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SELENA'S POV

"You don't need to do that."

Jacob appeared at my side and took away the dishes from my hands. He smiled at me that made me pout, he is always smiling at me like it will convince me to do whatever he says to me.

I rolled my eyes and continue washing the dishes," I'm fine, okay? It's not that hard."

His stares are making hole to my soul, it made me look back at him while my brows are furrowed.

"What's the thing with that stare?" I asked him.

"What if Jaxon didn't do that thing? Do you think you will be in this kind of situation?" He asked me back that made me shocked and get hit by realization.

I smiled, "No one wants it to happen, and he's not the one to blame why my life became like this. It's his parents."

Even though my heart literally crushed into pieces when I knew the news about him and Maxine, revenge in dirty way can't change anything. I want to book a flight to slap them how much pain they gave to me, but it will make the things get worst. Thinking that Jaxon does not also want this kind of situation, is the only thing that can give me a piece of mind.

"That's my point. His parents killed your parents, how can you manage not to hate him?" He insisted.

"That's the reason why love become more awful," I sighed and holding back my tears, "No matter how destructive life he gives to you, you can't hate him that much."

He nods, leans to the other side of the sink, "I just can't imagine how the man who is respected by everyone do that shameful decision. He didn't think of the other persons who are still waiting for him."

I didn't answer him. What's with him today to open a topic like that? He knows what kind of situation I am right now among the others, how can he be this insensitive? This thing will make you really upset, but he must know how to read the room.

"Do you want something to eat?" I asked him after finishing the dishes.

"Hm? Anything will do."

While picking up the ingredients for the pasta that I'm going to cook, my stomach hurts out of the blue. I immediately hold tight at the door of the refrigerator because if I fall, my baby will be gone.

"Are you okay?" Jacob asked as he assisted me to sit and gave me a glass of water.

"My stomach suddenly hurts," I said. My eyes widened when he walked closer and put his ear at my stomach.

"Your baby seems so excited to be in this world," he smiled at me, "Do you want to go out now, baby? Wait a little longer, okay?" he said while caressing my tummy.

I laughed slightly, "Silly. Can you cook the pasta for us? I don't think that I can cook it."

He nodded and walked straightly in the kitchen. While waiting for the pasta to cook, I scrolled on my phone and an article about Maxine and Jaxon appeared again.

"They're going to marry each other?" I asked myself while reading the article. My chest suddenly tightened because of pain and confusion. How can he marry Maxine if we're still married at paper? They really put their selves at fire.

I read the comments under it; some of them are also confused with the same reason, but most of it congratulated them that made me feel small.

'Congratulations, best wishes!'

'You two made such a beautiful couple. Stay in love!'

My tears fell down to my cheeks when I laughed slightly, it's funny how they celebrate this while there's a person here who almost end her life.

"Do you want to have a drink?"

I looked up at Jacob. He's holding a plate of pasta, he put it down at my front.

"Isn't funny knowing that almost of the people are so insensitive now?" I asked while playing the pasta at my plates.

"I'm sorry," he suddenly said that me to look at him, "I should've shut my mouth instead of asking you that questions earlier."

"Where are we going to drink later?"

His eyes are widened when he looked at me, "W-what?"

"You asked me if I want to have a drink, so where are we going to drink?"

"A-ahm, we can drink here. You can't go to the clubs because you're pregnant."

I laughed, "How dare he put this child at my womb and marry that woman." But my tears betrayed me, this pain is not what I deserve. All my life has been a lie since the start, even the peoples whom I trust the most stabbed me at my back.

All of this started because of fucking jealousy, they're so greedy and narrow-minded. The selfishness, lies, and many more are the reason why I'm living this shit life. I looked down at my stomach, this kid doesn't deserve to have a life like this, she's so innocent to live also in lie.

While I'm drowning at my thoughts, I noticed something at my bracelet. There's a small red light that is blinking, the beads of this bracelet are red, that's why maybe I just noticed it now.

"What's the matter?" Jacob asked and peeked.

"There's something wrong with this bracelet."

I get the bead that is blinking—it's not a bead, it more look like a small device because the small wires that are visible outside. Jacob get it from my palm and look carefully at it.

"Haru put a GPS device to you."

My forehead creased, "GPS device?"

He nodded, "He's watching where are you going in those whole seven months, I guess."

"Seven months? How can you say that it's with me all the time?" I asked him.

"I noticed it since the last time he visited you. It makes more sense when they all stopped insisting on visiting you here."

My mouth parted, so every time that I'm going outside, I'm not just making imaginations or being paranoid for having a feeling that is someone is following or watching me.

"Do you want me to crush it?"

I shake my head, "No, just throw it somewhere."

"Why?"

"I don't want to waste their effort by making that kind of device for me. Just throw it."

"You're weird."

I just laughed and watched him to go out of the house to throw the device. They have gone this far because they're just being paranoid, it just means that they didn't really trust Jacob.