I stood by the hallway waiting for my step dad to pass by .I had so much in my mind that I wanted to say out loud and I was so pissed at him .I didn’t know why I was so hurt by what I had just heard , there was just nothing that I wanted at this moment , I just wanted to know why he did it .For the past few days I could tell that my step dad had been doing everything to avoid me , I didn’t want to think that this was the reason why he was doing that .I thought that he loved me but why the fuck did he get my mom pregenant .I hated him for that , how could he do something as crazy as that .I made sure that everyone was already asleep before I asked him to see me. I didn’t want my mom to see us together like this , because it was definitely going to hurt and I don’t Think that I was in my best frame of mind but I was still going to confront him now or never .When I stood there and looked ahead , I saw his figure approaching me .I didn’t know exactly how to react , I di
For the longest that I could remember , my heart was still aching from all that had just happened over the past few days .I didn’t want to say that I was mad or anything , but damn , how could it be that crazy .It was just some few months away that it all happened and if a fact , it still felt like a ducking dream for me .I could see mom protruding. stomach but I also wondered if it was the best thing that could happen .On second thought , I know that it was the best decision that he made .There was no way possible that he was going to keep on fucking me after getting my mom pregnant , that wasn’t something that I was going to support no matter what it was .I knew how much I was hurt and mad at the same time , I knew that I shouldn’t have gotten involved with him in the first place , but now that I am in this situation what can I do , there’s absolutely nothing that could be done .Never had I felt that lonely my entire life .I wanted someone that I could talk to
Christmas came in a hurry and I didn’t know that it would come that quickly .I could literally remember the last Christmas that I celebrated , it was with my mom and just the both of us and even though she had been seeing shuan , she didn’t let him spend Christmas with us.I didn’t know if I should be happy or sad that someone else was joining us to spend Christmas for the first time since my dad died but what could I say?I didn’t know how it was going to be , but one holiday that I really love was Christmas .I didn’t want it to end . I picked up my phone from the side and looked at it .I raised up my body from the duvet and looked out and I could see that it was Really snowing outside . I stood up from my bed immediately and rushed to wash my face. After that I rushed out of the bathroom again and this time I never hesitated to send a text to Angel first .After the conversation we had , the both of us had started talking again and I was enjoying every bit of it , i
I didn’t know how long I was in that house but I knew that he was still standing there and waiting for me to come to him and tell him that I forgave him .I know that I was shocked that he was here , but I wasn’t going to be bought over that easily , he had done more harm than good already and I am so fuckinh sick of it .The least that he could do is leave , because his face brings just bad memories .“Angel and I got into the room without saying a word to the other .I knew that there was just so much that we both wanted to say to the other , but none of us knew how we were going to say it, or who was going first .There was still that guilty look that she had on her face .I know that it’s because I actually haven’t said a word to her .“ I forgive you Angel , I already did and if I didn’t the same way that Trevor is standing out , that’s the same way you would have been standing out there , but I wouldn’t deny the fact that you hurt me too much .I am going to let it slide be
Mom didn’t say a word to me since my friends left . I knew my mama too well , I knew that she had so many questions that she was dying to ask me about Trevor but had been holding herself . I didn’t want her to feel like I wasn’t telling her stuff about myself anymore , that was the last thing that I wanted to do at this moment . I knew that regardless of how much I tried to hide it, we were still going to find out . Laying on my bed in the cool evening , I couldn’t help but look out of the window and to my greatest surprise all my thoughts were of him . No matter how much I tried to stop thinking about him the more his memories kept coming back into my head . I hated him , that's what I said , but I never said that I hated him to the core . My fucking cunt , I didn’t know why I had to think about him . A calm knock on my door brought me out of my thoughts and I tried . I didn’t need no one to tell me it was my mama , but when the door opened , I was so surprised to find who wa
My mom's knock was what brought us out of our thoughts .I turned and I saw my mom standing by the door .I felt my heart tearing into pieces with the thinking that she heard what we had just said .The last thing that I would ever want us my mom finding out about me and her husband not even now that she was expecting a baby , I could never bring her that kind of heartbreak and I am not going to be that kind of a disappointment .“ Is everything okay between the both of you? Mom asked walking into the room Shuan tried to face my mom giving her the fakest smile that he could ever give .I was just here to ask her about the guy who she locked out this morning even though it was frescing , I just wanted to look out for her and she isn’t having it . Mom turned to face me and that look that I didn’t like came to her face .I do not want that question that she wants to ask , but my mama is going to ask it anyway , I knew that .“ baby , I also wanted to come in here to ask you ab
I ignored mom shouting and dashed out of the house , I didn’t care if she was mad at all .All I wanted was go get away from her and shaun .Trevor was still in the car beside our house , I knew that he never left , I didn’t fail to notice that it was him because all this while I knew that he never left and he had been hanging around here .There was no way that I was going to get into his car , this wasn’t the reason why I left the house .Then what’s reason you little sweet girl “ my inner voice taunted me .Trevor whined down showing his handsome face and I didn’t face to notice how cold he looks but he still wore a handless top , I wondered why he loved wearing that “Can you just enter the damn car , it’s cold already and I don’t think that I have more time left , I have been waiting like forever .I stood still , trying to comprehend what had just happened because the more I wanted to think about it, the crazier it was for me to .Trevor seemed to run out of patience, b
Trevor pov I drove the car straight to the airport , seeing her in my car gave me that kind feeling that I had always wanted and I have been longing for .I didn’t know what it was that made me like this girl but I just can’t think straight .I did that bet on purpose just to make sure that I got what I wanted .I didn’t know if it was because I found her really attractive that was making me feel that way towards her so all that I wanted to know at that moment was if it was because of the sex and that was the reasons why i did it But I think that it was the worst mistake that I had ever made in my entire life .After the sex I tried to pull up a strong hold. I am not that soft bitch , that was going to simp over a girl , but I was doing it a billion times just for her .It was just as if she had handed something to me and I just can’t think straight at this moment .All my thoughts and all my thinking were just about her .I felt miserable and sorry for what I did and that
when was the last time that I instructed that none of you should dare to cross me again , I am pretty sure that I made it clear that this organization is to be ruined by me , I am the head here and I am literally the strongest but you think that since I am away , I have becomes weak and soft and I am not longer fit to be the leader and then you think that getting my goods and trying to cover my stuffs behind my back is going to give you guys the power that you need to impeach , what makes you all think that it could happen , you all really underestimate me and what I can really do . Why don’t you tell me that it was him who had asked you all to vote me out , without me not being here and being in charge and yet you all agreed thinking that it is literally the eyes test decision that you all would make .I know that you all bastard didn’t think about it all , he was the mastermind of it all and you all are literally going astray .I pointed my gun towards him and he did the sa
It’s been two long weeks since I last saw Angel .I didn’t know where she was and I couldn’t tell if she was coming or not. I had tried my best to stay away from her. It seemed like she needed time on her own , so she told me and I hoped that it was true .I didn’t want to burden her with all my issues , I didn’t want to be that friend that would only care about themselves .I know that I am going through something right now and the least that I could have was a friend but was that friend coming .I know that Angel loved me and whatever it was that was holding her was as meaningful as me being all alone .Staying in this house had been nothing but exhausting , I had thought about life in ways that I never thought that I could do , or knew that I was just being this way because I was alone but this was the least that I could do at this moment , it had her. Clear to me that I couldn’t do more .It was best that this whole stuff had gone down and all the insults were beginning to re
Rage , anger and deceit was what I felt the moment that she walked out of that door. It seems like her words left a big mark on my heart and the moment she left , I couldn’t stop thinking about what she had just told me .That bitch , she had the nerves to send her here after doing the most unthinkable things that you never think that a girl as quiet and loving and calm like her could do but then I should just let all of it go like it never happened and then act like everything is fine , that was never going to happen not even on my watch .As I stood in that room dropping the piece of taboo that I could find . I felt helpless .I didn’t know why I had to feel this way towards a bitch , yes that was exactly what she was and I know that she isn’t going to be a bitch anytime soon .For the longest that I could remember I knew that I didn’t want that girl , I never wanted anything to do with her , all of this wasn't planned but here I was stuck with some bitch who doesn’t even like me
Two more weeks passed .I was broken , broken beyond words , I had not been able to leave the house and I had been mopping my life .I felt weak , I felt like I was some kind of piece of shit and for the first time in a long while , I felt disgusted with myself . I didn’t know what I was thinking that made me mess myself up till this level , I could never have imagined that this was going to come to this level . I hadn’t been able to pick up myself after ending that relationship with Trevor .i knew that he was never dating me and I was never in a relationship with them , but what could I do , I knew that there was literally nothing that I was going to do at this point that was going to make me love again , it seems like he has no fucking intrest in me and it was time that I moved on too , it was time that I did the same thing , I wasn’t going to be mopping over a guy who had no fucking intrest on me , that would be more like a slap on me .I loved the fact that my mom hadn't
You didn’t do that to spite me off right ?”Angel loud voice came from the living room as I tried to wash off the soap that I had on my face .I couldn’t imagine what was making her scream that much .I quickly washed the water off my face and wore the shirt that I could quickly put my hands on when I got out of the room .After putting it on , I rushed out of the room and to the living room and that was when I met the greatest shock of my life .He was literally the last person that I wanted to see in my life right and seeing him here was making me go insane .Just a week ago I had made sure that I had cut off every contact that I had with shush and then he was here .I still don’t get it with this bastard , I don’t get what it was that they wanted from me .I was so done being that crazy bitch , I was done crying and thinking about what people had gotten to say about me .Everyone can go to hell for all that I care about , I actually do not care what anyone has to say about m
The worst happened , the worst really did happen to me .Never did I think that a day would come that I would be going like this with my own mother .My mom was trying to make my life a living hell and it hurts to know that she is the one doing all of this to me .From all the stuff that I had done in this life , I think that mom had done worse but the nerves that she has to throw stones like she lives in a glass house .I could never have imagined how things managed to turn out this way .She found that I was sleeping with her husband but now she was the one who had set me up to be fucked by that man and yet she has the guts to throw such tantrums .My mom had hurt me more than I could have even thought of or even still imagined .I knew that the both of us were falling off so fast but it hurts to know, this woman gave birth to me and even though I betrayed her , she betrayed me too .I knew that it was best that I try and put all the thoughts that I was having at this moment
Dirty affairs 113From what I have just heard from everyone that I care to know , you have been told that you are really pushing through with that divorce ?”You know what shuan , I think that I am done playing that dumb game with you when you know that all of this is for our own best interest .You cannot just walk in here and tell me that you are pushing through with that divorce , you and I both know that I am not going to let it go and I am sure that you do not want that to happen . “ maybe you should have thought about that when you decided to go tell her that it was a fucking plan .I know that we are both in this together but u have made it clear to you that I do not want to ne part of this anymore .I just don’t get why this is so hard for you to understand or get into those skull of yours .When I met you I knew that there was something about us that I really want to trash and I made it clear to you that I didn’t want a fucking marriage .You know how much
Dirty affairs 112Angel , Angel “ I screamed at the top of my voice as I banged at her door .I knew that she might not be in or maybe she might be with her boyfriend but I just can’t risk it. I really wanted somebody that I wanted to talk to , I didn't care who it was .The only person that came to my mind was her , my girl. I knew that no matter what it was , she would be the last person that would ever turn their back at me at this crucial moment of my life but I am not going to do it anymore , I think that I am done doing this .I kept banging and banging and banging and after hitting the door for more than 30 minutes it was then that I realized that she wasn’t even in .I had never felt so helpless my entire life .I knew that it was best that I sat here and waited for her after sending her a text .I couldn’t understand what had just happened today and I wouldn't deny the fact that I had just gotten the wurst day of my love . The person that I thought was my boyfri
Dirty affairs 111Mom , mom , mom “ don’t go , don’t walk away from me “ I yelled as I dragged myself away from shuan and tried to button up my top .My head was spinning in different directions and I was breathing so hard .I knew that I was definitely going to pass out from this if I continued .But what could I do ?I thought that I had promised myself that my mom would never find me in a state like this .How could I have been so careless to let this happen , I thought that I was done with shuan , how could I be so stupid and miserable and foolish to let him do this to me again .As I rushed out of the room in a haste all that I could see was Shaun sitting comfortably in the bed, not panicked .I knew that it was my right state then he would be having some kind of explanation to do but right now , the only thing that I can keep thinking of is the pissed woman who just walked out of the door and that woman was my mother . When I rushed out , I found out that mom had taken the