“Who are you?” he asked then immediately stopped the car.
“I’m the one who should be asking you. Who are you?” I asked back.
“Isn’t it obvious? I am the owner of this car!” iritadong sagot niya.
“What? Where’s Gin?!”
“Why are you asking me? I don’t even know that guy, neither you. Where’s Emma?” he asked again, losing his patience.
“Why are you also asking me? I don’t even know that girl, neither you!” I argue.
“THEN WHY THE FUCK DID YOU GET IN MY CAR?!”
“BECAUSE I THOUGHT THIS IS OUR CAR!”
“WHY THE HELL ARE YOU SHOUTING?!”
“BECAUSE YOU’RE ALSO SHOUTING!”
Pareho naming habol ang hininga nang matapos ang sagutan naming dalawa. This is the first time someone shouts at me, gano’n pala ang feeling ng masigawan, now I know how Gin felt whenever I shout at him. Halos mapaos pa ako sa sigawan namin.
Huminga ako nang malalim bago ulit tumingin sa kaniya. He’s wearing a maroon tuxedo at naka brush-up ang medyo mahaba nitong buhok. I noticed also his long and thick eyelashes na mas define ang curl sa side-view, matangos at pointed din ang ilong and has a pinkish lips. I’m not sure if he has black or brown eyes, madilim sa loob ng sasakyan. Maputi rin ang kulay niya… no, more like maputla. He also has three piercings in his right ear na mas bumagay sa style ng buhok nito. Wait, am I complimenting him? No way. He is just like an ordinary person, nothing more, and nothing less.
“Quit staring!” suway nito at nag-dial sa phone.
Hindi ko siya pinansin at tinitigan siya mula ulo hanggang paa, he’s from that ceremony so he probably knew Mr. Tan. I have no choice. Kinuha ko ang penknife na kanina pa nakatago sa cycling ko at itinutok sa leeg niya. Though hanggang pagbabanta lang ang kaya kong gawin.
“Give me your phone,” I commanded. No’ng una’y nag-aalangan pa siya pero dahan-dahan niya ring ibinigay sa akin ang telepono.
Nang makuha ko ito ay nakita ko ang pangalang ‘Emma’. She’s probably the woman he’s waiting for. pinindot ko ang end call at ni-type ang number ni Gin.
“Drive the car,” utos ko muli at bumuntong hininga pa siya bago i-switch and engine.
“Fine.”
Hindi ko na rin naramdaman pa ang presensya ng mga humahabol sa akin at tinted naman ang windshield nito kaya imposible nang mahanap pa nila ako rito.
“I didn’t expect someone who’ll threaten my life is a woman,” sambit niya habang sa daan nakatingin.
“Shut up!”
Nakadalawang tawag na ako pero hindi pa rin sinasagot ni Gin ang telepono. Makakatikim na talaga ‘tong p*ny*tang ‘to mamaya. Sinubukan ko ulit i-dial ang number, and finally sinagot niya na rin.
“Hell—”
“WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU?!” bungad ko agad nang sagutin niya ito. Kahit ang kasama ko ay napatingin na rin sa akin dahil sa sigaw ko.
“Lady Fev? Where are you?” tanong ng sa kabilang linya.
“The hell I know!”
“Who’s with you?” he asked again.
“That’s not important. Just fetch me up here at… where are we?” tanong ko sa lalaking kasama ko.
“Let’s stop at the gasoline station near the hotel,” he offered.
“Alright. Just fetch me at the gasoline station near the hotel,” utos ko sa kabilang linya.
“Copy.” Pagkasabi niya no’n ay pinutol niya na agad ang linya.
Among our butlers, Gin’s the only one who can do something like this, he can boss me around and sometimes control me. I’m the boss here but when it comes to mission, he has permission from my Father to manipulate me. It’s because marumi raw ako trumabaho kaya kailangang kasama ko lagi si Gin. See? Even my own Father doesn’t trust me. But at least I wasn’t feeling lonely sometimes because of Gin even though he’s annoying. He’s the only person closest to me.
“Can you put down your knife now?” I almost forgot, may kasama pa pala ako. Binaba ko na ang penknife at binalik sa kaniya ang telepono.
“Can I call my friend now?” tanong niya ulit at nagsimula nang mag-dial. Hindi ko pinansin ang tanong niya at tumingin lang sa labas.
“Can I speak to her now?” he asked again, teasing me.
“Can you please shut up?” nauubusan na ng pasensyang sigaw ko.
Tinaas niya ang dalawang kamay na kunwari’y sumusuko sa pulis at ngumisi nang sumagot na ang kabilang linya.
“I’m sorry, something came up... yeah, wait me there... yeah... I’m sorry,” kausap niya sa kabilang linya saka ibinaba na ang tawag. “What’s your name?” he asked me seconds later.
“You don’t need to know,” I answered coldly.
“You don’t look familiar, are you somewhat related to Mr. Tan?” he asked that caught my attention.
“How are you related to Mr. Tan?” I asked back without answering his question.
“I asked first, you answer first.” nakangising aniya.
“I was just invited by a friend, I’m not related to him.” I lied.
“I see.”
“Then how are you related to Mr. Tan?” I asked again.
“You seem interested, do you have business with him?” he playfully asked.
“That’s not fair! I already answer your question and now is my turn.”
He smirked and simply answer, “he’s my uncle.”
“Bakit ka nga pala napunta rito?” he asked again.
“I told you, I was invited by a friend.”
“Not that, I mean, you look like being chased by someone.”
“That’s none of your business,” I looked away.
Tumahimik siya pero maya-maya lang ay nagsalita ulit ito.
“Mr. Tan cancelled the ceremony,” he added that caught again my attention.
“What do you mean?” I cautiously asked.
“The engagement ceremony of his daughter got cancelled due to a particular reason,” he explained without looking at me.
“What particular reason?”
I heard the beep sound of another car. That’s definitely Gin’s. Lumabas siya mula rito at lumapit sa sasakyan namin.
“That’s probably the guy you’re waiting for.”
“Wait, tell me what’s the—”
“Vanna! Thank God you’re safe,” sambit ni Gin pagbukas ng pintuan ng passenger seat.
“So Vanna is your name?” tumatangong ani ng kasama ko sa sasakyan.
Vanna is my name for this mission. It’s strictly prohibited to mention my name at public places that’s why. Tinatawag niya lang ako sa pangalan ko sa bahay or ‘pag kaming dalawa lang ang nag-uusap.
Lumabas na ako ng sasakyan at sumandal sa pintuan ng driver’s seat ng sasakyan namin. Gin’s currently talking to the guy I’m with earlier. Nang makaalis na ang sasakyan nito ay lumapit sa akin si Gin.
“I’m sorry for—ACKKK!”
Hindi niya na natapos ang sasabihin nang bigla ko siyang tuhurin sa sikmura.
“Para ‘yan sa paulit-ulit mong pagbaba ng telepono sa akin,” iritadong saad ko.
“Lady Fev, para lang do— AAHHH!”
“Para naman ‘yan sa pagiging bossy mo na akala mo ikaw ang nagpapakain sa akin!” I added pagkatapos ko ulit siyang sikmurahan.
“Fine, I’m sorry, okay?” Nakataas nang kamay na pagsuko nito. Ngayon ko lang din napansin na may pasa pala sa gilid ng labi niya.
“Let’s talk inside,” I commanded at pumasok na sa sasakyan.
Pagpasok namin ay hindi niya muna in-on ang engine. Tiningnan ko ang pasa niya sa labi at napansin niya agad na nakatingin ako roon.
“I got this from that group of black suit men,” he explained even though I’m not asking.
“I didn’inside” I looked away.
This time, I feel guilty. He was also surrounded by that men in black and all I did was shout at him. I even hurt him twice without giving him a chance to explain.
Gin’s the only person who can handle my attitude. Being a sadist and impatient woman, I’m amaze that he can handle his patience for me. I guess, because we’re at the same age. He’s the youngest among our butlers, he’s twenty two. The reason why my Dad trusted him with me is because he’s the son of our late head butler which was my father’s most trusted butler. Nang mamatay ang mga magulang ni Gin ay si Dad na ang nag-alaga sa kaniya. While I was raised by my Grandmother who trained me as an assassin, but not as strict as Dad’s. And that explains why he trusts Gin more than me. Minsan nga iniisip ko na lang na ako ang ampon at si Gin ang tunay na anak eh. I can’t even kill a single person. Though sa usap-usapan ay merciless daw ang Lauriel family which is true, ako lang talaga ang hindi kayang kumitil ng buhay. But I want my Dad to acknowledge me also as her daughter so I’m still doing my best finding a solution to finish every missions given to me without ending someone’s life.
“I’m really sorry for not showing up earlier, someone’s gotten on my way and I need to take care of it. It was like a plan to separate us,” he explained again.
“How come they knew you?” I asked.
“Probably from tracking your location. Pwedeng inaabangan na nila tayo roon.”
“Then why the hell did they plan a ceremony if they will going to ambush us?”
“The ceremony was just a bait,” he answered.
Naalala ko ang sinabi ng lalaking kasama ko kanina. The ceremony was cancelled for a particular reason, so it was probably because of us. But how did they know?
“Your dad called at me, he assumed that you threw your phone away because he’s the one who told me that someone’s tracking you,” he explained.
“Also, he said that you’re no longer part of this mission,” he added that surprised me.
“What?” hindi makapaniwalang tanong ko.
“Ang daddy mo na mismo ang nagsabi na hindi ka na kailangan sa misyon na ‘to dahil sa itinaas ng ranggo nito,” paliwanag niya na nagpalaki ng mata ko.
“What do you mean?” seryosong tanong ko.
“This is no longer a C-rank mission. This is now an A-rank.” Nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa sinabi niya.
Kada misyon na binibigay sa amin ay may ranggo. A-rank ang pinakamataas na ranggo dahil dito inaasahang makakaharap ka ng parehong assassin o mafia. Puro karahasan ang nakapaloob dito dahil walang mananalo hangga’t walang namamatay. Sa ranggong ito siguradong may dadanak na dugo na hindi ko pa naranasan dahil wala akong kakayahan. Kaya naman nagulat ako nang sabihin ni Gin na iniba ang ranggo nito. Minsan lang ito mangyari at hindi ko hahayaang hanggang dito na lang ang misyon ko. This time, I smirked.
“What are you smiling at?” walang ideyang tanong niya.
“This is it, Gin!” I said with a wide smile.
“What?” he cluelessly asked. Seconds later, he realized what I was talking about.
“Don’t tell me you're…”
“Yes, that’s what I’m planning to do.”
It’s already 8 o'clock in the morning when I went to my Father’s office and talked about last night. Sa sobrang pagod ko kagabi ay nakatulog na ako sa sasakyan pauwi and when I woke up, I’m at my room already. Hindi maipinta ang mukha ko nang lumabas sa office ni dad. Paano ba naman kasi, he declined my proposal! ***** “What brings you here early in the morning?” He coldly asked as I enter his office. He’s currently drinking his coffee. “I have a proposal. I just gathered an important information regarding the incident last night and I won’t tell it to you unless you give me permission to be part of this mission,” I confidently offered that made him stop from drinking. “You don’t know how to give up, right? How many times do I have to tell you, an A-rank includes killing, can you do that?” he asked, challenging me. “But we can came up with a plan that won’t make us kill,” I insist.
Nang makaalis kami sa office ay sa basement agad ang diretso namin kung saan isasagawa ang plano. Pero hanggang sa makarating doon ay hindi tumigil sa pagrereklamo si Fion. “Seriously? A collaboration? Tanggap ko pa kung kaming dalawa lang ni Fellin, but considering Fevi? You’re just going to be a nuisance.” Ako na naman ang napansin ng gaga. “You can quit if you don’t want to work with me,” pabalang kong sagot sa kaniya. “So, ako pa ang mag-aadjust?” Tinuro niya ang sarili. “Yes. Ikaw lang naman ang maraming arte,” sagot ko saka umirap. “Stop, you two. Instead of arguing for nonsense things, let’s just make a plan to finish this as soon as possible,” walang emosyong suway ni Fellin na nagpatahimik sa aming dalawa ni Fionna. Even if she’s the youngest, she has this intimidating aura just like our Dad. Mas gugustuhin ko pang makipagtalo kay Fion bu
“Hey, what are you still doing there?” I stiffened as I watch the guy easily knocked the men down who surrounds us. I cant believe it. We’re surrounded by a total of ten persons and he easily handled it all by himself! Even the gun I’m holding is now back in his palm. Not to mention he did it quietly. Nakapamulsa na siya ngayong nakatayo sa harapan ko. Hinihintay ang susunod kong sasabihin. “You’re not with them?” I asked that made his eyes widened as if he didn’t expect he’ll be suspected as their ally. “What? You assumed I’m their ally? These weaklings?” He pointed the guys that are now lying on the floor. “Yeah?” I answered awkwardly. Napaatras ako nang bigla niya na namang itutok ang baril sa akin, kinapa ko ang sarili at na-realized na nabawi niya nga pala ang baril mula sa akin kanina. “Baba!” sigaw niya. &nbs
She suffers a lot. Fellin suffered a lot. Imagine, at the age of six, they forced her to remove her emotions. She was locked in the room with no light, just darkness. I know how lonely it was, hindi ko man na-experienced but the thought na mag-isa ka sa dilim, I don’t think I can survive if I am on her place. Their mom was really strict, you need to always obey the rules or else you’ll be punished. That’s what Gin told me. Compared to me and Fionna, Fellin is already matured. Yeah, mas matured pa siya kung mag-isip kaysa sa amin. Maybe from her experience. Kung bakit siya lang ang nakaranas ng ganoon ay dahil sa nagawa niya noong three years old pa lang siya. It happened when they’re eating and Fellin suddenly stabbed her yaya with a fork. They were all shocked and when they saw Fellin’s reaction, that’s when they decided. Hindi ko alam kung anong iniisip ni tita Dionne noong mga panahong iyon. Sarili niyang anak i
Tahimik lang kami ni gran habang nasa loob ng sasakyan. Kanina pa siya walang imik at mukhang wala atang balak na magsalita. Hinintay ko munang tumigil siya sa pag-iyak bago siya tanungin.“Gran, ano ba talagang nangyayari?” nag-aalalang tanong ko.“Wala ito, hija, I’m okay," sagot lang nito habang nakatingin sa bintana ng sasakyan.“Oh come on, don’t be unfair, gran. Nag-promise tayo dati na walang taguan ng sekreto, ‘di ba?” saad ko, pinapaalala sa kaniya ang pinangako namin sa isa’t isa noong bata pa ako. Tinuruan niya akong maging totoo at dapat ay hindi nagtatago ng sekreto. Pero ano ‘tong ginagawa niya? Bakit iwas na iwas siyang pag-usapan ang tungkol dito? Mas lalo lang lumalawak ang curiosity ko dahil sa pinapakita niya.“Do understand also that some things should not be spoken. So please, Fevianna. I’m begging you.&rdquo
“You know him, do you?” tanong ni Fellin at lahat sila ay nakatingin na sa akin.Tumango lang ako habang hawak pa rin ang papel. Malamang ay namukhaan siya ni Gin dahil siya ang kumausap dito noong gabing aksidente akong napunta sa sasakyan niya. Bigla namang inagaw ni Fionna ang papel.“You know him? OMG, who’s this guy?” tanong niya habang palipat-lipat ang tingin sa aming tatlo.“His name is Ryven Verlian, he’s the guy from Fevi’s previous mission. Remember? The infiltration,” paliwanag ni Fellin at napa- Oh naman si Fion.May pinag-uusapan pa sila tungkol sa kaniya pero hindi na ako nakinig dahil hindi naman ako interesado. Kinuha ko ulit ang litrato ni Matthew Verlian. Familiar siya sa akin. Hindi ko alam kung saan ko siya nakita, o baka kamukha niya lang? Kinuha ko na lang ang papel at itinago sa bulsa. Aalis na sana ako roon nang pigilan ak
Dalawang araw na ang nakalilipas simula nang masaksihan kong umiyak si Fion pero hanggang ngayon ay palaisipan pa rin para sa akin kung bakit siya umiyak no’ng araw na ‘yon. Ilang beses ko pa siyang tinanong pero ayaw niya talagang sabihin sa akin ang dahilan. Sumpa ba ‘to? No’ng kami ni gran ang pumunta sa mall, umiyak siya at nag-ayang umuwi agad, tapos sumunod si Fion? Ano ba talagang nangyayari sa pamilyang ‘to? Bakit bigla na lang silang nagiging iyakin? Tsk. Ngayon ay tuloy ang trabaho namin ni Fion. Pero hindi tulad no’ng una, wala na siyang gana ngayon. Gusto ko siyang kausapin pero lagi niya akong sinusungitan kapag kinakausap ko siya. Well, hindi na bago pero iba kasi ngayon, seryoso talaga siya at kapag inaasar ko naman ay tumatahimik lang siya which is hindi niya gawain. Competitive ‘yan eh. Bahala nga siya diyan! Hindi lang siya ang may problema, bakit pa nga ba ako nag-aalala? Bumuntong hininga ako habang nasa loob ng sasakyan.
Nagising ako na sobrang sakit ang ulo. Sh*t! Anong nangyari? Bakit ang sakit ng ulo ko? Inilibot ko ang tingin sa buong kwarto at nagulat nang ma-realized na nandito ako sa kwarto ko. Paano ako nakarating dito? Wala akong maalala kung anong nangyari kagabi! Maya-maya lang ay nakarinig ako ng katok.“Lady Fev, are you awake?” I heard Gin's voice.Bago pa ako makasagot ay pumasok na siya agad na may dalang baso ng tubig. Nang makita niya ang kalagayan ko ay agad siyang lumapit at inabutan ako ng gamot. Kukunin ko na sana ‘yon nang bigla niya itong ilayo sa akin.“What are you doing?” iritadong tanong ko sa kaniya.“Tell me first why did you drink last night,” nakataas ang isang kilay niyang tanong. Seriously? Sino siya sa tingin niya para utusan ako? I'm the boss here.“Why are you asking me? I don’t even remember what hap
“Ahhh!”Hawak-hawak ko ang balakang ko nang pwersahan akong mapaupo sa sahig. Pang-ilang araw na naming training dito pero parang wala pa ring nagbabago sa akin. Gano’n pa rin ako... Mahina.“Tayo!” sigaw ni Selena.Agad ko ring inayos ang sarili ko at muli siyang hinarap. Ngayon ay matalim siyang nakatitig sa mga mata ko na tila ba may hinahanap ito roon.“Show me your wrath!”Mariin ko siyang tiningnan at naghanda na sa susunod na pag atake pero nalalabanan niya iyon lahat.“Kulang pa iyan!” muling sigaw niya at tila ba mas galit pa siya sa akin ngayon.Muli akong sumubok pero wala talaga, sadyang mas malakas siya sa akin at wala na akong magagawa roon!Huminto muna ako at ipinatong ang mga kamay sa tuhod ko habang hinihingal. She's just watching me at tila ba disappointed ito sa mga nagiging kilos ko.“Is that all you’ve got, Fevianna?” she asked, irritated.“Pagod na ak—”“Do I gav
I have a bad feeling about this. Bakit ganito ang nararamdaman ko? Hindi na dapat talaga ako sumama, e!And to that woman, Selena! Bakit kung makatingin siya sa akin ay iba? Para bang handa ako nitong sakmalin anumang oras o kaya naman may binabalak siyang hindi maganda sa akin.I should be careful.Nagpapahinga na kami ngayon sa kaniya-kaniya naming kwarto. Thank God I’m alone now. Ang tanging sinabi lang sakin ni Matthew ay mas mapapalakas ako rito. And I think the person he was talking about na makakatulong sa akin ay si Selena. But what's with her presence?She’s a filipino residing here in England kaya nakakaintindi pa rin siya ng tagalog although mas na-aadapt niya na ang slang dito. And I need to get ready dahil magsisimula na bukas ang training namin. Malakas ang pakiramdam kong iba kung magtrain si Selena, sa presensya niya pa lang ay natitinag na ako, paano pa kaya kung nasa mismong training na kami?Gawa na rin ng sobrang pagod
“Are you all set?”Nalipat ang tingin ko sa repleksyon ni Gin sa salamin nang bigla na lang itong pumasok ng kwarto habang inaayusan ko ang sarili ko.I put on my lipstick before I stood up and turn to look at him.“Let's go,” I answered, blankly.Ngayon na ang alis namin at nagdesisyon akong baguhin ang lahat-lahat sa akin.I wore a skin-toned backless crop top and black high waist jeans. Naka-pony tail din ako kaya naman lantad na lantad ang balat ko sa likod.Hindi rin makatingin ng diretso sa akin si Gin na tila ba naiilang ito pero wala na akong pakialam. Inayos ko na lang ang mga gamit ko bago ito binigay sa kaniya. Pero bago pa ako lumabas ng kwarto ay pinagmasdan ko muna ang sarili sa salamin.I smirk as I saw my reflection on the mirror. Who would've thought that I actually became the bitch I didn't what to be?I put on my stilettos and compose myself. Bumagay ang suot ko sa pulang-pulang mga labi ko. A
I swear to myself that this will be my last tears. Sawang-sawa na akong makaramdam ng sakit. Sa sunod-sunod na sakit na nalalaman ko ay unti-unti ako nitong minamanhid. And this is what I want...To be numb.Magdamag ko na atang naibuhos lahat ng luha ko dahil kinabukasan ay tila wala na akong maramdaman na kahit ano. Blangko na ang lahat-lahat sa akin. I can't trust anyone anymore, even myself.Or rather... I don't know myself... anymore.Umiling ako saka dumiretso na lang ng banyo para maligo. After doing my morning ritual ay lumabas na rin ako ng kwarto at naabutan pa si Gin na mukhang papunta ng kwarto ko.He stopped for a while when he saw me but later on continue to saunter towards me.“I have something to tell you,” he said.Hindi ako sumagot. Nanatili lang akong nakatayo sa harapan niya habang hinihintay ang susunod nitong sasabihin.“We’re going in England,” he added that immediately fixed my
Wala akong ibang ginawa kundi ang umiyak lang nang umiyak. Luckily, I was alone since Gin gave me time for myself. Hinayaan ko lang ang sarili kong maging mahina at mugtong-mugto na ang mga mata.I can’t even remember if I ate dinner. I just let myself be tired of crying until I fell asleep.Nagising na lang ako dahil sa sunod-sunod na katok sa pintuan.“Are you awake? I brought you food,” rinig ko ang mahinahong boses ni Gin mula sa labas.I was just staring at the ceiling for a few minutes until I heaved a deep sigh.“Come in,” I utter.Maya-maya lang din ay pumasok siyang may dalang tray ng pagkain. He first look at me as if observing me and my next move. “Kumusta ka?” With that question, I froze. Hindi ko alam na sa simpleng tanong lamang na ‘yon ay mahihirapan akong sagutin. I didn’t mean to make its meaning doubled but I just can’t distinguish what kind of question he wanna ask.Kumusta ako physically? Emotionally? Mentally? No. I am not okay, but this will gonna be okay... s
Tears are still streaming down my face when I hurriedly hopped inside of Gin’s car. “Lady Fev—”“Let’s go.”He didn’t question anymore when he saw my reaction. Muli niyang pinaandar ang sasakyan at mas malumanay na lang ngayon ang patakbo niya.Later on, he grope something in front and gave me the tissue. I hesitated first from accepting it but this is not the time to higher my pride. Kinuha ko ‘yon at naging tahimik na kami sa buong biyahe habang hinahayaan niya akong ilabas lahat ng luha ko. I am even sobbing but he’s just acting like he can’t hear me so that I can have a privacy.I feel like crying is not enough to ease my madness. I felt like I am enduring the problem of a whole nation. Sobrang bigat sa pakiramdam!I don’t know where he’s taking me but it was like we’re going up a mountain. Hinayaan ko na lang siya dahil sa ngayon ay wala pa akong ganang makipag-usap.Until later on, we stopped at the edge
I slowly open my eyes when I heard the door open. Where am I? This is not my room and this is also not familiar to me.My vision is still blurry since I just woke up but when the person went near me, I slowly distinguish who it is.“Lady Fev...”His concerned eyes darted at me. Soon after, he touched my forehead with the back of his palm. “I brought soup and medicine. You should eat first,” he offered.This scene is familiar.I tried to rose up but I felt my head hurts. Inalalayan niya ako sa pag-upo hanggang sa mapasandal ako sa headboard.Later on, he just volunteered to give me a hand for me to eat. Hindi na ako tumanggi pa dahil sa nararamdamang gutom at hilo.Hinipan niya muna ito bago isinubo sa akin at habang kumakain ay wala akong ibang maisip kundi ang nangyari kahapon. Unti-unting bumabalik ang lahat ng sinabi ni Matthew na hindi ko alam kung dapat ko bang paniwalaan.“Your medicine
Hindi ko alam kung saan ako pupunta. I just want to disappear from this world.I don’t even care even though I’m walking at the middle of the road, hearing the different kinds of horns. Why can’t they just kill me so this will end already?“Hoy! Magpapakamatay ka ba?!”I heard someone shout at me but I didn’t turn to look whoever it is. Nagpatuloy lang ako sa paglalakad hanggang sa matunton ko ang puro punong lugar. I went under the tree and let myself rest there. Napakatahimik... Napakapeaceful. I sat on the ground and leaned against the tree. Pinapakinggan ko lang ang tunog ng pagsayaw ng mga dahon kapag nahahanginan ito. I’m aftaid at the darkness but it’s a surprise that I found it calming now.When I open my eyes, There was no moon either stars. Until I suddenly feel a small liquid streaming down my face. I thought it’s my tears but I couldn’t cry anymore added that it’s cold. Later on, they simultaneously fall a
I waited. I waited for it to hit me but damn this car! It stopped!Patuloy pa rin sa pagtulo ang luha ko nang tumayo at pinaghahampas ang harap ng sasakyan.“Just fucking kill me!” I continue to hit it even though I’m already hurting my own hands. “Kill me now!”“Fev!”“Kill me!”“Fevianna!”I was stopped when I heard that familiar voice. It was dark already but when he got near me, that was the time I almost lost my energy. But he managed to hold me still and that’s when I didn’t waste a time and wrapped my arms around him.“Ryven!” I sobbed just by smelling his scent again. I missed him so much. I missed this man.“Fev, sorry... I-I’m really really sorry from what I did,” he said as he tightened our hugs and kissed the side of my head.I wasn't able to answer since I just want to feel his warmth. I feel like home inside of his embrace. Ngayong halos maubos na ang lakas ko ay unti-