I woke up the next morning with a big hangover on my head .I felt a big bang on my head as I tried to open my eyes .It was just as if I had been partying all night and the pain decided to come this morning and remind me of what I did .As I struggled to open my eyes , I felt those sharp pains and it instantly made me open my eyes and when I did , I saw someone sitting just by the bed . I opened my eyes to make sure that I wasn’t just seeing things , I wanted to know if he was actually there or if I was seeing someone else .“ Happy new year my love “ Trevor whispered to me .I raised my head to look at him and raised my body up from the bed .“ I don't want any greeting from you , you can keep your new year wishes to yourself and I don’t want anything to do with you anymore. The only thing that I want at this moment is to go home .I just want to go home , I don’t want to be here with you anymore and I know that you know it , you should just stop trying to make me forgive
Words couldn’t describe how I was feeling at this moment , deep inside of me I knew that I never wanted a thing to do with him anymore .I knew that I couldn’t stand his house and his emotionless heart .I knew that I couldn’t keep on being a fool , it had just been a few months and a whole lot of things had already happened, things that I never thought they could happen .I must admit that I have a soft spot for Trevor but I don’t know if I love him , I don’t understand why I had to feel this way .I know that being with someone takes so much sacrifice but never did I think that I would have to make this much sacrifice , I hated the fact that my life had to go this way .Why did it have to happen anyway , I couldn’t just place my hands on it .For one of the best things that I could think of , I knew that I was never going to be the same again not after everything that has been happening , but did I really want to work it out with him .“ you know that I could be here on my k
I sat in the bathtub as the water filled it I loved the fact that it was warm water , the water made me feel really relax , I just wanted to stop thinking about so much stuffs and just let myself feel so fucking free .I hated the fact that my heart was aching this hard thinking about all the stuff that I wanted to do .I know what I would tell my mom when I get home but they should know that I am no longer a baby and whether they like it or not , they would have no choice but to leave with me like that .The door to the bathroom opened and even without turning I knew , it was Trevor .He had just a shirt and had pulled off all of his clothes .I thought that he had given up when I told him no but the fact that he is here shows that he hasn’t given up and still wants to do it . “You know that I am so disappointed in myself for being here but I don’t think that I gave a fucking choice , I want you Rissa and I don’t think that I can still go a day without touching you or talkin
After having that long shower with him in the bathroom , he finally carried me back into the room .I felt so good being in his arms .I didn’t know if I wanted any of it to stop but for a moment I knew that he had to be the sweetest man that I had ever met in my entire life .I am not going to deny the fact that Trevor acts crazy most times but that doesn’t change the fact that I love him so much and the last thing that I would want is for him to stay away from me .I couldn’t even stand his absence .One thing I know is that he matters too much and I love that he does matter .I shouldn’t have done what I did with him , maybe I should give myself time to heal but I didn’t , I was just so hirny and I jumped on him like a bitch . Trevor walked out of the bathroom and smiled seeing me sit on the bed .I knew that he was satisfied with what he had done .I had never seen a man who acts this way , the fact that he doesn’t even care about Just cares about my body , but that is
Two weeks passed in a blink of an eye and here I was standing right in front of my step dad's house .All that I could feel right now was the fact that I am the prodigal daughter .My mom never called after the last messages she sent warning me and even a new year message I never got from her , that goes on to tell me how mad she was at me , but that didn’t change my mind but instead I stayed till I felt like I was okay and now I am back to beg again .Trevor was still standing by his car watching me .I knew that he just wanted me to go back to him so that he could take me back to his place but that is never going to happen .I know that I wouldn’t do something as crazy as that .I knew for a fact that my mom might be in this house and if she has seen me come and then I leave , that would be the worst decision that I had ever made in my entire life and I am not going to sit there and watch it happen .I will be fine , just leave , I don’t want my mom to be mad at me anymore , I p
I was finally back in my room and was ready to do the things that I never thought that I could do .I was going thruyfh my closet and arranging all my stuffs .That look from ny mom told me that I wasn’t welcomed here anymore .I didn’t need anyone to tell me that , I am no baby and I could tell if something was going wrong .I kept folding my clothes and trying to block every thoughts that was coming to my head but the fact remains that I was literally finding it so hard to stop thinking about him .The few days that I had spent with him had been one of the craziest days that I would ever say happened to me .I loved this guy and I was ready to do anything that would make a relationship With him work , but there was so much more that I knew that I really needed to cover .Trevor had shown me the craziest part of him if I am being correct and I still love and feel the same for him .It was just as if there was something about him that I am unable to place my hands on , beca
I shouted at my mom knowing that she did say a word to me and apologize for her weird and unusual behavior , but to my greatest surprise she didn’t say a word , but instead she just walked out of the room ignoring me .I felt my heart go into different pieces .For the first time I felt that inner hate , it was more fierce that I had ever felt for her before and everything felt so fucking diffrent . The thought that my mom was treating me this way was killing me already and now she has to act the way she liked .I was in so much pain and I knew it but the last mistake that I would do is show that pain out .I know that I haven’t been the best but I will be sure that I do whatever it takes to make sure that I do not ever come back to this place because obviously I know that she doesn't want me anymore .I hated my mom at this moment , I hated her with my whole life .I still find it so hard to believe that she choosed her own husband over me .I was her daughter .I w
Shuan didn’t leave the room till it was almost midnight .I could get that he was so mad and missing me , but there was absolutely nothing that I could do .I had so much that I wanted to talk about at this moment but I just decided to let everything on just like that .I am not one to make trouble and I didn’t want to know what he had told my mom because that could hurt me so much .“ why don’t you just leave “ I asked turning away from the side of the bed that I was looking at .“ you know what , I think that I would leave now , but you know what , I think that I am happy for you even though I know that it hurts me this much , this isn’t what I had planned , this isn’t what I wanted with my life , I know how much I love you and it hurts to know that I won’t be having you , but that’s not the case here , I am good and I am totally fine with whatever it is that you want .Shuan words made me feel really uncomfortable , the fact that he was trying to Blackmail trying to mak