Happy thanksgiving baby “ My mom's voice rang into my head as I tried to open my eyes .I didn’t know what was happening , what thanksgiving exactly she was talking about , my head felt blank like there was nothing in it I forcefully opened my eyes and that was when I saw my mom standing inside my room staring at me with those smiles that I love so much .For a moment my head went blank trying to think of what she was doing here and it was at that moment that everything came rushing back into my head .It was thanksgiving and everyone was here in my step dad's house to spend thanksgiving with us .The whole mansion was filled and it made my heart bubble with so much joy .“ happy thanksgiving mom , I love you “I stood up from the bed ignoring the tiredness that I felt the moment I walked up and stood up to my mom and hugged her .I couldn’t imagine what she had in stores for me today .Thanksgiving was one of those things that I love so much .I didn’t know why my mom held i
I stood by the hallway waiting for my step dad to pass by .I had so much in my mind that I wanted to say out loud and I was so pissed at him .I didn’t know why I was so hurt by what I had just heard , there was just nothing that I wanted at this moment , I just wanted to know why he did it .For the past few days I could tell that my step dad had been doing everything to avoid me , I didn’t want to think that this was the reason why he was doing that .I thought that he loved me but why the fuck did he get my mom pregenant .I hated him for that , how could he do something as crazy as that .I made sure that everyone was already asleep before I asked him to see me. I didn’t want my mom to see us together like this , because it was definitely going to hurt and I don’t Think that I was in my best frame of mind but I was still going to confront him now or never .When I stood there and looked ahead , I saw his figure approaching me .I didn’t know exactly how to react , I di
For the longest that I could remember , my heart was still aching from all that had just happened over the past few days .I didn’t want to say that I was mad or anything , but damn , how could it be that crazy .It was just some few months away that it all happened and if a fact , it still felt like a ducking dream for me .I could see mom protruding. stomach but I also wondered if it was the best thing that could happen .On second thought , I know that it was the best decision that he made .There was no way possible that he was going to keep on fucking me after getting my mom pregnant , that wasn’t something that I was going to support no matter what it was .I knew how much I was hurt and mad at the same time , I knew that I shouldn’t have gotten involved with him in the first place , but now that I am in this situation what can I do , there’s absolutely nothing that could be done .Never had I felt that lonely my entire life .I wanted someone that I could talk to
Christmas came in a hurry and I didn’t know that it would come that quickly .I could literally remember the last Christmas that I celebrated , it was with my mom and just the both of us and even though she had been seeing shuan , she didn’t let him spend Christmas with us.I didn’t know if I should be happy or sad that someone else was joining us to spend Christmas for the first time since my dad died but what could I say?I didn’t know how it was going to be , but one holiday that I really love was Christmas .I didn’t want it to end . I picked up my phone from the side and looked at it .I raised up my body from the duvet and looked out and I could see that it was Really snowing outside . I stood up from my bed immediately and rushed to wash my face. After that I rushed out of the bathroom again and this time I never hesitated to send a text to Angel first .After the conversation we had , the both of us had started talking again and I was enjoying every bit of it , i
I didn’t know how long I was in that house but I knew that he was still standing there and waiting for me to come to him and tell him that I forgave him .I know that I was shocked that he was here , but I wasn’t going to be bought over that easily , he had done more harm than good already and I am so fuckinh sick of it .The least that he could do is leave , because his face brings just bad memories .“Angel and I got into the room without saying a word to the other .I knew that there was just so much that we both wanted to say to the other , but none of us knew how we were going to say it, or who was going first .There was still that guilty look that she had on her face .I know that it’s because I actually haven’t said a word to her .“ I forgive you Angel , I already did and if I didn’t the same way that Trevor is standing out , that’s the same way you would have been standing out there , but I wouldn’t deny the fact that you hurt me too much .I am going to let it slide be
Mom didn’t say a word to me since my friends left . I knew my mama too well , I knew that she had so many questions that she was dying to ask me about Trevor but had been holding herself . I didn’t want her to feel like I wasn’t telling her stuff about myself anymore , that was the last thing that I wanted to do at this moment . I knew that regardless of how much I tried to hide it, we were still going to find out . Laying on my bed in the cool evening , I couldn’t help but look out of the window and to my greatest surprise all my thoughts were of him . No matter how much I tried to stop thinking about him the more his memories kept coming back into my head . I hated him , that's what I said , but I never said that I hated him to the core . My fucking cunt , I didn’t know why I had to think about him . A calm knock on my door brought me out of my thoughts and I tried . I didn’t need no one to tell me it was my mama , but when the door opened , I was so surprised to find who wa
My mom's knock was what brought us out of our thoughts .I turned and I saw my mom standing by the door .I felt my heart tearing into pieces with the thinking that she heard what we had just said .The last thing that I would ever want us my mom finding out about me and her husband not even now that she was expecting a baby , I could never bring her that kind of heartbreak and I am not going to be that kind of a disappointment .“ Is everything okay between the both of you? Mom asked walking into the room Shuan tried to face my mom giving her the fakest smile that he could ever give .I was just here to ask her about the guy who she locked out this morning even though it was frescing , I just wanted to look out for her and she isn’t having it . Mom turned to face me and that look that I didn’t like came to her face .I do not want that question that she wants to ask , but my mama is going to ask it anyway , I knew that .“ baby , I also wanted to come in here to ask you ab
I ignored mom shouting and dashed out of the house , I didn’t care if she was mad at all .All I wanted was go get away from her and shaun .Trevor was still in the car beside our house , I knew that he never left , I didn’t fail to notice that it was him because all this while I knew that he never left and he had been hanging around here .There was no way that I was going to get into his car , this wasn’t the reason why I left the house .Then what’s reason you little sweet girl “ my inner voice taunted me .Trevor whined down showing his handsome face and I didn’t face to notice how cold he looks but he still wore a handless top , I wondered why he loved wearing that “Can you just enter the damn car , it’s cold already and I don’t think that I have more time left , I have been waiting like forever .I stood still , trying to comprehend what had just happened because the more I wanted to think about it, the crazier it was for me to .Trevor seemed to run out of patience, b
Dirty affairs 112Angel , Angel “ I screamed at the top of my voice as I banged at her door .I knew that she might not be in or maybe she might be with her boyfriend but I just can’t risk it. I really wanted somebody that I wanted to talk to , I didn't care who it was .The only person that came to my mind was her , my girl. I knew that no matter what it was , she would be the last person that would ever turn their back at me at this crucial moment of my life but I am not going to do it anymore , I think that I am done doing this .I kept banging and banging and banging and after hitting the door for more than 30 minutes it was then that I realized that she wasn’t even in .I had never felt so helpless my entire life .I knew that it was best that I sat here and waited for her after sending her a text .I couldn’t understand what had just happened today and I wouldn't deny the fact that I had just gotten the wurst day of my love . The person that I thought was my boyfri
Dirty affairs 111Mom , mom , mom “ don’t go , don’t walk away from me “ I yelled as I dragged myself away from shuan and tried to button up my top .My head was spinning in different directions and I was breathing so hard .I knew that I was definitely going to pass out from this if I continued .But what could I do ?I thought that I had promised myself that my mom would never find me in a state like this .How could I have been so careless to let this happen , I thought that I was done with shuan , how could I be so stupid and miserable and foolish to let him do this to me again .As I rushed out of the room in a haste all that I could see was Shaun sitting comfortably in the bed, not panicked .I knew that it was my right state then he would be having some kind of explanation to do but right now , the only thing that I can keep thinking of is the pissed woman who just walked out of the door and that woman was my mother . When I rushed out , I found out that mom had taken the
First glump , second glump and I was driving straight to shuan .In the midst of all this all that I wanted at this moment was to see my step dad , it was just as if he is the only one who wouldn’t judge me for what I wasNot even my mama called to ask me how my birthday went , I had never felt this way my entire life the way I am feeling right now .Maybe I am just being punished for all the stupid decisions that I had taken in my life , maybe next time I really do have to think before I make some stupid decisions .I drove straight into the compound and to my greatest surprise , Shaun was standing by the door and he was waiting for me .This was literally the last thing that I had ever expected him to do for me .I thought that he was going to be mad because of the way that I treated him the last time but instead he acted in the direct opposite of it and if I hadn’t chased him away , I wouldn’t be here right nis .The moment I came down , shuan walked towards me and getting to wh
I had the worst birthday ever .Yes you heard me right and I wasn’t bluffing when I said that I just had the worst birthday ever .I knew that I was the one who threw everyone around me away but I never said that they should avoid me for my special day .Maybe I had turned out to be that horrible bitch that literally no one wants to associate themselves with .Angel was the only one who literally called to check up and was here with me all throughout the night .I must say that she did her best even though we still had our fight .I know that I can’t blame her for that , after all I haven’t been the best girl towards her and I know that I have been living in her face all this while .Even though this hurt so much like hell , I don’t think that I will ever be ready to let anyone know that I have been screwing my step dad .I could never l , it’s the most disgraceful thing that I had ever thought of in my entire life and it's just like hell . For the first time ever in weeks , I f
Happy birthday my darling .” Angel's voice broke me out of my thoughts as she planted a soft kiss on my back .What do you suggest we do ? Trevor isn’t coming .My head snapped at the mention of his name and I turned to look at Angel who had made that statement .I felt sick to my stomach .I didn’t know what it was with her , I had told her severally , times without number that I do not want his name to be mentioned close to me but it’s just as if she can’t understand a word of what I am saying and she keeps on making that mistake over and over again it was like she was doing this on purpose .“ I told you that I didn’t want to hear his name no more why do you keep on mentioning his name? What do you aim to achieve by trying to get on my nerves .“ grab that damn phone , call him . Tell him that you are sorry “ she told me, obviously pissed .I turned to look at her , the anger and the hate burning inside my heart .“ No “ Angel's face turned to that of total horror when she
I just don’t get it , I don’t why he acts that way towards you, I don’t know when he is going to know that if you love someone , you have to stay with them and treat them right because you will never get a better version of it again .I smiled hearing her last statement , I know that she was just trying her best to make sure that I felt okay .I could tell that by just looking at her .I loved the way Angel would always make me feel welcomed regardless of what the situation might be .“ I will be fine baby , you don’t have to worry about me .Angel turned and gave me that look. I know that she was questioning everything that had got to do with me at this moment but I couldn’t help it , there is no way on earth that I would understand why this has to happen to me in the first place .“ It's been days since I last saw Trevor , I haven’t heard from him nor have I spoken to him .I have never been this mad at anyone my entire life the way I was so mad at him at this moment .The
Dirty affairs 106 The house has been so calm since my step dad left .I had so many thoughts that were going through my mind at the same time , I didn’t want to think that it was what I was thinking .I made sure that I cleaned my whole room and taking the last look at myself I knew that I was ready to go .I grabbed my keys from where they were and just as I was about going out , I bumped into Trevor .I know what he was doing here .I thought that he had gone away .I could see those looks and I could tell that they aren’t just looks , Thomas' judgemental looks were literally killing me .He stood there watching me and the only thing that kept going through my mind at this moment was when he got into the room because I know that he never did , not one that I was aware of .The both of us stood there in total silence not saying a word to the other even though we so much wanted to .I had never felt that intense feeling ever in my entire life , I could literally feel my hear
Trevor stupid there for a while without saying a word o the both of us .I had never been in a situation like this in my entire life , all that I wanted was for the ground to open and Swallow me .I had never been so speechless and the shock was something that I never expected .I knew that he left , but I never expected him to be this back this early .I couldn’t imagine what he had heard . what if he heard us talking about it? , I didn’t want to think that he heard about all the stufff that we had just said .The tears started pouring out of my eyes without control at that moment .I am pretty’s sure that he heard us talking about it and now I know that he would be planning on breaking up with me , I could never tell , I couldn’t imagine .These were the two important people in my life and i couldn’t belive the fact that I was just throwing them away .what the fuck is he doing here ? Shuan snapped at me angrily .I knew that he was pretending to be mad , he had no right
The rays of sunlight were the first thing that I saw and when I opened my eyes , I could see a figure standing there just right in front of me .I know that I moved out of my mom's house yesterday but what I couldn’t understand was who and how he got here . My eyes opened immediately and I saw the figure that was standing there. I knew that this wasn’t a fucking dream , it was him , he was standing right there and looking at me like I was some kind of movie .I could never understand this man , what the fuck was he doing here .For the record , I never wanted him to know where my house was .I knew what I did when I kept this away from him but the fact that he could still find it made it more challenging for me .“Shuan , wtf are you doing here ?” I scream at him at the top of my voice .I had never been so pissed at anyone the way I was so pissed at this man at this moment .I couldn’t imagine what might have happened between him and Trevor as I wasn’t here .I didn’t know