I was finally back in my room and was ready to do the things that I never thought that I could do .I was going thruyfh my closet and arranging all my stuffs .That look from ny mom told me that I wasn’t welcomed here anymore .I didn’t need anyone to tell me that , I am no baby and I could tell if something was going wrong .I kept folding my clothes and trying to block every thoughts that was coming to my head but the fact remains that I was literally finding it so hard to stop thinking about him .The few days that I had spent with him had been one of the craziest days that I would ever say happened to me .I loved this guy and I was ready to do anything that would make a relationship With him work , but there was so much more that I knew that I really needed to cover .Trevor had shown me the craziest part of him if I am being correct and I still love and feel the same for him .It was just as if there was something about him that I am unable to place my hands on , beca
I shouted at my mom knowing that she did say a word to me and apologize for her weird and unusual behavior , but to my greatest surprise she didn’t say a word , but instead she just walked out of the room ignoring me .I felt my heart go into different pieces .For the first time I felt that inner hate , it was more fierce that I had ever felt for her before and everything felt so fucking diffrent . The thought that my mom was treating me this way was killing me already and now she has to act the way she liked .I was in so much pain and I knew it but the last mistake that I would do is show that pain out .I know that I haven’t been the best but I will be sure that I do whatever it takes to make sure that I do not ever come back to this place because obviously I know that she doesn't want me anymore .I hated my mom at this moment , I hated her with my whole life .I still find it so hard to believe that she choosed her own husband over me .I was her daughter .I w
Shuan didn’t leave the room till it was almost midnight .I could get that he was so mad and missing me , but there was absolutely nothing that I could do .I had so much that I wanted to talk about at this moment but I just decided to let everything on just like that .I am not one to make trouble and I didn’t want to know what he had told my mom because that could hurt me so much .“ why don’t you just leave “ I asked turning away from the side of the bed that I was looking at .“ you know what , I think that I would leave now , but you know what , I think that I am happy for you even though I know that it hurts me this much , this isn’t what I had planned , this isn’t what I wanted with my life , I know how much I love you and it hurts to know that I won’t be having you , but that’s not the case here , I am good and I am totally fine with whatever it is that you want .Shuan words made me feel really uncomfortable , the fact that he was trying to Blackmail trying to mak
“ What do you want ?” I asked when I finally found my voice .I couldn’t believe that this was Elsa , what is she doing here , I didn’t want to have anything To do with this girl ever again , then why did she come to my house .The only thing that I could think about were her last words to me the last time that we met , she clearly told me that she didn’t want a thing to do with me and now she was here trying to make me look good .“ What do you want, Elsa? “ I asked this time my voice coming out more louder than it did the last time .“ can I at least come in , after all it’s 9pm and I left my house just to come here and check up on you and yet you think that you can just shut the door on my face and ask me to stand out here , what do you think that you are doing , you are fucking friend and yet even though that we have had our own fights , I still take you as my friend and as my sister .I know that the two of us have had our fights , but this a new year and you didn’
Dirty affairs 96 I quickly walked up to the door and shut it while dragging her in .I had so much that I didn’t want her to say ever , the last person that I wanted him to see was Elsa .I told this bitch to go away and she’s still got the nerves to come in here after I had warned her not to .The more I keep thinking about it , the crazier it gets by the seconds .Elsa stood still in the same spot without saying a word , I could tell that she was shocked , the shock was all over her face .“ don’t tell me this is him , don’t tell me you are actually having an affair with Trevor , that can't be .“ keep your fucking voice down Elsa , I don’t think I want anyone to hear that there is a man in my room and most importantly my mom or even still my step dad , I do not want that and if you scream one more tine I will be forced to pushed you out .Elsa turned to face me and smiled , I wondered what she had going through her mind that was making her smile .“ you and I know t
As I walked out of the room , the only thing that I could feel in my heart was nothing but pure hatred and anger .I had never been so pissed my entire life the way that I was feeling right now .There was just so much that I wanted to say , but I just couldn't because I didn’t want to .I hated the fact that this was her , this was me , why did she have to get everything that I wanted , why did she have to take the one thing that I love so much .When I got to the living room , her mom was seated there and going through her phone , it was as if she noticed my presence and raised up her head and looked at me .“ Did she ask you to leave , because if she did , I will go in the room and slap the hell out of her “ “ no mom , you don’t have to worry about that , we already talked about It and I will come back tomorrow since the both of us had already talked about it .“ It's okay , if you really want anything you can tell me , I just don't care what anyone has to say but
The rays of sunlight shone into my eyes and it was what woke me up from my sleep .I tried to stretch my body while I moved around .I opened my eyes again and that was when I noticed that my mom was the one opening the window curtain .I felt my heart disappear the next moment .I didn’t want to think that she saw Trevor .I couldn’t think about all the things that he did last night .I couldn’t think about what he did to me , there was just so much that I could never imagine no matter how much I tried to think of it .I knew that my mom wasn’t the best in the world , but what I didn’t understand was why she would have to come to my room and start opening the window when she wanted Nothing to go with me . Just last night I knew that she was mad and seeing him doing all of this was just more than I had ever imagined or even thought of , I couldn’t even place my hands on it .“ Good morning baby , do tell me how was your night ?”Hearing my mom ask me made me wonder if it was t
I looked at the room as I picked up the final piece of clothing that was on the bed .I didn’t know why I was feeling this way , this was exactly what I had alwssa wanted and it’s so shocking to know that now that I have it , I was feeling so fucking guilty about it.Never did I think that I would feel guilty over my leaving my step dad's house .After I returned home a few weeks ago , school officially resumed and once it did , mom told me that I should rent a house outside since it was something I had Always wanted .I didn’t want to think of the number of times that I just had to beg my mom to let me go and now that I was leaving I was feeling so guilty of leaving her behind .I moved that thought aside , I could never start crying , I just wanted to be away from them as soon as possible. I think that’s the best thing that I can do to myself at this point and the fact that Trevor has always been on my neck wasn’t helping issues .I zipped up the box and took one final look a
when was the last time that I instructed that none of you should dare to cross me again , I am pretty sure that I made it clear that this organization is to be ruined by me , I am the head here and I am literally the strongest but you think that since I am away , I have becomes weak and soft and I am not longer fit to be the leader and then you think that getting my goods and trying to cover my stuffs behind my back is going to give you guys the power that you need to impeach , what makes you all think that it could happen , you all really underestimate me and what I can really do . Why don’t you tell me that it was him who had asked you all to vote me out , without me not being here and being in charge and yet you all agreed thinking that it is literally the eyes test decision that you all would make .I know that you all bastard didn’t think about it all , he was the mastermind of it all and you all are literally going astray .I pointed my gun towards him and he did the sa
It’s been two long weeks since I last saw Angel .I didn’t know where she was and I couldn’t tell if she was coming or not. I had tried my best to stay away from her. It seemed like she needed time on her own , so she told me and I hoped that it was true .I didn’t want to burden her with all my issues , I didn’t want to be that friend that would only care about themselves .I know that I am going through something right now and the least that I could have was a friend but was that friend coming .I know that Angel loved me and whatever it was that was holding her was as meaningful as me being all alone .Staying in this house had been nothing but exhausting , I had thought about life in ways that I never thought that I could do , or knew that I was just being this way because I was alone but this was the least that I could do at this moment , it had her. Clear to me that I couldn’t do more .It was best that this whole stuff had gone down and all the insults were beginning to re
Rage , anger and deceit was what I felt the moment that she walked out of that door. It seems like her words left a big mark on my heart and the moment she left , I couldn’t stop thinking about what she had just told me .That bitch , she had the nerves to send her here after doing the most unthinkable things that you never think that a girl as quiet and loving and calm like her could do but then I should just let all of it go like it never happened and then act like everything is fine , that was never going to happen not even on my watch .As I stood in that room dropping the piece of taboo that I could find . I felt helpless .I didn’t know why I had to feel this way towards a bitch , yes that was exactly what she was and I know that she isn’t going to be a bitch anytime soon .For the longest that I could remember I knew that I didn’t want that girl , I never wanted anything to do with her , all of this wasn't planned but here I was stuck with some bitch who doesn’t even like me
Two more weeks passed .I was broken , broken beyond words , I had not been able to leave the house and I had been mopping my life .I felt weak , I felt like I was some kind of piece of shit and for the first time in a long while , I felt disgusted with myself . I didn’t know what I was thinking that made me mess myself up till this level , I could never have imagined that this was going to come to this level . I hadn’t been able to pick up myself after ending that relationship with Trevor .i knew that he was never dating me and I was never in a relationship with them , but what could I do , I knew that there was literally nothing that I was going to do at this point that was going to make me love again , it seems like he has no fucking intrest in me and it was time that I moved on too , it was time that I did the same thing , I wasn’t going to be mopping over a guy who had no fucking intrest on me , that would be more like a slap on me .I loved the fact that my mom hadn't
You didn’t do that to spite me off right ?”Angel loud voice came from the living room as I tried to wash off the soap that I had on my face .I couldn’t imagine what was making her scream that much .I quickly washed the water off my face and wore the shirt that I could quickly put my hands on when I got out of the room .After putting it on , I rushed out of the room and to the living room and that was when I met the greatest shock of my life .He was literally the last person that I wanted to see in my life right and seeing him here was making me go insane .Just a week ago I had made sure that I had cut off every contact that I had with shush and then he was here .I still don’t get it with this bastard , I don’t get what it was that they wanted from me .I was so done being that crazy bitch , I was done crying and thinking about what people had gotten to say about me .Everyone can go to hell for all that I care about , I actually do not care what anyone has to say about m
The worst happened , the worst really did happen to me .Never did I think that a day would come that I would be going like this with my own mother .My mom was trying to make my life a living hell and it hurts to know that she is the one doing all of this to me .From all the stuff that I had done in this life , I think that mom had done worse but the nerves that she has to throw stones like she lives in a glass house .I could never have imagined how things managed to turn out this way .She found that I was sleeping with her husband but now she was the one who had set me up to be fucked by that man and yet she has the guts to throw such tantrums .My mom had hurt me more than I could have even thought of or even still imagined .I knew that the both of us were falling off so fast but it hurts to know, this woman gave birth to me and even though I betrayed her , she betrayed me too .I knew that it was best that I try and put all the thoughts that I was having at this moment
Dirty affairs 113From what I have just heard from everyone that I care to know , you have been told that you are really pushing through with that divorce ?”You know what shuan , I think that I am done playing that dumb game with you when you know that all of this is for our own best interest .You cannot just walk in here and tell me that you are pushing through with that divorce , you and I both know that I am not going to let it go and I am sure that you do not want that to happen . “ maybe you should have thought about that when you decided to go tell her that it was a fucking plan .I know that we are both in this together but u have made it clear to you that I do not want to ne part of this anymore .I just don’t get why this is so hard for you to understand or get into those skull of yours .When I met you I knew that there was something about us that I really want to trash and I made it clear to you that I didn’t want a fucking marriage .You know how much
Dirty affairs 112Angel , Angel “ I screamed at the top of my voice as I banged at her door .I knew that she might not be in or maybe she might be with her boyfriend but I just can’t risk it. I really wanted somebody that I wanted to talk to , I didn't care who it was .The only person that came to my mind was her , my girl. I knew that no matter what it was , she would be the last person that would ever turn their back at me at this crucial moment of my life but I am not going to do it anymore , I think that I am done doing this .I kept banging and banging and banging and after hitting the door for more than 30 minutes it was then that I realized that she wasn’t even in .I had never felt so helpless my entire life .I knew that it was best that I sat here and waited for her after sending her a text .I couldn’t understand what had just happened today and I wouldn't deny the fact that I had just gotten the wurst day of my love . The person that I thought was my boyfri
Dirty affairs 111Mom , mom , mom “ don’t go , don’t walk away from me “ I yelled as I dragged myself away from shuan and tried to button up my top .My head was spinning in different directions and I was breathing so hard .I knew that I was definitely going to pass out from this if I continued .But what could I do ?I thought that I had promised myself that my mom would never find me in a state like this .How could I have been so careless to let this happen , I thought that I was done with shuan , how could I be so stupid and miserable and foolish to let him do this to me again .As I rushed out of the room in a haste all that I could see was Shaun sitting comfortably in the bed, not panicked .I knew that it was my right state then he would be having some kind of explanation to do but right now , the only thing that I can keep thinking of is the pissed woman who just walked out of the door and that woman was my mother . When I rushed out , I found out that mom had taken the