CHAPTER 88
GLENNCall it a tug of war between my human and wild side, but we were battling within my senses, I could hear voices, through my heated vision I could see the two other ladies as I walked out the window.There was one more thing I was battling with deep within and that was my demon, humanity felt strained within me, all that I could hear from my soul were snarls, gnarls and several other forceful sounds.If my human soul was the beauty then I was the beast, the beast unchained as it seeked redemption that wasn't forthcoming.My wolf walked in the only path I should be used to now, the dark path that led to my abyss —The wood.At the back of my mind I thought about a way to explain the situation to Anna, how in the hell would I explain this madness to her.It was only a matter of time before I sense she would would walk into the bathroom, it was difficult to tell how I then my secrets would be save when right there on the ground were my ripped clothes.Darkness shone on the last strand I had on humanity and common sense as I ventured into the woods. One thing that was hard to control in this state was my beasty lust for flesh —It was the main reason, I always made sure I was away from any signs of humanity till my phase was over, there was a feeling that this won't be the case that evening.It was still four hours till the lunar time would pass and with each hour I could feel that hunger soaring from deep within me. For some reason the level of my lust to kill tripled and I did the only thing every beast like me would do: hunt.The outrageous mad beast that carried my soul lurking through the woods came insearch of its steak dinner.It had a wild boar in view of its heated vision and snarled quietly as it remained camouflaged by the wood while it waited.It crouched so it could look at the beast from below listening for any sound that would give it the signal to attack.Just as my wolf was about to go for the kill, the sound of a bang filled the atmosphere, then silence.Still dazzled my wolf stood at a spot, creeping slowly toward where the sound came from —Light flashes in its direction and another shot that was narrowly missed as it flew over landed in the tree behind it instead. My still confused beast had no idea where the bullet had gone, but its attention was now turned to the man that had shot the gun.Too bad for him; I looked him deep in the eye still in my wolf form… The whole size for the biggest and hideous wolf he had ever seen sent shivers as I could see him breathing heavily.My wolf taunted him by moving toward his direction, at some point I battled with myself from deep within, with a deep mad hunger that Wanted to end this by just biting and clawing at him.I tried restraining my wolf from deep within, and I tried to force a change… I figure at least fiveminutes would be enough for him to get away not for some reason he stood spellbounded.A soft Wind blew from the direction that had the carcass still laying on the ground and my wolf sniffed the air, turning its direction and attention.It was the perfect situation. I was hoping that he wouldn't act Funny as my wolf took steps closer and closer to the carcass.Perhaps greed, perhaps fear …The next moment went nuts.I was still trying the best I could to distract my wolf side fighting that urge within myself when my ears pricked to the sound of a gun being cocked.I drove down at him with all my might as he missed again. I could hear his heart pounding as he tried shooting in the direction again. This time I was close. My wolf lurked at him in the face with a force that was as brutal as anything I had ever done.I hit him right there on his head, sending him into the side of a tree as he struggled to pick his fallen gun once more and aim.I jumped on his back and pushed him to the ground, once again there was a battle between Sanity and insanity deep inside of me as both struggled deep inside of me.Once again my human side tries s forceful change, as I yelped in pain… it gave him leverage. He pushed me away and ran off. I had to admit, my wolf loved that second action a lot better, it felt Damn good! When it had to chase its meal.I heard the poor man cry for help. He was disoriented as he kept falling and my wolf took advantage of it. It chased after him as he ran towards a glow of light still ahead.With a last bit of strength it chased, all it was aiming for was his back, at a point my wolf grabbed him around the waist and rolled him over a hilly slope as both man and wolf rolled.When I lurked at him again in a spin hoping that I tilted him over, making sure snapping of his neck was swift , he held my ferociousmouth so it wouldn't bite him and deliver a deadly blow.I him down, exactly where I wanted…He stared Into my yellow eyes glowing as I gnarled.He had probably never seen something so hideous and for me it was about to be my first taste of human blood .I was willing to make a change to avert it but at that moment my beast was overwhelmed with raging mad hormones.I stared at his jugular as it pulsed with the last bit of life he had left, I was going to deliver the last blow when I felt a stinging pain on my fore limp.The last bit of my humanity stared hard at the red end of a tranquilizer as it bolted off with the last bit of energy left.As my wolf ran, I could feel light slowly fade… The darkness.ICHAPTER 89SANTIAGOThey say when madness is never just the state of one psychological state, it is the state of the heart as well. At this moment I wasn't even disputing the fact that I was totally insane.I was insane about everything, I was insane at the speed or was going at and I couldn't even stop it — I was insane about life, love and my lust.Everything looked like it was stuck in one part of my brain and I had to deal with it.A lot of things changed from the last night I was Glenn and if I was to start reading them out it would be numbering to a hundred— literally.At first it was as though my thoughts were in two ways: First was perhaps the fact that I was starting to accept the fact that the child was mine and secondly because I was still mad at Glenn for no justified reasons.As the matter became more clearer, it turned out that it came down to my self esteem. After the test for the pregnancy had turned out positive in some way all i felt was this kind of guilt that cou
CHAPTER 90GLENN.Rays of light found their way to the room, sparkling off the shiny glasses on the floor. For a quarter of the next minute my mind was shattered and deteriorated as I blinked my eyes looking around.Didn't know where I was expecting to find myself but definitely back at the spot where the entire night had started from right there in the floor of her bathroom.I looked around again still feeling a bit wonky from the tranquilizer dart, I rolled my eyes before pulling it out of my laps.In a way, the previous night was still at the back of my mind like a sort of dream state—I could still see the pictures vividly…I could see my wolf running after the man, pushing him to the ground and the rest were just puzzled at the back of my mind.Memories of the previous night flashes across my brain again—The man, my brain was unsettled for a short period as I wondered what had actually happened.If it made things better I couldn't taste blood and it gave me some kind of hope that
CHAPTER 91GLENN.Watching her I didn't know what to do or how to react to the entire situation, the question seemed abrupt as I wasn't expecting it yet as my heart beat heavily against my rib cages.At the same time I was feeling a bit of rage coming from the deepest part of my soul, a rage that was filled with the fact that all of this could as well have been avoided..I couldn't think of anything possibly think of anything to savage the situation, there was just one thing I could do and that was to tell her everything… or perhaps lie again.Still divided on what to do, I stared hard at her for a long minute. The box she had pushed into my hands was right there still warm upon it and I was yet to check what was in it.Opening the box and prying in, there it was my ripped clothes from the previous night when I had transitioned."Anna, I don't know what to say ."She looked at me keenly her eyes sparking up with whatever courage must had prompted her to this place.I shut my eyes for
CHAPTER 92SANTIAGOTalking about living a picturesque life, of late mine had lacked those true colors as I had barely lived outside the four walls of where I was for the past few days .I was living in my mind and at that time, the walls were torn to the floor leaving just the bare naked paint behind, when I tried looking beneath it I discovered it was worth nothing to look at at all as the description I found was totally different from what I expected.Was it deception?Somehow it felt Martha arriving home drunk two nights ago would be something that might never be talked about again, but one thing that left me confused was the fact that I found the envelope in her bags. It left me with the fact that I owed certain someone an apology.It wasn't as easy as it was in my mind as it turned out while it had turned out that it was something that I had totally wanted and perhaps the chances of me apologizing was more on the brighter side. Life happened one more time making the issue more o
CHAPTER 93GLENNIt was as though a heavy weight had been lifted off my shoulders, and for some reason I loved that fact, at the moment it was left savoring the memories of the discussion we had.For some reason I woke up a smile that morning, and a bit lighter …while I would have left my bed almost immediately every morning I had lain in bed for more minutes after I had woken up listening to my heart beating silently, and the distant clock ticking at the same gentle pace as my soul while letting the cold air seep through my skin until a numbnessspread.All these feelings were from the feeling of acceptance, a part of me felt thrilled that despite my shortcomings she still accepted me for who I was.I was trying to get over the new situation in my head, my heart still felt dazed by the entire situation.If I was still surprised about Anna's acceptance, I was left shocked when I got back from my morning run and saw missed calls from Santiago.It was the first time he was calling ev
CHAPTER 94GLENNHe stepped closer with a gaze running down the length of me, in a way his hair found a way to be wet as he wore it loose today—He never does that.Many things gave him away,as he kept a weak smile on his face as he stood right there.He stares for a while before asking. "Is this a perfect time?" His voice was like a deep,timbre slithering down my spine with a rough caress.Yet looking deep in his eyes I could immediately feel every emotion as well, it was as though I could feel his soul. His soul looked dark to me at that very moment.His red eyes gave him away, it gave away the fact that he had actually been crying.Why, though?The question was on my mind as he forces a smile, the dark cloud still rained hard upon the roof like it would flood the earth, I listened to his heart beat through the flow of the gentle current filled with reverberation as it drifted against my skin, but couldn’t thaw thecoldness that had started filling my soul up.I listened to him
CHAPTER 95GLENNA thunder clasped across the sky from where we were, at the first Instance I appeared startled seeing him—Santiago.He appeared wet apparently he had made the long walk to my apartment under the heavy downpour of the rain.With each moment I that crept through us, I felt encaptured by his looks as he was noticably in distress but looked beautiful In it as well.Ever how two contrasting images could be merged into one body, he was definately the description, he fitted right into it just the way he fitted into my soul."I was not expecting you." I spoke calmly as I was in-between just waking up and trying to sort out the feeling from th back of my mind."Am I disturbing?" He queried."Not that, it is just that You keep popping up in places I am not expecting off late."He nod his head In agreement. "Let's just say I can't keep myself away from you off late."If there was anything I would give to him, it was actually the way his words felt soothing. He was swift with it
CHAPTER 96SANTIAGO.Just a moment ago I just popped the question I had been dying all morning to let out, and just as I thought it shook the entire room right down to its foundation, literally.In return all I got was silence, she stared blankly at me with her jaw dropped as though she didn't believe I had actually said those words.I was lost in her perfection, her sweet perfection and it felt like what I would forever want to do.Compared to Martha she brought a lot of calm to my soul and she did this in a way I couldn't even comprehend, it was like I was completely sold out to everything that had to do with her both her flaws and everything that came with it.It was the same reason I was at her doorstep, the same reason I was in her room. My heartbeat quickened with the second each fleeting past us—She Inched closer and I had hands in mine. For some reason I hated that fact that she was doubting me, if there was anything I would have loved to take away it was that doubt.I wan