Chapter 16

I don't deserve to be a mistress, I don't deserve to be a second option.

But my love to Sebastian is stronger than my pride and dignity, despite the fact that I know I will never have a chance for him to love me the way I do. He's already married for fucking sake, but what am I doing?

I became desperate bitch just to own him.

At wala na akong magagawa pa rito kundi ang sundin ang bugso ng damdamin ko. I waited for him almost half of my life, but still, he ended up marrying other girl.

Sinubukan ko naman, eh. Sinubukan kong makalimot.

I tried everything — most especially by accepting my fate. . . But I failed. Hindi ko kaya. Hindi ko kayang maging masaya para sa kanila habang nandito ako, nasasaktan at nagdurusa. Alam kong isa itong napakalaking kasalanan, ngunit wala na akong pakialam.

Like I always said, it is now or never.

Nandito ako ngayon sa may bar, umiinom ng beer habang ang mga mata ko ay nakamasid sa buong paligid. Mag-isa lang ako at wala rin akong balak magdala ng kasam