Chapter 36

Chapter 36

I woke up with the same old film again. My eyes were swollen and my pillows on the bed were soaked by all my tears last night. I don't know how many hours I only slept. I couldn't take Elijah out of my head.

“Don't worry, baby. You'll have a father,” I chuckled as I talked to my baby inside me.

“We will have a happy family,” that's all I want. I don't just want this for myself, I want this for our child. I don't want this baby to grow up witnessing all this chaos and seeing how wrecked the parents he has.

Am I asking for too much? Is it a big wish to grant? I just want to have a very simple life where happiness and peace are always present. This mansion is damn big and expensive. But little did they know, it's the darkest home in the entire world. All the pain and hurtful words are filling this house. Joy was once present here, but it drifted away in one snap and I wasn't able to do anything.

Why do I feel like the world isn't happy when I am?

“Ms. Faith,” I eyed Marie from the mirror as she knocked and came in.

“Sir Elijah's mother is here,” my lips parted.

In all these days, why now? Why does she have to be here when Elijah and I are colliding again?

“Shit, I look terrible right now.” I mumbled as I stared at myself again.

“Can you entertain her for a while? I'll just fix myself,” Marie still looked worried while she was looking at me. I'm still lucky to have her here. Crying with her last night helped me a bit to lessen the heaviness in my chest.

“Sure. I also prepared your breakfast, veggies and fruits, just like your request.” She drew a thin smile on her lips before she left.

I breathed heavily and prepared to go downstairs. I tried everything I could to make myself look fine. I don't even know how I am supposed to conceal my swollen eyes and face Elijah's mother like everything between me and her son is fine.

“Where’s Elijah? It's still early,” I paused on the stairs when I heard her asking that. I saw how Marie froze, unable to give her an answer.

“U-Uhm…he…He’s i—”

“Mom,” I called immediately to save Marie. I heard how she sighed in relief when I came just on time.

I forced a broad smile on my lips as I quickly hugged her.

“Why are you here? Do you need something?” I quickly asked, trying to act like I didn't beg and cry to make her son stay last night.

“You're so beautiful, Faith.” She even praised.

“Anyway, I'm on my way home, I just stopped by to drop this dessert,” she said and pointed out the box of cake on the small table in our living room.

I couldn't take my eyes off it when I suddenly felt starving just by looking at it.

“By the way, where's Elijah, Faith? Is he already out for work?” I knew that she would ask me that, but I still came unprepared.

My brain suddenly stopped working at that moment. I froze right there, stuck with my fake smile at her. How am I supposed to tell her that our marriage isn't working, instead it's tearing apart? How should I tell her that her son couldn't forgive me and doesn't want to try? How can I tell her that the cruel Elijah I told her is coming back again?

“Y-Yeah, he's busy these days, you know.” I immediately moved my eyes away and pretended to check out the cake just to get rid of her eyes.

“What? How can you two have our grandchild if both of you are workaholics?” She sighed with disappointment and distress towards us.

I paused again when she mentioned that grandchild. I crumpled my hand, wanting to tell her that she already has a grandchild inside my womb. I wanted to tell her so badly that their dream finally came true. I am conceiving the first grandchild of Lucieros.

“I should talk to him. I received the gift you promised me,” she said and giggled with mirth.

“Really? Did you like it? I designed it myself,” I have to ride with her when she was the one who changed the conversation.

“Of course, I do love it, Faith! Thank you so much! That's the best gift I've ever had this year!” At least, seeing how happy she is with that small gift of mine makes me smile a bit.

“I have to go as well, Faith. Your father is waiting for me,” it saddens her a bit. It's not like I don't want her here, but I don't think I would be able to hide everything from her if she also stays here longer.

I can't picture myself pretending to be fine for many hours.

“I'll see you next time. Thanks for the cake, Mom.”

“No worries. Bye, Faith! Take care of yourself,” she hugged me for one last time before I waved my hand at her as she left.

I watched their car leave and vanish from my sight before everything in my world came back to the truth. The fake smile I was wearing dropped and vanished immediately. The agony from my eyes was seen once again.

“You should eat, Ms. Faith.” Marie said behind me.

I nodded at her before we both went to the dining hall.

“Can you serve the cake? I'm craving it,” I uttered. It makes me smile a bit. Is this part of my pregnancy? I suddenly crave cake.

“Sure,” Marie replied.

I started to eat alone, just like what I used to. I had to disregard what I felt and eat a lot for my baby. I noticed how I love the food more than before that I was forcing myself to swallow every food I ate.

“Do you love the food that much?” Marie asked and chuckled. That was when I realized that I finished all the food she served.

I smiled a little. My baby is probably so happy right now with all the food we ate.

“I have a secret, Marie.” I wiped my lips with the napkin as I looked at her.

Her eyes were full of questions, waiting for me to spill the tea. I wanted Elijah to know about this first, but it seems like Marie would be the first one to find out.

“I'm…I'm actually pr—”

“Faith,”

My brows crossed when I heard that voice.

“Lily? What are you doing here?”

“I'm here, too.” I was befuddled when I saw Lucas behind her as well. Okay, what's going on here again? Judging Lily's face right now, she's upset. She's wearing those dark eyes of hers again.

“What's up?”

“Where's your husband, Faith?” Lily asked.

I don't like this aura of her right now, it gives me goosebumps.

“He's at work,” I lied again. Who knows where he is? I'm her wife and yet I know nothing.

She chuckled. “Is he?”

I glanced at Lucas behind her and I saw how he shook his head at me as if they both knew something that I couldn't cover up anymore.

“Is he working on the houses and buildings of people? Or he's working over another woman?”

I froze when she showed me a picture on her phone. I saw my husband there, kissing another woman.

“How can you explain that, Faith?” She asked me again.

I remained standing there, out of words.

“Is everything fine, Faith? I thought you're starting over?” Lucas now stepped up and meddled.

I moved my eyes around as I felt my tears welling out again. I tried to compose myself, will still try to cover this up.

“We’re fine…it's not him,” I said as if I was so sure.

“It's him, Faith. I saw it with my own fucking eyes.” Lily said firmly.

“Don't tell me you don't fucking know?” She cackled, and couldn't believe it.

“I don't think you don't know about it, Faith. Do you not really know or you're trying to save his ass again?”

When I glanced at the two of them again, I knew that I would never be able to escape them. I wouldn't be able to run away and cover Elijah's mess again.

“I know,” my voice broke.

“Damn it,” I heard Lily mumble when I admitted it.

“Last night, he left and told me that he tried but he just really can't forget everything,” I explained. I started to cry a river while explaining. I can remember how I begged him last night and it's tearing me apart.

“That’s why he's doing this again?” Lucas chuckled unbelievably.

“File a divorce. I'll call my lawyer,”

“No, Lily.” I quickly said when she was about to call her lawyer. Her eyes glued at me, too speechless to utter a word when I stopped her.

“I told you a million times that I will not do that. I will not file a divorce,”

“And why? Because you fucking love him? Because you believe that he can still come back from the old him? That's not gonna happen, Faith! I'm so sick of hearing those useless reasons from you! Why are you fucking doing this for yourself, huh?!”

“I'm not doing this just for myself now, Lily!” I exclaimed back as I was bursting into tears.

I hope I'm only doing this for myself. But I know that it is not just for me anymore.

“Then, what? Why are you doing this?!”

“Because I'm pregnant!”

They were both shut up. I saw how their eyes widened and how they both froze the moment I said that. Elijah should be the one to know about that news, but I revealed it to them this way.

“I'm carrying our baby, Lily…I am pregnant,”

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