I was finally back in my room and was ready to do the things that I never thought that I could do .I was going thruyfh my closet and arranging all my stuffs .That look from ny mom told me that I wasn’t welcomed here anymore .I didn’t need anyone to tell me that , I am no baby and I could tell if something was going wrong .I kept folding my clothes and trying to block every thoughts that was coming to my head but the fact remains that I was literally finding it so hard to stop thinking about him .The few days that I had spent with him had been one of the craziest days that I would ever say happened to me .I loved this guy and I was ready to do anything that would make a relationship With him work , but there was so much more that I knew that I really needed to cover .Trevor had shown me the craziest part of him if I am being correct and I still love and feel the same for him .It was just as if there was something about him that I am unable to place my hands on , beca
I shouted at my mom knowing that she did say a word to me and apologize for her weird and unusual behavior , but to my greatest surprise she didn’t say a word , but instead she just walked out of the room ignoring me .I felt my heart go into different pieces .For the first time I felt that inner hate , it was more fierce that I had ever felt for her before and everything felt so fucking diffrent . The thought that my mom was treating me this way was killing me already and now she has to act the way she liked .I was in so much pain and I knew it but the last mistake that I would do is show that pain out .I know that I haven’t been the best but I will be sure that I do whatever it takes to make sure that I do not ever come back to this place because obviously I know that she doesn't want me anymore .I hated my mom at this moment , I hated her with my whole life .I still find it so hard to believe that she choosed her own husband over me .I was her daughter .I w
Shuan didn’t leave the room till it was almost midnight .I could get that he was so mad and missing me , but there was absolutely nothing that I could do .I had so much that I wanted to talk about at this moment but I just decided to let everything on just like that .I am not one to make trouble and I didn’t want to know what he had told my mom because that could hurt me so much .“ why don’t you just leave “ I asked turning away from the side of the bed that I was looking at .“ you know what , I think that I would leave now , but you know what , I think that I am happy for you even though I know that it hurts me this much , this isn’t what I had planned , this isn’t what I wanted with my life , I know how much I love you and it hurts to know that I won’t be having you , but that’s not the case here , I am good and I am totally fine with whatever it is that you want .Shuan words made me feel really uncomfortable , the fact that he was trying to Blackmail trying to mak
“ What do you want ?” I asked when I finally found my voice .I couldn’t believe that this was Elsa , what is she doing here , I didn’t want to have anything To do with this girl ever again , then why did she come to my house .The only thing that I could think about were her last words to me the last time that we met , she clearly told me that she didn’t want a thing to do with me and now she was here trying to make me look good .“ What do you want, Elsa? “ I asked this time my voice coming out more louder than it did the last time .“ can I at least come in , after all it’s 9pm and I left my house just to come here and check up on you and yet you think that you can just shut the door on my face and ask me to stand out here , what do you think that you are doing , you are fucking friend and yet even though that we have had our own fights , I still take you as my friend and as my sister .I know that the two of us have had our fights , but this a new year and you didn’
Dirty affairs 96 I quickly walked up to the door and shut it while dragging her in .I had so much that I didn’t want her to say ever , the last person that I wanted him to see was Elsa .I told this bitch to go away and she’s still got the nerves to come in here after I had warned her not to .The more I keep thinking about it , the crazier it gets by the seconds .Elsa stood still in the same spot without saying a word , I could tell that she was shocked , the shock was all over her face .“ don’t tell me this is him , don’t tell me you are actually having an affair with Trevor , that can't be .“ keep your fucking voice down Elsa , I don’t think I want anyone to hear that there is a man in my room and most importantly my mom or even still my step dad , I do not want that and if you scream one more tine I will be forced to pushed you out .Elsa turned to face me and smiled , I wondered what she had going through her mind that was making her smile .“ you and I know t
As I walked out of the room , the only thing that I could feel in my heart was nothing but pure hatred and anger .I had never been so pissed my entire life the way that I was feeling right now .There was just so much that I wanted to say , but I just couldn't because I didn’t want to .I hated the fact that this was her , this was me , why did she have to get everything that I wanted , why did she have to take the one thing that I love so much .When I got to the living room , her mom was seated there and going through her phone , it was as if she noticed my presence and raised up her head and looked at me .“ Did she ask you to leave , because if she did , I will go in the room and slap the hell out of her “ “ no mom , you don’t have to worry about that , we already talked about It and I will come back tomorrow since the both of us had already talked about it .“ It's okay , if you really want anything you can tell me , I just don't care what anyone has to say but
The rays of sunlight shone into my eyes and it was what woke me up from my sleep .I tried to stretch my body while I moved around .I opened my eyes again and that was when I noticed that my mom was the one opening the window curtain .I felt my heart disappear the next moment .I didn’t want to think that she saw Trevor .I couldn’t think about all the things that he did last night .I couldn’t think about what he did to me , there was just so much that I could never imagine no matter how much I tried to think of it .I knew that my mom wasn’t the best in the world , but what I didn’t understand was why she would have to come to my room and start opening the window when she wanted Nothing to go with me . Just last night I knew that she was mad and seeing him doing all of this was just more than I had ever imagined or even thought of , I couldn’t even place my hands on it .“ Good morning baby , do tell me how was your night ?”Hearing my mom ask me made me wonder if it was t
I looked at the room as I picked up the final piece of clothing that was on the bed .I didn’t know why I was feeling this way , this was exactly what I had alwssa wanted and it’s so shocking to know that now that I have it , I was feeling so fucking guilty about it.Never did I think that I would feel guilty over my leaving my step dad's house .After I returned home a few weeks ago , school officially resumed and once it did , mom told me that I should rent a house outside since it was something I had Always wanted .I didn’t want to think of the number of times that I just had to beg my mom to let me go and now that I was leaving I was feeling so guilty of leaving her behind .I moved that thought aside , I could never start crying , I just wanted to be away from them as soon as possible. I think that’s the best thing that I can do to myself at this point and the fact that Trevor has always been on my neck wasn’t helping issues .I zipped up the box and took one final look a