Chapter 9

The Beta and I have been spending a lot of time together. I love flirting with him; he is so sexy. I really don't think the Alpha likes us spending so much time together, but I don't care. Everybody else just stares know one really talks to me, but they sure can talk about me behind my back. I think that they are just curious why the hell I'm here to be honest, so am I. It's been about a month since I lost my family. Being with Sam helps ease some of the pain. I still miss them so much I'm not acting myself, just trying to find a way of where I'm not so miserable. Sam helps me from feeling so lonely all the time. He is giving me confidence in so many ways, making me feel like I am the sexiest woman alive. I don't want him to fall in love with me; I don't want to be with anyone, I want to be alone.

All of a sudden, I'm falling to my knees in pain. It's almost unbearable not realizing it's the pain of my mate being with another she Wolf. I am use to this pain it's starting become a regular thing now making me hate him more. I look for Sam, wondering where he has gone. The pain is getting worse, damn it. I can't take it any longer, I shift into my wolf and I run down the steps out the door trying to get as far away from him as I can to ease this pain. I hear the guards let a howl out to notify the alpha that I have taken off. I wasn't escaping, I just wanted to relieve myself from the pain even though I deserve it. I wouldn't put myself through going to his room again, I don't want to be around him. I stay as far away from him as I can. 

As I am running faster and faster I start feeling relief from his actions, the pain slowly disappearing as I'm feeling free. I love the feeling of the air blowing through my fur. It feels amazing. I haven't felt like this and so long I wasn't sure if I would ever be able to feel this way again. When I reach the top of Wicked Falls I just go and look over the edge and sit. I wait for him to come because I know he's coming I can smell him. So, I just sit and wait. It will only be a matter of time until he is here to take me back.

I think of my family missing them so much, but I'm starting to feel like myself Sam is helping me with that. I don't want him, I wonder if I'm unable to care any longer. I feel so peaceful then suddenly I feel pain in my shoulder from the Alpha's grip on me throwing me into a tree surprised by his actions. I can see rage in his once blue eyes that now are black.

"Why do you not listen to me Lilly, I can't stand it."

"I am not your pet that you can just order around and get your hands off me."

"If you don't start listening to me, I will mark you, so you won't have a choice but to listen to me. Do you understand I am your Alpha and respect me damn it."

"You are not my alpha, you are not my mate, you are nothing to me, and you never will be."

He slaps me across the face as I fall to the ground surprised by his actions. I hate him even more than I did before.

"You need to respect me as your Alpha. You are too weak to be my mate the Luna of this pack you are nothing but my breeder if I didn't need you I would not keep you now let's get back to the house."

"Fuck you I hate you I'm not going back to the house with you. I want you to reject me now. I am not sitting around here like some little puppet for you to breed."

As he approaches me, the power is radiating off him. I know that I pissed him off, but I just can't do this. I don't want this. I don't want to live this life at all, I just want it all to end. I hate the way I am living. I don't know how to gain control of all this, I just want to escape. Thinking if I make him mad enough, maybe he will just kill me.

He grabs me by the throat, "quit defining me."

It's hard to breathe, hoping he just puts me out of my misery. I then realize I almost have him at his breaking point. So, add more fuel to the fire as he throws me to the ground. I scream at him 

"I wasn't escaping you were fucking an another she-wolf, so I ran to ease the fucking pain."

"Lets go now we are going back to the house now."

"No, I don't want to go back to the house, let me stay back in the cabin please."

"I would rather have you close to me. The cabin is too far away and you need protection.'

"I can take care of myself, I don't need protection."

"You are going back to the house. I'm not fighting about this."

I shift into my wolf and I take off back to the house angry that he will not let me stay in the cabin any longer because of needing protection I don't need protection if I need any protection it would be from him. As he follows close behind me like I am going to do a trick or something. Once I see the house I shift back to my human as I walk naked into the house I hear a slight growl come from his lips. I don't pay any mind and just keep walking to my room. Not caring that all eyes are on me, it doesn't bother me that everyone is looking at me.

When I finally get to my room I am relieved to be alone, before I go turn the water on to shower. I make sure the water is warm and then step in. I let the water pour over my body. It feels so good. I then hear the bathroom door opening and not really sure who it is. I peek my head out to see who it is when I notice It's Sam I am thankful its him and not Ivan.

"He smiles at me, can I join you?"

I am a little nervous at first. I've never showered with anybody before this will be my first time. "Yes if you want too, I don't see a problem with that."

I watch him take his clothes off, I have never seen him naked god he is so fucking sexy. I feel a sensation between my legs that just wants to be satisfied. I back up to allow him to get in. He begins to kiss my neck. I moan out wanting more than he begins to touch my body; it sends tingles down my spine. He begins to crest my breast and kiss my lips as he presses his body against mine I can feel his hard cock pressing against my leg loving that he is hard for me.

He whispers in my ear "I'm going to put my fingers inside your pussy to help it stretch you out so when I fuck you, it doesn't hurt as bad." 

I nod to his words as he begins fingering my pussy, my body goes crazy with pleasure I can't believe how good it feels "oh my God yes" I scream out to him. I don't feel any pain, just pleasure that I have never felt before. Then all of a sudden I feel him putting his cock inside me, I whimper in pain that is coming with pleasure with every thrust he is rubbing my clit very Intensely that is making it pleasurable. He begins thrusting harder and harder as the pain is going away and all I feel is pleasure I moan out to him with every thrust. Love the pleasure I am receiving as I start to have my orgasm. He makes it more intense when he starts to rub my clit making my body shake. He then pulls out and cums in the shower.

"Wow that was amazing like wow."

"Well thank you I'm good at pleasuring, and it is one of my favorites. I jumped at the opportunity since my brother left, so he could stop it from happening this time."

"He will still know it happened oh yes he will does that bother you"

"No I don't care if he knows"

"Thank you for making a terrible night into a good one."

He looks at me "I aim to please" he then kisses my lips.

We both finish up and shower washing each other, it was quite fun to be honest. I enjoy spending time with him, I feel like I can be myself or be whoever I want to be for that matter. As we are getting out grabbing a towel to dry ourselves, I see that my door is open. When I walk out the bathroom, that's when I see Ivan.