I can’t love you daddy

Mom didn’t say a word to me since my friends left .

I knew my mama too well , I knew that she had so many questions that she was dying to ask me about Trevor but had been holding herself .

I didn’t want her to feel like I wasn’t telling her stuff about myself anymore , that was the last thing that I wanted to do at this moment .

I knew that regardless of how much I tried to hide it, we were still going to find out .

Laying on my bed in the cool evening , I couldn’t help but look out of the window and to my greatest surprise all my thoughts were of him .

No matter how much I tried to stop thinking about him the more his memories kept coming back into my head .

I hated him , that's what I said , but I never said that I hated him to the core .

My fucking cunt , I didn’t know why I had to think about him .

A calm knock on my door brought me out of my thoughts and I tried .

I didn’t need no one to tell me it was my mama , but when the door opened , I was so surprised to find who wa