Chapter Two

Monday, January 17,2022

               7:10 a.m.

I wake up, but still laying down on the bed for a while.

“Oh shit.”

“How can I forget that?”

I say while putting my hands on my head. Today is first day of my college and I forget about it as I have been on vacation after 12^th standard since long. I stand up and rush towards the bathroom. I wash my face and started getting dressed, put on my running shoes and get myself ready to run. I go to kitchen, pour water into bottle and walk out of home.  I run for an hour and then get back to home. I sit on chair for a while and then I brush the teeth quickly and quickly take a bath. I get myself ready for school and come out of room to do breakfast.

“Good morning dad.”

I glance at my father and greet him. My step mother is sitting aside by my dad. She is staring me as I haven’t greet with her. So I also say Good morning to her. She don’t reply. I don’t know why the hell is she ignorant. Anyways I sit on chair and started doing breakfast. I think about the school throughout the breakfast. I’m little bit, no instead I’m so much  hesitant and confused. I don’t know how school life is? I don’t have siblings even through whom I could know about school life. I even don’t have friends. I don’t like to make friends.

“So, today is your first day at school?”

Dad asks me in a formal way.

“Yeah dad”, I reply. Dad says good luck to me and I smile. I stand up from dinning table, when I have done with my breakfast. I put my bag and shoes on and walk towards my car. I’m happy for one thing today that my dad has given me a car for going to school. I sit in car and start driving to the school. When I reach school, I sit in car for a while in parking area. I’m observing school from car. I’m not willing to get out of car.

“Emma listen, you should get out of car now, come on you can do it”, I say myself in a low voice and giving myself courage to go to school. I finally get out of car and start visiting school as there is a time in my class. School is very nice and big. Now more students are here then before. Most of the students are staring at me like I look like an alien. Anyways I glance at my watch. It’s time to get class. I walk towards my class. I enter class and everyone turn back to see me. I fold my hands around my stomach and sit on back bench. The teacher enters in room and asks everyone for introduction. Students start introduce themselves. I fear the time, when my turn comes  for an introduction as I’m introvert and not so confident enough to talk in front of people.  When my turn comes, I feel shivering in my shoes and I feel nervous. I don’t know from where I should start? I take a deep breath and start introducing myself.

“Hello, I’m Emma”, I say, and now I’m unable to talk further. I feel low confident.

“That’s it?”, teacher asks me while looking at me with strange looks.

“No” , I say immediately, I take a breath and trying to say something.

“So, I’m here in literature course because I love literature and reading books is my passion. And my biggest dream is to be a novelist.”

I say quickly. Everyone is looking at me in an awkward way and there is an awkward silence. I quickly walk towards my bench and I lay my head down. Now everyone is laughing at me. I can hear clearly. I feel really stupid. I look up to the board when teacher starts lecture. After attending classes, I go to cafeteria to get something to eat. I enter in cafeteria, there is a lot of students in cafeteria and a lot of noise as well. All the students are talking very loud and still are unable to understand one another’s voice clearly. I don’t feel good to be here but I need to eat something badly. So, I bought some snacks and cold drink and sit on a vacant chair. I saw hand on my table when I’m about to start eating. It looks like a girl’s  hand. I sigh and look up. A girl stand over me and she is looking at me from top to bottom. It seems like she is observing me. I also start looking at her like I’m observing her. Her getup looks like boys. She looks very cool type girls. Who pretend to be boy.

“Hey”, I’m Angel.”, she says while waving her hand. It looks strange to me. What should I do. I don’t want to talk anyone but it seems rude. I think I should greet with her. She is still looking at me like she is waiting for my response.

“Hello, I’m Emma”, I say and it is obvious from my tone that I’m not interested to talk to her. She looks at me with strange face. I don’t care with her looks or even anyone’s looks. I’m already tired of this school only in one day.

“Look, I know what happened to you in first class. I really feel sorry for you”, she says in a sympathetic way. I don’t know who the hell is she to feel sorry for me, but it make me feel better. I remain silent.

“Do you want to be my friend?”

She break the silence. She make me confuse by this question. I’m thinking for a while that what should be answer to this question as I hate making friends but if I deny, she will be disappointed. So I agree with her only by nodding my head. She sits with me and start telling about herself. I’m literally not interested in her  so called biography so I just focus on my lunch.