Shuan sat just by the fire trying to catch some heat .From the way he sat there , you could tell that he had stuffs bothering him at that moment and even though he was doing a better job at hiding it .Shuan opened the book in his hand and flipped through the page while trying to understand why he was so fucking worried .He knew that he was trying all his best to make sure that he put it all behind him but why did it have to be so .His wife walked in through the door that was at the back and walked up to him .“ Are you sure you want nothing ?” The woman asked him again .Shuan raised up his head from the book that he held on his Hands and stood up to his wife .“You know what , I am beginning to think about having your as a wife , I am beginning to think that you are not worthy to be called my wife , I still don’t get it , I still don’t get how you can still be this calm .Today is literally the last day of the year and you have no fucking idea about where your child i
I woke up the next morning with a big hangover on my head .I felt a big bang on my head as I tried to open my eyes .It was just as if I had been partying all night and the pain decided to come this morning and remind me of what I did .As I struggled to open my eyes , I felt those sharp pains and it instantly made me open my eyes and when I did , I saw someone sitting just by the bed . I opened my eyes to make sure that I wasn’t just seeing things , I wanted to know if he was actually there or if I was seeing someone else .“ Happy new year my love “ Trevor whispered to me .I raised my head to look at him and raised my body up from the bed .“ I don't want any greeting from you , you can keep your new year wishes to yourself and I don’t want anything to do with you anymore. The only thing that I want at this moment is to go home .I just want to go home , I don’t want to be here with you anymore and I know that you know it , you should just stop trying to make me forgive
Words couldn’t describe how I was feeling at this moment , deep inside of me I knew that I never wanted a thing to do with him anymore .I knew that I couldn’t stand his house and his emotionless heart .I knew that I couldn’t keep on being a fool , it had just been a few months and a whole lot of things had already happened, things that I never thought they could happen .I must admit that I have a soft spot for Trevor but I don’t know if I love him , I don’t understand why I had to feel this way .I know that being with someone takes so much sacrifice but never did I think that I would have to make this much sacrifice , I hated the fact that my life had to go this way .Why did it have to happen anyway , I couldn’t just place my hands on it .For one of the best things that I could think of , I knew that I was never going to be the same again not after everything that has been happening , but did I really want to work it out with him .“ you know that I could be here on my k
I sat in the bathtub as the water filled it I loved the fact that it was warm water , the water made me feel really relax , I just wanted to stop thinking about so much stuffs and just let myself feel so fucking free .I hated the fact that my heart was aching this hard thinking about all the stuff that I wanted to do .I know what I would tell my mom when I get home but they should know that I am no longer a baby and whether they like it or not , they would have no choice but to leave with me like that .The door to the bathroom opened and even without turning I knew , it was Trevor .He had just a shirt and had pulled off all of his clothes .I thought that he had given up when I told him no but the fact that he is here shows that he hasn’t given up and still wants to do it . “You know that I am so disappointed in myself for being here but I don’t think that I gave a fucking choice , I want you Rissa and I don’t think that I can still go a day without touching you or talkin
After having that long shower with him in the bathroom , he finally carried me back into the room .I felt so good being in his arms .I didn’t know if I wanted any of it to stop but for a moment I knew that he had to be the sweetest man that I had ever met in my entire life .I am not going to deny the fact that Trevor acts crazy most times but that doesn’t change the fact that I love him so much and the last thing that I would want is for him to stay away from me .I couldn’t even stand his absence .One thing I know is that he matters too much and I love that he does matter .I shouldn’t have done what I did with him , maybe I should give myself time to heal but I didn’t , I was just so hirny and I jumped on him like a bitch . Trevor walked out of the bathroom and smiled seeing me sit on the bed .I knew that he was satisfied with what he had done .I had never seen a man who acts this way , the fact that he doesn’t even care about Just cares about my body , but that is
Two weeks passed in a blink of an eye and here I was standing right in front of my step dad's house .All that I could feel right now was the fact that I am the prodigal daughter .My mom never called after the last messages she sent warning me and even a new year message I never got from her , that goes on to tell me how mad she was at me , but that didn’t change my mind but instead I stayed till I felt like I was okay and now I am back to beg again .Trevor was still standing by his car watching me .I knew that he just wanted me to go back to him so that he could take me back to his place but that is never going to happen .I know that I wouldn’t do something as crazy as that .I knew for a fact that my mom might be in this house and if she has seen me come and then I leave , that would be the worst decision that I had ever made in my entire life and I am not going to sit there and watch it happen .I will be fine , just leave , I don’t want my mom to be mad at me anymore , I p
I was finally back in my room and was ready to do the things that I never thought that I could do .I was going thruyfh my closet and arranging all my stuffs .That look from ny mom told me that I wasn’t welcomed here anymore .I didn’t need anyone to tell me that , I am no baby and I could tell if something was going wrong .I kept folding my clothes and trying to block every thoughts that was coming to my head but the fact remains that I was literally finding it so hard to stop thinking about him .The few days that I had spent with him had been one of the craziest days that I would ever say happened to me .I loved this guy and I was ready to do anything that would make a relationship With him work , but there was so much more that I knew that I really needed to cover .Trevor had shown me the craziest part of him if I am being correct and I still love and feel the same for him .It was just as if there was something about him that I am unable to place my hands on , beca
I shouted at my mom knowing that she did say a word to me and apologize for her weird and unusual behavior , but to my greatest surprise she didn’t say a word , but instead she just walked out of the room ignoring me .I felt my heart go into different pieces .For the first time I felt that inner hate , it was more fierce that I had ever felt for her before and everything felt so fucking diffrent . The thought that my mom was treating me this way was killing me already and now she has to act the way she liked .I was in so much pain and I knew it but the last mistake that I would do is show that pain out .I know that I haven’t been the best but I will be sure that I do whatever it takes to make sure that I do not ever come back to this place because obviously I know that she doesn't want me anymore .I hated my mom at this moment , I hated her with my whole life .I still find it so hard to believe that she choosed her own husband over me .I was her daughter .I w
Dirty affairs 112Angel , Angel “ I screamed at the top of my voice as I banged at her door .I knew that she might not be in or maybe she might be with her boyfriend but I just can’t risk it. I really wanted somebody that I wanted to talk to , I didn't care who it was .The only person that came to my mind was her , my girl. I knew that no matter what it was , she would be the last person that would ever turn their back at me at this crucial moment of my life but I am not going to do it anymore , I think that I am done doing this .I kept banging and banging and banging and after hitting the door for more than 30 minutes it was then that I realized that she wasn’t even in .I had never felt so helpless my entire life .I knew that it was best that I sat here and waited for her after sending her a text .I couldn’t understand what had just happened today and I wouldn't deny the fact that I had just gotten the wurst day of my love . The person that I thought was my boyfri
Dirty affairs 111Mom , mom , mom “ don’t go , don’t walk away from me “ I yelled as I dragged myself away from shuan and tried to button up my top .My head was spinning in different directions and I was breathing so hard .I knew that I was definitely going to pass out from this if I continued .But what could I do ?I thought that I had promised myself that my mom would never find me in a state like this .How could I have been so careless to let this happen , I thought that I was done with shuan , how could I be so stupid and miserable and foolish to let him do this to me again .As I rushed out of the room in a haste all that I could see was Shaun sitting comfortably in the bed, not panicked .I knew that it was my right state then he would be having some kind of explanation to do but right now , the only thing that I can keep thinking of is the pissed woman who just walked out of the door and that woman was my mother . When I rushed out , I found out that mom had taken the
First glump , second glump and I was driving straight to shuan .In the midst of all this all that I wanted at this moment was to see my step dad , it was just as if he is the only one who wouldn’t judge me for what I wasNot even my mama called to ask me how my birthday went , I had never felt this way my entire life the way I am feeling right now .Maybe I am just being punished for all the stupid decisions that I had taken in my life , maybe next time I really do have to think before I make some stupid decisions .I drove straight into the compound and to my greatest surprise , Shaun was standing by the door and he was waiting for me .This was literally the last thing that I had ever expected him to do for me .I thought that he was going to be mad because of the way that I treated him the last time but instead he acted in the direct opposite of it and if I hadn’t chased him away , I wouldn’t be here right nis .The moment I came down , shuan walked towards me and getting to wh
I had the worst birthday ever .Yes you heard me right and I wasn’t bluffing when I said that I just had the worst birthday ever .I knew that I was the one who threw everyone around me away but I never said that they should avoid me for my special day .Maybe I had turned out to be that horrible bitch that literally no one wants to associate themselves with .Angel was the only one who literally called to check up and was here with me all throughout the night .I must say that she did her best even though we still had our fight .I know that I can’t blame her for that , after all I haven’t been the best girl towards her and I know that I have been living in her face all this while .Even though this hurt so much like hell , I don’t think that I will ever be ready to let anyone know that I have been screwing my step dad .I could never l , it’s the most disgraceful thing that I had ever thought of in my entire life and it's just like hell . For the first time ever in weeks , I f
Happy birthday my darling .” Angel's voice broke me out of my thoughts as she planted a soft kiss on my back .What do you suggest we do ? Trevor isn’t coming .My head snapped at the mention of his name and I turned to look at Angel who had made that statement .I felt sick to my stomach .I didn’t know what it was with her , I had told her severally , times without number that I do not want his name to be mentioned close to me but it’s just as if she can’t understand a word of what I am saying and she keeps on making that mistake over and over again it was like she was doing this on purpose .“ I told you that I didn’t want to hear his name no more why do you keep on mentioning his name? What do you aim to achieve by trying to get on my nerves .“ grab that damn phone , call him . Tell him that you are sorry “ she told me, obviously pissed .I turned to look at her , the anger and the hate burning inside my heart .“ No “ Angel's face turned to that of total horror when she
I just don’t get it , I don’t why he acts that way towards you, I don’t know when he is going to know that if you love someone , you have to stay with them and treat them right because you will never get a better version of it again .I smiled hearing her last statement , I know that she was just trying her best to make sure that I felt okay .I could tell that by just looking at her .I loved the way Angel would always make me feel welcomed regardless of what the situation might be .“ I will be fine baby , you don’t have to worry about me .Angel turned and gave me that look. I know that she was questioning everything that had got to do with me at this moment but I couldn’t help it , there is no way on earth that I would understand why this has to happen to me in the first place .“ It's been days since I last saw Trevor , I haven’t heard from him nor have I spoken to him .I have never been this mad at anyone my entire life the way I was so mad at him at this moment .The
Dirty affairs 106 The house has been so calm since my step dad left .I had so many thoughts that were going through my mind at the same time , I didn’t want to think that it was what I was thinking .I made sure that I cleaned my whole room and taking the last look at myself I knew that I was ready to go .I grabbed my keys from where they were and just as I was about going out , I bumped into Trevor .I know what he was doing here .I thought that he had gone away .I could see those looks and I could tell that they aren’t just looks , Thomas' judgemental looks were literally killing me .He stood there watching me and the only thing that kept going through my mind at this moment was when he got into the room because I know that he never did , not one that I was aware of .The both of us stood there in total silence not saying a word to the other even though we so much wanted to .I had never felt that intense feeling ever in my entire life , I could literally feel my hear
Trevor stupid there for a while without saying a word o the both of us .I had never been in a situation like this in my entire life , all that I wanted was for the ground to open and Swallow me .I had never been so speechless and the shock was something that I never expected .I knew that he left , but I never expected him to be this back this early .I couldn’t imagine what he had heard . what if he heard us talking about it? , I didn’t want to think that he heard about all the stufff that we had just said .The tears started pouring out of my eyes without control at that moment .I am pretty’s sure that he heard us talking about it and now I know that he would be planning on breaking up with me , I could never tell , I couldn’t imagine .These were the two important people in my life and i couldn’t belive the fact that I was just throwing them away .what the fuck is he doing here ? Shuan snapped at me angrily .I knew that he was pretending to be mad , he had no right
The rays of sunlight were the first thing that I saw and when I opened my eyes , I could see a figure standing there just right in front of me .I know that I moved out of my mom's house yesterday but what I couldn’t understand was who and how he got here . My eyes opened immediately and I saw the figure that was standing there. I knew that this wasn’t a fucking dream , it was him , he was standing right there and looking at me like I was some kind of movie .I could never understand this man , what the fuck was he doing here .For the record , I never wanted him to know where my house was .I knew what I did when I kept this away from him but the fact that he could still find it made it more challenging for me .“Shuan , wtf are you doing here ?” I scream at him at the top of my voice .I had never been so pissed at anyone the way I was so pissed at this man at this moment .I couldn’t imagine what might have happened between him and Trevor as I wasn’t here .I didn’t know