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[The medicine and mental illness mentioned in this chapter are not honored or prescribed by a medical professionals. It's only work of fiction.]

ONE WEEK AGO

SELENA'S POV

31-A...

31-B...

"Got you!" I immediately pressed the doorbell. An old woman, like she's in the mid-sixties, opened the gate with a creased forehead.

"Who are you?" she asked. I smiled at her with hesitation and nervousness.

"Someone told me that you're the Aunt of Raven Deme—"

"What do you need?"

I cleared my throat and looked at her, "The truth."

"What things you're curious about?" she asked as she placed my coffee in my front.

"About her mother, your sister. I'm curious about her life."

She stared at me for a second and slowly put down the coffee cup that she's holding. Her next actions made me confused; she leaned closer to me and hold my face with suprise and happiness that mixed in her eyes.

"W-what's the matter?" I asked.

"You can't remember me? How did you..." She slowly got back on her seat, still looking at me and shook her head.

"No, it's impossible. I'm sure that Serena was already dead."

"Serena?" that name again. What's my question with that name? Why do I always feel weird when someone calling me with that name?

"Ahh, she's the kid that Karen took care of for almost six years. Sadly, Karen disappeared after Serena's family died."

Karen...

Died?

I hold her hands, "Did you know where your sister is?"

She shook her head and sadness occupied her face, "Like what I've said, she disappeared without any trace. It's over ten years, I think, after she disappeared."

I leaned back in my chair, crossed my arms and trying to remember the every detail when we met someone in the mall.

'Mom, let's go...'

"You said that your sister just disappeared more than ten years ago..."

She nods at me, "Yes, why? Did you already found her?"

"Long ago, I met an old woman in the mall, and Raven addressed her as 'mom'. Is it possible that the old woman I meat that time and your sister are one?"

She covered her mouth, her hands are shaking as well as her eyes, "Where is she? Let's go to her. Oh God, I thought she's already dead."

"But, I can't bring you to her now. I need to check something first."

"What is that? Maybe, I can help."

"No need, I need to go. Thank you for the time." I bowed on her and about to walk, but she held my arms to stop me.

"I'm going to give you something, wait me here," she left me there standing, when she got back, she's holding a little girl's dress, "Give this to her when you saw her again. Tell her that her sister missed her so much, okay?"

I nod at her, "Goodbye, thank you again."

Karen, Raven, died... argh, my head will be going to explode. I walked and get to a taxi.

Is it really possible that Karen and that old woman who Raven addressed her as his mom are one? If yes, why did she disappear like a bubble before when Serena's family died? My chest suddenly tightened when I remembered her face earlier, she's so happy when she thought that I'm Serena. Does Serena is that kind or lovely to be loved by everyone? I envy her.

"We're here, ma'am."

My brows furrowed when I'm not familiar to the place that he dropped me off, "Where are we?"

His brows furrowed also in my question, "You're the one who said this place, the place of former Kathleen's events place?"

"Ah, I'm sorry. Here, thank you," I stepped out of the taxi and stared at the whole place, "You changed a lot, but the feeling that you gave to me before is still the same. What are your secrets, huh?"

"Winds carry more than a million secrets, it'll be a storm if you forced them to tell it," a woman beside me said while looking also at the house that I'm staring.

"A-ah, I'm sorry."

She looked at me from head to toe and stared at my eyes, "Those eyes never changed, it's still full of resentments."

"What do you mean?"

She smiled, and I don't like her smile, it's so creepy, "You don't remember anything, don't you?"

I sighed, "Will just be direct to the point? It's hard for me to tell what are you thinking right now."

"Many years have passed, but the screams and misery of this house are still here because of greediness. A poor little girl lost her whole family at such a young age, but no one knows that she'll be desperate again to find the truth."

I'm just staring at her while she's talking. I can't understand a thing that she's talking, but the every word she's saying really hits me, if she's looking at me while saying those words, I'll think that I'm the 'little girl' that she's talking about.

'Mom...'

"Ahhh."

'Dad, wake up!'

"Ahhh!"

'Thanks to your family, we will never live like dogs.'

"Stopp!"

I hold my head and almost bang it on something just to stop the voices that I'm hearing right now. My feet can't stand still, my knees are so weak to stand, my whole body is out of my control now. It was killing me, it's so hard to cope with.

'Run, run now!'

'Where are you? Let's have dinner with your family now.'

'Save your life!'

"AAAHHHH!"

I slowly opened my eyes. A white and brown ceiling met my eyes, I'm also in a very comfortable bed, where am I? The last thing that I remember is my head is like going to explode earlier. What happened?

"You're awake," the old woman earlier said and gave me a glass of water. I sat and leaned at the headboard to drink the water, while drinking, my eyes roaming the entire room. It's so familiar to me.

"Where am I?"

She smiled at me, holding my shoulder, "Don't force yourself, take a rest. It's bad for your baby."

"How did you know that I'm pregnant? Who really are you?"

"I'm a mother too, I already know that you're pregnant in your posture and actions. Before you passed out earlier, I watched how you protect your tummy."

She helped me to get up, "You'll know everything at the right time. Don't put too much stress on your child."

"Good morning doc," I greeted Dr. George and sat at the visitor's chair.

"Hm, good morning Mrs. Silvenia, I already get your CT scan. And it looks like a drug that you're taking destroy the same nerves on your hippocampus, resulting in memory loss and severe headaches."

My brows are furrowed while he's talking because I can't understand a thing. He sighed and show a tablet that is really familiar to me, "That's what I take every time I had headaches before."

"The peoples who told you to take this want your memory to loss for temporary, but you're maybe taking this for a long time, that you shouldn't, affects your brain."

"S-so..."

He nods at me, "Maybe, there are things that they want you to forget."

"If that's the case... what are the things that they tried to hide from me?" I asked while thinking carefully their moves around me. Nothing's strange at first, but when Jaxon and I met, they're acting very weird.

He shrugged and give me some pills, "It's for you to find out, here are the pills that you can take to ease your headaches when you're hearing voices again. Don't worry, it's safe for your baby."

"Thank you," I bowed and walked out of his office, I'm staring at my CT scan results.

So they did everything just to hide everything from me? They made me to take this pills to forget everything happened?

Because I'm too tensed now, I sat at the bench nearby.

"Karen Demetrius..."

I get my phone and dialed her sister's number, "Hello?"

[Oh, what happened?]

"Nothing much. Ah, can I go back there? I need to ask you more about your sister."

[Sure, just tell me if you're already here.]

"Thank you."

I hung up the phone and looked up, everything is on my shoulders now, it's so heavy to carry on. Jaxon also need to leave next week to their business trip, argh, it already made me exhausted.

My phone rang and it showed Haxilla's number. They treated me unfairly, they made me to believe on the things that possibly didn't exist. How dare them to do this to me, I have right to know what's the truth about my past. Either it can tear me up onto pieces or something.

I ignored her calls and get back to Karen's sister house, while walking slowly at their corridor to dining are I saw some portraits hanging that I didn't notice earlier. One portrait caught my attention, it's Raven's mother with little girls and boys on her front, they're familiar.

"Hmm, that's my sister and the children that she loved the most, especially this girl," she pointed to a girl in the center, her eyes and smile are so innocent and soft, "That girl almost has the same as Raven, his son. If Serena didn't die, maybe she's married now to Jaxon."

My head automatically turmed to her, "You also know who Jaxon is? H-how?"

"Of course," she answered confidently and point a boy beside the girl in the center, he's familiar, oh, that's Jaxon when he's young. I also saw it at the portraits in his house, "This boy is Jaxon, this one is Wade, and Haru. The other two girls in the left of Serena are Britanny and Haxilla."

"W-wait, how did you know all of my friends' name? I never mentioned you to them, except for Raven."

"They're your friends?" she asked cofused, but I can saw her eyes sparkling.

I nod with hesitation and looked again at the portrait, "Britanny and Haxilla are my friends for almost ten years. Jaxon is my husband, while Haru and Wade are also my friends..."

My mouth automatically stopped when everything finally sinked on me.

"No way..."

She suddenly hugged me tightly, "I knew it, you're alive. You're alive, Serena."

I pushed her hard, unintentionally because of the fear and the fact that I can't accept what will be my fate if I'm really Serena. But, it all make sense, no one can't deny it. No, my parents are still alive, they're just working at the Paris. They're not dead, no...

"I'm not Serena!" I shouted and left that house.

My back leaned against their gate because I can't bare to walk or even stand, it's too much for me to handle. My parents are not dead, they're alive in the Paris.

"Hello? I would like to book a flight to Paris for one, possibly for next week. Thank you."

PRESENT

I'm staring at my passport now as I remember the things that pushed me to do this. No one knows that I'm also leaving the country, it's better like this, for sure they'll not let me go there and tell different lies to me again.

As the airplane lands, I immediately look at the company that my parents run. The G'ciana.

It took for almost half a day to finally find tge company that they own, many people looked at me when I entered the lobby.

"Ahm, excuse me."

A staff drawed her attention to me, "Yes, what can I help you?"

"By any chance, Laura and Kristopher Formosus are the CEO's of this company, aren't they?" my forehead creased from what staff's reaction is.

"I'm working her for almost ten years, but I didn't know those peoples. The CEO of this company is Ms. Shakira Hepirn." she said while tapping her fingers on the table.

My eyes widened, and my heart beat raced from what I found out, they can't be...

"T-thank you."

I left the building with too many questions in my mind, I'm so confused and terrfied at the same time. There's a part of me that wants to stop looking for my answers, the other one is opposite and wants to make me feel complete.

Have I done something terribly wrong before to make me suffer like this? Did they hate me secretly, like what the others feel towards me? Why out of all the people that I can think of, why their names appeared responsible for everything happened to me?

I toss my body to the bed and just staring at the ceiling, my hands moved itself to dial Jaxon's number, but no one answered it. He's maybe busy to their business, argh!

My tears fall even I felt numb for some reason, I feel like my body is floating as well as my mind.

Can I bear to accept the truth that I can get from this?