Jazziyah Fixation

PROLOGUE How can you forget the pain from your past when there is so much evidence to not forget it? It's like the pain from your past already embedded in your whole body and soul. Na kahit anong pilit mong kalimutan ang nakaraan parati paring bumabalik ang mga alaalang pilit mo nang ibinabaon sa hukay. A sad smile crept on my lips when I saw my whole body and my face in the mirror. Should I be grateful that I have this kind of body and face? Dapat ko bang ikatuwa na ipinanganak akong ganito ang mukha? O dapat ko ba itong ikalungkot. Because of my face, I've been through so much pain. Because of my face, I suffered too much. They said I should be grateful because God gave me beauty. God gave me a unique and pretty face. They appreciated how beautiful and pretty my face was. But why am I not happy with the idea? Bakit mas hinihiling ko parati na sana hindi na lang ganito ang mukha ko. Para hindi ko naranasan ang muntik nang pangbaboy ng sarili kong tiyuhin sa'kin. It's so funny b

“Blaise ihatid mo na ang pagkain ni Sir Bastian baka sumupingin na naman kay aga-aga,” utos ni Manang Jenna na nag-pangiti sa 'kin.Kahapon lang ako dumating sa bahay na 'to dahil dinala ako ni Bastian dito. He said my punishment is to serve him. So here I am at his house being his maid and so ready to serve him. Akala niya siguro magagalit ako o hindi ko magugustuhan ang ideya na maging tagasilbi niya, dahil ang totoo nagbunyi ang kaloob-looban ko dahil araw-araw ko na siyang makikita. I smiled at that thoughts. Inayos ko ang pagkain ni Bastian na nasa plato. Namamawis ang mga kamay ko habang inaayos ang mga pagkain. Humingi ako ng pahintulot kay Manang kanina kung pwede bang ako ang magluto ng French Omelette. I asked her earlier what are the foods that Ryker loves to eat every morning before going to school. She said Ryker loves French Omelette since he was a kid. It's just an egg but he loves it so much. Inayos ko rin ang bread at coffee niya sa tray. Huminga ako ng malalim bago

I WOKE UP so early to prepare a soup for Bastian. I know that he's drunk last night. I'm wondering if he always gets drunk? Gusto kong tanungin si Manang pero mas pinili ko na lang na hindi. Bastian is stubborn with it comes to his father based on what I've saw and witnessed the other day. I was holding the tray where the soup on it. Tahimik ang buong mansion ng Contreras. Minsan nagtataka ako kung bakit ang laki-laki ng bahay ng mga mayayaman kung isa o hanggang tatlo lang naman ang nakatira dito. The place looks so quiet and it feels so sad. I don't know why I suddenly think of this. Or maybe I'm just thinking it that way?I pursed my lips and knocked three times on the door. Idinikit ko ang tainga ko sa pintuan para pakinggan kung may ingay ba sa loob. Ngunit wala akong naririnig. Nahulog ang tingin ko sa door knob. I tried to twist it, and to my shocked. My eyes brightened when it wasn't lock! Pinihit ko ang door knob at nag desisyon na pumasok. My brows furrowed when I didn't

After we came home last night. Hindi na muli kami nagka-usap ni Bastian. He said his gratitude to Manang for all her efforts for his birthday then he immediately went to his room to sleep. I answered Manang questions afterwards. Napansin ko lang na paiba-iba talaga ang mood ni Bastian. Maybe because he's angry at me last night?I can't help but to smile when I watch Bastian sleeping face. He looks so peaceful and calm. Like he's in a quiet paradise. I pouted when he snored a bit making me giggle. Damn. He's cute! I caressed his thick brows down to his pointed nose. Then my eyes went to his stomach. His body is not that massive. His stomach is flat with no hints of muscles but his biceps is to die for! Bastian is lean and tall with fair skin. I don't have a specific type when it comes to men. But, I guess I have a type now. My eyes slowly widened in fraction when I saw two pair of eyes staring at me with softness and gentleness. “Sorry, kinuha ko lang ‘yong mga damit mo. Utos ni Man