A very confused Jayden walked in, exchanged his shoes for indoor flats and stared dumbly at Leo. It was yet to ring a bell."It is our first f*ckerversary. We were not together so for the years this date passed, I just let it slide but now look. Cake!"He said with a smile wide, his focus evenly distributed between the man before him and the sweetness of the cake he baked. It is not the best looking cake ever and probably tastes like diabetes more than anything. His not sure if homemade cake should give you the heartburn his currently experiencing. Jayden wouldn't judge him harshly for the thought and effort his lover put on this, cake? Okay yes, he sucks at cooking but he really worked hard on making the white covered icing cake with a 'Happy F*ckerversary' elegantly written.*This is a special moment to him that called for a major celebration in his life and of course it did not go without warning from his fathers. It is not like his going throug
ALEX'S P.O.V Self-pity, embarrassment and shame override her entire being. What the fuck is wrong with her, with her dammed nature? How the fuck did she not know? How the fuck did she not sense it? Why did her body betray her this way? She literally took suppressants not so long ago, why is this happening now to her? She huffed hands clasping the sink and she prayed the Earth have pity on her and swallow her whole. It is her body, how could she not detect the changes. She has never willingly been intimate with someone before Noah. Perhaps that is why she naturally thought the increase in her sex drive was due to the raging endorphins spurring her hormones. Argh! Common, she should have known better. She should have been able to treat every changes in his own body as they come. For goodness sake she is the damned doctor with extraordinary capabilities and she couldn't get that right? How foolish she has been indulging her uncontrollable, insatiable, irresponsible parts of herself. S
ALEX'S P. O. V"Alex girl, what took you so long? Noah."She got out and hugged Lucas and Toby. Is she at peace with the relationship? No. But she's trying to be more open to this world and she's trying to be a better friend. Her action of getting out off the car sprung up a simple question she was not yet ready to get into, right now."Alex what is this?"Shit. She literary forgot she had the bag in her hand that Toby's wolf would recognize, if he ever used it. She faked a smile dropping the bag in the front seat, as the alphas took the bags. She looks down at the fairly frozen ice cream which she handed to Toby."I don't know if you like ice cream but I've eaten so much ice cream."Without answering she jumped in the car trying to come up with a story, it's unfortunate she knows that Toby is not one to easily drop things."Thank you. Do you have a spoon? Oh and you didn't answer my question."She handed him a disposal spoon. Her avoiding answering the questionis now raising attentio
ALEX'S P.O.V "Come child." Mrs Zheng directed them to a bench and she faced her with a frustratingly unreadable facial expression. She pulled out a small bag and placed it on her hand, she took it confused as to why she was handed her this. "This is green tea mixed with ancient herbs and this helps with scent and these are the ones you chew on when you get 'stressed'." She smiled at her with so much understanding that her brain failed to register what just happened. "Huh? Wait. These are..." "Suppressants. Don't worry Xing took Noah downstairs and I cleared the yard before you got here." Huh? What? What is going on right now? She's restless and a dark part of her circled contemplating. [Finally. Now we can come out to our mate-] [SHUT UP.] She jumped not expecting the new foreign dialogue, why is she helping her deceive her son? "Hun, your scent is faint but we picked it up... I am not sure if Noah knows but you must be keeping it a secret for a reason so I am handing you th
Two days Later... ALEX'S P.O.V They were all packed up and ready to leave his family home and head back to human civilization. She definitely enjoyed staying here for as long as she did, the only family shes had for a couple of years are just Lucas and Leo. Its beautiful to be a part of a functional family for as long as she did, the people are more respectful and her wolf did not help by considering this home. She looked up at the perfect view of the woods, pack schools, play grounds and the most beautiful sunset. . . . NOAH'S P.O.V "I will miss seeing the sunset. Your family is really nice and I will especially miss eating unlimited ice cream for free." They laughed and Noah brought her closer to his embrace, he rested his chin on top of her head. He loves this, they watched every sunset since they have been here. He is delighted she likes Blue, for some inexplicable reason he really wanted Axx to view it as home. He kissed his fated mates cheek and for a few moments just to
NOAH'S P. O. V Alex usually takes forever getting ready for anything so he used Logan's bathroom to shower and change for bed. He got downstairs to see his mother patiently waiting for him to walk to her. "Mom." "How is she?" His mother pulled a seat out for him and he took it releasing a burdened sigh. "Why can I feel her emotions as of they are my own?" "Because she's unaware that she's projecting. Son you have found you fated now, you have to take responsibility and be responsible." "Mom, in case you haven't noticed she tames my wolf before she even realized she did. I have developed feelings beyond our fated bond and I've never been so lost." "She's a troubled one indeed... This is your story son. I know that I've raised you right." "You know." His mother smiles and rests her hand on his. Perhaps Alex told his mom about her previous pack and as that thought popped up her face changed to that of pity. This is how she would look at him when he failed to get some answers rig
ALEX'S P. O. V Noah left. He is gone. Did she do something wrong? Why is she being emotional? They had unprotected sex once. Fuck. No. She cannot risk getting pregnant by having unprotected sex again. She explained the whole blood situation and he was really indifferent about the disgust she expected was replace by love as well as concern. Argh, why does this man love her? She should have probably kept the whole tidbit of information to herself, that would have brought her more time to think of solutions to her current problem at hand. Basically she hasn't been 'intimate' with anyone for like more than three years and when she was intimate, her hymen did not stretch. Since she was intimate with Noah her hymen must have stretched enough to break causing the embarrassing sight this morning. So technically the person that broke her hymen is the same person that just left her alone in a big ass room. That selfish jerk left her alone with her thoughts... What if they do not work out? Tha