Chapter 8

I am struggling to figure out what I need to do with my life now that the Alpha punished me by making me stay in the pack house. I have no privacy at all. I am not really sure why he would want me in the pack house especially with him being there he doesn't want anyone to know he found his mate. I try to stay away from everybody. I don't talk to anybody. I just don't feel comfortable. This is not my family. I don't belong.

All I crave is to be alone. As I go up to my room I feel a sharp pain in my chest and am not really sure what is happening. Star says it's our mate he is with another woman. Not understanding why, but rage overcomes me. I follow his scent to his bedroom knowing that another woman is in his Room. I kicked the door open and they both jumped out of their skin. I grab the bitch by the hair and put her up against the wall. I then growled out “mine.”

“What the fuck are you doing, get the fuck out of my room.”

The rage that is overcoming my body feels amazing as the little she wolf tries to defend herself. My father trained my brother and I as kids to defend ourselves very well if I may add. She has know chance of defeating me when she realizes she is defeated and runs over to him.

“Ivan are you just going to let her do that to me.”

“What is it your just his little whore you could never give him the pleasure that I could give him.”

“That is enough get the fuck out of my room.”

“Fine you want to play that game, two can play this game let's play.”

I walk out of his room, I see Sam, I grab a hold of him and drag him behind me. We go into my room.

“What is going on are you okay.”

“Do you have a girlfriend?”

“No!”

My lips connect to his as my body starts burning up with lust, his touch feeling more amazing than I could ever imagine.“What are you doing?”

“I'm making the Alpha jealous he is fucking some bitch, so I'm going to fuck you is that ok with you.”

“So you're using me?”

I can't finish my sentence before the Alpha storms in. I'm half naked, sitting on top of Sam. “Can I help you with something?”

“Sam get the fuck out of her room you are not to come back in here understood.”

I get off him, so it allows him to get up. I am not even sure why the Alpha is even pissed. I know he felt the same pain I felt. It's his fault I still hate him. I just want a taste. I can see the lust in his eyes, I know what is about to happen. I have never been with anyone, this will be my first time, but he doesn't need to know about it. Sam walks out my bedroom and shuts the door.

“What are you doing trying to fuck my Beta?”

“Sam is my friend, we were just having fun.”

“You can't be acting like this, I won't allow it.”

“If you don't want to be my mate, that is fine, but you don't have the right to control me.”

“I don't want you, but my wolf does, he doesn't like it when you're getting pleasure from someone else.”

I walk up close to him wanting to tease him craving his touch. My lips are right in front of his. I can feel his breath on my skin. It's exhilarating. All I want is him to pleasure me. I want to feel something. I don't want him to love me, I don't want him to be with me all I want is the pleasure that he's meant to give me.

“Then why don't you give me the pleasure that I crave?'' I whisper into his ear.”

Next thing I know my body is up against the wall as he's kissing me down my neck, my body screaming out in pleasure wanting more. He rips my shirt off and starts kissing down my chest as he crest my breast and sucks on my nipples. I moan out in pleasure, loving how good he is making me feel. He goes to pick me up as I wrap my legs around his body, he carries me to the bed and puts me on the bed.

“How do you like it, so I know how to pleasure you.”

“It doesn't matter to me just do it anyway you want to do it.”

“What do you mean it doesn't matter you have had sex before right.”

He stops and looks at me, I don't know how to respond. I never had done anything with anyone. I wanted to save it for my mate. I never even dated, I just didn't want to waste my time on someone else.

“Who cares if I haven't what does it matter to you?”

“You're a Virgin I can't be the one that takes your virginity.”

“Are you fucking kidding me seriously get out of my room leave now.”

I am shocked that he rejected me, I really thought that something was going to happen, but I should have known better all I deserve is misery not happiness. I don't even know how I am going to face Sam now he's probably not even going to talk to me. I just lay on my bed feeling pity on myself like I do what I always do now. It's like a new routine pity party. My bedroom door opens. I noticed that it is Sam.

“Well that was a little awkward, I think maybe we should try that some other time.” As he sits on my bed, I just lie down and stare at the ceiling.

“You still want to be with me or are you just being friendly.”

“Are you kidding Lilly you are fucking hot anybody would be lucky to have you.”

“ Sam, would you take my virginity.”

He starts laughing, “what kind of question is that really do you want me too.”

“I don't think that you know, so I am just going to tell you, just keep it quiet, the Alpha is my mate I believe his name is Ivan not sure his last name he won't tell me, so I can't reject him. He doesn't want me, he just wants me to breed for him when the time comes. Just a little bit ago he realized I was a Virgin and didn't want to take my virginity from me."

As I am laying on the bed Sam cradles his body over top of me and kisses my lips so tender the way a first kiss should feel.

“Sam just promise me one thing that this won't go any farther than sex I don't want any kind of relationship I just want to have fun.”

He then kisses me again “I am happy with anything it is my pleasure to be your first everything.”

“Thank you so much Sam but as of now I'm not in the mood any longer, but I appreciate it.”

“Well I will be right here when you want to it would be my honor.” He looks at me and smiles.

"Aren't you afraid of what the Alpha might do to you?"

“The Alpha doesn't scare me, he's my brother.”