CHAPTER 89SANTIAGOThey say when madness is never just the state of one psychological state, it is the state of the heart as well. At this moment I wasn't even disputing the fact that I was totally insane.I was insane about everything, I was insane at the speed or was going at and I couldn't even stop it — I was insane about life, love and my lust.Everything looked like it was stuck in one part of my brain and I had to deal with it.A lot of things changed from the last night I was Glenn and if I was to start reading them out it would be numbering to a hundred— literally.At first it was as though my thoughts were in two ways: First was perhaps the fact that I was starting to accept the fact that the child was mine and secondly because I was still mad at Glenn for no justified reasons.As the matter became more clearer, it turned out that it came down to my self esteem. After the test for the pregnancy had turned out positive in some way all i felt was this kind of guilt that cou
CHAPTER 90GLENN.Rays of light found their way to the room, sparkling off the shiny glasses on the floor. For a quarter of the next minute my mind was shattered and deteriorated as I blinked my eyes looking around.Didn't know where I was expecting to find myself but definitely back at the spot where the entire night had started from right there in the floor of her bathroom.I looked around again still feeling a bit wonky from the tranquilizer dart, I rolled my eyes before pulling it out of my laps.In a way, the previous night was still at the back of my mind like a sort of dream state—I could still see the pictures vividly…I could see my wolf running after the man, pushing him to the ground and the rest were just puzzled at the back of my mind.Memories of the previous night flashes across my brain again—The man, my brain was unsettled for a short period as I wondered what had actually happened.If it made things better I couldn't taste blood and it gave me some kind of hope that
CHAPTER 91GLENN.Watching her I didn't know what to do or how to react to the entire situation, the question seemed abrupt as I wasn't expecting it yet as my heart beat heavily against my rib cages.At the same time I was feeling a bit of rage coming from the deepest part of my soul, a rage that was filled with the fact that all of this could as well have been avoided..I couldn't think of anything possibly think of anything to savage the situation, there was just one thing I could do and that was to tell her everything… or perhaps lie again.Still divided on what to do, I stared hard at her for a long minute. The box she had pushed into my hands was right there still warm upon it and I was yet to check what was in it.Opening the box and prying in, there it was my ripped clothes from the previous night when I had transitioned."Anna, I don't know what to say ."She looked at me keenly her eyes sparking up with whatever courage must had prompted her to this place.I shut my eyes for
CHAPTER 92SANTIAGOTalking about living a picturesque life, of late mine had lacked those true colors as I had barely lived outside the four walls of where I was for the past few days .I was living in my mind and at that time, the walls were torn to the floor leaving just the bare naked paint behind, when I tried looking beneath it I discovered it was worth nothing to look at at all as the description I found was totally different from what I expected.Was it deception?Somehow it felt Martha arriving home drunk two nights ago would be something that might never be talked about again, but one thing that left me confused was the fact that I found the envelope in her bags. It left me with the fact that I owed certain someone an apology.It wasn't as easy as it was in my mind as it turned out while it had turned out that it was something that I had totally wanted and perhaps the chances of me apologizing was more on the brighter side. Life happened one more time making the issue more o
CHAPTER 93GLENNIt was as though a heavy weight had been lifted off my shoulders, and for some reason I loved that fact, at the moment it was left savoring the memories of the discussion we had.For some reason I woke up a smile that morning, and a bit lighter …while I would have left my bed almost immediately every morning I had lain in bed for more minutes after I had woken up listening to my heart beating silently, and the distant clock ticking at the same gentle pace as my soul while letting the cold air seep through my skin until a numbnessspread.All these feelings were from the feeling of acceptance, a part of me felt thrilled that despite my shortcomings she still accepted me for who I was.I was trying to get over the new situation in my head, my heart still felt dazed by the entire situation.If I was still surprised about Anna's acceptance, I was left shocked when I got back from my morning run and saw missed calls from Santiago.It was the first time he was calling ev
CHAPTER 94GLENNHe stepped closer with a gaze running down the length of me, in a way his hair found a way to be wet as he wore it loose today—He never does that.Many things gave him away,as he kept a weak smile on his face as he stood right there.He stares for a while before asking. "Is this a perfect time?" His voice was like a deep,timbre slithering down my spine with a rough caress.Yet looking deep in his eyes I could immediately feel every emotion as well, it was as though I could feel his soul. His soul looked dark to me at that very moment.His red eyes gave him away, it gave away the fact that he had actually been crying.Why, though?The question was on my mind as he forces a smile, the dark cloud still rained hard upon the roof like it would flood the earth, I listened to his heart beat through the flow of the gentle current filled with reverberation as it drifted against my skin, but couldn’t thaw thecoldness that had started filling my soul up.I listened to him
CHAPTER 95GLENNA thunder clasped across the sky from where we were, at the first Instance I appeared startled seeing him—Santiago.He appeared wet apparently he had made the long walk to my apartment under the heavy downpour of the rain.With each moment I that crept through us, I felt encaptured by his looks as he was noticably in distress but looked beautiful In it as well.Ever how two contrasting images could be merged into one body, he was definately the description, he fitted right into it just the way he fitted into my soul."I was not expecting you." I spoke calmly as I was in-between just waking up and trying to sort out the feeling from th back of my mind."Am I disturbing?" He queried."Not that, it is just that You keep popping up in places I am not expecting off late."He nod his head In agreement. "Let's just say I can't keep myself away from you off late."If there was anything I would give to him, it was actually the way his words felt soothing. He was swift with it
CHAPTER 96SANTIAGO.Just a moment ago I just popped the question I had been dying all morning to let out, and just as I thought it shook the entire room right down to its foundation, literally.In return all I got was silence, she stared blankly at me with her jaw dropped as though she didn't believe I had actually said those words.I was lost in her perfection, her sweet perfection and it felt like what I would forever want to do.Compared to Martha she brought a lot of calm to my soul and she did this in a way I couldn't even comprehend, it was like I was completely sold out to everything that had to do with her both her flaws and everything that came with it.It was the same reason I was at her doorstep, the same reason I was in her room. My heartbeat quickened with the second each fleeting past us—She Inched closer and I had hands in mine. For some reason I hated that fact that she was doubting me, if there was anything I would have loved to take away it was that doubt.I wan
CHAPTER 105GLENNAs much as I tried convincing him all was fine, that single fact was not accepted by this man, I didn't know why but something about him made accepting the situation much more difficult.Perhaps I wouldn't have had to go through the whole stress if Anna had just convinced him, she didn't do that as she also insisted on the report… It tookPersuasion from the two parties I ended up at the station, we didn't have to wait too long as a detective had taken useful information to get whoever this was.The letter was another piece of evidence but it had been touched many times so not much could be done.I had let out a flighty air. While walking out, I wondered why I was the only one being trailed all through the entire town.It was frustrating because the detective had asked really private questions again and over I had lied about it… lied about my past, lied about my identity and it out me in a bad mood.My rapid heartbeats counted the whole conversation as I remembered
CHAPTER 104GLENNEverything happened even before I could stop it, at the first Instance my first instincts had been to run but there again the whole situation. proved critical.If anyone had ever said I would be this scared about the situation I would have argued but at the moment it was exactly case—It all started shortly after he left, my moment of silence and having time alone to myself had been interrupted by Anna's call.As usual she had called to know how the dinner had gone and I was quite expressive with my description of the exclusive evening.We were still on the call when I heard a knock at my door , on any normal day I would have taken precaution of the entire situation but as it was it seemed far fetched from what I would have normally done —"Give me a minute.""Oh, Santi is back… " she made a humming sound that made me laugh." You are just naughty. " I shook my head as a knock filled the room again.I grinned. "A minute."To my surprise I didn't see anyone, instead
CHAPTER 103SANTIAGOThere was nothing else I wanted to do at this moment than dwell in that bliss that was filling me up, I sparkled and anyone would have noticed … For me it all had to do because of her—Glenn.Being with her brought out the very best in me being ways I could even comprehend, she looked to be the missing piece of puzzle, that looked to overwhelm my entire existence till it was the perfect fit.No matter if I were a totally different person living a different life, she brought out the very best in me, she was the exact catalyst that made me…perfect.Perfect, that was the exact way to express this feeling with her it felt like she was another missing piece of my soul fixing herself into me relentlessly.It was funny that I have found my way down the wrong track, Martha was the only thing at the moment doing what she knew how to do best: Complicate things.The Truth about this whole situationship I had with Martha was the fact that she appeared to be unaware of how m
CHAPTER 102GLENNAfter this was over the room was filled with fleeting silence again as I tried to gain back the silence that had enveloped the room . All that fell out of me were ragged breaths that I had no way of stopping as they fell out freely …He rolled off me. And almost immediately I could tell that it was my turn to satisfy him. In a bid to distract myself from the heavy feeling that was thudding in my chest, I got into work almost immediately.Staring into his eyes were lazy and dark as he dropped to his back. I knew almost immediately that I had to get down to the act of pleasing him, I did that quickly….I could feel myself burn as I grabbed his erection at the base and pumped at it before stroking it from the base up to the shaft, the action sparked something deep from Inside of him.Before I knew what I was doing, I straddled him, I went back and forth on him as I rocked him like he was a fucking horse, st the last instant I felt him lean forward but I pushed him ba
ÇHAPTER 101SANTIAGOHow could I give away that chance of making love with her again when it was what I had been thinking about all day long—Roughly, my lips and teeth did exactly what I had wanted to do all evening, It ran down her throat, drawing a sigh from her as her fingers ran through my ruffled hair, she braced herself with her arms around me as we devoured beach others lips, and just when her legs might give way from the intense passion she was having she let them curl round me.Her weight was perfect, yet so consuming, a fleeting thought ran through my mind filling bot with exactly how I planned this moment to be, all uncertainty and Sanity was forgotten when she pushed her hands into my shirt and pulled ruining it in the process but i didn't even as she pressed her face on my neck and inhaled.My shirt was hanging in an awkward way that made it look like I had gone sexually crazy—Sweat ran rivulets down her back as I could feel getting so burned up, as the sweat trail
CHAPTER 100GLENNWe were the couple of the evening, and I could see why we got the attention of everyone and everything as we walked out even the cold air that evening.He walked with his hands clasped into mine as I could feel his pulse racing against mine, there were things I wanted to tell him with my hormones raging all I wanted was to fuck this man and I had done exactly the right thing leaving an hint of my want and desire all around throughout the evening.With each click of my heels that echoed off the wooden floorboards, as we Walked out I listened as it played with my heartbeat, I was oozing out a musky scent of want that would had made anyone of my kind go crazy with rage but at the moment it doesn't look like I could stop any of it—It had only been minutes since we arrived had arrived and we're standing in front of the restaurant as we the uncertainty of if he felt the same way played out at the back of my mind, I wondered if something had shifted right there in
CHAPTER 99GLENN.It glowed like the moon and I could as it sparkled against my soul—My thoughts — Thoughts that I could feel sinking into the deepest part of me till all I could feel was it coldness.As it appeared that was the only thing I could possibly do at the moment, I had to think my way out of the situation and it was made difficult by the fact that all these feelings were unconditional.What more could this be described as than being chaotic, it was exactly the situation of my heart when I had arrived home, I was realizing that all this feeling overwhelming my soul wasn't just mere thoughts rather it was the factual truth yet I couldn't decipher what it was.I had looked at the whole situation for a long time from a different perspective but at the moment I was starting to realize that things were not the way it is not supposed to be, it was way different —As a matter of fact the woman I had thought was responsible for all of this turned out to be different from what was at
CHAPTER 98GLENNThe good thing was he picked up and as luck would have it,he didn't seem as angry as i had supposed.I told him the words I had wanted to, and he fell quiet for a while, not wanting to answer my question—"Fine, we'd meet at the regular place then." He answered after a while ignoring my first question and going for the second instead.The moment he hung up, I shared a look with him. The entire feeling I got from all of this was that he was still pissed about my actions earlier. I sat there with the phone against my ears doing nothing except buzzing."What did he say?" Anna spoke, breaking the silence.I sighed. "He is coming to meet me, but he said nothing about traveling with him… I guess he is still angry. "I said that last word with conviction and she looked as though she agreed with me that he was still vexed about the entire issue.I was caught right here thinking of a way to settle all of this, my mind felt like it was in a kind of flame."You need to go prepar
CHAPTER 97GLENNAll it took was that taste of his words and yet again I would be swayed by it, he was good when he used these words… He was so good with it that most times I began to doubt my own sanity as well.What made it more difficult was the fact that I didn't want all of this to happen, I didn't want to be swayed by his words so I had picked a harder exterior.All my plan had been that it would make it easier for me to deal with, it was the same reason I had opted for that hard exterior knowing fully well that it would give me leverage.I knew deep down that having him guessing would keep him off balance and he wouldn't use his biggest weapon… his words.It didn't turn out as I had expected, while I had thought that my words might give him a totally different feeling, it made him provoked.I was here hoping that he kissed me after cupping my face, but he left instead and now I was dying for another, I was going insane as all I wanted to —The door slammed before I could eve