“Happy birthday to you. Happy birthday to you today is the day we finally can meet our mates. Come on get up.”
“Get out of my room before I kill you.”
“Really, that isn't nice to say, especially when you would be lost without me.”
“Maybe not I wouldn't have someone jumping on my bed waking me up.”
My parents then walked into my brother's room with a cake, singing to us. I couldn't help but to laugh when my parents brought the cake into his bedroom.
“Aww, thank you guys so much you are so sweet we are so lucky to have you as our parents.”“My mom looks at me. Ok, what do you want Lilly?”
“Can we skip school today and go to Wicked Falls.”?
My mom laughs “absolutely not now, get ready for school I am going to start your breakfast.”
“Come on mommy don't make me beg please.”
“No, you guys can go to school. We will head up after you two get home. Your dad will be home too since he is getting off work early.”“Fine, I guess that will be fine.”
“Get out of my room. So, I can get ready god you people are annoying in the morning.”
I jump off my brother's bed and give him a big kiss on the cheek. I ran into my room to get dressed for today. I want to look my very best just in case I actually meet my mate at school. I can't believe today is finally the day.
My brother has always had a crush on Jenny from school. It would be shocking if she would be his mate even though we do not get along at all but I would be so happy for him since he had a crush on her for like ever. We will become officially a part of the Night Walker Pack this month.
They hold monthly meetings for the higher ranks, but if there are wolves that turn of age, they will be announced and welcomed into the pack. In my family, we are low ranked, so we don't have to attend every meeting, thank God. There are not that many packs in Alaska; we live in a little town called Bear Run. I couldn't ever imagine leaving. I love it here. It is the most beautiful place I have ever seen, always snow covered and not too cold, just the right weather every day. It's most beautiful at night with the Northern Stars. It's like you would imagine heaven to be like.
I get into the shower to freshen up. I want to look my very best today. I laugh to myself as I try to fix my hair. I am not really the fashion type of girl. So, I called my mom to help make some curls in my hair to make me look a little more presentable today.
“Mom,” I yell downstairs “can you please put some curls in my hair please?”
Most people say that my mom, and are like twins, we look so much alike. My mom's hair is shorter than mine, she doesn't like her hair as long as I do.
“Lilly, I'm cooking breakfast, just hold on. I'll see if dad can finish breakfast, and I'll be right up sweetheart.”
“Thanks, I'll be waiting love you so much.”
I get into my closet oh God, what the hell am I going to wear. I want to avoid being rejected, I want to look beautiful. I can't take all this pressure, I sit on my bed and just start to cry. I can't handle this damn it.
“Lilly what is going on with you why are you crying?”
“Mom, I'm just freaking out, what if I get rejected.”
“Baby girl, you will not get rejected whoever is your mate will love you endlessly.”
I put my head on her shoulder as I began to quit crying, having her close to makes me feel secure.
“Ok now get off this bed and get dressed, so you can come downstairs and eat your breakfast.”She kisses me on my forehead “thanks mom, I love you.”
“Honey, do you still want curls?”“No, I'll go all natural.”I find an oversized sweatshirt which is my favorite color purple, some black leggings I get dressed in, I just prefer being comfortable, I brush my teeth and my long brown hair as I look into the mirror. Looking at my reflection hoping that I'm beautiful enough for my mate.
As I am walking down the stairs, the smell of bacon hits my nose. My stomach growls to the smell yum . I can't wait to get some. I go down to the bottom of the steps my brother barges into me, so I put my foot out and trip his ass. I laugh then he grabs my foot and falls to the ground still laughing. We both get up and rush to the table to grab breakfast.
“ Mom, this is so freaking delicious you are such a remarkable cook.”
My dad cuts in, “Hey I helped her make it, so I think that I am the better cook.” he laughs what?
“Ok dad I bet that you made all of this.” I start to laugh knowing he is joking.
“I don't care who made it's freaking delicious,” my brother says with a month full.
I love days like these, full of jokes and laughter. Nothing could ever break us apart, we are just that close we really have always been. The conversation stops while everyone is enjoying our birthday breakfast. I look around at my family knowing that today I find my mate, hoping that it won't change anything. That we will stay close to each other no matter what, even if we don't live together. As I'm in a daze, I feel a slap on my shoulder.
“Quit daydreaming Lilly, we need to leave for school now, or we will be late lets go.”
“I'm coming Landon geez you didn't have to hit me so hard.”
I get up from the breakfast table to go gather my things for school. I grab my book bag and my lunch that my mother prepared. You know she still puts little notes in our lunch every day. My brother thinks it's childish, but I think it's hard warming. I ran out to the car to get in and of course my brother's up front.
He always sits up front. I just let him who cares, really. On the way to school it is quiet. I'm so nervous about what is about to happen, finding my mate hoping he doesn't reject me. Hoping that I am good enough for him that he will love me. When we get up to the school, and I am nervous, my mom looks at me and smiles.
“It's ok Lilly he will love you and if he doesn't, you will find someone who will love you and will make your life more magical than you could ever imagine.”
“Thanks mom, I love you so much.”
“Don't forget dad and I will be here to pick you up right after school, and we will go to Wicked Falls as a family tradition.”
“We will try to have a good day at work, mom.”
As we are walking up to school, I start to detect an enchanting smell. I start to freak out and run away from it terrified who it is. I'm just not ready for this. I just can't. I don't want this day to be the worst day ever if I get rejected. I find my brother and he pushes me away. He is with his group of buddies. I just run to class, hoping I am not being followed. I have always been good at school, not really sure why, but always came too easily to me. Class is ready to start I'm, so Thankfully I just need to do what I'm good at not worrying about what is happening outside of class. When class finishes, I smell it again, and I inhale the smell it is like I think heaven would be. I can't explain it like the forest, the wilderness, what I would imagine it to smell like. Suddenly, I feel a grip around my arm. Next thing I know I'm being pulled along, I get shoved into an empty classroom. I look into his beautiful gray eyes. He is so tall he towers over me, his dark brown
The ride up to Wicked Falls was nice and peaceful. It gave me much needed time to think. My parents did not bring up my mate at all. My brother must have asked them not to mention it which I'm grateful for. I didn't want to talk to them about it until later. I tried to put all my sadness behind me; I want to have fun today especially when we don't do this often only for special events like our birthday for example. My brother's mate Sky is very nice. She called her parents on the way to let them know she was coming with us. They were very excited for her finding her mate, I could hear the excitement in their voices from her phone.I just stare out the window wondering what is in store for me with my mate, sad that he doesn't want me. I am sort of jealous of my brother, he will be able to have a life with his mate. All my mate wants to do is use me, I will have his heir, but I will not give my child to him. If he does not agree with that I will not agree to have his heir
We all get into the car. The run was amazing feeling the wind blow through my fur is the most amazing feeling even though I'm covered in mud, but I don't mind. My brother and Sky never made it to the top they were spending their time making out once they were alone, so they never made it to the top of wicked falls. Well, that's just too bad for them, but there will always be next time now that Sky is a part of the family. I never really had a girlfriend hoping that Sky and I can become great friends. I don't want my brother and I to drift apart because he has a loving mate that wants to be with him. I know that my mom will help me to deal with all this mate stuff, I'm just so glad I have her. This rain is so bad it's becoming hard to see outside. I don't know how my dad can see to drive. My mom is starting to get worried about the rain I can tell she says. “Honey, don't you think we should pull over and let the rain calm down a little, it's becoming hard to see i
As I walk into my house, it's quiet. There is nobody else there but me. I feel so numb knowing that there will never be anyone else here but me. I go and pick out the clothes for my family to be buried in not knowing what would be perfect for them but just trying to remember what was their favorite clothes to wear. As I got into my mother's closet I saw the dress that she always wore when her and my father went out on date always the same dress it was my father's favorite dress he would always tell her that she was always the prettiest one in the room when she wore that dress. My mother was so simple I'm not really sure what to pick out for her. I just look for favorite slacks and shirt as tears flood my eyes smelling her shirt having her scent in my presence It's overwhelming. My father and my brother, it wasn't really hard to pick out what their favorite clothes were. As I smelled their clothes For the last time having their scent knowing that I won't be back t
Today is the day it's time to put my family 6 feet under the ground. As I get my black dress out of the bag, I hang it up. I look at it as tears start to feel my eyes. This is my funeral dress never thinking I would be wearing it to bury my family. I decide to get a shower I turn the water on letting it warm as I take my clothes off. I look into the mirror and the bruises from the accident where all fading like it never happened. I'm so angry I let out a scream of fury. I just drop to the floor and bring my knees to my chest trying to comfort myself as I cry.I watch as the bathroom fills up with steam from the hot water in the shower. Forcing myself to get up and get in the shower, telling myself I stink I need to shower. As the hot water is burning my skin, I don't budge, wanting to feel anything but what I'm feeling right now. It almost feels like a relief to me, I can feel the burning is all over me. I just relax as I clean myself, getting angry that the water is turn
As I begin to wake up, not sure where I am at as I'm looking around, I then realize I'm in the cabin. I look down at myself, and I'm clean. Someone must have showered me and changed my clothes. What the fuck. Who the hell would do that, damn it, they would have touched me fuck. I'm embarrassed, not sure how to even act. I get out of bed and walk to the kitchen to get a drink.“How did you sleep, you have been out for a while? I jump and scream not knowing anyone else was here “what the fuck are you doing here?”“Oh, so you are able to speak by the way I'm Sam not sure if you remember, but I volunteered to be your friend.”“Well, Sam please leave. I don't want any friends and did you change me.”“I did not bathe and change you, that was the Alpha. He would not dear let anyone touch while you asleep.”“Why can't you guys just let me alone.”“Why don't you sit and relax, I will make you breakfast, I'm actually a pretty good cook.”“O
I am struggling to figure out what I need to do with my life now that the Alpha punished me by making me stay in the pack house. I have no privacy at all. I am not really sure why he would want me in the pack house especially with him being there he doesn't want anyone to know he found his mate. I try to stay away from everybody. I don't talk to anybody. I just don't feel comfortable. This is not my family. I don't belong. All I crave is to be alone. As I go up to my room I feel a sharp pain in my chest and am not really sure what is happening. Star says it's our mate he is with another woman. Not understanding why, but rage overcomes me. I follow his scent to his bedroom knowing that another woman is in his Room. I kicked the door open and they both jumped out of their skin. I grab the bitch by the hair and put her up against the wall. I then growled out “mine.”“What the fuck are you doing, get the fuck out of my room.”The rage that is overcoming my body fee
The Beta and I have been spending a lot of time together. I love flirting with him; he is so sexy. I really don't think the Alpha likes us spending so much time together, but I don't care. Everybody else just stares know one really talks to me, but they sure can talk about me behind my back. I think that they are just curious why the hell I'm here to be honest, so am I. It's been about a month since I lost my family. Being with Sam helps ease some of the pain. I still miss them so much I'm not acting myself, just trying to find a way of where I'm not so miserable. Sam helps me from feeling so lonely all the time. He is giving me confidence in so many ways, making me feel like I am the sexiest woman alive. I don't want him to fall in love with me; I don't want to be with anyone, I want to be alone.All of a sudden, I'm falling to my knees in pain. It's almost unbearable not realizing it's the pain of my mate being with another she Wolf. I am use to this pain it's starting becom