I sat in the bathtub as the water filled it I loved the fact that it was warm water , the water made me feel really relax , I just wanted to stop thinking about so much stuffs and just let myself feel so fucking free .I hated the fact that my heart was aching this hard thinking about all the stuff that I wanted to do .I know what I would tell my mom when I get home but they should know that I am no longer a baby and whether they like it or not , they would have no choice but to leave with me like that .The door to the bathroom opened and even without turning I knew , it was Trevor .He had just a shirt and had pulled off all of his clothes .I thought that he had given up when I told him no but the fact that he is here shows that he hasn’t given up and still wants to do it . “You know that I am so disappointed in myself for being here but I don’t think that I gave a fucking choice , I want you Rissa and I don’t think that I can still go a day without touching you or talkin
After having that long shower with him in the bathroom , he finally carried me back into the room .I felt so good being in his arms .I didn’t know if I wanted any of it to stop but for a moment I knew that he had to be the sweetest man that I had ever met in my entire life .I am not going to deny the fact that Trevor acts crazy most times but that doesn’t change the fact that I love him so much and the last thing that I would want is for him to stay away from me .I couldn’t even stand his absence .One thing I know is that he matters too much and I love that he does matter .I shouldn’t have done what I did with him , maybe I should give myself time to heal but I didn’t , I was just so hirny and I jumped on him like a bitch . Trevor walked out of the bathroom and smiled seeing me sit on the bed .I knew that he was satisfied with what he had done .I had never seen a man who acts this way , the fact that he doesn’t even care about Just cares about my body , but that is
Two weeks passed in a blink of an eye and here I was standing right in front of my step dad's house .All that I could feel right now was the fact that I am the prodigal daughter .My mom never called after the last messages she sent warning me and even a new year message I never got from her , that goes on to tell me how mad she was at me , but that didn’t change my mind but instead I stayed till I felt like I was okay and now I am back to beg again .Trevor was still standing by his car watching me .I knew that he just wanted me to go back to him so that he could take me back to his place but that is never going to happen .I know that I wouldn’t do something as crazy as that .I knew for a fact that my mom might be in this house and if she has seen me come and then I leave , that would be the worst decision that I had ever made in my entire life and I am not going to sit there and watch it happen .I will be fine , just leave , I don’t want my mom to be mad at me anymore , I p
I was finally back in my room and was ready to do the things that I never thought that I could do .I was going thruyfh my closet and arranging all my stuffs .That look from ny mom told me that I wasn’t welcomed here anymore .I didn’t need anyone to tell me that , I am no baby and I could tell if something was going wrong .I kept folding my clothes and trying to block every thoughts that was coming to my head but the fact remains that I was literally finding it so hard to stop thinking about him .The few days that I had spent with him had been one of the craziest days that I would ever say happened to me .I loved this guy and I was ready to do anything that would make a relationship With him work , but there was so much more that I knew that I really needed to cover .Trevor had shown me the craziest part of him if I am being correct and I still love and feel the same for him .It was just as if there was something about him that I am unable to place my hands on , beca
I shouted at my mom knowing that she did say a word to me and apologize for her weird and unusual behavior , but to my greatest surprise she didn’t say a word , but instead she just walked out of the room ignoring me .I felt my heart go into different pieces .For the first time I felt that inner hate , it was more fierce that I had ever felt for her before and everything felt so fucking diffrent . The thought that my mom was treating me this way was killing me already and now she has to act the way she liked .I was in so much pain and I knew it but the last mistake that I would do is show that pain out .I know that I haven’t been the best but I will be sure that I do whatever it takes to make sure that I do not ever come back to this place because obviously I know that she doesn't want me anymore .I hated my mom at this moment , I hated her with my whole life .I still find it so hard to believe that she choosed her own husband over me .I was her daughter .I w
Shuan didn’t leave the room till it was almost midnight .I could get that he was so mad and missing me , but there was absolutely nothing that I could do .I had so much that I wanted to talk about at this moment but I just decided to let everything on just like that .I am not one to make trouble and I didn’t want to know what he had told my mom because that could hurt me so much .“ why don’t you just leave “ I asked turning away from the side of the bed that I was looking at .“ you know what , I think that I would leave now , but you know what , I think that I am happy for you even though I know that it hurts me this much , this isn’t what I had planned , this isn’t what I wanted with my life , I know how much I love you and it hurts to know that I won’t be having you , but that’s not the case here , I am good and I am totally fine with whatever it is that you want .Shuan words made me feel really uncomfortable , the fact that he was trying to Blackmail trying to mak
“ What do you want ?” I asked when I finally found my voice .I couldn’t believe that this was Elsa , what is she doing here , I didn’t want to have anything To do with this girl ever again , then why did she come to my house .The only thing that I could think about were her last words to me the last time that we met , she clearly told me that she didn’t want a thing to do with me and now she was here trying to make me look good .“ What do you want, Elsa? “ I asked this time my voice coming out more louder than it did the last time .“ can I at least come in , after all it’s 9pm and I left my house just to come here and check up on you and yet you think that you can just shut the door on my face and ask me to stand out here , what do you think that you are doing , you are fucking friend and yet even though that we have had our own fights , I still take you as my friend and as my sister .I know that the two of us have had our fights , but this a new year and you didn’
Dirty affairs 96 I quickly walked up to the door and shut it while dragging her in .I had so much that I didn’t want her to say ever , the last person that I wanted him to see was Elsa .I told this bitch to go away and she’s still got the nerves to come in here after I had warned her not to .The more I keep thinking about it , the crazier it gets by the seconds .Elsa stood still in the same spot without saying a word , I could tell that she was shocked , the shock was all over her face .“ don’t tell me this is him , don’t tell me you are actually having an affair with Trevor , that can't be .“ keep your fucking voice down Elsa , I don’t think I want anyone to hear that there is a man in my room and most importantly my mom or even still my step dad , I do not want that and if you scream one more tine I will be forced to pushed you out .Elsa turned to face me and smiled , I wondered what she had going through her mind that was making her smile .“ you and I know t