Semua Bab The Groomless Bride: Bab 21 - Bab 30

CASSI felt so dizzy and weak in my knees that I felt the need to grab on something not to lose balance. Pakiramdam ko, hihimatayin ako. Gusto kong buhusan ang sarili ko ng malamig na tubig to either feel numb or to wake up from this nightmare.I should do something… or go somewhere. But no. I just stood there. I was so dumbfounded and numb. Napatingin ako kay Liam na natutulog na. I waited for him to fall asleep dahil ayaw kong makita niya akong ganito. Para kahit magalit ako, hindi niya ako maririnig. Hindi niya mararamdaman itong sama ng loob. I thought I’d lose my shit but I’m not even brave enough to do that. Andito lang ako, sitting on a table on the corner of our room. Silently tortured by my own emotions.This is no use. I walked outside of the room and when I did, I felt my own weakness again. I leaned my back on the wall and let myself feel it all. Iyong kahinaan, kalungkutan, pati na rin siguro galit. I felt so fragile and I couldn’t do anything but cry.I cried until I g

These past few days, talagang di ko maintindihan ang sarili ko. Maybe because I'm too paranoid knowing that Jake's plane is arriving later. Knowing that he’d come is better but on the other hand, knowing when I’d see him is also torture.Parang may nagka-countdown sa utak ko na binibilang pati ang huling segundo kung kailan siya darating.The more I plead for time to be slower, the faster the dreaded moment comes. I didn't expect it to be this soon. Sa totoo nga lang, I was hoping I would never have to deal with this.Ivan held my hand while his other hand was driving. Kakahatid lang namin sa mga bata at ngayon, we're on our way to the airport. Jake and I decided that we should talk in person to settle things out. Ayaw ko namang bigla-bigla na lang siyang magpakilala sa anak ko.This needs to be rehearsed. Kailangan alam ko kung saan at kailan. Pati ang mga salitang lalabas sa bibig niya, alam ko. OA na kung OA, I don't care. I’m putting my son on top of my priority and I need to know

Hindi ko pa siya napapatawad. It isn’t that easy pero hindi ko din hiniling na kagalitan siya ng anak ko. It’s what happened but it really wasn’t my intention. Why would I? It would equally wishing ill for my son.“Coffee.” I said, offering him the cup of coffee. Nasa kwarto na si Jeremy. Pagkatapos nilang magkita kanina ay mas pinili ni Jeremy na manatili sa kwarto. Hindi ko na muna siya sinundan and gave him space. I’ll talk to him later.Jake's reaction when Jeremy said those words was unexplainable. Yung para bang wala kang nakikita sa ekspresyon sa mukha niya, medyo nakaawang ang bibig at maluha-luha ang mata. His eyes mirrored all the things he was feeling inside. Hurt. Sadness. Regret.“Salamat,” he said. He took a sip of the coffee before he gave off a humorless laugh. “I knew it would hurt pero… ang sakit pala.”“I…” I paused, I have no idea what to do or what to say. He smiled bitterly habang hawak pa rin ang tasa. “I didn’t expect that nor did I hope that would happen. Magi

"Aba naks ang ngiti, ang lawak ng ngiti."Napahawak ako sa dibdib ko nang makita ko si Ellie sa opisina, sitting like a boss in my swivel chair. "Oh, ba't andito ka, Ellie? Office hours ngayon. You should be in your office now." Naku, tong babaeng to talaga. Naging hobby na ata ang pausukin ang ilong ni Troy."May good news ako." She smiled from an ear to ear, yung halos mapunit na ang labi dahil sa laki ng ngiti."What's the good news lady?""Magre-resign na ako!" She was smiling this wide smile but there was something wrong in her eyes. Hindi ko alam kung totoo bang masaya siya o kung bakit may bakas ng lungkot sa mga mata niya. She was determined to be cheerful and I don't want to ruin the moment. Kung may sasabihin man siya, I know she would tell me."Me too.""Anong me too?" She asked as she raised an eyebrow."I'm trying out something new."Tahimik lang kami sa buong biyahe. Unlike this morning na di kami nauubusan ng topics.I tried to look at the view from the window as the ca

It was almost a new feeling of relief when I woke up in the morning. Walang pinagbago but I felt so much better. A lot better than yesterday.I remember the feeling of being sick almost to the point of feeling numb and my head was spinning I felt so dizzy. Ni hindi ko na nga maalala kung nakapagpaalam ba ako sa anak ko. My memory was still a bit blurry.I fixed myself in front of the mirror. Ang gulo-gulo ng buhok ko at pati ang mukha kong kahit naka-recover na sa lagnat ay nangangailangan pa rin ng ayos.I freshened up before heading to Jeremy's room, almost a habit. Naalala ko na lang na wala pala siya dito."Good morning po, Ma'am!""Good morning, Rina. Wala pa si Jeremy?"Mukh