CHAPTER 85
GLENNSo it all came down to time, I listened to them speaking from the distance and tried eavesdropping but it wqs made more difficult by the noises around, I could hear everything from their rasped breath to the sound she made each time she moved.All I was waiting for was the signal, at some point it felt like that moment might never come and I was starting to give up when I saw the signal from Anna —She folded her napkin…In the next moment, I was waiting for her to make the move. Martha adjusted in her seat and stood up but while we had thought she would leave her behind she went with it.Immediately I saw the event unfolding, I groaned loudly with a frown coming up on my face, it seemed like the situation was about to get more serious when Martha caught Anna making faces.Martha looked back and our faces would have almost met if I didn't duck.Damn… Did she see me?My mind kept replaying through the scenes as I was left there still uncertain if she had or not.“Hello” the waitress interrupts. “Are you alright ma'am."My head surfaced again from the table meeting that of the lady that was standing right In front of where I was." I am Absolutely fine." I forced a smile. "Dropped my napkin.""Oh sorry for that, should I fetch you another." She asked."No, that won't be necessary."Looking around the room there was no sign of Martha and her bag was gone as well, I mouthed "where is she?" To Anna and she replies by shrugging before Pointing to the direction of the ladies.I scowled and bit back the irritation I felt at that moment. For some reason I couldn't understand why she had taken so long to get away from where she was.I looked back in Anna's direction, nudging my head to the left before standing to leave.It took twenty minutes but I eventually saw Ann making her way out toward the darker part of the car park.She was about walking past where i was , looking here and there when I pulled her.Ann gasped. "You scared me.""Sorry, what is going on? Why is it taking too long?"She Sighed. “ It is not, it is because you’re—” she shakes his head and awkwardly shrugs. "You're taking this too seriously."" Shouldn't I, you brought this all up remember. "It’s Ann's words all over again, filling up my mind about how it could get crazy if Santi found out about the envelope.It was the same reason I had agreed to this in the first place and at the moment, I was feeling quite ridiculous about it ."Do you think we should call this off?" I asked, wanting to be sure if she couldn't get through with it."No way, we are going to do this."I didn't know which to believe, the gutted feeling Inside me that this could go wrong or Anna's bright face that held that belief."I just want to drop this fucking load off my chest.""Then put on your cap, and give me all the time needed."I merely shook my head, this time with a kind of conviction held by a true inflection of what I stood to gain.I watched as she walked toward the door leading back to the pub, from the see -through I could see Martha already seated.A feeling of guilt cut into me deeply, her heart pounding behind my rib cages."I feel bad doing this." I stuttered."Are you crazy, do you prefer facing him yourself?""Of course no!""Then face it, trust me you won't be having second thoughts If you've heard all what she said about a certain slut called Glenn.""She called my name? " I looked at Anna amused."well, not directly—"" Kick her ass then. " I grimaced." Let me head back in before she starts looking around for me. "She was about to walk in when she turned to face me." On second note, we would be using plan B" she reached into my coat pocket and pulled out the envelope." Plan what! " I was startled. " What are you doing? "" Just watch. "I waited for a while as she walked in, prickling my ears to pick out Anna talking about a certain guy trying to ask her out.Both turned in the direction of where I was, and I was quick to face downward, giving the view of only my cap. Good thing I was wearing that…I stood up straighter, with the same anxiety feeling me up as I walked back in, taking my seat at the darker section this time.What is she up to, I ask myself slowly.With each moment I kept wondering what she was up to—one thing I noticed was the fact that Martha Kept ordering drinks.Shouldn't she be pregnant… "Bitch! " I muttered to myself when the realization hit me that it could all be a charade.I could have sworn Ann knew exactly what was on my mind cause she looked in my direction again,this time she was insinuating to me that it was almost over.I hated playing the wait and I was starting to feel bothered again when she waved her hand.My heart stopped for a moment, my chest heaved as I thought to myself if that was the signal I had been waiting for all evening.I could see Martha's shoulders droop as she looked drunk. It was only then I smiled to myself realizing what the plan was.She picks up her phone and murmurs something into it and soon mine beeped."Easy." Anna's voice echoed from the audio message.Breathing a sigh of relief, I sat up, trying my best to keep my face neutral and natural as I saw her help Martha out.I gave it about ten minutes, before doing the same.It was game on!CHAPTER 86GLENNAs expected Martha was dead drunk…The next moment was frustrating as hell, I was forced to listen to her thrash talking about how she was going to deal with a certain —In her own words —opportunist.It took a while for us to get her cab, good enough we used her phone after unlocking and stumbled on the same driver that had brought her here.The cab was soon driving Martha down the West lane and with the envelope tucked somewhere in her bag that would be too hard to suspect.As I watched the cab driving down the road I was filled with that kind of regret again, perhaps I shouldn't have done this and pushed all the blame to her.Somewhere deep in my mind I was having a kind of remorse as we drove down the other way.Martha was no fool and I was most certain she would remember who she had been with, what If she decides to make more findings…All these thoughts filled my heart and it was made more difficult by the silence that engulfed the cab—It was enough silence that
CHAPTER 87GLENNAs it turned out, for the next couple of weeks, I was pretty much alone with her most of the time, still searching for that one chance to tell her about my hidden secret.It seemed more difficult as the day passed, each moment right from the time we spent at work till the moment when we did everything from going to the mall to having lunch together, each of these moments was filled with that desire to tell her.Something kept the words back in my mind however, it was hard to tell what but that desire to tell her was shrouded by a fear of the outcome.This Wednesday however proved a different point and provided the perfect opportunity for me to do that—Anna and I started going to the movies twice a week. Once, on the weekend and the other Wednesdays, Anna had thought it would be the perfect chance for me to distract myself away from the fact that he still hasn't called after the misunderstanding we had.While I felt pained and hurt In a way that he might have suspect
CHAPTER 88GLENNCall it a tug of war between my human and wild side, but we were battling within my senses, I could hear voices, through my heated vision I could see the two other ladies as I walked out the window.There was one more thing I was battling with deep within and that was my demon, humanity felt strained within me, all that I could hear from my soul were snarls, gnarls and several other forceful sounds.If my human soul was the beauty then I was the beast, the beast unchained as it seeked redemption that wasn't forthcoming.My wolf walked in the only path I should be used to now, the dark path that led to my abyss —The wood.At the back of my mind I thought about a way to explain the situation to Anna, how in the hell would I explain this madness to her.It was only a matter of time before I sense she would would walk into the bathroom, it was difficult to tell how I then my secrets would be save when right there on the ground were my ripped clothes.Darkness shone on th
CHAPTER 89SANTIAGOThey say when madness is never just the state of one psychological state, it is the state of the heart as well. At this moment I wasn't even disputing the fact that I was totally insane.I was insane about everything, I was insane at the speed or was going at and I couldn't even stop it — I was insane about life, love and my lust.Everything looked like it was stuck in one part of my brain and I had to deal with it.A lot of things changed from the last night I was Glenn and if I was to start reading them out it would be numbering to a hundred— literally.At first it was as though my thoughts were in two ways: First was perhaps the fact that I was starting to accept the fact that the child was mine and secondly because I was still mad at Glenn for no justified reasons.As the matter became more clearer, it turned out that it came down to my self esteem. After the test for the pregnancy had turned out positive in some way all i felt was this kind of guilt that cou
CHAPTER 90GLENN.Rays of light found their way to the room, sparkling off the shiny glasses on the floor. For a quarter of the next minute my mind was shattered and deteriorated as I blinked my eyes looking around.Didn't know where I was expecting to find myself but definitely back at the spot where the entire night had started from right there in the floor of her bathroom.I looked around again still feeling a bit wonky from the tranquilizer dart, I rolled my eyes before pulling it out of my laps.In a way, the previous night was still at the back of my mind like a sort of dream state—I could still see the pictures vividly…I could see my wolf running after the man, pushing him to the ground and the rest were just puzzled at the back of my mind.Memories of the previous night flashes across my brain again—The man, my brain was unsettled for a short period as I wondered what had actually happened.If it made things better I couldn't taste blood and it gave me some kind of hope that
CHAPTER 91GLENN.Watching her I didn't know what to do or how to react to the entire situation, the question seemed abrupt as I wasn't expecting it yet as my heart beat heavily against my rib cages.At the same time I was feeling a bit of rage coming from the deepest part of my soul, a rage that was filled with the fact that all of this could as well have been avoided..I couldn't think of anything possibly think of anything to savage the situation, there was just one thing I could do and that was to tell her everything… or perhaps lie again.Still divided on what to do, I stared hard at her for a long minute. The box she had pushed into my hands was right there still warm upon it and I was yet to check what was in it.Opening the box and prying in, there it was my ripped clothes from the previous night when I had transitioned."Anna, I don't know what to say ."She looked at me keenly her eyes sparking up with whatever courage must had prompted her to this place.I shut my eyes for
CHAPTER 92SANTIAGOTalking about living a picturesque life, of late mine had lacked those true colors as I had barely lived outside the four walls of where I was for the past few days .I was living in my mind and at that time, the walls were torn to the floor leaving just the bare naked paint behind, when I tried looking beneath it I discovered it was worth nothing to look at at all as the description I found was totally different from what I expected.Was it deception?Somehow it felt Martha arriving home drunk two nights ago would be something that might never be talked about again, but one thing that left me confused was the fact that I found the envelope in her bags. It left me with the fact that I owed certain someone an apology.It wasn't as easy as it was in my mind as it turned out while it had turned out that it was something that I had totally wanted and perhaps the chances of me apologizing was more on the brighter side. Life happened one more time making the issue more o
CHAPTER 93GLENNIt was as though a heavy weight had been lifted off my shoulders, and for some reason I loved that fact, at the moment it was left savoring the memories of the discussion we had.For some reason I woke up a smile that morning, and a bit lighter …while I would have left my bed almost immediately every morning I had lain in bed for more minutes after I had woken up listening to my heart beating silently, and the distant clock ticking at the same gentle pace as my soul while letting the cold air seep through my skin until a numbnessspread.All these feelings were from the feeling of acceptance, a part of me felt thrilled that despite my shortcomings she still accepted me for who I was.I was trying to get over the new situation in my head, my heart still felt dazed by the entire situation.If I was still surprised about Anna's acceptance, I was left shocked when I got back from my morning run and saw missed calls from Santiago.It was the first time he was calling ev