The rays of sunlight shone into my eyes and it was what woke me up from my sleep .I tried to stretch my body while I moved around .I opened my eyes again and that was when I noticed that my mom was the one opening the window curtain .I felt my heart disappear the next moment .I didn’t want to think that she saw Trevor .I couldn’t think about all the things that he did last night .I couldn’t think about what he did to me , there was just so much that I could never imagine no matter how much I tried to think of it .I knew that my mom wasn’t the best in the world , but what I didn’t understand was why she would have to come to my room and start opening the window when she wanted Nothing to go with me . Just last night I knew that she was mad and seeing him doing all of this was just more than I had ever imagined or even thought of , I couldn’t even place my hands on it .“ Good morning baby , do tell me how was your night ?”Hearing my mom ask me made me wonder if it was t
I looked at the room as I picked up the final piece of clothing that was on the bed .I didn’t know why I was feeling this way , this was exactly what I had alwssa wanted and it’s so shocking to know that now that I have it , I was feeling so fucking guilty about it.Never did I think that I would feel guilty over my leaving my step dad's house .After I returned home a few weeks ago , school officially resumed and once it did , mom told me that I should rent a house outside since it was something I had Always wanted .I didn’t want to think of the number of times that I just had to beg my mom to let me go and now that I was leaving I was feeling so guilty of leaving her behind .I moved that thought aside , I could never start crying , I just wanted to be away from them as soon as possible. I think that’s the best thing that I can do to myself at this point and the fact that Trevor has always been on my neck wasn’t helping issues .I zipped up the box and took one final look a
I finally had my own fucking place , that was the only thought that was laced on my head as I got into the house .The fact that I didn’t even bother myself to get myself this house and I still got it just showed me how much I was cared for .My step dad found the house , it was a fucking apartment but I didn’t let him come furnish it , I just did it myself .I knew shuan too well , he might have had someone install some cameras in the house just to watch me and that was the reason why I rejected every help that came from him .Angel pulled over at our driveway and when she did , I walked out .I was so mesmerized by the thought of living alone .I knew that I couldn’t have been able to do this if it wasn’t for her , she had been more supportive than I could ever think of .I loved the fact that she wanted to do things with me , maybe yet to kill that bond that she tried to kill .I loved Angel as my friend , she had been the best girl that I could ever make as my friend in my
You look fucking pretty and you know that right ? I turned and there was Trevor staring at me , from the way he looked at me lustfully I knew exactly what was going through His mind and I wished that he was joking .I was in no mood to have sex right now .Trevor moved away from the door and approached me .I could literally feel my heart beat start going faster than I had ever thought of .I moved a bit away from the kitchen sink and there he was standing in front of me .“ Not today baby I am so tired “ I whispered to him .Trevor didn’t even look at me , he had that straight look on his face and I couldn’t tell what was going through his mind at that moment .I wanted to move away from him but the stare he gave me I knew I shouldn’t dare to do that since it would only make him mad at this moment .“ Trevor “ I whispered when he bent his mouth to my neck .Trevor pulled away from me and looked at me directly .“ You don’t tell me what to do, “ he whispered and grabbed
I had never felt so desperate my entire life the way I was feeling at this moment .Everything felt so surreal and it felt like I was dreaming his couid going just turn out this way that quickly , I couid never get over the fact , I found it so fucking hard to belive that this was it .Just a few moments ago , we were both all lovey dovey with each other and right now he was so mad at me and was threatening to leave .I couldn’t understand why , I just couldn’t get it .Please don’t go , don’t leave me all alone here , that was just a fucking harmless call , shuan and I are very close and that’s how he talks to me if you want I could call my mom and you confirm that to me , I would have gave a thing to do with my step dad if that’s what you are thinking please don’t go , I don’t think I will be able to handle if if you leave , please I am begging you “I begged Trevor who was putting on his clothes preparing to leave .I had never seen him this pissed and jealous , I never
After calling her for the 10th time I knew that it was time that I let it go , it was so obvious that she wasn’t going to pick up that call .In my entire life I had never felt so miserable like the way I was feeling at this moment , I just wanted to hear her voice and say something to her and she isn’t picking up , I know that I might get with her mom but I wouldn’t deny the fact that she has made a get big impact in my life and nothing is ever going to change that .I had spent the past few months with her and I must admit that it had been one of the best months of my life and I love seeing her here .She wasn’t here anymore and I could feel that void and that space In my heart , it was just as if there was a hole in my heart that couldn’t be filled no matter how much I tried to act cool about it, I was losing my senses over my wife daughter . I dropped my iPhone on the table angrily and grabbed my hair in frustration .I had never been this frustrated in my entire life , I
The rays of sunlight were the first thing that I saw and when I opened my eyes , I could see a figure standing there just right in front of me .I know that I moved out of my mom's house yesterday but what I couldn’t understand was who and how he got here . My eyes opened immediately and I saw the figure that was standing there. I knew that this wasn’t a fucking dream , it was him , he was standing right there and looking at me like I was some kind of movie .I could never understand this man , what the fuck was he doing here .For the record , I never wanted him to know where my house was .I knew what I did when I kept this away from him but the fact that he could still find it made it more challenging for me .“Shuan , wtf are you doing here ?” I scream at him at the top of my voice .I had never been so pissed at anyone the way I was so pissed at this man at this moment .I couldn’t imagine what might have happened between him and Trevor as I wasn’t here .I didn’t know
Trevor stupid there for a while without saying a word o the both of us .I had never been in a situation like this in my entire life , all that I wanted was for the ground to open and Swallow me .I had never been so speechless and the shock was something that I never expected .I knew that he left , but I never expected him to be this back this early .I couldn’t imagine what he had heard . what if he heard us talking about it? , I didn’t want to think that he heard about all the stufff that we had just said .The tears started pouring out of my eyes without control at that moment .I am pretty’s sure that he heard us talking about it and now I know that he would be planning on breaking up with me , I could never tell , I couldn’t imagine .These were the two important people in my life and i couldn’t belive the fact that I was just throwing them away .what the fuck is he doing here ? Shuan snapped at me angrily .I knew that he was pretending to be mad , he had no right
Dirty affairs 112Angel , Angel “ I screamed at the top of my voice as I banged at her door .I knew that she might not be in or maybe she might be with her boyfriend but I just can’t risk it. I really wanted somebody that I wanted to talk to , I didn't care who it was .The only person that came to my mind was her , my girl. I knew that no matter what it was , she would be the last person that would ever turn their back at me at this crucial moment of my life but I am not going to do it anymore , I think that I am done doing this .I kept banging and banging and banging and after hitting the door for more than 30 minutes it was then that I realized that she wasn’t even in .I had never felt so helpless my entire life .I knew that it was best that I sat here and waited for her after sending her a text .I couldn’t understand what had just happened today and I wouldn't deny the fact that I had just gotten the wurst day of my love . The person that I thought was my boyfri
Dirty affairs 111Mom , mom , mom “ don’t go , don’t walk away from me “ I yelled as I dragged myself away from shuan and tried to button up my top .My head was spinning in different directions and I was breathing so hard .I knew that I was definitely going to pass out from this if I continued .But what could I do ?I thought that I had promised myself that my mom would never find me in a state like this .How could I have been so careless to let this happen , I thought that I was done with shuan , how could I be so stupid and miserable and foolish to let him do this to me again .As I rushed out of the room in a haste all that I could see was Shaun sitting comfortably in the bed, not panicked .I knew that it was my right state then he would be having some kind of explanation to do but right now , the only thing that I can keep thinking of is the pissed woman who just walked out of the door and that woman was my mother . When I rushed out , I found out that mom had taken the
First glump , second glump and I was driving straight to shuan .In the midst of all this all that I wanted at this moment was to see my step dad , it was just as if he is the only one who wouldn’t judge me for what I wasNot even my mama called to ask me how my birthday went , I had never felt this way my entire life the way I am feeling right now .Maybe I am just being punished for all the stupid decisions that I had taken in my life , maybe next time I really do have to think before I make some stupid decisions .I drove straight into the compound and to my greatest surprise , Shaun was standing by the door and he was waiting for me .This was literally the last thing that I had ever expected him to do for me .I thought that he was going to be mad because of the way that I treated him the last time but instead he acted in the direct opposite of it and if I hadn’t chased him away , I wouldn’t be here right nis .The moment I came down , shuan walked towards me and getting to wh
I had the worst birthday ever .Yes you heard me right and I wasn’t bluffing when I said that I just had the worst birthday ever .I knew that I was the one who threw everyone around me away but I never said that they should avoid me for my special day .Maybe I had turned out to be that horrible bitch that literally no one wants to associate themselves with .Angel was the only one who literally called to check up and was here with me all throughout the night .I must say that she did her best even though we still had our fight .I know that I can’t blame her for that , after all I haven’t been the best girl towards her and I know that I have been living in her face all this while .Even though this hurt so much like hell , I don’t think that I will ever be ready to let anyone know that I have been screwing my step dad .I could never l , it’s the most disgraceful thing that I had ever thought of in my entire life and it's just like hell . For the first time ever in weeks , I f
Happy birthday my darling .” Angel's voice broke me out of my thoughts as she planted a soft kiss on my back .What do you suggest we do ? Trevor isn’t coming .My head snapped at the mention of his name and I turned to look at Angel who had made that statement .I felt sick to my stomach .I didn’t know what it was with her , I had told her severally , times without number that I do not want his name to be mentioned close to me but it’s just as if she can’t understand a word of what I am saying and she keeps on making that mistake over and over again it was like she was doing this on purpose .“ I told you that I didn’t want to hear his name no more why do you keep on mentioning his name? What do you aim to achieve by trying to get on my nerves .“ grab that damn phone , call him . Tell him that you are sorry “ she told me, obviously pissed .I turned to look at her , the anger and the hate burning inside my heart .“ No “ Angel's face turned to that of total horror when she
I just don’t get it , I don’t why he acts that way towards you, I don’t know when he is going to know that if you love someone , you have to stay with them and treat them right because you will never get a better version of it again .I smiled hearing her last statement , I know that she was just trying her best to make sure that I felt okay .I could tell that by just looking at her .I loved the way Angel would always make me feel welcomed regardless of what the situation might be .“ I will be fine baby , you don’t have to worry about me .Angel turned and gave me that look. I know that she was questioning everything that had got to do with me at this moment but I couldn’t help it , there is no way on earth that I would understand why this has to happen to me in the first place .“ It's been days since I last saw Trevor , I haven’t heard from him nor have I spoken to him .I have never been this mad at anyone my entire life the way I was so mad at him at this moment .The
Dirty affairs 106 The house has been so calm since my step dad left .I had so many thoughts that were going through my mind at the same time , I didn’t want to think that it was what I was thinking .I made sure that I cleaned my whole room and taking the last look at myself I knew that I was ready to go .I grabbed my keys from where they were and just as I was about going out , I bumped into Trevor .I know what he was doing here .I thought that he had gone away .I could see those looks and I could tell that they aren’t just looks , Thomas' judgemental looks were literally killing me .He stood there watching me and the only thing that kept going through my mind at this moment was when he got into the room because I know that he never did , not one that I was aware of .The both of us stood there in total silence not saying a word to the other even though we so much wanted to .I had never felt that intense feeling ever in my entire life , I could literally feel my hear
Trevor stupid there for a while without saying a word o the both of us .I had never been in a situation like this in my entire life , all that I wanted was for the ground to open and Swallow me .I had never been so speechless and the shock was something that I never expected .I knew that he left , but I never expected him to be this back this early .I couldn’t imagine what he had heard . what if he heard us talking about it? , I didn’t want to think that he heard about all the stufff that we had just said .The tears started pouring out of my eyes without control at that moment .I am pretty’s sure that he heard us talking about it and now I know that he would be planning on breaking up with me , I could never tell , I couldn’t imagine .These were the two important people in my life and i couldn’t belive the fact that I was just throwing them away .what the fuck is he doing here ? Shuan snapped at me angrily .I knew that he was pretending to be mad , he had no right
The rays of sunlight were the first thing that I saw and when I opened my eyes , I could see a figure standing there just right in front of me .I know that I moved out of my mom's house yesterday but what I couldn’t understand was who and how he got here . My eyes opened immediately and I saw the figure that was standing there. I knew that this wasn’t a fucking dream , it was him , he was standing right there and looking at me like I was some kind of movie .I could never understand this man , what the fuck was he doing here .For the record , I never wanted him to know where my house was .I knew what I did when I kept this away from him but the fact that he could still find it made it more challenging for me .“Shuan , wtf are you doing here ?” I scream at him at the top of my voice .I had never been so pissed at anyone the way I was so pissed at this man at this moment .I couldn’t imagine what might have happened between him and Trevor as I wasn’t here .I didn’t know